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ZYRUL NIZAM
GEMINI
12th JUNE 1987
kimkie08@hotmail.com

I'm SPECIAL in my own way -
I FART out of my nose. Waha!

I'm attached 2 ShaZyla..
just an ordinary girl from far east
who never fails 2 make me happy

FEW facts about me:
A believer in philosophical optimism.
Extremely talkative. 100% sure.
I treat every arguement topic as an
opportunity 2 be discussed with relevant explanations,
from general 2 scientific
propositions, which may be used
as principles of explanation
for any class of phenomena.
Any phenomena.
I am simple.=)

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ZYRUL NIZAM
a.k.a. Kimie
GEMINI
12th JUNE 1987
kimkie08@hotmail.com

I'm SPECIAL in my own way -
I FART out of my nose. Waha!

I'm attached 2 kikie..
just an ordinary girl from far east
who never fails 2 make me happy =)

FEW facts about me:
A believer in philosophical optimism.
Extremely talkative. 100% sure.
I treat every arguement topic as an
opportunity 2 be discussed with relevant explanations,
from general 2 scientific
propositions, which may be used
as principles of explanation
for any class of phenomena.
Any phenomena.
I am simple.=)

Do DROP by my FRIENDSTER profile!

Anyway thanks for visiting
you are visitor, or reader, number:

and still counting baybeyy...

False alarm

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Today I was at Polyclinic...
I was fine being alone waiting for my turn.
Gurlfey had 2 be in school, otherwise I would be happier 2 share my boredom with her.
Polyclinic is just amazing. The wait could force a 3 month pregnant into labour!
Serious! Of cuz datz crazy. Enough crapping.

I consulted the Doc..
Oh...
The results was bad.
His expression clearly define the outcome already.
And he made me feel even worse!
My Saturday's symptoms made him suspect me of having 'Pneumothorax'.
Somekind of a "hole in the lung"...so the lung may collapse anytime yadayada..
The name itself made me feel complicated.
It took 4 repetition of the word 'Pneumothorax' b4 it finally registered into my brain.

Later, he referred me 2 Tan Tock Seng A&W...erm..I meant..A&E.
So after lunch...me and gurl rushed for cab.
Hey..I got bloody worried y'noe..my gurl got doubly worried but she seemed optimistic. The one who panick was ME..yes...me.

We arrived at the 'Emergency' building...
My condition was critical..so I bypassed other waiting patients, reducing the usual waiting time of 2 hours! Gee hee hee! Short-cut.
Oh I must tell u dat...nevertheless I was having a critical health condition, I was required 2 make payment first. Okay..emergency payment probably.
I paid 80 dollars. First I thought it was 18. Huh? 18? No..80. 18? Ohh..80! Haha..I cudnt believe my ears.

I went thru chest X-ray, observation, ECG, and several doctors using sethoscopes listening 2 my chest..(many listening ears are proved 2 be effective).
So many talking mouths? NOISY la doink.

Finally...they found out that I'm fine. =) *smiley faces*
BUT...my diagnostic was only a possibility.
If the pain occurs again, I've 2 return for second check-up.

Another note: The consultation fee was supposed 2 be $80.28. Fortunately, 28 cents are subsidised by the government. =)

I'm okay! 2 thums-up and i'm ready 2 go!!

Well thats it☺

I hope this excitement last forever

Saturday, July 28, 2007

It had been a long time since I last went 2 the Mandai Zoo. So many changes have taken place so far. The entrance, the path, and I am sure..the animals have grown up too. Oh yeah! But not really...the Giraffes grew shorter, and the Kangaroos didn't hop as many as before.

I went there with Kikie's family. The picture above shows the truck her dad drove. Really cool uh? We crashed into the Australian Outback fence when we arrived. No animals were harmed. We didn't get ourselves dirty though.

I really have no idea what I touched on the left picture. On the right, itz obvious datz kambing! Kikie's favourite animal. Nyahar! Confirm she'll say datz my fren. Do u know..she mention the word 'kambing' almost half of the time in her life? And she refers dat 'Kambing' 2 every1 else besides herself. Just a quick fact guys.

Enter and prepare to be crated!Haha! Datz wad it says. Probably Kikie's mum regretted bringing us 2 the Zoo...cuz we got too excited when we met our friends. Well..she decided 2 dump us into this piece of crate and hoped for delivery 2 take place immediately.

Madagascar! Here we come!

We enjoyed the cooling weather cuz it was drizzling. We didn't take many pictures cuz we were either enjoying ourselves, or we were too lazy 2 snap pictures. But the pictures we took, usually look silly.

Our surroundings especially. Hehe! Shame on u monyet! We left Zoo at five. I am so lucky diz time..u know why? Cuz the last time I went 2 the Zoo, about 5 years ago, there was diz stupid monkey who urinated on me! Maybe cuz I got bored seeing him sitting motionless on top of the tall tree, so I shouted at him asking him 2 move. When I felt a few drops of water...I asked my brother-in-law, "Is is raining?"

