Had a nice outing wif pam today. went to watch DN2 and it was nice. i din really like the part when they changed the whole chunk of plot in the story.. they really eliminated a few important scenes, and they allowed L a more peaceful n reasonable death, and there isnt any mindful competitions between Light n Near.. Well, story will be nice.. but they seemed to sell the fish when it's stil fresh.. further waitings, no one will wanna watch the movie w/o L (the detective whom everyone feels more attached with than the main character).. and how can they be sure they found some smart kid to act as Near (N) (and showing some characteristics of L).. it'd be a whole load of story.. but the ending is abit.. hmm.. RUSH.. n i cant really understand y L can extend his death.. lol.. abit unlikely and what a big bet to make from L.. what if Light isnt the real killer? he must be very sure... i started to agree wif the idea that reading from the novels or manga is better than watchin the movie as u can slowly see the plots unfold n get to think wif the story.. the movie just happens too fast n the scenes are created to satisfy the thirst of eye-popping scenes.. (like showcasing beautiful actresses?)

Went on to pc bunk n met up wif HJ too.. LOL.. she's really mad abt this game! haha.. 随传随到！played for a couple of hrs n i think they made huge bucks coz it's so full hse! and there're many ppl who walked around n lookin at how ppl play.. well.. we're playing facin the wall, so it's quite ok, can concentrate, but often have the feeling that there's an eye staring at ur screen from the back.. lol.. but overall, nice! went home after that.. n i love the place.. the connection is superb, the keyboard is so sensitive n even the spacebar is huge.. plus the sound system, it's totally a luxury.. one bad thing is that we seemed to be the seniors there.. so many brats there.. LOL..

Hope this rain can stop.. heard from the news that the msia flood is getting worse again.. long time nv heard from Al though he said he's comin to spore.. poor thing.. hope he's fine..
I don't want sch to start!! n it's so stress to BID!

The rainy season's here again.. well.. dry holiday.. cant enjoy much coz it's SHORT! well, learnt a lot of things this year.. life's not that comfy like back then where ur frens stick together n we face no big challenges like the Os and the As.. now.. frens are separated..

and one thing i shall say.. there are frens who just dun wanna reply ur sms.. i duno wat they're thinkin.. maybe the content doesnt appeal to them but i think this is purely rude when you dun reply a simple msg.. not those goodnight sms where u need to send one back.. but an sms askin u smth impt.. who'd waste one of their sms of their 5 cents when they dun give a damn about u? well, some ppl just duno how to treasure their frenships.. i think i'm being blunt here n may sound crude but arent those ppl who treat their frens this way even worse? the effort to type a msg n the thoughts of communicating with one are wasted, just becoz of their own convenience or what ever reasons.. well, i'm sad to say that there are just many frens who are there to disappoint u.. u treat them wif this much care n efforts doesnt mean they'd treat you equal as well.. sometimes i'm just wondering, do i have to be so nice to them? not even worth a peanut, and why shall i care? it's just totally rude when u break promises, ignore ur frens n changing ur life the way u want it to be.. maybe the victim is not u, u duno.. n the truth is, what's done cant be undone.. the scars are there, and dun u think u can smile and laugh it off n want everythin back to normal again.. n be the receiver of all the good but not the bad.. do u think this is fair?

well.. it's another of my emotional roar on the virtual platform.. but that's one lesson i learn.. not all frens are frens.. and i shall not spend so much of my emotions and time on them either.. what's so fine about all the one-sided givings? if u dun have the initiative to maintain the frenship, just leave it.. n i'm not going to bother about it either.. there are more impt souls out there whom i can care about.. dun blame me for voicing out my thoughts coz u'd hurt me.. i need an outlet.. n i think someone else do.. coz there're others who have got hurt too..

shall not mention on the above.. it's just infuriating me again..

school's starting.. bidding.. release of results.. well, as expected, i din do well.. no high hopes, so no high disappointments.. shall try harder next sem.. it's not easy but i can do it.. n one happy thing is i passed my eng.. that's one thing to feel happy abt.. i'm out of it! Yeah!!

Happy rainy days..

Thanks everyone for cheering me up. I'm feeling better now. Dun worry.. ^^ really am sorry for letting u guys worry and i'm real glad that i have frens who care.

Missed a few days of blogging. Now it's quite hard to recall what had happened for the past few days..

First, to HJ, hope u like ur present haha and thanks for the day on thursday.. by the way, how's ur 'xiao hua'? (umbrella) ^^ next time dun forget ah.. u seemed blur that day.. LOL..

Next, had a sec class gathering on friday..to meet up at jurong pt in the evenin.. Met up pam earlier on for some shopping.. received a very nice xmas present from pam and i like it alot! pam bought some stationaries for her sch and we went to amk .. wanted to shop at comics connectn today but it seems that the amk branch has closed down.. sad.. wanted to buy the xmas edition a-cash and there isnt any left.. even in xin tian di.. wanted to return some library books too, so we made our way to sun plaza and there, we noticed that we shld have met here instead since there's library, pop, and cc.. finally managed to grab a piece of the xmas edition card ^.^ shopped around and had our lunch there.. wondering whether we shld catch a movie later on or go to xintiandi to have 3 hrs of lan gaming at 6 bucks.. turns out we went to amk n we're quite disappointed coz the facilities are in a mess.. no speakers for most of the pcs and some pcs dun even have the audition client.. so turns out we spend like almost an hr looking for a pc.. most of the ppl there were playing dota or chatting on msn.. well.. i think they have no choice (chatting on msn) too.. very bad facilities.. no wonder there's not much ppl there now.. wasted.. finally found one pc and pam n me took turns to play on that.. xian.. left after an hr and we decided to go to west mall to shop..

Met up with them at the boonlay ctrl stat and after a long wait, HM finally came we den went our way to fish n co to have our dinner.. very nice.. spent some time to decide what to eat and it was funny.. haha.. finally the food came and we tok while we eat, but some din tok much.. just eat.. 8 of us.. lol.. after the food has been finished, we tok for some time and we took pics.. nice pics.. long time nv have such a huge gathering le.. after eating, we went to the pet shop there and spent some time looking at the pups.. nice.. always have new pups on sale.. but they're so ke lian.. went to k-pool located upstairs and 8 of us shared a table.. so funny.. took turns to play and after ten mins stil not a shot in.. lol.. finally one striped ball in n the game starts.. divided ourselves into two groups of four.. real fun.. luckily the tables ard us are empty.. and we're laughing like crazy at each other's mistakes.. 8 noobs.. lol..

HM suggested that we sing k at lot one.. so we went there to check on the rates.. turns out that it'd be 39 bucks for each of us.. impossible.. made our minds to take neoprints at the machines in the arcade instead.. nice.. 8 pp crammed into the machine.. spend some time decorating.. end up we chose the wrong sizes of printing.. n each of us only can take one or two.. went home after that..

Well, ytdy, nice day for me! haha.. went to check on the audition webpage and i was topping up the acash n i noticed an announcement sayin what event.. held on 23rd dec.. which means ytdy.. to battle the party one two.. with the GMs and if you win them, you'd get 25,000 dens.. and the criteria is that u are wearin a xmas suit. and the song to be played is xmas party.. bought the suit and was playing ard 2pm plus, suddenly got this quick announcement.. spotted GMSantaClaus on the userlist and they were alr playin.. waited for them n i rushed into their room.. lots of ppl were tryin to do that too.. 10 observers.. full.. went in, the GM went off, said to create another rm.. and checked the userlist.. too late for me, i only got to be the observer.. the game starts.. the GM topped the game thru out.. super pro! ends wif 300 k plus while the others are way below though they were quite pro.. game finished, i got dc.. duno y.. what abnormal data error.. rushed in, actualy got another GM.. called GMelf.. so one male and the other female.. cant get back to free-3 coz news spread n all ppl rush in.. tried my luck at free8 and there is GMelf! on the list, her rm was playing.. so waited and i went in.. got myself a place! so nervous.. the game starts.. n i din do well.. was so nervous i played worse than before.. game finished with a guy winning the GM.. and the Gm is off to change rm again.. so we all rush to the lobby and waited.. she created a new rm.. all rushed in n i get a place again.. haha.. game started.. i did better this time, but i lose to the gm in just a few k! so pity.. then another guy topped the game n won the gm.. nice.. wanted to try another time.. but the gm is off again and this time, she said she'd be goin to another channel.. but which?! tried my luck, went to free-5 and there she is! haha.. rushed in and i got a place again.. funny thing is that most of the observers n some who played before followed and the GM feels that we're scary.. lol.. game started n i was totally nervous.. played better than i was playing for the previous two times and in the end.. i won!! topped the game wif the GM getting the 2nd place.. haha!! was so happy n amazed.. the GM took down my name n said the dens be credited after the event ends.. nice.. first exp.. ^^

Wl came in the evenin to pass me his xmas present n it was an acash card as well.. thanks!! ^.^ really thanks alot.. his sis oso gave me a nice box of chocolates.. thanks!!

