I never felt so stressed before. And I am so stressed doing this 3 minutes powerpoint presentation. I spend endless days trying to fit theories into this person. But it just never seemed to get it right. When can I stop doing all this?

I have one essay, one lab assignment to be handed in, one midterm to prepare for. And one more presentation script to be prepared and handed in. Now, everything was stucked because of this presentation... and I am so helpless now. Who can I turn to for help?

I guess it's just everyone's strengths and weaknesses are different. And everyone's working style is different. They can just blabber about anything in discussions while I can't do that impromptu. I should say Arts and Sciences students are different. I can spend days and days reading the same chapter but they could just spend 2 hours. I can spend a long time working on an assignment but ended up with a low grade but they can spend 3 hours and score full marks. The world created us to be like that. I should just stay as a Stats student :) (although most of the time I don't know what the prof is talking about)

Why is it that most of the time, I feel very dominated by my team members in whatever groups I work with? Is it the problem with me for being to soft or reserved? Or most of the time I feel difficult to input whatever is going on?

Like I was telling my mum, why is the world so unfair?

I ate many vegetables and fruits, avoid fast food at all costs. Why do I still fall sick so many times as compared to those who ate mac and chocolate possibly everyday?

I also tried to exercise more than people who don't exercise at all, well, at least not that much compare to those who exercise regularly. Still, I fall sick quite often.

My mum says, your whole body lacks unhealthy stuff to balance it. So once you eat unhealthy stuff, your body reacts to it and you fall sick. So, not eating unhealthy food is wrong too :(

OMG it's today it's today!!! And I am still coughing... Aiyo very scared. Faster over! Good luck for my presentation later ;)

Seriously, why did I go sign up for it??? Now the thought of it is so overwhelming... My id is acting over my ego. Rahhhh... I really don't want Thursday to come!! cough until like that, maybe that's a sign...

这午睡，仿佛走进世界的另一端。。。也不算是另一端啦，就是另外一种体验！

I love sleeping during sunset... cuz I am always tired at that hour, so I let myself set together with the sun. HAHA! I am always dreaming about eating. I saw myself living near the sea port, and a ship stopped by the port and the sailor caught so many "hum". Me and my mum just hopped onto the ship and eat sooo many hums, and cockles and mussels. They are so fresh! Okay, if this were to happen in real life. I bet those "humdicts" will kill me if I told them I had endless hums. :P 

After that, little snapshots happen. Some scenes were kind of spooky too. But nevertheless, I had a great time during my two hours of nap. Shuts, I wonder how am I gonna fall asleep again. 

It grows increasingly awkward to go surprise and celebrate people's bday, and also wish people Happy Birthday in a group and everyone starts to wish that person Happy Birthday too...

That's very superficial, of me, when I started the ball rolling sometimes, or, most of the times...

I don't mind, but I mind...

我到底是个怎样的人呢？

我到底想要做个怎样的人呢?

有谁能告诉我？...

Yesterday my Dad asked me: So what are your future plans?

I looked at him, "huh?" 

Are you planning to move out of the house and live alone?

Oh my god, for what? unless I get married... why do I wanna move out and stay alone, and occupy one whole house, when I can stay with my parents as long as I like til I get married and start my own family? 

Very funny question...

Til the day I come when I get married... 

I really had loads and loads of fun in my recess week. My bestest recess week of all! Though I didn't have solid time to study during my recess week.. but I think I should make the best of my uni life and play hard first.. uggghhh.. not a good example haha!

Saturday: brunch with my cousin, so long never see her and wonder how is she like, especially when she injured her leg so seriously. And it's so long when our parents meet up. Bought a dress for myself for coming AAD cuz I realised I had no proper dress (such a depressing wardrobe). Then I went for two tuitions in a row. Totally exhausted. Was looking forward to a meet up with my bears but my dear mum flew us kite... AHHH!!! nevermind, I went dinner with my family and went to support my mum's friend's son in the 猜灯谜 session and I managed to guess one correctly! It's kind of amazing!

Sunday: IDD! International deaf day. Met fellow HI seniors for the event. We were taught line dance in the morning. It was kind of easy to catch, at least for me, as compared to other sessions. Then it was the performance in the auditorium which we personally felt it was kind of screwed up especially when the results were announced wrongly. and the GOH were made to go up and down many times especially when they were sitting at the centre.

And then we rushed off to the east at bedok. We ate like so many times at the hawker there, breathing in alot of satay smoke. It was a nice hang out with the rest of them. And I was looking forward to reminsince my childhood lantern days but it didnt succeed. Oh well, I had a great time playing but.. the next day.. it's gonna be a new person. I'm gonna fake freshie!

Fake freshie was fun, but I couldn't join the senior craze. But it was a good getaway to reminscince my junior days too! But really wanna laugh when the fake identities were again and again, mixed up. Had a great great time. Then my identity was exposed by one of the freshies whom sixth instinct is really so good. Then the next day, I was finally exposed by the seniors who wanted to make up an 8 number team but there was only 7 of them. Nevertheless, I had a fun time playing frisbee and standing under hot sun too...

Then the next day, was work and tuition. Then met my mother and I vented out hundred dollars for shopping  for myself. Feel kind of shiok, didn't shop so much. I just feel like buying things though, and it's those I really need.

then the next day again was work too... Went back home for a sleep cuz I am coughing very badly. another day wasted.

Friday comes. Met my sec sch friend for a simple lunch near home. Went back to study, then was AAD. Wah, my heels really very pain... shouldn't have wore it in the first place. (didn't study much again)

Saturday. Today! I woke up late. Then I met uniy people for a preevent y-dance. We got to know more about the ID community, which is something to freshen up my experience with ID ever since IV. We taught them gangnam style dance and also played games with them. I kind of like the experience though. I feel we should treat them the same as we do treat normal people.

Then it was BBQ. Wah, alot of unhealthy food. hAHA! then another day burst.

I am left with a day to study for a midterm and a quiz. Heng the quiz is not accounted. But, I need to study for my midterm as I am going to watch the Yoga concert and going for tuition too on Monday.

jiayou!

What is today? Today is a day of remembrance when 22 years ago, mum suffered a cut on her stomach. And 22 years later, mum again, suffered a burnt on her stomach too. Is there a sign or something?

Therefore, I have decided to... forgot this day... for the rest of my life.

yt, my best friend, I am really touched by your actions and the only one who remembers this day. I really hope our friendship will last forever. love ya and 谢谢你 for everything you done. 我从来都不知道跟一大群朋友庆祝生日是怎么一回事。。。