It's the last day of year 2, feeling of unbearableness. For the fact that I still won't be able to join the stats module classes during special sem. And also I won't be in NTU for the next semester. Thinking of joining SUSEP during sem 2 too. Bye NTU and will say hi in 2012!
Perhaps I may still crash classes in the beginning of Sem 1?
Well, did the most embarassing today at the last lesson of this year. Bringing chairs from the opposite tutorial room and squeezing through the class, sat so right infront, but I think it's weird so I sat at the side instead. Feel more comfortable. haha!
Jia you for exams!
Still dreaming about royal wedding. So interested in their royal culture and all... I love the hats the guests and the royal family were wearing. HAHA!
Friday, April 29, 2011
Monday, April 25, 2011
Chasing cars.. chasing assignments
Two assignments down today.
Yay. It marks the end of the terrible HW. Actually I realised it's not so terrible afterall. I don't know my group mates until I came to this tutorial group. And frankly, I don't really have good impression of the whole team in general cuz we were quite lost at first, with the fact that very few will go to lectures. and always come late for tutorials and meetings. and also a "i-don't-know-what-to-say" AT group member. We are the most problematic group all the time. Always finding tutor for help. maybe the tutor doesnt have a good impression of us. The only time she sees us all 6 present was during the first proposal conference. After that, it's always 3 or 4... problems. to the extent i even think of just dropping it if i can and go exchange to clear. i have all the means to do that.
our group always have a super big problem with being punctual. not pinpointing anyone. but in general, including me too. when we say meeting starts at 3, people will turn up at 4. after that, we did improve lah. how can a always-not-punctual people do a project on punctuality? okay contradicting.
we always have to trouble the tutor alot of times. we have second conferencing for both assignments. letting her read our stuff over and over again. though our proposal didn't do very well. but i hope our final report can at least give us a better grade than before. and also commitment issues in the group.
today when we submit our project. we excluded this member from the report. so she was quite strict and ask us to come into the meeting room and chat with her. she asked us to send her an email as to why we exclude him out of the group. bet he has also predicted it. few weeks ago, we also spoke to her about this issue, but she hasnt take action til 2 weeks ago? she say she is apologetic that this situation falls on us this time. that it was quite unfortunate. but this is fate lah. we are too kind initially. we should choose our group members carefully. like i've said, we are the group which approaches her more times that any other group.
as to other group members. sometimes i worry about the commitment issue too. so sometimes i start shooting arrows. but then eventually, i found that im the one who didnt actually contributed alot because finals are starting. and i cant be very keen on to do the project. but before that, i kept shooting questions on the project. cuz we seem to have alot of loopholes around. and true enough, our project is not those typical finding results from something kind of thing. ours is more of an invention of something to improve something. okay sounds cheem. but i hope i did contribute to the project significantly. the amount of work that my group mates chiong the last minute surprises me too. especially that night when we stayed up late to finish our draft proposal (but still turn out to be very cui) til 5am. the productivity shocked me too, when im really going to be concussed already. my english is not so good, the tutor always pinpoint at parts i write. somehow i don dare to voice out my opinions as much as last time.
and also we had much fun tgt talking nonsense, dragging the project to online meetings all the time. making fun of certain people. that's what made it more relaxing and easier to deal with. fun people in my group.
thank you all for the wonderful time! happy travelling with shuttle bus C!
enough of this hw module.
3 more assignments to 'down' tmr.
5 more quizzes to go...