In the evening.. ah ma came to my hse n was forced to play mahjong.. so sat down n played for a few hrs.. lol.. tired.. the pace was very slow.. but fun la.. won a lil' bit..

Ard 12am was surprised to receive a very long msg from Al-san.. long time nv hear from him le.. he said he came to spore earlier on today n went for a concert at vic hall.. n was on the way back to msia.. said his town was affected badly by the flood.. and so badly that if it din turn out better, they cant go anywhere.. the place oso became quite isolated.. n asked how was i doing.. was real shocked n i called to ask him how is it n he said luckily his hse was not soaked yet.. lol.. but bad enough to affect all the traffic and the phone cables.. so he had to come to spore to do his biddin n other stuff on next wed.. hmm.. so bad.. it seemed like always ard xmas period, some ppl ought to suffer.. like the tsunami a few years back.. hope everyone's well..

Happy christmas eve!

I lost something precious today. Something i had spent so much time on, and so much efforts in..

No tears can cure. Maybe time will.

I learnt a lesson. A lesson of life. That what's not made suitable, will not be suitable. No matter how hard you try to put them together. I learnt that being alone is a nice thing. You get to be friends wif yourself and see more of what you cannot see when u're accompanied. You will not hurt yourself like what others will do to you.

Life is short. I'd rather be alone. and be with the ones who really care and love.

Life is torturing. Luckily, it's short. and when you die, nth comes along.

Rainy days.. Just engage myself in the game of shutting the windows and opening them again.. again.. and again.. *Fun...* Nice cooling weather, but it's real tedious for my dad who has to travel to work via his bike. It's nv fun to ride in the rain.

Shall direct my blog in writing about something more of thoughts rather than recounts.

School is starting soon. Whenever i think of school, i feel gray. Not excited and there seemed nothing to look forward to. Though the stuffs you studied shall be quite interesting, i feel that the workload is just good enough to scare the wits out of you. Everyone got a job to do. Or shall i call this the role? Is there any roles in this world that lets u live ur life the way you want it to be and yet have the sense of fulfilment? Well, toking about that, i wonder how my results are.. Din get to see it when it's so ridiculously leaked out. No high hopes.

Pam is also entering into a new phase of life. To her new sch, and surprisingly, wif SH. Lol.. Sure going to be exciting for her. But the beginning is always the hardest. You need to meet up wif so many new challenges and learn to adapt with it. Sometimes you just duno why you exist in this kind of instance, and you wonder if others will go through this too, if this is the norm. And now looking at Pillow.. well, at least he dun. Haha.. Just walking around, sleep, eat and get pampered. I hate the way he jumped on me.. Scratches..

Reading "Deathnote" these days.. the manga series. It's so superbly brilliant. The story is real captivating and it takes time to read and think. While u read it, u're like solving the puzzles together with the characters inside. and it's quite a sad story. No good endings.. (i'd been so excited n curious about the ending, i took a glimpse of it.. *Grin*) well.. when Raito got the death note from the start, it was a mistake.. a kind of unsightly curse.. Still half way through..

Aunt taught me how to knit last night. Not the two needled kind, but single needled with a hook at the end.. not easy.. i'm stil learning!!

Audition got a new patch today.. and it's now under maintenance.. hmm.. went to it's homepage and there's this poll which asks about if you will go for rain's concert. and the choices available are yes, wating for it's dvd, or not interested.. well, i'm one of those who polled "not interested", and surprisingly, the results are that more than 60% of ppl who polled had agreed wif me as well.. and those who wanted to go for the concert is a pathetic 10++%...

Christmas limited edition of a-cash on sale.. only at comics connection... think it's cost $20++ coz it contains 20k inside... nice... (*..*)

Friday.. went back to pop wif El.. to find auntie beehong.. well, wanted to see how she was doing and buy some stuffs for her like choco n nice tea.. so, met up wif el n we had our lunch at bugis.. went to the ntuc there to shop for the gifts and then made our way back to pop.. din call the others along like bro coz they're havin exams.. and pam cant make it coz she had other things on.. well.. reached there and the first thing i saw is the ghost.. guess what.. feebe.. wearing a xmas hat, as all the other stuff has to.. and i think she was amazed to see us, but she gave us a very unfriendly smirky face while shaking her ass up to lv5.. well.. pissed at first sight.. why are there such unsightly things to see in this world? call this the biggest branch.. n who's serving the biggest stat service counter in spore.. xian.. well, made our way to text dept.. and there, saw bh auntie working as hard as ever at the service counter.. was quite surprised to see us there.. but we're even more surprised to find many new faces there.. new temp staffs and one of them resemble that K.. lol.. i sudd imagine that king kong saw a new guy on the waiting list of recruitment who scores the height of 180+ and she wanted him immed into her dept.. funny sia.. well, chat a bit wif bh and there's nt much customers.. still manageable.. tok abit.. den the feebe ghost shaked her ass pass us again.. duno purposely or wat.. den into the staff room.. bh auntie said life was hard but she had treated it as a life's lesson and she told us some gossips abt the staff there, and who had gone n came thru out the time of our absence.. den saw dat mb.. wore her casual clothes.. off day still come back to rule her pop.. lol.. sudd, that ann came n shove a piece of paper at auntie bh and said "transfer to nth pt".. walao.. i knew she did it on purpose.. she nt happy that we came back to happy gathering.. if we're here not as a staff, we're customers! n who cares whether a staff toks to a customer for how long.. her gesture just plainly shows that she wants us pissed off, even though we're nt the staff there anymore.. childish.. evil..

Din stay long in that evils' cave, we went back to bugis to stroll and window shop.. accompanied el to buy her staffs.. she wanted to buy a bag and a pair of new shoes, but she ended up buying some jeans instead.. and we strolled our way to citilink and there went to the gift shops there.. well, i started to realise that most staff that i'd like to have is totally expensive.. there's just not enough to spend.. but there're still ppl who tink that 30 bucks is cheap.. what ever.. maybe when my financial ability gets stable, i'd feel another way.. well, duno how my parents spend too.. dey earned and gave me a fixed amt of pocket money per mth, and i'm the only child, but turns out that they always have to borrow money from me in the end.. wonder how life will be like if they have 2 kids..

Met up with pam n ty at ard 6+ at city hall and we made our way to marina sq.. somehow to celebrate pam n ty's wking last days n my exams' finished.. went to the foodcourt and we ordered the saba that ty had reccomended and it's real nice.. real huge servings n i cant finish them w/o the help of ty.. after that, ty treated us wif chocolate fondue and it's another piece of heaven.. lol.. dipped the sweet stuffs wif the thick creamy hot chocolate.. nice.. the auntie who served us was very nice n kind too.. even gave us another cup of choco.. lol.. admittedly, i'm growing at the sides.. continue my way of eating now i wun fit into my usual clothings when sch starts.. i hate getting fat.. social gatherings really boost ur weight..

After that went to take some pics along marina sq's shops and went on to esplanade to stroll and tok.. sat by the sea n we looked up at the starry skies and crapped.. nice.. n joked around too.. when it's quite late we decided to walk to raffles place mrt station.. n we took turns to wear ty's high heel shoes.. lol.. very high.. n whenever i wear it i look like a 1.75 giant.. lol..interesting.. first time wearing such a high heeled shoe.. lol.. may consider getting one in the future but nt this high though.. lol.. i'd bang my heads whenever i go.. Life is just so relaxing when u spend the time wif the ppl u love.. but time really flies and there're just too many distractions that obscure ur view on what's really impt in ur life.. every now n den one of us realise this fact and we agree wif it, but how often will one recall its existance and bear in mind to treasure the times we have now? life....

Wednesday!! It's so fast!! Two weeks have passed since i've finished my last paper and oh no.. two more weeks left.. i haven really enjoy myself and the next sem is going to start again!! omg.. the last week will be kinda bittersweet.. xmas wif bidding ex.. sian..lol.. sch's starting real soon and i really dun look forward to it.. n oh ya, the results.. can i dun noe it forever? i hate results.. i nv did well..

