Tuesday, September 27, 2005
holidays =D
well. i could have done a lot worse. but i'm sad that i still didn't get the results i wanted even though i studied and practiced for the papers. ah wellz. disappointed with eng, chem and a maths. sad. i expected a hell lot more from myself. i don't even know if it was my best. perhaps not. but i know i studied a hell lot for chem. sad. my MCQ pulled me down. CRAPPERS! i mean of all things. BAH! as for a maths . i had a hell loads of careless mistakes. i mean 2x. x=4 therefore 2x = 4. **BISH!** crap la. felt so crap.
sad. my L1r5 score is out. not what i wanted. but at least i improved by like wad 9 points from mid years??? GReAT improvement =) pity those that deproved were compulsory subjects **cough ENGLISH** shit. i really want them to moderate aloT!!!!!!!! aiya. wadeva. i mean. i studied hard and all. and i havent failed anything...so far =) maybe i'll fail bio and lit. considering that i didn"T study. besides. i ddin't have enuff time. so study dun study will get bad results. plus. i never intended it to be counted for my prelims L1r5.
anyway. there's all sorts of laws coming up on blogging. i think it's dumb. i mean. isn';t a blog a place for us to rant. for us to express our feelings???? it's an outlet for us. if it weren't for blogs. where the hell are we supposed to like vent our anger on???? we're all gonna grow mad. not to forget the loads of stress from studies and work that singaporeans get every single day?? if you're gonna make every negative thing sue-able. then wad's the use of blogs? people dun exactly have happy days all the time. we're not in lalaland or some fairy wonderland. though i wish it does exist. say good bye to Os!!!! ah wellz.
hell about such rantings. for all i know i might get sued for something like being anti government. HUH! like i know anything about politics. NAH. i only know our prime minister and president. who cares about the rest. you definitely won't see me in parliament. (now. if u see me on the news. you wouild know the reason why i;m there - i just got sued for being a lousy resident) and now i get sued from making fun of them. as amy teo's ex-msn nick says. SO SUE ME! ah well =D
it's very sweet how people are starting to write those nice confessions, thank you notes etc to their friends aka me. it's sweet. i wanna tell them too. but i reckon i'll express myself better in words on paper. so ever wondered why i'm rather unexpressive to your love???? cos i dunno how to respond. i'll explain some stuff. in letters to peeps in church, to my classmates, to teachers. etc. i seriously dun wanna leave ij. ah wellz. we gotta move on someday right???
Sunday, September 25, 2005
wadeva

your a stay at home mother!(or father)u love kids and everything about kids! u care about
other and not just about urself. good job
~.~Wuts ur dream job?~.~ (~with great anime pics)!!!!
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WAhAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAA. this is so inaccurate. a stay home mother?!?!!?!? stay home? maybe. mother??? hahahaha. both???? WAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHA. lousy but hilarious quiz =D
Saturday, September 24, 2005
Wearing no ringsWearing no rings at all suggests that you want to live a simple, no-frills life. You are sincere, trustworthy, peaceful, clever, hard-working and always want to learn new things. You tend to shy away from crowds and avoid conflict whenever you can.
hmm. quite true. considering that i'll prob put my rings on chains and make it a necklace. haha. i hate stuff in between my fingers. so weird. makes my hand so heavy summore. heh.
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Baggy Jeans
Wearing baggy or oversized jeans is a sign of people who are somewhat insecure, lack self confidence, and feel inferior to others. Others wear them to conceal their temperament or for simple reasons such as hiding their less than perfect figure.
well...true to the first part. but the second part???? haha. i think baggy jeans make me look fatter.
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The Pattern of Your Tableware
White - Simplicity is your signature style. You like to stick to your daily routine and don't mind at all that there's not much excitement in your life. You are sensible and well in control of your emotions.
yea!!!!
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Your Favorite Zoo Animal
Tiger and Lion - If these two are your favorite, it indicates that you are brave. You are a leader and enjoy solving problems--both yours and others. You like to be away from chaotic places.
actually...i only chose the tiger and lion cos there wasn't horse =( besides. i'm not a leader. but i like solving problems. not those which crop up kind of problems, but more of IQ puzzles =D but i got low IQ.
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Your Pet's Name
Named after their characterChoosing a name such as Blackie, Spot or White means that you are fixed by society's rules and traditions. You weigh out consequences carefully before taking any action. You are reasonable and think thoroughly before making a decision.