After we left Zoo, we headed down 2 the Merlion at Cityhall 2 catch the fireworks again. Diz time round, we went with her brother's girlfren. And diz time round cuz itz a NDP preview..the fireworks display was an extravaganza one! I don't have 2 repeat describing the fireworks....i've run out of adjectives.

Awwwwhh! Brother and sister looking sooo sweet together.
The fun ended with a dinner at Cavana Marina Square. We separated from there, Kikie's bro left wit his gurl on a bike, and my gurl accompanied me on the train 2 Commonwealth before her brother picked her up near the station
While on the train, something bad struck me. We were joking around and laughing while standing. I thought I was fine all along, but a moment later...I felt a sharp pain striking my heart. I had no idea what was dat. It was so painful dat it left me gasping for air. But I couldn't take a deep breath..cuz every deep inhalation hurts. Shortly later, I began 2 lose consciousness. Her voice started 2 echo around me. I could only see bright lights around me...and her only silhoutte in front of me. I held her tight trying 2 tell her something. I wanted 2 tell her dat I felt like losing myself and fall onto the floor.
She pulled me out of the train and let me lie on the platform seat. My body felt so numb...my mind was almost blank..all I could think of was, "I have 2 keep myself awake." And I began praying. I knew I would be fine.
Later...I knew I was feeling alryte. I looked at my gurl..she seemed extremely worried. I got up..and we left the station. She sent me 2 the taxi stand 2 see me off in the cab. I'm so glad that i'm fine now. I'm so glad she was there when I needed her. Till now, I am still thinkin about wad happened..it was scary.
I love u baby!

Well thats it☺

The best plan is having no plan

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Today I spent half of my day travelling.
I left home at 11am..took the LRT from Segar, transferred 2 MRT at CCK
and later alighted at Dover. (I went 2 S'pore Poly 2 meet my former lecturer.)
Later met Kikie, we took 105 and datz when we got lost.
I tot it was 106 which could bring us 2 Marina Centre, hence we ended up at Toa Payoh! Nyahar ha ha!
But nevermind, cuz initially we didn't have any plan afterall.

So we ended up roaming around Toa Payoh.
Despite after landing onto a neighbourhood town 2 spend our Saturday afternoon, we managed 2 find ways 2 entertain ourselves. Well...the past images of Singapore did make us laugh.

Another bus trap.
We took service 88 to Pasir Ris...and the long ride made me fall asleep.
When I woke up..I was still in the midst of the journey.One hour in the super-chilled bus already made my nose runny.
The journey was long enough 2 bring us 2 the moon.
My girl never complained. Even if she would, she shouldn't, cuz she has a Bus Concession which gives her the unlimited rides. Pfft!

By the time I reached Downtown East, my stomach was already grumbling..

Thankfully, Kikie's family invited me 2 dinner at Sakura International Buffet. The food was great..and since itz a buffet, u could definitely beg 4 more!

There they are, a family of 6 inclusive of her bro-in-law, far left in the picture, who had his stomach bloated! Sitting beside him is Kikie's mum. She's crowned the queen for the day for having great endurance. But it was a fair competition cuz Kikie's dad was crowned too. Then across the table, datz Kikie. She looked somewhat happy cuz she'll inherit the eating tradition. Then followed by her brother. He ate too much...I didn't really had time 2 weigh those pounds. Finally her sister...ouh..she had a thing for soups.

Later I saw this poster near the door when I was leaving. Omg..I cudn't believe she would have created such eating disaster at Sakura Buffet. She look so cute and innocent 2 me..well..looks can be deceiving!

After meal...we had our break at gaming arcade..nyahar!

We supposed 2 get that little innocent out of his living hell box. But the stupid claw couldn't grab hard on dat fella...so he drops when we tried 2 pick him up.

There goes our 2 dollars.

Oh yeah..wad a great day. I can't wait 2 join her family outing diz weekend! So where do we go next?

Well thats it☺

Most girls are mistreated, guys.

Well Yana..u were concerned about why do most guys treat their gurl so well in the beginning...and do not bother later. Im not sure if dat was supposed 2 be 'most' guys. If many girls think so itz 'most'..den owyte leave it. There won't be an issue in gender discrimination aniwae cuz most blog readers are girls. Nyahar..ok wadever just start.

In my general point of view...probably after some time guys do not really bother about their gurl bcuz...

1. He took love for granted. In his mind..he always think dat, "Oh my gurl had always been loving me...she had always been taking good care of herself so I don't think there's a need 2 call her now."
2. Like u also said...the guy is duin fine without her, thinking dat by just not playing behind her back..is good enuf.
3. Worst..they treat r'ship as more of a status..rather than expecting for more love 2 nourish.