Well, met up wif wl ytdy and we went to jg entertainment centre for lunch.. went to eat at the kobayashi.. totemo oishii ne! well.. it dun look like a very posh restaurant and seemed like some kee kok fast food restaurant but i can say that the food is nice! i ordered unadon while wl ordered teriyaki chicken don.. and it's quite cheap oso.. one thing i like abt the place is that there is a free flow of wasabi.. wahaha!! i drink wasabi!! no la.. jk.. usually this kind of foodcourt-alike jap food store dun provide wasabi.. while we're eating.. and the place is kinda crammed coz it's lunch hr.. and i saw that there's some details abt it's other branches.. one is at Raffles.. and the other is i think tampines.. n i was wondering if it'd look as kee kok in raffles..lol.. west.. east.. n centre south.. will it open a branch in the north area in the future?

After the lunch, we went to IMM and i shall say that i have long nv been there since i've moved to woodlands.. hmm.. how long? probably.. 8 years?? that's kinda scary but i've really long nv been there and yet i saw the building everyday when i went to sch.. lol.. (waiting at the jurong east platform towards clementi).. and ya, one of pam's fren we call him IMM.. haha.. so frequently used but i really really long time nv been there la.. reached there.. walked ard and we went to daiso.. as huge as vivo's just that this was slightly less crowded.. and this time round, i tried to find some gifts from the gift section.. saw a few turtle figurines and i wanted to buy for my dad since they're just 2 bucks! (my dad collect tortoise figurines).. in the end, chose a wooden figurine instead.. bought some snacks and some other 有的没的.. den we went to giant and shopped ard too.. after wl bought a small carton of milk from the mall, we went to shop ard the outside.. those push cart trolleys.. and i found some very nice earrings! very nice, glittering shining crystals embedded to form a nice curve of silver heart and some alike colored stones.. i think they're real pretty, but turns out they're 7.9 bucks per pair.. and i think it's quite ex for me.. but later then think that those that are sold in orchard will cost more than 10++... but i stil din buy la..

Wl suggested that we went to bukit batok there as he wanna bring me to a doggie's club hse.. hard time reaching there as we lost our way and when we finally did, and he even wasted one coupon because he tore the wrong date and we finally walk to the shop, we walked past a whole stretch of shops and came back to where we had been.. we had walked one rd but did not even see the store! we went from the back of the shops instead and there's the store sign but guess what we saw.. it's under renovation.. diao.. waste alot of efforts.. esp wl's.. well, we decided to fill our stomachs at the coffee shop instead if not we like waste our effort here and the coupon.. haha.. den we ordered a bowl of ba cho mee and shared a glass of iced green tea too.. turns out that the ba cho mee is super nice! till now i still miss the taste.. haha.. nv ate such a nice ba cho mee before.. usually those i ate contains a bad porky smell, but this dun.. and it's really tasty wif the soup..

Well, went home to slp after that and din have my cooking lesson coz my mom went out wif another aunt to duno what 舍利子exhibition.. den only came back after 8...

This morning, met up wif Jes n Rn at far east plaza and as we had not ate our lunch, Rn brought us to a food stall in lucky plaza and there the food is extremely cheap! not more den 5 bucks but we're eating a set lunch which consists of udon, a side dish (for me is 鱼刺汤, and Jes's is 鲍鱼 but Rn dun wanna eat), a dessert (白木耳清汤).. and a cup of china tea.. so many things! only 4.9 bucks.. nice nice.. Rn said she recommend this place to a lot of her frens le.. i think i'd do that too.. wanna try more of their stuffs the next time.. so we sat there and chat for some time before making our way back to fareast plaza..

Rn wanted to buy a pair of shoes and after walkin ard for quite sometime, she decided to buy the pair from Trendyzone.. and while we're walking ard the area, guess who i saw.. it's sharon! kiam piah's sis.. she's so pretty!! din really recognise her coz she changed her hair color and i waved at her den she den recognise me i think she took some time to recall who i am too.. n she said she's workin ard here.. i think she's very pretty.. i think the prettiest fren i had.. haha.. after that, rn said that there's smth like a real deathnote ntbk on sale from comics connection n jes wanted to take a look at it.. i recalled that there's a comic connectn stall at lv 1 and we made our way there.. but to our amazement, the shop is closed down! omg.. comics connection lei.. i think they arent earning much le.. and that's quite a pity.. but they deserve it la.. coz it's the most bad attitude comics connection branch i'd ever been to .. stil rmbred i bought my ouran series comic there..

after that, we decided to take a bus to dhoby gaut.. so we reached there and we went to take a look at pcbunk and hj had just went home from there.. she got to play for 3 hrs there today that's gd! lol.. so we went to shop at dhoby exchange.. and not much shops there actually.. so we went to ps and as we're abit hungry we went to basement to buy some finger food and i decided to try the noodle omelette.. jes ordered prawn takoyaki.. and so after the wait we went to a cozy corner to settle down n eat.. rn again want to on diet.. lol.. but i stil force her to eat la.. later stomach spoil how? finished eating, jes wanted to hunt some presents for her xmas exchange.. budget is at least 30 bucks and no chocolates and tricky part is that both guys and girls have a chance of receiving her present so she cant buy very girly ones.. seemed nice.. long time nv play this xmas gift exchange le.. haha.. tink back the popular times.. our first day of wk was the xmas gift exchange and we're in a confused state and cant leave early.. lol.. so we shopped and ard 4.30 i have to bid gdbye to them liao.. coz gotta go home for cooking lesson.. nice day....

reached hm, mom was preparing the ingredients and i helped abit.. and the lesson starts.. ta da~~~ lol.. mom teached me how to cook prawn fried toufu today and it was quite tedious coz this dish consists of a lot of ingredients.. after that, mom teached me how to prepare a dish of bittergourd which dun taste bitter at all.. and the results are great except that the toufu is abit "chow ta".. lol.. will do better next time!

Off to auditioning~~~ I want to buy A-cash la~~~

Woke up early today! To meet up HJ at dhoby gaut.. to get to PC bunk!! well, was real excited as if we played at pc bunk, the exp and den will be double the usual! haha.. nice.. reached there 5 mins earlier, and HJ was late..so went to PS and all shops were closed.. all closed but the escalators were moving.. so went to the basement.. creepily quiet.. so decided to make my way upstairs instead.. was real hungry and there was nth to eat.. so went to the 6th floor and there was kptiam.. at least the drinks stall was opened.. bought a breakfast set at 2 bucks.. but..waited for a long time because the auntie dropped one of the eggs, and she had to made another one.. went to an "ulu" spot to sit and as i've grabbed a "my paper" earlier on, read it and ate while waiting for HJ to come.. when she arrived, we chat awhile and ate the bread and decide to serve ourselves with a better breakfast elsewhere.. went out of PS n walked pass some shops and found nth to eat.. so.. went back to PS basement and we decided to eat burger king's breakfast set.. and it was so nice!!! i love the crossiant and it was so soft and the chicken sausage taste like heaven.. the hashbrowns are cute n chewy too! will wanna grab it again..

Finally, we went to PCbunk! haha! nice.. early in the mornin, but not much ppl, but a glance inside, alr some brats are there playin.. some playin maple and dota, but the majority are playing audition.. mostly look like pri or sec sch kids.. n there're so few girls.. hj suggested that we be the babes of the day.. haha! so nice.. got the 4 bucks thingy... well.. could play the whole day for just four bucks if there arent that much ppl.. well, seemed nice n we went for that.. if nt, it's 3.5 bucks per hr.. and we played.. given a cosy spot where most ppl cant see us.. haha! den we play n i love it man! everything's double.. n hj n me are so good at whackin nUbs..lol.. team up as always.. played for nearly two hrs.. when it's ard 12 plus, a lady (looks like office lady) came to sit beside me.. and there was her lunch box.. n she logged on to audition too.. omg..lol.. so many oldies like us play this game.. lol.. n so the "full hse" thingy happened and we're forced to log out.. xian.. so we went out and paid the 4 bucks.. so.. went to dhoby exchange as hj wanna buy some nice earrings.. n it was a real bargain! we bought a lot n we're grinning.. lol.. i bought roughly 4~5 pairs.. nt exact because one pair will be for someone.. long time nv give that someone some gifts u see.. lol..

Den made our way to orchard as HJ wanna buy cute files from kino.. walked there and when we finally reached, we din get to see the files.. so sad.. den went to the department store, there there was.. but the price was raised the double.. n hj decided not to buy instead.. hmm.. hopefully popular carry this in.. rmbr i saw some files like this in lot one popular.. walked ard for sometime n it was time we made our way hm, while hj went to her grandma's hse.. nice.. so good, always have family n relative gatherings..

Reached hm and slept.. so tired.. woke up, i was delighted to have learnt 3 dishes from my mom! =D learnt "onion omelette", "broccoli" and "tomato sardine".. nice.. shall continue to build up my knowledge on cooking so next time i can cook for my family.. =D

I wanna play audition again!