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yawn. i'm sick of doing aep. sigh. 4 more pages though. =(
Friday, September 23, 2005
for post-exam activities, we had talks from JCs etc, career guidance stuff and retreat.
the retreat didn't exactly help me to let go some of the things i have within me. but one thing i realised was how tight i'm clinging on to my time in IJ. to my brudders, my friends. i didn't break until deb came to hug me. and i cried too. it's sad. i don't wannt leave them. we were like hugging each other, sobbing away, refusing to let go of one another. i must admit. i never hugged anyone so tightly before. i mean. can u imagine?? all these while in my secondary life, they have been my pillars of support, giving me a sense of belonging. and yet, soon..it will all be gone. sad. i wana tell them how much i love them. tell them how much i appreciate them. i promise myself i will write a letter to every special person i know to let them know how great they have been. how much impact they have made in my life. especially my brudders. NJRC has really brought us close together.
i remember when we were in sec 2. we all joined ARC. at that time, despite the fact that we were from the same class, only clarissa and i were close friends. in fact. i don't think i ever talked to su hui or debby my entire sec 1 life. sad. i met novita during SYF/NDP. she was in front of me. as for denise?? i never met her till ARC. same for tiffany. as for anne marie. yvonne and i used to try to break her out of her bookwormness, trying to get her to laugh, smile more and even relax. well. we sort of succeeded. considering the fact that anne marie is a more cheerful person and you don't see her carrying a story book around during recess. instead. she EATS and TALKS CRAP with us. or rather..we talk crap and she laughs and blushes. the formation of Oasis has truly brought us to a higher height of friendship, considering that we won together, stressed out together, went high together and painted me together. how many people will get a chance to experience such highs and lows?? so much emotions. i don't know how to express. all i wanna do now, is to hug them as tightly as possible to tell them how much i love them.
thanks for being such great people. there will never be a farewell among us right??? i know i had refused to say farewell to all my friends during the retreat. i believe we will still remain as friends. just as khai and i have.
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i know it's time to move on with life. yet. it is all so hard. trying to decide where to go next is difficult. but then again. just being able to qualify for JC is already a tough task. i mean..the cut off point for sciences are like 9 and below kind. IT'S SO ANnoYING! i can't even get a single digit. let alone a L1R5 that starts with the number 1.
i love ij. i finally understand why God placed me in IJ instead of st nicks. instead of xin min, instead of any other school even though my PSlE score was below the cut off point. i remember how i chose IJ because they offerred aep. how that one choice, brought me to a school, in which i'd never regret going to. how the memories of everything would stay within me. within my heart. from sec 1 teachers, to peer support, to cca, to everything. all those things that each one did for me was just AMAZING. up to this date. i still remember clearly. if i ever have a daughter, i'll send her to IJ. i mean. how many school's are able to instill such school spirit within their students???? try as they might, the ij spirit is the strongest =D
the ij spirit's living on...
it's stretching far and far beyond.
it's never gonna die.
it's gonna live
in each of us.
and we will keep it burning burning strong
the flame of zest lies in us all along
always inspiring us
to go on....
indeed. the song lives it up =D
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
more tests
The Real You
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THE REAL YOU
Here is the analysis:
You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.
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What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
by the way, i am not in love wadsoever. just stumbled on these tests and did them for fun. haha
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What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Bright and CheerfulYou are always cheerful and charming. You never get too serious with people when they're around, but when you are alone, you think carefully about what they have said. That's because you don't want anyone to see you being too somber. Your personality means you have a lot of friends and you are often the center of attention. Many people who fall into this category become artists and movie stars, perhaps fame could be yours in the future as well.
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What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 40%You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.
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Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 60%
You are a jealous person but you try not to let it showYou often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.