Yay. It marks the end of the terrible HW. Actually I realised it's not so terrible afterall. I don't know my group mates until I came to this tutorial group. And frankly, I don't really have good impression of the whole team in general cuz we were quite lost at first, with the fact that very few will go to lectures. and always come late for tutorials and meetings. and also a "i-don't-know-what-to-say" AT group member. We are the most problematic group all the time. Always finding tutor for help. maybe the tutor doesnt have a good impression of us. The only time she sees us all 6 present was during the first proposal conference. After that, it's always 3 or 4... problems. to the extent i even think of just dropping it if i can and go exchange to clear. i have all the means to do that.
our group always have a super big problem with being punctual. not pinpointing anyone. but in general, including me too. when we say meeting starts at 3, people will turn up at 4. after that, we did improve lah. how can a always-not-punctual people do a project on punctuality? okay contradicting.
we always have to trouble the tutor alot of times. we have second conferencing for both assignments. letting her read our stuff over and over again. though our proposal didn't do very well. but i hope our final report can at least give us a better grade than before. and also commitment issues in the group.
today when we submit our project. we excluded this member from the report. so she was quite strict and ask us to come into the meeting room and chat with her. she asked us to send her an email as to why we exclude him out of the group. bet he has also predicted it. few weeks ago, we also spoke to her about this issue, but she hasnt take action til 2 weeks ago? she say she is apologetic that this situation falls on us this time. that it was quite unfortunate. but this is fate lah. we are too kind initially. we should choose our group members carefully. like i've said, we are the group which approaches her more times that any other group.
as to other group members. sometimes i worry about the commitment issue too. so sometimes i start shooting arrows. but then eventually, i found that im the one who didnt actually contributed alot because finals are starting. and i cant be very keen on to do the project. but before that, i kept shooting questions on the project. cuz we seem to have alot of loopholes around. and true enough, our project is not those typical finding results from something kind of thing. ours is more of an invention of something to improve something. okay sounds cheem. but i hope i did contribute to the project significantly. the amount of work that my group mates chiong the last minute surprises me too. especially that night when we stayed up late to finish our draft proposal (but still turn out to be very cui) til 5am. the productivity shocked me too, when im really going to be concussed already. my english is not so good, the tutor always pinpoint at parts i write. somehow i don dare to voice out my opinions as much as last time.
and also we had much fun tgt talking nonsense, dragging the project to online meetings all the time. making fun of certain people. that's what made it more relaxing and easier to deal with. fun people in my group.
thank you all for the wonderful time! happy travelling with shuttle bus C!
enough of this hw module.
3 more assignments to 'down' tmr.
5 more quizzes to go...
Sunday, April 24, 2011
结束了！一切都结束了
this phrase keeps ringing in my head after the super funny "breakout" skit in last week's star awards show.
yes, the most horrible module of this sem is finally coming to an end tomorrow, at 5pm.
Thinking about that, one assignment finally down. Tomorrow I have to hand in two assignments, another one on Tuesday. Then tonnes of quizzes due by this Friday. 5 quizzes. 2 matlab assignments. Spend my time today today so many assignments. Didn't even study concretely. It's just two more weeks left. And nothing has been done. Okay, I think I have the sense of urgency now. I don't think I have spent my week wisely. With two days out to do HW, then left the remaining days trying to chiong things but I'm studying so slowly. I made an accomplishment today by not studying in front of the computer. K I shan't do that. Laptops are very distracting. But I want songs!
I feel like a lousy superwoman. Having survived 5 hours of sleep a day. But the next day I overslept my whole morning away. Now I prefer cooling weathers because hot weathers caused me to fall asleep very fast.
It was a nice meet up with pong and dong yesterday, eating burmese cuisines, watching the humourous movie Rio. It was 4 months since I last watched a movie. A great time to let go my tense-ness in me. And I also spent most of time figuring out if my gong cha is sweet or sour while the two guys are having their mens talk all the way. I don't have the time spent with friends like this, just sitting down, "enjoying" drinks and talking. Hardly in my life, so I appreciate the friendship alot. I guess one day, the trio will have to separate. I don't know who will leave first. I don't know when will it be. But I know one thing for sure, I will have to treasure the times now, than to regret later. If you ask about my past, I don't have a fantastic teenage life spent. I spend most of the time crying, in depressed moods during secondary school. I have problems mixing into the culture of the school. And up til now, I am still blaming my parents who sent me to this school. I thought, I could have be happier elsewhere. But I'll never know, maybe worse. One thing I learn for sure is. I've got to be indepdendent. I never trusted my friends anymore, til I met great friends in Jc and uni. I never had a best friend in life. Friends just come and go as I reached a new phase of my student life each time. Perhaps we are still friends and can talk, but still, not veryvery close as before. People will be busy, so am I. That's how my teenage life passed. My real teenage life started when I was 17, as I entered JC. That's when I got to be happier and learn to appreciate things I have in life. You may say I grow up late. That's because I didn't do as much things as some others do when they are really young. I should try new things, I should join more stuffs, I should do this, I should do that. But back then, all I know is... my friends don't accept me, what should I do? That kind of mindset which impedes me to move on. It's amazing how I could survive through 4 years there.