Met up wif HJ n kel last wed.. we went to vivo n chinatown.. was fun! met up at ard noon and we ate sushi tei.. it was nice, but quite ex den its other branches.. walked around.. window shopping.. n took some nice pics at the top floor of vivo.. duno wat it's called.. forgotten.. well, fun.. realli fun.. was practically laughin our way thru.. joked alot.. and i'm glad that pet safari is finally opened this time round.. not as big as expected, but at least it sold pets, n there's a grooming salon there too.. nice.. din see any pom, but saw quite a few shitzu n maltese n corgi.. nice.. bought a banana toy for pillow.. n later went to daiso.. bought a ball for pillow too.. nice thing about the ball is that it's big n there's a bell inside.. n pillow love toys with sound.. hj bought quite a couple of items there n even a chicken toy for her "baby"..nice.. haha.. went to chinatown later on, and we went to shop around some area which i duno what it's called.. erm.. but saw a lot of angmohs there.. n we strolled and practically did nth but talk and finally reached the shop that hj wanna go to.. jing long.. i kept calling it kim leng.. lol.. den went in and spent quite some time inside there too.. a shop expertising in craft products.. and even courses are available there.. hj said she learnt her knittin there and she even knitted a scarf for her fren once.. nice! i wanna learn knitting too, but it's ex.. like wat kel agreed wif me, art work is.. expensive, time consuming, and the result is not very nice either.. lol.. so went home ard evening..

Wanted to meet up with them again on Friday to discuss abt the module pref ex, but turns out that my cousins from msia will be coming on thur, den all the way until sun.. I rmbred asking my aunt a few days ago when I was in msia, and she said next thur! Not this thur.. but.. sigh.. my plans made and now they suddenly decide to come on this thur instead, I have to change the plans wif my frens.. so sorry to them.. cant meet up wif pam n ty on thur nite for dinner too.. so, we decided to postpone to next fri instead.. and so my cousins came.. n it was very tiring.. they are so hyper active and they can play the whole day.. the cousin who usually came to see pillow oso came to play wif them.. so there are 3 kids in my home.. for the past few days, making the hse so noisy.. so on the first day.. we went no where further then the shops opposite my flat, and the next day, pam came to play wif them.. and we went to tpy central.. baby-sit those kids while my aunts shopped.. and pam stayed for dinner at my hse.. and she even stayed till late nite to play monopoly with them.. thanks pammo! And the kids loved her.. haha, kept pestering her to come again the next day.. but too bad pammo gotta go out wif her sis on fri.. so on fri, we did nth but stayed at home and go to the shops opposite my flat again.. and on sat, they went to cwp.. but I chose to stay at home.. I’m real tired out.. and some bad things happened.. so bad feeling.. quarreled very badly wif a fren.. sigh.. I duno what to say.. y must I always quarrel with him?

And on Sunday, they finally went home, and mom decided to go Chinatown to buy some items for her dressmaking. And so, dad, mom, aunt n me went at ard noon and only back at around night.. and it was very tiring.. I felt so sleepy and tired but I still try to reward myself with the game of audition.. had long time nv touched this game and I had become so noob! Lol.. kept missing..

Well, Monday, went to see doc regarding my lump.. and turns out it’s called sebaceous cyst.. and doc said it cant be cured, as long as I dun feel bothered by it, it shall stay or not, get it surgically removed.. sigh.. so I have to bear with this lump.. doc says it may get bigger and I need to constantly monitor it.. but very rare chances are that it may get smaller or even disintegrate.. so funny, y r my pores blocked so these pus get stuck inside? Cant understand.. lol..

Went to msia on sun morning.. and only came back today ard evening.. so tired! din get enough slp there coz my family + the cousin who always came to my hse, slept in one small guest room of one of my relative's hse.. squeezy.. but the worst thing is my dad n mom.. dinosaurs.. snored like hell.. and the growling is irritating.. through out the nite.. how to slp! my aunt n me got dam irritated and have a bad mood in the mornin.. well.. my cousin continues to slp on.. super heavy sleeper..

Went back because mom n aunt wanna visit grandma.. n so i'm forced to go back oso.. had not want to go back because there'd be no one to take care of pillow.. so end up.. dad gave pillow two bowls of dog food and a huge tub of drink.. when we came home, pillow was dirty.. practically threw all his food on the floor and the stools r almost all ard the place.. n he learnt one bad habit.. after mom bathed him, we locked him inside his cage as everyone was busy n tired.. den he grew angry and threw his food out of the cage.. i think he spitted it.. like 天女撒花 like that..

Super tired..

It was a tiring but a happy day ytdy..

In the morning, bathed pillow soon after i woke up.. met wl at 12.. kinda rushed.. so i quickly rushed out of the home.. wl's driving so we went on his car to chongpang's kfc to have lunch.. had a bandito meal but too bad the chicken inside is abit small.. cant finish the cheese fries though.. too cheesy.. wl ordered zinger n he cant finish his cheese fries too.. oh ya n the drinks.. wasted.. den went to nee soon area there, the place where i took pillow for vaccinations.. there got some pet shops.. bought the same white bone toy we had for him last time.. the other one got displaced.. lol.. but mom says that's a nice toy n wan me to buy another one again.. gr8 uncle.. sold us at 3 bucks instead of 3.50.. the previous one i bought at 4 bucks plus!

next, made our way to spore expo.. to the IT fair.. wl wanted to take a look at the laptops.. he was thinking to buy one, hopefully b4 his sch starts.. but end up it's quite ex.. would rather buy from sch.. saw my lappy in the fair, but that one got a bluetooth feature, while mine didn't.. and that cost $3599.. so scary..y so ex.. den walked around abit and we didn't see much.. most promotors are too desporate.. they gave u a brochure den they start to talk n talk.. but u only wanna take a look.. they saw that u're just taking a look, their whole attitude changed.. walked away, or just quickly attend the next customer.. bad service.. saw agnes there.. she was from pop, the 3m promoter.. got a shock when i see her there.. hair very punked n golden.. think one side is long n spiked up, the other side razored clean.. sat there n i thought she was a guy.. n surrounded by a few girls.. like a scene from the pub.. got a shock..lol..

went on to the next exhibition.. tink is what big boys toys or what la.. duno.. wl wanna go in.. end up, stalked by two men.. each holding a box wif colored balls inside, said that we're in for a lucky draw.. trick one.. wl hesitated n took one, no choice, i took one too.. both got a yellow ball.. den forced to come claim the price.. at a table, where we're forced to do a survey.. wtf.. trick two.. survey's title said autosalon duno what.. den the questions.. asking about how much ur savings r n if u intend to buy a car.. fook care, din bother.. i fill the survey up like nv fill like dat.. even so wif the particulars.. den the two men quite botherin.. asked us a lot of questions.. den end up, one of them started writing numbers n show how money can increase wif interest rates n keep emphasing how wonderful it is.. wtf.. trick three.. den i got quite pissed off.. what's these gotta do wif the survey n the balls? den i asked them what bank they're from or whatever, den they said they're from prudential.. please lor.. that's not the way to approach consumers rite.. i know u're anxious to get ur ideas across to consumers but not in this manner rite? n the survey.. walao.. i dun think u need it anyway.. all these r just tricks n fake lor.. we continued to say that we have no interest n i even told them i dun like saving money n i dun intend to save.. they like quite pissed by me.. end up, gave us one packet of small twisties n an oreo.. think these r the prizes for the lucky draw.. so stupid..

after that, went to the john little exhibition.. bought two belts.. erm.. actually exhibitions r kinda boring.. it's just that they're selling things in another manner..

went to east coast park after that.. took a stroll n look around.. alot of ppl.. but got very hot n sweaty so din stayed long.. and we went to tampines mall instead.. wl suggested that we go to "nihon mura" jap restaurant to have an early dinner.. it's located in the tamp swimming complex.. selling pt is that its sushi dishes r sold at 99cents each.. but turned up all those dishes r not delicious n fresh at all.. actually it was another franchise of suki sushi.. dun really like their sushi.. abit cheapskate.. but ordered some 6 bucks salmon sashimi.. nice.. that's still like food.. special place where we ordered our food ourselves by taking the sticks from each section n the ppl then bring the food to us.. no menu at all.. gotta walk ard n see what we wan ourselves.. wl treated me for that meal.. thanks for the treat!! shall treat ya next time.. walked around and there's a lot of ppl.. friday night.. din bought anything there but just walk n make ourselves tired..

