since i cant write it out at another place and no one will ever understand me..but ah, wtf....
21 yrs 9 mths..and even since e day i know much more abt this world, i am still in ur hands...wth can...whoever doesnt understand that u all care...i do appreciate, but i wud so appreciate it much if u wil know hwo i feel too...yes, i am glad that u have allowed me to go camps (at least thats a stay out of home fr few days), etc...i rly appreciate..but...oh well, theres much more to it...but ah, heck, wateva i say are still isnt of any use...i mean, the other u stays here mainly also just because to cook and slightly take care of me...thats all?
i do envy others sometimes when i look at them and thinking for my own plight..
and u, sometimes i feel pity and sad of why u cant make ur own decision...ppl ask u to do things, u do...and last week when i see that ppl trying to encourage u to go into that biz, i sneer to myself thinking that u may be doing smth that u dont like agn...its not even ur forte...but there's nth u can do...
and yes i am appreciative of u, wat u have done for all of u and me.
last mth while chatting with a fren...chatting abt similar case...she mentioned that she's having similar case too and i think the reasons are kinda same too..but oh well, she's a girl and am a guy, helloooo...that alrdy makes alot of diff...
mayb i shud have insisted on going into army back then when i graduated from poly =/ i always say that i dont wana go army due to the wastage of time..but u guys keep saying its gd trng, yes i agree its gd trng...but am thinking of other things - will my life be diff now if i have enrolled in e army back then? no one knows...
guess this matter will always be in me till i go into the workforce..and yes! i will go into the workforce and earn money of my own...