I am trying to understand things now. Sometimes I understand, sometimes I don't. But I can never really understand in my heart. Because I don't have the experience. Growing up? Haha, we shall see if I ever grow up. That does not mean my life is nothing as compared to others. That does not mean my life is worthless. Just that, I'm slow, or not cut out to make a difference.
I may whine, I may complain, but deep down in my heart, sometimes I don't mean what I say. I will continue to try and push all my limits away. Overcome my obstacle. I can do it, and I will.
Frankly, I am very scared now being a teacher. I can't imagine myself being totally immersed in the new kind of working experience as a full-time teacher.
yes, the most horrible module of this sem is finally coming to an end tomorrow, at 5pm.
Thinking about that, one assignment finally down. Tomorrow I have to hand in two assignments, another one on Tuesday. Then tonnes of quizzes due by this Friday. 5 quizzes. 2 matlab assignments. Spend my time today today so many assignments. Didn't even study concretely. It's just two more weeks left. And nothing has been done. Okay, I think I have the sense of urgency now. I don't think I have spent my week wisely. With two days out to do HW, then left the remaining days trying to chiong things but I'm studying so slowly. I made an accomplishment today by not studying in front of the computer. K I shan't do that. Laptops are very distracting. But I want songs!
I feel like a lousy superwoman. Having survived 5 hours of sleep a day. But the next day I overslept my whole morning away. Now I prefer cooling weathers because hot weathers caused me to fall asleep very fast.
It was a nice meet up with pong and dong yesterday, eating burmese cuisines, watching the humourous movie Rio. It was 4 months since I last watched a movie. A great time to let go my tense-ness in me. And I also spent most of time figuring out if my gong cha is sweet or sour while the two guys are having their mens talk all the way. I don't have the time spent with friends like this, just sitting down, "enjoying" drinks and talking. Hardly in my life, so I appreciate the friendship alot. I guess one day, the trio will have to separate. I don't know who will leave first. I don't know when will it be. But I know one thing for sure, I will have to treasure the times now, than to regret later. If you ask about my past, I don't have a fantastic teenage life spent. I spend most of the time crying, in depressed moods during secondary school. I have problems mixing into the culture of the school. And up til now, I am still blaming my parents who sent me to this school. I thought, I could have be happier elsewhere. But I'll never know, maybe worse. One thing I learn for sure is. I've got to be indepdendent. I never trusted my friends anymore, til I met great friends in Jc and uni. I never had a best friend in life. Friends just come and go as I reached a new phase of my student life each time. Perhaps we are still friends and can talk, but still, not veryvery close as before. People will be busy, so am I. That's how my teenage life passed. My real teenage life started when I was 17, as I entered JC. That's when I got to be happier and learn to appreciate things I have in life. You may say I grow up late. That's because I didn't do as much things as some others do when they are really young. I should try new things, I should join more stuffs, I should do this, I should do that. But back then, all I know is... my friends don't accept me, what should I do? That kind of mindset which impedes me to move on. It's amazing how I could survive through 4 years there.
I am trying to understand things now. Sometimes I understand, sometimes I don't. But I can never really understand in my heart. Because I don't have the experience. Growing up? Haha, we shall see if I ever grow up. That does not mean my life is nothing as compared to others. That does not mean my life is worthless. Just that, I'm slow, or not cut out to make a difference.