Went home.. reached hm around nine plus n played wif pillow awhile.. den pammo got sick! so sad.. hope she can get well soon.. bad timing to fall sick coz it was her last wking day n she shld enjoy it healthily.. at least she can play.. but do get well soon k! the weather's not very gd these days.. den went online to chiong audition.. met HJ and her sis.. it was so fun! was laughing all the while.. played for a super long time! named my rooms "PILLOW" and it's so popular.. haha.. alot of ppl came in and surprisingly most of them r very fun ppl.. joke wif us and they stayed to play for a very long time.. played choreo at first, den went on the bboys.. haha.. dat hj kept sayin her bboys not good.. no la!! haha pro wat.. XD.. den went on to play npc.. n all those ppl we played wif followed.. so our npc room is packed wif observers.. lol.. den got one weird guy called 3zo.. very weird.. abit extra too.. wa.. we played npc he went to play n he chained all the way! even win those very hard npcs!! i think he used bugs or something.. made everyone win.. walao.. defeats the purpose of the game la.. den everyone called him legend.. haha.. den through out the game, more ppl came in n play den all of us cant play.. so gotta set up another npc room called pillow2.. haha.. so funny... end up xian liao, go set up another room again..oso pillow.. den we played the normal games though.. n still, many ppl came in.. wa.. pillow so pop.. went to the lobby to see, alot of rooms now called pillow.. so funny.. dat hj n me kept laughin like mad.. haha.. we played until 3am.. omg..

woke up this morn at ten.. not very late la.. shall enjoy my day n hope pammo gets well soon!

Yeah~~~~

Exam's finally finished!! But looks abit indifferent coz many of my frens are stil having exams.. Minna-san! Gambatte ne!!

Felt so relieved that now everythin is over n this time i wanna enjoy life!! wanna play audition n i aim to become a clubber by next sem.. haha.. seemed impossible.. i'm stil at lv ten.. i wanna change my blogskin.. gonna draw up another one, and made a totally fresh change.. and not forgetting to draw an anime version of HJ and Rn.. promised them.. haha.. i will try to draw them soon!! and oso i wanna rebond.. my hair is in a total mess.. oh ya i oso gotta go check up on my thigh.. there seems to be a huge lump there and have been present for quite some time.. but i'm afraid that i'd need to go for an operation to get it removed... hmm.. got many things to do.. next sem shall be better than this sem huh!!

Having history paper this evening.. weird timing as ytdy again.. well, sw paper was hard.. n i took extra care that i read the instructions carefully this time.. hmm.. when attempting the mcq questions, i felt like i was doing the singapore social studies paper mcq.. the feeling's quite alike.. like u gotta refer to ur environment n make guesses out of common sense.. reached home at nine ytdy! it was so late! the paper ended at seven but duno who counted the papers wrongly, n we're held back for like 30 mins.. until 7.30 den we're allowed to leave.. omg.. so went to take the bus.. n saw bus 95, i think i'd wait for bus 96.. since it's more convenient for me.. n i missed two 96 after that! n end up taking 95.. xian.. too many ppl at the bus stop!

Received an sms from M ytdy again, at night.. n guess what she asked me this time.. "is the history paper at five?" omg.. please la! is this ur first time having exams and u need mommy to bring u there? we can check rite? all the details are there and y cant u be confident enough? i really duno wat to say of her.. the more i think that many of my frens cant make it here n in this place it is dominated by so many dicky-attitude, no-initiative, lazy n bossy ppl, i feel so angry.. so this will be the ppl who gets a degree n continue to boss their way thru life..

Tml will be my last paper.. jap lang.. i really regret that my timetable this sem is a total disaster.. i din plan well for my curriculum time and even my exam is a mess. bad time management.. but it's hard to plan wif 6 modules la, plus u're taking up a super heavy module (language).. wa.. next sem cannot be like this again.. i will die.. shall think wisely.. i really dun have time to prepare for my exams.. all dates are crammed together.. heard from Al, he had planned it that his exams ended late, but he had a lot of time to study in between for each module.. now he had finished all his revision n was just readin them thru again n again.. but sc module ma.. mainly concept based.. but arts.. u need to argue, but w/o the facts how to argue.. so in the end u stil have to cram ur stuff into ur brain at a short period of time.. y cant they made our arts modules be open-booked? i think this is better.. and i doubt i can score well too if i'm given the facts.. coz it's really hard to argue.. i hate arguing...

Morning.. will be havin my sw paper this evening.. at 5.. weird period of time to have an exam.. so this means i will make myself get stucked in the peak hr traffic jam again..

Received another sms this morn.. from M.. well, y do i always receive such infuriating sms in the morning? well, M asked me if i know how to study history and how to separate them into the respective themes.. omg.. history paper is not next week, it's tml! and for once, ppl, can u all please dun be so shameful? can u please plan ahead of ur time? dun always wait till the last min den come n look for me for answers? and what do u think i am? ur wonderful answering machine? and dun u expect me to spoon-feed u please.. it's ur responsibility that u study on ur own rite? i realli duno how u made ur way here to uni with this kind of personality.. and for goodness sake, have u think before u sms me? do u know what r u asking and what kind of answer do u expect? such a question i dun think the lecturer is able to answer for u at this point of time.. omg.. i replied that i wasnt studyin for history and i wasnt sure myself either.. wat do u wan me to reply? "oh dear M, i'm sorry that u din't know n i realli hope u can get an A so let's meet up later somewhere n i'll teach u everythin and organise everythin for u and let's not tok about my other modules that i have to study." smack the swine..

i think i shall not bother myself by making my contact so readily available in the future.. n i really see a change in my personality that i think most pp in this world, u dun need to be nice n friendly to them coz they're not nice to u either.. what do they think of u anyway? just someone whom they can tap on and so what benefit do i get? i made my efforts and u sit highly there with the smirk face and all the showers of success befall on u? and u act ignorantly when i need u and think that u can bother me with another request in the near future and expect me to serve like a slave to u? now all these pp.. please, piss off..

i think some of my friends will oso agree with me in this instance.. well, let's hope and pray that these ppl can just stop pestering us and make our life easier..

I'm totally devastated..

Had my chinese paper this afternoon.. it was not easy.. and what's worse..? i attempted the wrong questions.. What has happened to me? i know there will be two parts of the paper.. first part is the history and second part is the literature.. each part carrying 50% of the paper and that will total up to 100%.. and the first part got 2 questions, each carrying parts A and B.. so in total, part one (the history part) will have four questions.. and i duno how i read the instructions la! i made a very silly mistake and i dun even felt that i had made one even until i submitted the paper after two hrs.. maybe it's common sense that you will attempt part 1a and 1b together or part 2a and 2b.. i go and do part 1a and 2b.. die... i was devastated.. each question was 25%..

On my way home.. i'm in a state of hollowness.. haha i duno la.. just feel hollow.. i got a shock and i wasn't recovering.. erm.. what i can managed to do.. is gave prof lee an email.. informing him of my mistake and apologising to him.. i duno how it will become. but i noe i will not do well, and this is just the first paper (which is counted into the GPA score).. good luck to me...

Stupid you.. what have you been thinking? now see ur efforts gone to waste.. continue to dream..

Sob..

Sunday.. I hate Sunday because Monday is the day I dread.. I don't like mondays..

Well, will be having my chinese paper tml.. good luck to me.. I realli duno how to attend these exams because I felt like we're taught of the theories on swimming and tomorrow will be the first time we get to swim on the real pool.. What's given to u auditorily will be put to use tml.. and whether u can utilise ur given information well is up to ur luck and efforts.. hmm.. first swim huh.. good luck to me.. hope that i wun drown..

Well, these few days had been revising history and it's real information loading.. i finally get to piece the whole picture of the history of Asia, but the pieces I formed are still somewhat blur.. and the edges are crooked.. I duno how to study history and I think i lack the time to study, all thanks to my inconsistency.. what have i been doing for the past few weeks? taking up 6 modules is not easy..

Hmm.. Attended a fren's bro funeral ytdy.. it was sad.. life is just so fragile.. her bro was stil so young and we were lost for words to console her when we see her at the wake.. her eyes were swollen from the crying and she still try to make efforts to break the ice in that situation.. feel painful to see that.. unfortunate that they do not even know the reasons for his death..

This brings me back to the thinking whether we shall spend so much time on studying these unrealistic facts that have no actual practical use for our future.. what can we do with this info? pass them on to let the others pass them on?? Life...

Had my english paper this morning.. Was quite difficult! It was a little bit more difficult than the assignments we did in class.. Especially the grammar editing part.. today's theme was about feminism.. got quite a lot of things you can write about that.. because one of my past eng essays and history essays I had covered some of these ideas in the topic of gender and sexism.. Well, the sad part is that I dun have time to sort out my thoughts.. we're supposed to finish everything in 2 hr 15 min and it was quite irritating as we were sharing room with another group of students.. i duno which module but every now and then, there're announcements for them to change some errors in their papers or tell them to stop writing etc.. (their paper was 2 hrs).. so, this essay will weigh 70% of the whole of today's paper.. oh no.. and the question is.. something like whether women should play a more important role at home or in the economy.. recalled that the teacher had gone through some thing like this in the class before.. was this the hint last time?? hope i can pass..