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The Hang Glider
Here is the analysis:You love fair relationship with your boyfriends. You like a simple wedding. It can merely be cohabitation without wedding, or you live separately with your husband. Despite all these, you will still have a good time together until you become a grandmother or a grandfather. Then, you are still good friends who always living the rest of your life together
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and that shall be all for the day =D
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
personality
Get to know yourself better (taken from: http://quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx )
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
you are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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here's another one:
Sagittarius Nov 22 -- Dec 20
This Sun sign is probably the most delightful and charming companion that you will find. Sagittarius is not only out to enjoy life, but is imaginative and fun loving. One of their best traits is a good sense of humor. Always filled with new ideas and enthusiastic about each of them, this sign of the archer is ambitious, generous, and most of all freedom-loving.Drawn to the excitement, passion, and the adventure of romance, this free spirit might find domesticity to be boring. The Sagittarian considers love a challenge, as well as an adventure.Planning a date with a Sagittarius is easy. You don't have to go out of your way to impress them. They will enjoy almost anything, anywhere. While on a date with a Sagittarian you shouldn't have any trouble striking up a conversation as they have a variety of interests. The Sagittarian is intellectually stimulating and fascinating to talk with.Although you may soon discover that they can be direct and straight forward. On the most part, they say what they feel, regardless of how it may sound. No harm intended though, they wouldn't hurt anyone on purpose.Their main objective in a relationship, is loyalty to their partner. However, if you're looking for a homebody, or you're the jealous type, then you might want to look else where.They will not tolerate being trapped into a relationship that will infringe upon their freedom of adventure. Once they find a compatible partner, the deep passions that are hidden beneath the surface will be unlocked.
sigh
i know i'm supposed to be studying a maths and aep. but haiya. hell. i ended up filing my worksheets again. at least everything's organised. i think i shud really stop watching designer guys at 11.30. it's nice to watch it. inspires you to give a makeover to your house as well. but you see. everytime while i try to tidy up the room it ends up messier than before. i don't know. perhaps everything will be cleaner when i get rid of all my clutter. my maid calls my room a storeroom. heh.
anyway..i started moving stuff from here to there and i almost ended up re-doing my entire room. luckily i had enuff self control. PHEW. i was pretty bored and there's no one's blog left to read. so i just clicked next blog on every blogger's blog. it's really interesting. like the first blog i got to was some christian's but it was all in another language. i only recognised some words like jezus, comforting, wad etc. others. were just plain interesting. i dunno. you have streetart pictures to website screen shots to weird ads. haha. shall continue blog surfing =D
Monday, September 19, 2005
xian
the prelims have dragged for so long and every paper i had seem to have been screwed up such that i have lost all motivation to work hard. hell. i dun mind the idea of poly anyway =) perhaps if everyone thinks the same way, only smart asses like anne marie and clarissa will get into JCs. haha. imagine. on the first day of school, almost the entire 16 year olds on singapore will be slacking away at home cos they din qualify for JC. wicked. it'll be quite funny to see the shocked faces of the principal when he first goes to assembly to greet and welcome the students. WAHAHA.
i'm pretty much slacking already, though i know i shouldn't be. but my body seems to want to do nothing but sleep. i mean, even sitting at the comp is a horrible thing to do. however, something has satisfied me. SUDOKO! yea. i trid one out today cos i saw it on the newspaper. and YAY! i completed it already. did another one on the net. and i'm so proud of myself. it is highly motivating when u are able to solve it =) makes u feel intelligent =D note the word feel. cos i know i'm not. no choice but to cheat myself. HEH HEH.
i've been wondering about my faith. it's been dead, and doing qt ain';t helping. i just feel DEAF to God's voice. and it's just so frustrating and highly discouraging.
sometimes i wonder if the times where i was close to God and heard his voice were just my imagination. that i was spiritually high and it in a way psychoed me into thinking and imagining stuff. i wonder if my faith IS real. am i trying to be a christian, growing deeper in the lord, to gain favour of those in church??? perhaps it's my need for acceptance that led me to "pretend". i don't know. sometimes, i feel fake. everyday, i think back about what i've been doing. and i realised, what on earth is the real me?? what is my character??? i got so many things i wanna tell people bout. but seeing past events etc. i don't dare to. it's highly frustrating.
i wanna get back to God. i don't know whether it' because i know we're in the end times and i'm very afraid to be left behind or i truly want to. i don't know. but it all seems so fake. like reading some christian books and all, i get so fired up, but once i'm done, things go back to norm. it's as if my heart is alive only during that time. and i don't even know if it's real or whether i;m just forcing myself to feel that way. RAHHHHHH... feel so lost and all. it seems like everyone else is getting closer to God and all and i'm not. it's difficult. and in a way, i don't feel like going to church. it seems that all my motives for doing things are all wrong, all fake. i don't know....
nvm. at least there's one thing to look out for --> the pri sch gathering this sat. YAY. can't wait to meet up with khai, reg and yy. but i must admit, i'm really scared to find out how they are like now. i mean, hearing yy on the phone totally freaked me out. it's like my total impression of how he was in pri sch was totally shattered. haha. no offense, but really. really scary. i can't imagine how my younger bro would look like when he goes tru puberty
..eeee..scary. think it's better to not think about it. HEH.
