在人生当中，一旦做错了事，或走错了一步， 就不能再回头，回到过去了吗？

可是选择离开，久别了遗憾。。。

What's wrong with me again?

Seriously wasted my weekend doing nothing constructive... Have to deal with all my negative emotions again.

I won't go back to this salon again...

Did my hair offend you? Why do you just have to criticize my hair as though it is like oil spill on the grass?
Need to comb until so hard meh? And want me help me wash my hair cuz it's like damn oily to her?

*Giving me many "advices" when she asks me to choose what kind of hair I want, I have already chosen it and she talks somemore, but your hair blablablablabla.... cannot like that, if not blablabla... THEN YOU STILL ASK ME FOR WHAT?
Worse still, I have already replied her what I want

Her: EH, 你还没有回答我勒，你的前面要怎样剪？
Me: HUH?  我刚才不是早就跟你讲了？
Her: 哦有meh？哦可能刚才讲话讲话忘记。。。
Me: ..... *FROWNS AT HER*

And she can just continue talking and pulling my hair for 10 over seconds, want to talk go and talk la.. open business for what?

Nevermind, when scrubbing shampoo on my hair, she said, "很痛的hor?"
Okay lo, nevermind I can tolerate..

During washing, I think she sprain her finger.. tsk... nevermind

After washing, CHEY! Also not pain lor.. I have experienced more shiok message than hers...

I think she knows I'm black faced liao.. so she is nicer in her tone...

But, still, continue talking about me to my mum...
"I see her, like, never want to doll up herself one hor?"
(wah lau eh, Yea, I don't like, but how can you judge your customer like this?"
"Wah, she studying ah?"
"Eh, she don't look like you hor? (to my mum), look more like the father" (you got see my father before meh?)
"Wah only child? Precious leh..."
Eh you interrogator ah? Ask so much about my family... wonders why my mum is still chatting happily with them....

She wants me to look at my hair, so I wore my specs... then waited awhile before she is ready to continue..
“Eh，眼镜拿掉！？！" Wah so rude leh..
I just replied her "Sorry!"

After everything else is done... she swept the whole bunch of hair down to my legs and just go "Sorry sorry!"
Didn't help me clean up the mess, make til my shirt is full of hair.. What kind of service is this?

I'm not a problematic customer at all. This is the first time I get so fed up with this person. Not because of her working style or what. But why say so many things to judge me when you first time meet me? And openly criticise me in front of other customers, my mum, and the salon people... I had a bad experience about that, and totally cannot tolerate that.

That's my personal grudge on this particular person, no offences..

As I reached home, I saw my dad's phone charging in my room.

Me: DADDY!!!! Why you charge your phone in my room??????!!!!?????
Dad: Then why you take away my charger????!!!???
Me: *Paused for a while* Oh ya.. :P

I'm so blur I didn't even know I charge my phone this morning using his charger and brought his charger to school too. HAHA! What a joke...

What a nice way to end the week :)

I thought it would be a tiring day ahead. but I had a fulfilling day today:) Thanks to all the wonderful friends!

One random thing, I finally saw my cookies and cream cat today. Taken this photo some time ago but so cute isn't it? I always call her doong doong because 뚱뚱해요 (doong doong hae yo) means fat in korean. Okay, I'm just crazy over fat cats so ignore me ya. HAHA! This is my favourite in my estate. She camouflages with the ground isn't it?

And I was on time for my lesson today, finally I reached before the teacher opens his mouth and talk! Not bad, good improvement.

Lab today was kind of fun, the lecturer is so good that he already did us the codes and the image 4. We just have to revise and understand it. Then, he ask us to produce the image 3 for him. Everybody is so excited finding the nicest 3 out of the 200 images. I found one nicest but everyone else behind me copy cat ah.. HAHAA! And I chose the one that resembles the McDonald sign.

Nice lunch with my coursemates after lab session. Probably my last sem with some of them cuz some are graduating soon. Really hope to interact with them more before the sem ends. And nice xiao long bao today (though I didn't manage to snap a photo)! this salmon tama is nice also (at least 1001 times nicer than foods in can A and B)

Then joined RSPHI pple at SRC for badminton session. I think I played really shiong today. I feel my arm aching liao. Nice game with all of them today.

After that, I went to north spine to get this 1-for-1 starbucks coffee, salted caramel mocha & frup. Specially asked for mine without whipped cream. unsalted and hot. Nice drink! And the queue wasn't long. Just nice in time for HY to come from work and join me for Yu KeWei's concert.

Brought hy to Palette for dinner. (As there are no nice foods in NTU main canteen) I ate my marina spag again. Just enjoyed tomato based.

We walked to LKC after that and there was already a long queue waiting to enter the LT liao. And this was before the concert started.

Ivy was out. Wow golden hair. I still remember she was at this LT when shen mu yu tong was here two years ago. Everyone laughs at her laughter. Rather epic moment too!

The star is out! Her dress is nice!

So nice, they gave us light sticks.

I was so happy she sang the theme song for xili movie and also 指望！Just so happy she sang this song which is my favourite song too!

Nice meeting up with this friend too :) Glad she enjoyed the concert!

What a nice way to end this busy week. Time to catch up on my studies and my midterm next Wednesday.