Well, one thing i found out these few days and maybe even earlier, was that travelling is bad for health.. it's totally bad for ur health in the physical sense and emotional sense.. especially in peak hours.. or rainy days.. u get to see and encounter so many things you wish u have nv seen.. no doubt that sporeans are kiasu..sometimes i think that this kind of personality is inevitable when such a large number of people are crammed into such a small country.. and there's so little time for so many things to be done.. especially when you're on the way home.. everyone is tired and hungry, but most of us are so unlucky that we have to travel to someowhere far everyday.. we dun have our schs or workplace rite at our doorsteps.. everyone is so anxious to get home.. yet, there're so many people.. we cant hop on bus, or trains, and even if we did, we can only stand and grab on unreliable poles to prevent falling over from the continuous jerking of the bus due to the traffic jam.. if we're lucky enough to grab a seat, we can practically do nothing with ur sweaty neighbour sitting beside you and the large bag knocking onto you most of the time from the lady standin beside you..

On the train, what's worse, no one wanna move in to the center of the car and even if they did, there're stupid people who thought that the poles are a bed for them. They lie on to the pole and think that the world is fine.. and the train jerks like mad most of the time.. and so what can we hold onto?? i sometime really wish that the pole conducts electricity and any one lying totally on it will get electrified and jumped.. lol.. if you get to lean on the glass beside the doors, there're weird uncles most of the time who thought there's no one behind them and when they stand in front of you, their back is facing you and they stand like they're almost lying on to you or that they think you have 1m of spacious gap around you. this is totally suffocating and irritating.. well, usually had nothing better than to protect myself by fake-coughing continuously or mumble a stern "excuse-me"...

Walking home... i nv felt happy strolling my way home.. it was a continous battle of the minds with the other people walking around you... alighted the train, my next step is to board a bus.. and that's quite some distant away which requires walking.. so for fear of missing the bus.. we walk quickly.. but what i can say is that not everyone walks in the same direction and from bird-eye view, i think you will see something like air particles bombarding with each other at quite a high speed.. and it's quite like a game and you kinda acquire a technique by walking quickly and yet at the same time preventin uself from knockin into other people. one biggest problem is that people always thought that the whole world is what they see in front of them.. many times i encountered people who just stop so suddenly to do whatever they want and i ended up knocking into them.. den they will turn and give you a kind of WTH look.. xian.. worse, they were talking with a fren and they just suddenly turn back to point at something and end up pointing at you or poking you.. please.. spare more thoughts for the people around you.. if you're not in a rush, and the passage way is just so small, give way to the people behind you.. and dun walk like you're strolling in the park.. and i hate people who walk in an "S" manner.. see how S is spelt and you will noe what i mean.. on escalators oso.. stand on the left la! you're standing on the right and you see the whole stretch of empty passage way in front of u and a long queue of people behind you waiting for you to scram you not ashamed ah?

A travelling time of at least 2 hrs each day is enough to damage ur character as you have scolded so many mean words in your mind.. this triggers quick temper too.. blame the inconsiderations of every people..

Exam finally starts tml!! Scary sia.. hope can managed it.. hmm..

Now in sch.. mugging.. Sigh.. Studying.. Boring exam days....

Well, let's talk something about mom.. she has been recovering these days just that sometimes she got a little giddy and having discomforts, but overall, she has been better... Well, we dun encouraged her to work, becoz it will be real tough for her since there will be travelling to be done.. den somemore she can get quite emotionally affected with the people at her work. So, now, she's working from home now as a tailor.. i think she's real talented as she knew how to make dresses, wedding and night gowns, baju kurung, cheongsams, alterations etc.. and she realli know how to handle the customers.. most of her customers are malays and she stil can communicate with them in malay.. nice..

But one bad thing about it was that pillow will bark at the malays.. it's quite bad becoz most muslims are afraid of dogs and pillow dun bark friendly at them.. hmm.. luckily some customers still come back.. but some customers really dread of coming back ever again n mom loses her customers..

Hope mommy's business can succeed.. she's enjoying herself now as it was quite an easy way to earn money n you can work from home and managing ur time at ur own will.. she now receives a call each day and they're new customers.. ^^

Well, gotta go mug le!! maybe coming back to blog later.. =P

I'm tired...

So very super tired..

Tired.. x1000000

Ok enough of my lameness.. well, went back to sch today wif jes and we studied social wk. well, i really have no idea if this was a fruitful revision or not becoz i found that i'm reading "common sense" written on notes, drafted out, graphed out nicely and made to be pro-looking.. well, one thing i dun realli like about these academic staff is that they like to give a specific term to anythin they think is theorised.. say for example.. intervention.. well, so some problems occured and the community council wanna step in to help (or known as intervention here).. and here, it was again classified into primary, sec, tertiary... and each has its purpose and examples.. n so these r what it called frameworks.. concepts.. Boosheet... zzzz.. things have been made complicated..

Had enough of reading those things la.. i want a rest la!! friday will be my first paper.. english.. hope i can pass.. no high hopes.. just pass! i dun wanna take eng again..

Met HJ's sister ytdy.. so kawaii! miniature of HJ actually just that she has longer hair.. lol.. even her laughter's identical to that of HJ.. family production.. lol..nice! cute! wonder how will life be like to have a sibling.. well, maybe in my next life...

Tml's meeting HJ up again.. gotta sleep early tonight.. i'm real tired.......

Tuesday morning.

Woke up with an sms. Well guess who. It was that Sj. And guess what she said? "Giv me the chapters we gotta study for chi n dun tel me from ur memory".. wth.. is this the way u request something? this is not the first time and i'm really pissed with ppl who dun have basic manners. before that a few weeks ago she have oso demanded that i let her know the chapters we gotta prepare for the exams.

So, i'm reali pissed and you know, ppl dun wake up with a gd mood if their sleep was interrupted.. so i dun care how she will feel, i replied that "y cant u do things on ur own n sorry i'm busy". yet, she stil hve the face to reply that she's not sure that's y n that i shldnt feel so irritated.. oh my goodness.. this world is really filled wif tons of weird ppl and i'm sure most of them have made their way into the sch as well.. at least i bothered to reply her that the lecturers only dropped hints on which chapters we have to study specifically on. n guess what she stil replies that "oh i'm afraid that i've missed out, but u know wat? being angry first thing in the morning is bad for ur skin." oh thanks sj. You're the trigger and i'm highly appreciated for what you have done. your mere existence has showered me with irritations i have nv felt so intensively, now pissed off!

Meeting HJ up later on in sch to study and today realli gotta bucker up! At least now i feel that i can get the whole picture of chi after these few days of studies but it is not completed yet. But another problem is history. I have nv found history as an easy subject. my mind is not built to memorise facts. Well, just try my best huh and it seemed that u cant get away wif history as long as u stay in Arts.. well well.. will be seeing HJ's sister later on too!! nice nice~~ XD

Monday.. Well, first monday I don't have to make my way to school. I'm staying at home to study!! Well, still gotta return to school to get back my history paper. Don't know how will be my grades. I really have no idea how to write a history paper and I think my arguments are vague. But still, I don't wish to get a C. Can I get a B?

I miss Ouran High School Host Club!! Only got to watch the anime series until episode 16.. Bro YJ says he wanna burn the remaining parts for me.. Was so touched! Lol.. He don't even want me to pay him the DVD-R.. I SHALL TREAT HIM!! lol..

Some pics from Ouran...

the funny twins fight..

The Host Club!

XD

こんばんは～

Late night blogging.. I can't sleep.. Think i'd been working my brain the whole day so I can't fall asleep now.. みんなさんはねますか？

あした。。はちじにおきます。それからちゅうごくげんきゅうをべんきょします。がんばってね！(tomorrow.. waking up at 8am.. to study chinese studies.. jia you!!)

Lol.. first time typing jap here.. dun even know it can show up on the blog or not.. haha..

Nites~~

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Peanut thoughts...

Hot weather.. wet weather.. shall i call this humid? mixed feelings..... exams are coming.. my mind is elsewhere.. i wanna play.. rest.. sleep.. i'm tired..

Been reading my notes the whole day.. i doubt i assimilated the information. this is what i call information loading.. it often gets overloaded..

Pillow is growing up.. have been well-behaving these days.. knew how to make us happy.. n i suspect it knows how to watch TV.. he'd set there staring at the TV.. n seemed to be thinking..