I may whine, I may complain, but deep down in my heart, sometimes I don't mean what I say. I will continue to try and push all my limits away. Overcome my obstacle. I can do it, and I will.
Frankly, I am very scared now being a teacher. I can't imagine myself being totally immersed in the new kind of working experience as a full-time teacher.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Where my dreams wait for me...
All I can say tonight is... I never regret my decision joining Home, joining RSPHI. Where it's a place in NTU which feels like a home to me, though sometimes I feel a little strange beneath it.
I still remember that time when they are recruiting people for this performance, not many people are so keen to take the initiative. But I was kind of interested in the start, perhaps due to the nature of the song, as I had always wish for a chance to perform something of nation cause. Performing infront of the whole Singapore in a stadium has always been my dream. But that's what the next Kit Chan or Stef Sun will be capable of, not any simple job as it could seem. Well anyway, I ask pong to tag along with me too. Surprisingly, now, he seems more "into" the performance than me HAHA! Feels kind of weird when there are so little seniors. But well, I had fun, though a little tired having to drag myself to wait for practice in the night every Thursday when I can actually go 'home' early. Having to perform at this environment has given me a new feeling about performing. We all along have been using songs and play it. But now, it's a completely new feeling of listening to the piano and singer singing, and signing tgt with the singer. What's amazing was, we just started practising tgt with the pianist and the singer only yesterday night. And today, miracles happen! Thought we are still not that familiar with the new style, but we make a good performance! Practising yesterday at the ny house CO room really brings me back to the good old days in my secondary school choir, where all of our songs are accompanied by piano, and my friend was playing the piano at that time. I really like this feeling haha! And in the beginning we heard the singer's voice on recording, seems kinda of weird. But she's not bad on live. And I think she works very hard to make it nice, as she's not really a singaporean to feel this song sung by every heartlanders.
It's the first time in a performance, I was positioned to be on the centre of the stage. And people were all telling me that my face was being projected on the live feed move screen. Hope I don't look too ugly... HAHA! Anyway, listening to the piano today makes me wanna bulk up of learning the basics. And don't ever stand near the piano when it's being played. Because it's very frustrating, disturbing my level of attention. The kind of "bang" "bang" note, seriously making my head pain now. But, classical music are really not my style. Don't really know how to appreciate. But piano music is generally soothing... not when you stand in front of the piano and the pianist is banging the piano.
We all had fun after the event is over, where we have our 'debrief' at tutorial room 103. And celebrating chuan yuan's birthday. So many people were there in a one big family. It really makes my day to have fun with the seniors, juniors, taking photos, and receiving flowers. Hai, after today, I have to get back on feet to study, and prepare for my finals, full force... Though busy and tiring, I had a fulfilling one =))
I still remember that time when they are recruiting people for this performance, not many people are so keen to take the initiative. But I was kind of interested in the start, perhaps due to the nature of the song, as I had always wish for a chance to perform something of nation cause. Performing infront of the whole Singapore in a stadium has always been my dream. But that's what the next Kit Chan or Stef Sun will be capable of, not any simple job as it could seem. Well anyway, I ask pong to tag along with me too. Surprisingly, now, he seems more "into" the performance than me HAHA! Feels kind of weird when there are so little seniors. But well, I had fun, though a little tired having to drag myself to wait for practice in the night every Thursday when I can actually go 'home' early. Having to perform at this environment has given me a new feeling about performing. We all along have been using songs and play it. But now, it's a completely new feeling of listening to the piano and singer singing, and signing tgt with the singer. What's amazing was, we just started practising tgt with the pianist and the singer only yesterday night. And today, miracles happen! Thought we are still not that familiar with the new style, but we make a good performance! Practising yesterday at the ny house CO room really brings me back to the good old days in my secondary school choir, where all of our songs are accompanied by piano, and my friend was playing the piano at that time. I really like this feeling haha! And in the beginning we heard the singer's voice on recording, seems kinda of weird. But she's not bad on live. And I think she works very hard to make it nice, as she's not really a singaporean to feel this song sung by every heartlanders.
