"It is easy after all, to put your name on a list of famous designers and bask in the reflected glow of their presence. But does that change what we would do in our studio the next morning?"

Erik Spiekermann in the Foreword of Doing Good Design

Does that? it kinda makes me think about why I've set myself on a quest to read more design books. It's somewhat similar i guess in a sense. Not to put my name aside the list of big names but rather, to be able to say that I know what they're talking about and SOMEHOW...show that i am involved in my industry.

As I have promised myself, I have finally gotten my butt down to sit down and read design books, albeit mostly on the toilet throne. I guess it's a good thing I'm full of shit and shit alot cause that way I actually get more reading done.

Sometimes I feel that my attempts to actually read to increase my knowledge is more like my many quests to complete a task. read it, check it. done. nothing really is accomplished other than canceling that item off the list. it's just like i've accomplished something but learnt nothing out of it. Just to get a false sense of self worth i guess.

oh yes. Cheap thrills in life. No wonder I'm usually happy!

YAY I survived the finals!!

ok i think i don't really deserve to celebrate considering how i did the bare minimum just to get through this quarter. it hasn't been the most fun quarter and I definitely felt that I've underachieved. I did however, end up peer tutoring, student ambassadoring, AIGA SCAD exco-ing, AIGA member and do all that other extra curricular activities. I blame my bare minimum effort this quarter on how divided I am all over the place. It doesn't help either that I cant multi task and I can't divide my heart and energy.

Anyhows, my second 3d motion media piece and my final. I had originally intended it to be more disney but it turned out more nickelodeon. I blame it on them coming to school and influencing me subconsciously. I'm SORRY DISNEY. pls don't hate me for it :(



There are some glitches and horrible camera movement and rhythm and it was so hard to control cos I had so many elements in there that I wasn't able to switch to 4 view mode cause it would hang and refuse to show me anything so I was permanently stuck in the perspective view. Having to navigate the scene was a pain in the butt mostly cos my motion sickness was killing me.

I would have loved to do something more epic especially with the egg rolling scene and the toast cannons but i ran out of patience and time...mostly patience.

My twitter account followers have also grown in size without a decrease in the past few days. I'm especially delighted that it hasn't been some porn spam but like actual designers that follow me so I'm quite happy. the irony is that within the past few days of not updating, I have been getting more followers. maybe i should just stop tweeting entirely and have more followers magically appear.

wow the athletes at school are really :S

Had the "honor" of helping out my boss with a study skill session for the athletes today which in my opinion is really retarded at this stage of life. Initially I had no clue who the audience was and what we were doing and I was honestly surprised that we were expecting 50 people at this time of the quarter. Then one by one they trickled in and I figured this must be for the athletes and I was right.

The athletes here are really identifiable in the way they dress (permanently in work out clothes no matter what the weather is. this includes a headband, track shoes, shorts/sweatpants and a hoodie..and almost always...chewing gum) and they walk with an annoying swagger that just shouts "man i'm so cool and strong" even though they really aren't. That annoying attitude is kinda both intimidating yet it makes you want to punch them.

I really felt bad for my boss cos they kept yakking amongst themselves and talking stupid and thinking they're so funny and laughing stupidly at their jokes like how they often are portrayed in movies. They were excited about getting stickers for rewards and proceeded to paste them on their faces :S WOW. so impressive.

weird how when i think about singaporean athletes it's quite the opposite. Usually our athletes have the extra determination and discipline to study hard and they're more mature. I believe it's the way these americans place sports on such a high pedestal and status symbol that make these jocks the way they are.

2 more weeks. good golly.

i feel like i'm continually preparing my resume and gathering my portfolio and yet the irony is i still think they all suck. being a designer is kinda annoying cos it means that while everyone else's portfolio/resume just needs to be fancy in content, mine has to wow them visually too. and that's a problem because i'm never really and fully wowed by my own work.

I need to revamp my portfolio but i haven't found the time to edit some of my projects, re-print them for photoshoots for portfolio.

then there's the upcoming disney imagineers program at SCAD that i want to do so badly. I failed at getting in last year but hopefully this year with better and more relevant industry work and better professors to give recommendations I might stand a chance. *cross my fingers*

anyhows....it's been awhile since i last posted work so...here's just a little piece. my first 3d motion media project.



still need to work on timing and speed but i think this is at least more dynamic that what i've been producing. la la la la

great day at the beach with the roomie bre and naomi. Now that I finally have a friend who has time and a car, i get to go out more often which is kinda nice cos downtown savannah gets old after awhile. Bre likes the water loads and I guess i felt bad letting her go in by herself i have to force myself to go in too and it's been surprisingly fun and yet I still feel safe. Thankfully she bought some foam noodles so I felt safer going in to the water with the strong waves. Otherwise there's no way i'm going to go above knee level but the two times we went to the beach I went in till waist level which is a big accomplishment for me. it's fun when the waves come in and pick you up and toss you out back to the shore. kinda liberating I think.