Fully recovered.. no more sneezes.. running noses... dry coughs and sore throats.. wish me well..

Some things to be sort out.. matters of the heart.. memories forgotten.. n i was shocked when i recalled them again .. can these bring about some new sparks? well nvm if u duno what i mean.. i'm having mixed feelings.. it's always these pre-exam syndromes you see...

Reading week finally arrives! It has been sometime since I blog again. Hmm.. Many things happened in between, I shall try to recap what I had done. Think few weeks ago, a very long time ago, had went to K-box with Rane n Jes. It was fun actually n I think both of them sing well. Really miss those times, but I dun think we'd get the chance again.. You cant help it when someone just wanna draw a line between ur friendships. We met at bugis and we ate there. After that, took a bus to marina square and we decided to sing k-box.

Well, oso went to Newton Circus one Friday with Pam n TY.. I think it was my first time there, and we ordered quite a lot.. Mostly were spicy food like barbecued stingray, satay etc.. So we sat there and chat even after finishing the food for sometime. After that, went to Far East Plaza, and we went there because pam wanna buy some cakes from a hotel and I forgot what was its name. Ya. So ty bought some too.. and most shops were closed.

Following week, we met up at Dhoby Gaut again and pam n ty accompanied me to the PCBunk to reactivate my Audition pin number.. haha.. first time there too and we were like quite fascinated as it seemed that most pros were playing there. They 'danced' well. After that, we went to orchard.. the browhaus and later on get some food at taka's foodcourt. I recalled that I'm feeling very bad that day as I just can't stop sneezing and having a real bad running nose. So bad that I think I used about 6 packets of tissues and on the way home I really try to stop myself sneezing.

So, that was the latest gathering with them so far.. and went to watch "Flushed away" with Wl.. and it was quite a funny and lame show. I dun really like the ending because I think the directors duno how to end the show so they just wrap it up so ridiculously. Super lame ending it was.

Well, had my last astro test on wed and it was my last astro lesson too. Will kinda miss it too. After that was my jap oral test and to prepare for it, HJ, Kel, Al n me met up to practice the oral together. So we went to Ginza and before that went to a hawker center to eat.. We laughed n prac n laughed n prac until when it was around 3, we really ran out of strength that we sort of quieten down n stop tokin.. lol.. luckily it didn't rain when we get back to sch coz it usually will rain on wed and I always got my jeans wet. Well, the test was very brief n quick n I dun think I had the chance to perform well, it was over alr. ZZ..

So thur was my last day of lesson in school and could not get home early coz got the chi lecture. N I was real happy on the way home and especially so when I reached home.. lol.. so kinda slack from there until now.. was playing audition most of the time.. playing wif pillow and prac little bits of Japanese.. oh ya.. n sleeping.. I finally can get to slp as long as I wan.. nice.. shall start revising soon!!

Gambatte ne!

I'm bored.. Bored to death.. Haven't really enjoy my rest days, and the school is starting again.. Really dislike school life.. Don't seemed to enjoy it.. Because I'd be crammed with so many readings and I really cannot make myself enjoy it.. School is such a mini society and we tend to meet weird people there every now and then.. Just cannot get myself used to how these people behave.. So they really grow up like this? It's like, suddenly I go to this whole new place alone, I started to face so many different people.. I really cannot understand some of them.. Think I still need time.. Not everyone is brought up normally..

Well, I missed the days I can just call friends up and we meet up and we have fun like there's no tomorrow.. Sort of missed JC life too.. Finally recalled the days when we went for lessons together, went home together, go for lunch together, meet up during weekends to mug and play.. Life is so different now.. everyone is busy with their own lives and when we do meet up, we don't enjoy time as we used to..

One really stressed thing is that exams are coming.. and I really haven adapt into the new school.. sort of envy those science fac students.. they declared their major from the start and now they're building up their foundations, they met friends whom they would be sharing courses for the next three years.. but arts.. hmm.. till now, I still haven met one good fren who is going to major the same as I did.. I met many good friends now, but the idea that we're not going to see each other so often the next couple of semesters really dulls me..

Is this really what you're going to face in your uni life? Till now, still can see some students who went for lectures and tutorials alone.. and I think this is sad, as this is not an issue of independence, but I think this is more of a loner.. You don't have frens to share thoughts with you.. you can't be a person enjoying life like this when you go to 5 different classes to meet with 100 different faces whom you dun even know them well.. Call this the society..

It's another of my sunday blues..

Went to watch "Death Note" yesterday.. wow.. NICE! Haha.. Tink those manga creators realli can plot! I think the plot is nice.. N "L" is cute.. haha.. n i like Kira's lashes.. LOL..

First time went to that Vivo City.. and it was wif PAM! LOL.. hmm.. that place is real huge! haven realli finish shopping there.. we met quite late.. so end up walkin ard.. I love the scenery there! so nice n romantic.. n i think it's comparable to Esplanade.. it's quite like Esplanade, just that it housed a ton of shops.. I wanna go there again!!

Hmm.. Still got SW assignment to rush for this week.. must jia you! =D

I hate writing essays.. Why do I have so many essays to write?? Almost all modules got an essay, except for japanese lang..

Well, weekend is almost over again.. I miss Friday.. the day when you can rest and think "Hey I still have two days ahead.." Well.. So xian.. A week really pass real quickly.. Really soon will be the exams..

Saturday morning went to eat Sakae with WL.. So happy.. long time nv eat le and i think it's longer for him too since he's overseas.. After that, we walk past TIMEzone and we went in and spent a few dollars on the "win-sweet-game".. LOL.. duno what it's called! turned up we won a large handful of sweets and we filled our bags wif it.. Some ppl actually won a bear out of that machine and I duno how they did it.. But alot of aunties and uncles are the ones playing.. and duno y they're so lucky.. u can see their children carryin a bear each on their hand and they ate the sweets won from the machine while looking at their parents winning more sweets.. I think they really spend alot as they played there before we come and when we are leaving, they're still playing..

Bathed Pillow on Friday as usual.. and he was real obedient now when we bathed him, as he loves bathing and will just stand there on 2 of its legs obediently and wait for me to finish him.. But when it comes to brushing him n clipping his nails, he's a brat.. will bite and wriggle and jump around.. so gotta give him treats to distract his attention..

Hope this week can pass smoothly.. Got two essays to be handed up.. Hmmm...

Stressful week.. Remembered that from last week's term break till yesterday i nv get to rest well.. So sad.. Was busy rushing my assignments and tests all this.. I duno y i have so much to do..

On monday, got this japanese tutorial and when the teacher questions you in japanese, you gotta answer it well, coz it's kind of tricky most times.. had the astronomy test later on in the evening that day and was rushing there to fill in 30 MCQs.. well, some questions are tricky some are too easy.. tricky ones r like: "on 8 sep this year, what was supposed to be observed from spore?" den u gotta tink back quite alot.. like is it partial eclipse or solar eclipse or total lunar eclipse or what have you.. xian... but easy ones are " is astronomy the same as astrology".. lol..

Went home that day to rush tuesday's japanese lang test.. and wa.. xian, got test on reading and writing and listening and dictation.. den went for eng lesson, said that we got a new essay to write, gotta start preparing now.. sigh, den went to history.. this week's topic about nationalism.. xian.. so many things to know, n think back that i still have many readings, more xian.. lessons also end late...

Wed gotta go school early for the astronomy lecture.. but day ends late with another japanese tut.. and i haven done the homework for that tutorial yet, coz the lecture only been taught the day before.. so gotta rush for it.. n there's this social wk presentation on the next day which is thursday.. a group project and we gotta prepare for it.. so discuss abit.. end up studying till quite late also n i really get so depressed coz thur got eng (and i haven research for the essay yet), den later on got the social wk presentation ( the group hasn't really formulate yet and everything is prepared kinda rush, how to present properly?) den following that is history tut, and there are so many readings i haven done and the teacher actually will ask you questions one by one, and so, later on is chi lecture, ( alot of readings too), and after that is another japanese tut ( the most difficult one coz you gotta role play in front of the class and you better memorise what you gotta say well).. so it's like most things i haven done.. and the day is from 8am to 7pm..

So.. when i reached home ytdy.. i was brain dead.. n today.. i duno what i'm going to think.. it's really stressful.. and first time heard my family told me to go find some friends for an outing.. dun always stay at home and study.. .....

New skin for the blog.. Did it myself! Nice?? LOL.. Drew this by InkArt n that wonderful stylus pen.. Loved that pen..