It's the first time in a performance, I was positioned to be on the centre of the stage. And people were all telling me that my face was being projected on the live feed move screen. Hope I don't look too ugly... HAHA! Anyway, listening to the piano today makes me wanna bulk up of learning the basics. And don't ever stand near the piano when it's being played. Because it's very frustrating, disturbing my level of attention. The kind of "bang" "bang" note, seriously making my head pain now. But, classical music are really not my style. Don't really know how to appreciate. But piano music is generally soothing... not when you stand in front of the piano and the pianist is banging the piano.
We all had fun after the event is over, where we have our 'debrief' at tutorial room 103. And celebrating chuan yuan's birthday. So many people were there in a one big family. It really makes my day to have fun with the seniors, juniors, taking photos, and receiving flowers. Hai, after today, I have to get back on feet to study, and prepare for my finals, full force... Though busy and tiring, I had a fulfilling one =))
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
Good Day
Let me do some blogging before I go the bed. Good things happen. Oh well, I think I'm blessed. Firstly, my group got nominated for the best group in our tutorial group. Don't know if it's like people anyhow choose. Apparently, we don't have much time to talk and gather questions since the previous group drag. We are now still in the process of drafting the report. Hopefully it is done by this week. Secondly, our tutor finally took action of speaking to "you-know-who". Although it's quite late now, but given the fact that we voiced out early, I think a little should have been done. my mum mentioned that it will be quite bad to strike his name out. But given the fact that it didn't contribute. Moreover, when we are meeting yesterday, he just shake leg, trying to look in our laptops. When hh went down to buy dinner, he also go down but didn't come up after that, til when we leave, he ran up to get his bag. It's so epic. (learn a new word). Bad karma. what happens if we really strike out his name. But at least, something is being done! I'm so glad... And we're glad that we found direction to our project. We really hope to further improve it! Went to Hall 1 with huadong. Yes! I completed all the canteens already. At least I have eaten at each canteen at least once... Thanks for being my tour guide every tuesday, around NTU. NTU is really a nice place.. You guys should take a little break every week to go around school to explore places that we seldom will pass by everyday. "I felt in love with spaghetti" - for once, I got huadong excited for awhile.. HAHAHA! Good day good day... and I keep seeing my eye candy!!! It's so long since I ever went home alone, so early in the afternoon. It has been so long since I ever went home, listening to songs on my itouch. It feels great to school again =)
Friday, April 8, 2011
Phew a little...
The whole week was dedicated to HW. And we didn't hand in a good draft. I'm like so frustrated with certain things the group done. An aid to punctuality. That's my project title. But those people doing it are seriously not punctual at all. Not to say the effectiveness and the productivity level of the group. I think those can be done within 2 days, but still, it was dragged til 4 days, with one full day including overnight. Draft was sent at 5.15am, so, only 3 turn up for conferencing... Seriously, how bad it is. Is it so difficult to wake up just for one hour? Okay, well, I shan't expect much, but they were productive during the midnight, despite having to drag a sick person to do it.. haha!!! There are simply too much things that has happened til I don't feel like blogging for now. Studies. HW. I didn't have time to study for this whole week at all til today. I am lagging behind by alot. Especially physics, I have yet to start catching up and revising from lecture 1 onwards. Luckily there were still weekly tutorials and assignments to hand in. So I won't feel that lagged behind. And I have been coming late for lessons almost every single time. All because of HW, too tired, then go late... One hour lecture, late half an hour, must well don't come... Angry with myself. At the same time, like that, how to remain consistent? GPA sure drop... Piano Ensemble is coming up. I hope I won't regret joining this time round. Though practices are slowly increasing since the date is drawing near. all I wanna say is... jiayou!
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