Friday, September 16, 2005
lax
i think i can very much do smth other than go to school for the first three months. YAY! i seriously think i screwed my prelims up. therefore, i shall start planning out what i can do in my First 3 months:
1. go get a job...NAH
2. go volunteer at some animal home..perhaps
3. pick up some skills. yea. definitely.
4. work on yf's flash intro with team.
5. teach some skills to the pub juniors? hur.
6. help ij with FRS??? not sure.
meanwhile, i have decided to give my house a makeover after my Os. gonna repaint my rooms, get new stuff, organise my stuff etc. YAY! can't wait =)
until o's are over, i have to study...ReALLY HARD. sigh.
Monday, September 12, 2005
settle for half
NJRC was pretty fun this year. especially the question and answer thingy that the brudders played. thank God for all the 4/1 and 4/2 ers. saved our butts or rather. their ears we had a draw with adss in the end. which i say is totally unfair. considering that we had tougher questions compared to them. hmph.
we had a miserable amount of supporters of say...less than 10? and being nice, we cheered for other schools too. and that did sorta help. we got support from cedar =) yay. it was quite funny how ij and adss ended up the last two teams on stage. actually there were only 3. but hell. just to make us sound great =)
anyway..i had to be the mascot..cos i was the only one..AHEM..small enough to fit. i seriously think arc should get smallies soon for next year. it was really hot, but i must admit, fun. i miss those days where the seniors led the dancing stuffies during the cheer. it was so much fun =) but now..our supporters are pathetic. and none of the sec 4s can dance. haha. we're all so stiff. it's weird how the dragon babies had so many talents. the world is so unfair. perhaps that will explain why i'm so tan =)
the hols past very quickly i must say. annoyingly quick. but surprisingly the last time i went online was on the first day of the hols. so proud of myself. i spent most of my hols at sarah's hse, studying and all. fun. i finally learnt how to shoot with rubberbands. haha. i shall have war with my brothers!!! MUAHAHAHAHA. i shoudn't be so guy anymore. lest steffi starts complaining. so i shall start being a WUman. that still makes me a man. yay. i found an excuse.
today's exam was madness. i seriously screwed my chem and lit. shit la. i was planning to use chem for L1R5 and i studied so friggin hard for it and then the paper so friggin hard. rah. annoyed. i shall make plans to go to poly now =) for all you know...i can't even get a road sweeping toilet cleaner job. i remember i once heard on the radio about some diploma for toilet cleaning. that's really scary. to think i'll be underqualified. esp at the rate that the moe is improving all the schools, from JCs to Polys to ITEs. DIE LA. nvm. at most singapore will just have another one of those major school drop outs problem. haha. and they say history helps you to prevent the same mistakes from happening. i see one that is arising again. oh well.
was on my way home on the bus when i smelt some glue/thinner/paint. thinking that some idiot might be doing his art on the bus i turned around only to see this stupid guy trying to hide a plastic bag of glue. wad a loser. he was glue sniffing. felt like smacking him. but you see...being a high S (DISC kinda S. not an ASS though some may think i am one) i didn't dare say anything to him but just keep all that horrible rude thoughts in my minute brain. wait. what brain??? i wonder. i so wanted to educate him on the dangers of glue sniffing and how obvious it was. the smell..DUH.. but i was afraid that he might just stuff the bag of glue up my nostrils or smth. you see. i'm not so macho, unlike mr ng. or helen tan who has loads of integrity =) you guys are my heroes, my role models. MUACKS!
he got down the bus and i started thinking about how much i screwed my prelims. plans of what to do started flooding in and all. and instead of bucking up and studying, here i am, typing on the oh so dusty comp. i must admit, i was pretty shocked when i started typing and realised how dusty the keyboard was. it;'s either my house is really dusty, or i have done a really good job keeping away from the comp.
anyway, back to the reason why i'm here instead of studying. was on the bus and ya. i started going a little mad. must be the side effects of sniffing that idiot's bag of glue. i wanted to STUDY. i CRAVED to study. perhaps my bro did glue sniffing too. that's why he's so eager to mug. mad ass. either that, or it's in the jeans. AHEM. i mean genes to study. not that i study well. so i realised i was going mad and thus. i came here to destress. haha. so i better go and continue studying. oh boy. i mean...oh girl.
and now we are quite civilised, quite american. now we settle for half.
i'm starting to love my lit book. haha.