Anyhows, we were there just lying down drying off when this guy came over to talk to us and tried to hit on us. This was the second time a guy actually approached my group of friends and I in the 2 plus years i've been here, so it was interesting. I don't think I told anyone this but the first time was during our school's cny dinner at the student center and it was naomi, me and some of her friends and there was this guy who kept walking past our tables over and over and over again and when naomi and i went down to get drinks he followed us down and back up again and after awhile he finally got the courage to come talk to us. THEN...he told us it was snowing outside which was a bad idea cos i freaked out and we left him behind HUR HUR HUR. since then he has never talked to us when we see him around school. lol. poor kid. it was kinda cute how shy he was though. Naomi and I each believe he was interested in the other and till now, we can't figure out which of us he actually liked enough to come to us.

ANYHOWS. so there we were lying there and he comes up to me since i'm the nearest one and he starts talking to us, asking us if we were here for vacation or school blah blah. and so we told him we were from scad, and he was like "oh bum that sucks." and i was like "no...i like school. it's been fun!" and being stupid, he decided to tell us that he quit school because he could no longer play baseball and all that. erm...if we tell u we like school it's obvious that we actually take our education seriously and so we will not be interested in school drop outs like him. Anyhows, he starts getting comfortable and sits down on my beach towel and started talking directly to me with direct eye contact which was kinda awkward yet you can't pull away kinda power but whatever, he invited us to stay and drink with him at a bar with his 2 other friends and i was like no thank you, we're underaged and he's like PSH...they don't care here. which was another turn off in addition to the fact that he smoked, quit school, had no aspirations, and he's obviously not a serious guy...anyhows, he left after that and when he overheard us talking about how we should take a picture, bre and naomi saw how he and his friends got super excited about coming to help us take one and we decided to just pack up and run away. hahha. very amusing. the two of them started whispering and of course, being the short kid who got washed over by waves and now have ear cavities filled with sea water, i was partially deaf and could not hear most of what everything was said but they later enlightened me. I blamed it on them since they were wearing bikini's and that since there were 3 guys and 3 of us girls...they would each get one of us and i said "poor dude who gets me" cos they were the 2 bikini babes while i'm in my black sajc dry fit t-shirt and sajc fbt shorts looking all frumpy and gross. HAHAHAA.

we took naomi home and then we proceeded to the melting pot, which was a fondue restaurant. nice atmosphere, good food and it was a pretty cool experience though I don't think I'll go back there because it's so expensive unless someone rich is treating me. we did the french dinner set which gave us the full experience of the appetizer of cheese fondue, bread and granny smith apples. It's surprising that the only thing I liked were the granny smith apples cos everything was so bitter since the cheese had alcohol in it too. then we had a salad and I actually loved the cherry tomatoes in it and tried olives for the first time. not a big fan but it was ok. the meat was so good though. we had a herb, mushroom and garlic base with some alcohol to cook our meat which comprised of big garlic shrimps (ie. prawns. they need to learn that shrimps are tiny prawns), duck, chicken, sirloin strips, fillet mignon, mushrooms, potatoes and broccoli which were all really well marinated and served with 6 delightful varieties of sauces. The meat was really yummy and tender and it felt good to actually taste duck again after so long. Dessert was a beautiful mix of dark and white chocolate with graham crackers covered marshmallows, oreo coated marshmallows, bananas, strawberries, cheesecake, poundcake, brownies and rice krispies cubes. Ate till I almost exploded mostly cause I paid so much for it and couldn't bear to waste it all. never ever spent so much on anyone's birthday not even pacey so in a sense i was killing myself over it. Then again, that kid doesn't have any other friends to hang out with since she's not in the dorms like other freshies. Good thing i decided to get her a gift instead of treating her to that meal cos it was like $50+ a person with tips. Her gift was expensive though. I bought her the new special edition for beauty and the beast cos she was so excited about it coming out and i couldn't find anything else to buy for her. bum...$80+ dollars down the drain for that one kid's 19th birthday. crazy. I think I shall remain single because I can't afford to blow my hard earned dough on things like stupid anniversaries now.

and so... for the next few weeks, i shall live on cheap ramen :(