Naturally...at early stage of a r'ship, love is BLOOMING. So datz where the 24/7 calls come about, the hike in sms bills, and the guys running broke after buying many gifts. But they say...there's no end 2 feeling in love..it shud continue 2 bloom as they are together.

Letz take the gurl 2 be PERFECT...so ideally the guy shud continue 2 express his love for her with some form of RESPECT, instead of showering her with tons of gifts till he forgets when is their actual annivesary.

Wad I meant by 'respect', is...at least the guy gives her a call 2 show dat he cares or 2 see if she's duin well without his presence..or when she wants 2 talk about the problem, at least dun reply sarcastic remarks 2 her...she needs dat listening ear okay.

And wad do I meant by 'perfect' for the gurl's part? When she wants 2 talk about the problem 2 him...at least don't start SCREAMING at him...be tolerant and patient...always start wit a nice sayang tone and save the 'screaming' till de very end.

So in the end..if both parties are being understanding, this problem can easily be solved.

But...what if things are still the same??

Well then..I can't really give a definite answer..cuz nobody can't see a particular issue as the same problem throughout. At least according 2 our different exposures, each of us definitely has a different answer due 2 experiences.

Let me share u smth about diz guy...his name is Boy. (the name is fictional)

Boy broke up from his r'ship..and only after he found out dat he had a miserable lovelife. He knew dat the beginning was full of splendid romance..but in the end it turned out 2 be sour. Since many months b4 the break-up, he was already disappointed with his gf. He chose the wrong path..that is 2 continue in the rship...hence he hurt her as he went on. Thereafter broke her heart..after he no longer bothered.

From the story, i'm tryin 2 tell u dat...sometimes it might be the girl's side of problem too which made him bother less about her. Just dun be self-centred..avoid having the thinking dat others are givin u the problem cuz u may not know that u're actually de one who is the problem. And before u start blaming on others, first settle the problem in urself. If u r a guy who has already have this built-in ego in u, try not 2 develop anymore a "world of ur own".

When each of us can recognize, and learn 2 accept our own weaknesses and mistakes...we can therefore deal problems better in r'ships.

Well Yana...probably, if u both communicate well..then there shudn't be a problem 2 work things out. The least others can do, like me, are giving opinions and a share of experiences. Whereas the many things which can further be helped, lies in the both parties. (the both of u) Most importantly, u ought 2 continue communicating wit him..and avoid urself being ridden away wit ur train of emotions..erm..probably..ur anger? Hehe..have patience owryte? He still loves u..probably he takes everything for granted and hence he seems didnt bother much about u...so wake him up..

Mutual COMMUNICATION is the key!

Cey I say all these like as if i'm really practising em 100%! Haha...owryte at least Yana woke up some senses in me. Dear Kikie..sorry if I had bother u less all this while. So next time onwards..I make sure i'll rrRReeally BOTHER u okiez?

Hiak hiak! Oh man..I just love 2 be annoying. =)

Well thats it☺

Font size dilemma

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Guys i'm using font-size 11.5 for my entries. So wad'ya think?? Erm..previously was size 13. I realised it was too BIG and I understand that many could read text comfortably at size 10. So at size 13..I think datz just too much for wad ur eyes can see..and if at tiny size 10...it may strain ur eyesight. Well..den u take 13 minus 10..u'll get 3. So erm..half of 3 is 1.5. Get the median yeah..hence between 13 and 10 is 11.5. So..do u think I should stick 2 font-size 11.5 or 12? Perhaps smaller?

Tag me regarding ur preferance okayz! =)

Well thats it☺

Recollect and revert

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

I turned 2 here after trying hard 2 wink an eye. Hence I began ransacking my cabinet 2 find my diary. (I've just remembered having one!) There I found it, layered with dust since 3 years ago! I thought my stories would be pleasantly plain...however it seemed rather, astonishing! I couldn't believe there's a quite drastic change in me. It might be about me...or perhaps, or whoever revolved around my life at that time.

I rummaged thru my mind, recalling my past...
It seems like NOW I...
...have built up ego.
cuz I was defeated, and decided 2 stand up for myself.
...have become more selfish.
cuz there were those who spared less thought for me.
...take love for granted.
cuz I was hurt, when I took love seriously.

It was THEN when I inspired others with my WORDS...
"Not everything in life is painful. There are many good things around u've yet 2 find..."

And it is NOW...I began 2 lose INSPIRATION.

However, INSPIRATION is rarely far away when we are willing 2 look for it.
Unfortunately, maintaining that proper frame of mind, a positive attitude, isn't always easy. Sometimes, in spite of our best efforts, LIFE just seem intent on bringing us down.

Don't give up just yet. Get some help.