Well, had this astronomy test today and it's good in the sense that it is in MCQ format.. and better den all, can finish it in ten mins time.. We're allowed to leave when we're finish.. So reached home kinda early.. I dun like the train trip home.. it's so long.. n usually, i dun get to sit.. So gotta stand for about a full half an hour.. Bought the concession today.. cost me $97 bucks.. so ex.. but at least can board any transport wif peace in mind.. dun have to worry if i'm runnin out of money..

Tml got this japanese language test.. din really prepare for it.. i duno how i'm goin to survive, n i stil have that american time to draw this blog skin.. zzz.. xian.. i'm really stressed.. stress of a lot of things.. they're just an endless stream of spiky needles piercing me and it really causes anxiety every now n den..

Kicked my toe on some stairs today at the canteen.. felt the pain and it lasted for sometime, i duno y sometimes your feet just wanna move abit more.. and so it hit the steps quite hard, and only when i reached home i check and my feet is rewarded with a little black bruise..

Wish me luck for tml!

Finally got to finish my chi essay.. first time writing such an argumentative, lengthy essay and it really drains my brain juice.. well, term break coming to an end, but still as always, i can nv complete what i was supposed to..

I really spent quite some time to wk but ya at night will play abit.. but if i dun play, i'd be spending so much time on sch work! so xian.. love audition now and will like to watch comics.. haven finish ty's cat street and ouran.. y during my free 7 months i have nth to do and now i'm here stressed like hell, there r so many distractions?? haha.. this is life..

Well, have i said i got sore eyes a few days ago? left eye suddenly got blur vision when i was in sch and i thought it was contaminated by some smoke or dust in the canteen.. i was in the canteen then.. and that day stayed in school until quite late to do assignment research.. and when reached home, took off my lens, it's stil blur! scared the hell out of me.. well, no choice went to see doc, he says i got sore eye or some kind of infection, den cornea swelled.. hmm.. dad n mom dun wan me to wear lens anymore, said it's real dangerous i can lose my sight.. so, forced to make specs ytdy.. so xian.. i dun wanna wear specs!! i look like a total nerd in it.. the last time i made my spec was in 2002.. so this old spec looks kinda algae-infested and dirty n rusty and wat have you.. ah.. watever, i dun wanna wear specs la... =(

Term break!

It's not a break !! Oh man.. been doing parts n bits of my projects and revising minute pieces of it still, i can't catch up! Well.. time really flies.. and i wonder how many times have i said these.. now is already half way through my term break and i can't even revise what was taught yet! how to do well like this.. walao.. stress la..

One good thing about this term break is that WL came back le.. last thursday.. real nice to see him again.. he's still about the same and the bad thing is he still gotta went back to camps coz he haven ORD yet..

Monday and tuesday went back to school to grab books from library.. need those books to complete the assignments.. duno y, my modules dun encourage us to use info from the web.. must get from books written by somebody.. so went there, order books, wait for books, search books, photocopy books, borrow books, read books.. spent a day there.. monday for chi n tue for history.. well, lucky that now can have a brief idea on what am i going to write, if not i really duno how to answer those questions..

Well, life's revolving around the sch and i think i dun have a sense of what's the world like outside now.. went to stroll pass some shops and i have no interest on what they're selling.. sometimes now just don't like to spend money.. but duno y, i'm still broke.. where's my money? haha.. also dun have time to meet up with friends.. well, also find it hard to have fun with them now.. coz cant spend alot on play and food all this.. used to eat from restaurants to restaurants.. but now i oso find it hard to get food from a hawker centre.. find them so ex.. poor student life..

Pillow is so naive these few days.. think he is in pre-teenage stage.. kept throwing his food dish and spray his food around.. den if not, he'd spit his food all around.. we let him out at night, but sometimes he just got so crazy that he ran around non-stop and nibbled my dad.. told my dad not to let him bite when he's young.. see la, now he bite liao.. everyone dun bite only bite my dad.. den he got real pissed.. den put pillow back to his cage.. den pillow angry.. he even have nightmares, sometimes growl in his sleep den like very agitated.. duno he angry of what.. haha.. den now he learnt how to bark.. sometimes let him out, he'd went to the door there to bark at that indian neighbour.. he dun like indians.. duno y.. haha..

Played audtion these few days.. stil not bad.. can advance to lv 6 now.. haha.. stil not bad la.. managed to squeeze ten min out each day to play awhile stil can go thus far.. haha.. too bad now in novice stage den cant go to noob section to wack up those noobs.. haha.. bad of me.. will do me best! haha.. in work oso la.. thanks every one for reading.. haha.. u guys take care too!! =D

Gee.. How long have I not blog?? Sorry~~

Well, been real stressed up lately.. So many things to do and I think i kinda get lost from this world.. Everyday is just a journey to school and back and at school, get to see people who dressed real fancifully and get to see people who wore like they're from the mountains.. Not much conversations about life with friends and often times when we're hanging out together, it's just complaning about sch wks and staff.. At least most of us play AuditionSea.. So not really no life either..

Next week finally comes the term break.. A week of rest but i think this is really the time i must utlilize fully to catch up with my sch work.. I'm really way behind time.. and there r 6 modules for me this sem.. and guess wat, term papers are required from 4 of the modules, and they r due october.. hell.. u know how much time is needed for each term paper?? i think it's as much as a project and hell tutors give us not much instructions.. Just threw us the topic and want us to produce some ink on papers by that date.. plus citations all this.. oh ya, and i wonder those who never take english, how do they know how to cite, there's no formal lesson about it.. everything is on the web.. web.. web..

For chinese, i dun even know what the question is askin about.. and hell, the teacher oso nv tell us how many words or whether citations are required and what's not.. The astronomy is still quite ok, quite detailed, but it's a pair work and luckily my partner YV is a nice gal and we can still do quite a job.. met up wif her on sat and that project outline cost us a day.. As for the history, i dont know what i can say.. 6 questions choose one.. and as if i know what they mean.. the questions make me puke.. it's really hard and i think u need to answer it like hell.. lastly, social work.. got this social visit coming up this term break and gotta spend a day to visit 2 social service centres.. all this is randomly picked by the teachers and so i cant get those centres located at woodlands, but those far away like serangoon and jurong west.. hell.. and we gotta visit it ourselves, ask a few questions and reflect them.. no one's gonna tell us wat to do.. and our prof stil tell us: rmbr dun bring shame to my name.. ask smart questions.. hell..

As for jap, no term papers but it's alr driving me crazy.. this is one heavy module with 3 tutorials per week.. i can die i tell you.. each week we have four quizzes and u better know how to perform well for each, since there's this continuous assessment system.. and almost all the tutorials you got homework to hand in and there's also this role play test every thur.. and they're rushing like hell.. for eng, i duno what i can say.. every lesson we gotta write essays and check essays.. and these essays are also impt in the assessment..

Been really stress and this tue got a history test.. gotta memorise the whole map of asia, including the cities and capitals and the locations.. some more got 5 short questions costing 5 to 10 pts each.. hell.... i'd been thinkin that a 4 day sch is still not enough.. think i'm not taking jap again next sem.. it's really takin up alot of my time.. and i haven really been spending my time on the module i intend to major in... i really must jia you le..

It's about a month since school started! So fast!! Managed to live my life out of this first month.. met many new faces n get to have a glimpse of the real world.. well.. studies are stil ok.. jap stil coping well, social wk stil manageable.. chinese n history really mug my life out.. as for understandin the universe, it's pure pleasure of learnin smth u like.. well, one thing i dun like abt it is the tutorial.. the tutor seemed to be a part time teacher cum student.. bad attitude in teaching.. dun like to teach the class patiently.. rush through equations.. mad.. well, still managed to cope still since it's held only fortnightly.. dun have to stuck my life in this miserable state every week..

Finally, got my new lappy.. =D First time having a new lappy n it's real fun to bring it around n i just love hackin ppl's wireless.. Haha.. Though it's nt realli reliable.. haha.. making me lazy by lyin on the bed n using the comp to surf n watchin anime.. oh ya, real thanks to YJ my bro for burnin to me the anime "Ouran High ScH.." Real nice!! haha.. been laughin my head off n i just cant stop laughin when Renge-chan appeared each time wif the motor stage.. haha..

Well, been quite a busy week since all the tutorials have started and it's quite fun.. Jap tutorial is tedious coz we gotta converse in Jap n lessons are conducted in jap.. finally managed to memorise hiragana n katakana, so now started to greet in jap, learn the basics of sentence formin n grammar all dis.. Been to other tut such as social wk, n get to see ppl from year 3 and even those grad from polys n prestigious JCs.. then it's a discussion group and all of us gotta discuss abt a certain topic.. was real amazed that many of them really know how to debate.. so smart of them...

Gotta work hard!!! =D

Thanks to all my caring friends who are so supportive!! Real thanks alot!