Monday, September 05, 2005
good ole frens
it brings me all the way back to us in primary school. basically, reg(regina), khairul(khai), yong yi (yy) and i (glor) formed the shorties. yea. well...reg wasn't exactly short. but yea. we were the shorties. well..of cos the guys have grown taller and are no longer short...but they are still rather short for guys. naturally...i'm still the shortest. but none of us care. i remember how all of us used to rush to the front to help teachers carry books down. well..not because we were helpful...but just cause we wanted to enjoy aircon from the teacher's room or go home early. haha. thazz how we became class monitors/monitress. haha. those were the days.
well..i must say our group was pretty balanced. with one relatively gay guy and one relatively tom-boyish girl. guess who? i suppose we all became really good friends considering the fact that we knew each other way back. like...khai and i knew each other since nursery. yea. it dates way back. haha. i remember all the rumours and all..but hell. haha. i miss those days. it's one of those whereby everyone doesn't have issues about one another and we can just bitch and all and confess our deep dark secrets to one another. i never found another of such friendships. it's great and i really miss it.
what touched me most was in one of khai's diary entries. u see. he did some handwriting analysis thingy and one part says that he has two to three close friends and thazz cos he doesn't open up (or smth like that la) and he wrote three. glo, reg and yong yi. it's cool knowing that despite the fact you guys haven't kept in touch for years the friendship still goes on. people often say that it's the friendship in sec sch that lasts you till you're old..but weird. somehow...i feel more open with my pri sch friends. i mean the close ones that is. perhaps it's this things with girls that you can't really trust???? i dunno.
i really hpe this phrase "friends forever" will will work out for us. perhaps we'll be together again in jc. perhaps. just perhaps. i hope it will though =) just wanna let you guys know...i really miss those times we had together.
Friday, September 02, 2005
happy birthday kelvin
i met up with sarah in the morn. we were supposed to study. but APPARENTLY..SOMEONE decided that she had to go buy stuff. so we ended up at dhoby ghaut buying some of her MEP stuff. i seriously think MEP is more high costing compared to AEP. thank God! anyway...sarah and i were wondering what to give kelvin apart from the card that i did. we decided on a christian music cd. but we didn't dare to buy until we confirmed with him that he didn't have any. and how but to ask him. it was quite funny. i called him to ask. but seeing how panicky sarah was when i asked. i decided to make it not so obvious that we're going to buy a cd as a present for him. thus, i gave the excuse saying i'm making some video and i needed some hillsong songs. what a horrible excuse. i could easily download them if there was a need to. haha. after hanging up i was like...crap. i just lied. haha. sarah says that God will forgive me cos it was for a good purpose. **shrug**
dan, sarah and i were walking aimlessly around heeren for a while since it was still early to meet kelvin. we walked to this shop where they sld some cool stuff like some light which u can turn on just by moving your hand over it. and you adjust the light intensity by moving your hand up and down. damn cool. but obviously the price is equally cool. hundred plus. the guy told us that the price had dropped to attract customers. i was quite fascinated and hoped to own one myself. so i asked the guy if it would drop further so that i could afford one for myself. haha. obviously it won;t la. sad. nvm. i shall get my husband to buy one for me when i get older =) that is...if i ever find a guy to marry. haHA.
we went to sakae to get a place since kelvin was late. by the time we got a seat we just tucked in without waiting for him. haha. what to do. all of us (except dan) starved ourselves so that we could eat our money's worth. haha. so cheapo =) not bad leh. that meal covered lunch and dinner =) but after eating so much i'm quite scared by the sight of the fried tofu and sushi. i think the next time i go to sakae will be like...erm...after Os??? i dunno. see first. must see whether got money also right????
at the mean time...i should make use of the hols to study, exercise and spend time with God. i've been a really naughty girl. but i still love God =) haha.
i think i screwed up my emaths. crap.