So 2 anybody out there who thinks that u're doin well not hurting others, spend a good time recollecting your past..find for what is amiss in yourself right now. We study history in school because the world wants 2 change for a better future. We study our past, cuz we should change 2 be a better person.

It was 4 years ago...

...when I was like a love buddy.

It was many many years ago...

...when I first started smiling at cameras.

It is NOW...

...when I realised that I ought 2 LOVE her even better.

When I done u wrong, I must remind myself that u love me like nobody else. As our future grows together, forever i'll see u as an apple of my eye...

I LOVE u Kikie...like I always do. =)

Well thats it☺

We prefer blue stripes

Saturday, July 14, 2007

Head down 2 "NDP at Marina Bay" 2 catch NDP rehearsals on every Saturdays! Interesting! Me & gurlfey went dere 3 times already! We have naturally 'rehearsed' every single programme, and soon we can probably become the next NDP coordinators.

We r proud Singaporeans. But...

City Hall was congested with primary kids in RED. Their teachers were in RED. The performers were in RED too!! Okay dat goes without me saying...but we would rather wear blue stripes above which goes with our matching white pants.

Today I looked a bit saggy on my face. Well thanx 2 doin bloggin template.

We couldn't get a full-body length picture of ourselves, but we've gotten this one.

Hope that helps connect the dots in your picture.

After watchin the same old GOH contigent marching done by men (and 1% of them who are women), all dressed up smartly in their white ceremonial uniform, rounds of artillery fires, f-16s zooming above us all...
...the ending evening sky bombarded with thousands of dollars worth of fireworks filled the air was the most interesting of all. We all know that.

I think...on 9 Aug, the nearby skycrapers' roof will fire some crackers too. Wohhh...then it'll be like sparks showering on u. Now I understand y couples develop new 'sparks' together after a fireworks display. And if u let out some 'gas'...u'll produce a rather unique chemistry flame. Nyahar! Ohhh yeahh...passionate indeed.

End of the day...I went 2 Kikie's home. Her home has a wide variety of fruits u noe. Durians, mangoes, bananas...and many other fruits which might be hidden. I think derz somekind of season goin on at her place. I had my favourite...guess..itz yellow. =) Hmm..all the fruits listed are yellow aniwaes.

After food, we got engrossed on a little something.

We were playing Transformers game! Nyahar! =p

For your info, I bought a Transformers toy for ~~only~~ $52.90. Yeah..i'm a 20 year old holding on 2 a child's ez-link. Btw he's now beside me at the time when I'm typing this. Ohh..erm..now he's just transformed.

Oh well..today was great. When we are together means endless fun.
Can't wait for the next!
All thumbs-up..and i'm out!

Well thats it☺

Stop global whining

Thursday, July 12, 2007

The moment I switch on my laptop
I see 3 dead pixel lines across my screen
Shortly after I'll blow my top
It was only 1 line recently I screamed in frantic
There goes...

I open up a window
It takes a minute
I click on a programme
It takes another minute
I click on a function
It takes 2 minutes
Total: 4 minutes

Now datz only 1 window.

Though my connection boasts a speed of 1000kbps, so what. Internet dusnt seem 2 process at 1000kbps on my laptop. It'll work on slooowww mode...1/8 of the original speed, another 7/8 testing my patience.

This is a modern problem.
People get frustrated because of their latest electronic gadget which is givin em the slightest problem.
We swear at our computer screen after it takes ages 2 load, and hoping that some response will appear on the screen screaming back at u.
We chose 2 accept mail newsletters, but chose 2 complain when they became a junk.
Our ignorance took spywares and viruses for granted, when code red comes...we panick like hell.

5 years of warranty? Never enough.

Well thats it☺

Nothing satisfies me, yet.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Finally after about 2 weeks, i'm done with my blogskin. I'd been playing with photoshop and frontpage for dat whole period of 2 weeks, and now i'm seriously dead beat! Alryte..I deserve a good break. Oh well..I am having a long break anyway before NS call me in 2 months 2 come.

I started blogging only this May, and my total number of entries? U can sum em up easily when u visit my archives section. It seems a bit too soon for me 2 create another new blog template. Itz not bcuz I am too free at home...itz juz dat...I can never be satisfied with my blog. Don't mention only blog...there are many other things which haven't satisfy me.

I find my previous blog template....

too messy and complicated
too many junks
looks so 'sebarang'..erm..'sembarang'...?
outdated?

As a matter of fact, I like complicated designs. Now my blog template looks more like erm..a Mr. Wiggles cartoon website. I think now it looks a bit too colorful, and flat on its solid paint as flat as a 2-dimensional. I don't see much gradients..perhaps a few of gradual tone of colors, or some shadow effects will be good. So..should I re-do? I think i'll be changing my blog url name as well. 'Smackstuff' sounds so..'sebarang'..erm..'sembarang'?

Gosh! Lets end this.

Well thats it☺