HAHA it's a fulfilling day today.

Was in class today and a friend suddenly call me to see a cat named pancake.. HAHA! How funny, I think next time I see pancake, I will think of this cat liao... Sorry ah, I'm just crazy about cats :P

Met a friend for lunch and we chatted about some stuff. I was thinking that if I were to try and join comm two years ago, I think, things were be a little different. I was kind of regretting after having a chat with another friend, that, I didn't even try running for it. But nevermind, 都过了那么久了... Things may be different then. I would have gained experience and friendship, but, time and energy would be gone too. And I think I would be quite stressed up too haha. Give and take. Anyway, time to move on. Really glad to have this friend still by my side and listen to my woes and smiles. It's very rare to still meet this kind of friends with me.

Went for physics lecture, and those guy friends were sitting with me. Glad to have them around too. And I was quite surprised that this guy whom I always sit with, was from Indonesia. But he is so localised liao!!!

Then I went for psychology lecture, was still kind of surprised when a girl behind randomly said to me, "Hey your file is so cute!" Wow, it's just a spoilt Hello Kitty file I used 5 years ago and I am still using it, "Haha! But it's so kiddish!" Interesting people I met in psych.

Then I saw this two friends on my way back, sitting with me in the same tutorial class. Then, got to know that this girl, was also from Indonesia but she is also so localised liao!

Conclusion: met two very localised Indonesians today. So, new immigrants can make it to integrate to our society!

Still so surprised now haha. I think I am very lucky today to meet so good people this semester especially when I am alone for three modules. Blessed!

Have a nice week ahead ya?

I just wanna exclaimed...

I think my AHMA is faster in any way than the computers in school...

HAHAHA!!!!

Identity Crisis

We had an interesting lesson with my psychology class today. Well, at least it is interesting to me as compared to other lessons I got. At one point, we questioned ourselves if we were facing any crises during our adolescence years. We pointed out the fact that most of us, in fact, we should be facing identity crisis.

Many of my group members raise the problem of being conforming to peers. HAHA, I guess this is also my biggest problem in life too. Conform or not to conform?

I didn't want to conform in the past, and never want to. I just enjoy doing things that I like. And so it raises the issue of me not getting accepted by my peers. And then it questioned me again, am I suppose to conform just to get accepted by anyone. I really don't know, it just puzzled me...

Even until now...

I don't have much things to talk about, and remember me about... much less to say identity. In searching for one... the way I express myself to people, the way I talk to people, the way I carry myself to different kinds of people, it just based on my first instinct. Should I say I tone down already? Hmmm, I am like a lost sheep.

Final year liao still lost? How can? But at least, I know what I like and I am satisfied with what I have now. And I am, well, a little little bit more confident in the past. And a clearer view of my strengths and weaknesses, okay maybe not so much about strengths, but weaknesses which I will work on.

I guess when I really start work, my personality will surface even more. Sometimes in certain occasions, you will just tend to behave in a certain way that you want others see yourself in, but that is not the true you. This is where the dilemma comes in. You want others to accept you but at the same time, you just want to be true. How to be true and accepting at the same time? Are people born with this kind of personality, or is it shaped by environment?

Although I have fully stepped out of the box, I think I still can't get over my experience as a teenager. So I turn towards my academic achievements, though not so good, but not so bad either. Which was where I am today. I was just kind of curious how would I become if I were to be in a slightly different school and social environment. A fortune teller once mentioned that I tend to split hairs, which I think it is true. Some things could not be forced. Let nature takes its course. Is it cuz of this constant reminder to myself that "I cannot split hairs I cannot split hairs" deter me of doing certain things? Perhaps, I think too deep and too much of what certain things I do and certain things I say.

The biggest flaw I had with me was, 有些事情，你很想去做。但你又怕会做不好，弄巧反拙，或者没有做到最好。还是我的要求太高了？还是别人的要求比我更高？我不知道。先别管这些，做了在说。Sometimes it is also to constraints that I have. I need full concentration on that certain one thing I wanna achieve. Overloading me kills. HAHA!

在父母面前，你要做一个好孩子。我不觉得我那里好，但也没有坏到哪里去。
在老师面前，你要做个好学生。我不觉得我是用功的，但也没有叛逆。(okay, at least in uni context)
在朋友面前，你要做个好朋友。Anyway this is very subjective. Acquaintances everywhere. I would say I put up rather similar traits in front of them. But slightly different reactions and interaction way to each different groups, cuz the social environment is different. Say, I behave like a baby or like a grandparent in front of my parents. and more childish in front of closer and older brothers like dong and phong? I behave more casual and neutral in front of my woodlands seniors. And more cheek-ish and trying to be lame or conforming in front of my woodpeckers. Erm, perhaps more studious and initiative amongst my course mates. As for colleagues or people whom I work with, more "wanna-avoid-troubles" kind of relationship. And now, as a fake freshie, more introvert (as how I am like, exactly the same 4 years back) and noob - and I think I am no difference from where I am 4 years ago. A whole new experience again.

Okay, the more I analyse myself, the more I think I have personality disorder liao! HAHAHAHA!!!!

I, just wanna be normal. Stop dwelling and getting occupied over this matter and return back to your normal work and life. You haven't been doing work for the past donno how many days.