Friday, May 30, 2008

i miss

i'm falling asleep on the sofa more than i like.
can stress ever be passive?
history seems to be repeating itself, and yet when i say that, i think there is something fundamentally wrong about that statement.
sigh.
what would happen if you had no problems to offer? would you be scared? would you be worried about how the other would cope?
i'm falling asleep on the sofa more than i like. and i don't know if that's good or bad.

i miss ethan mummy. faster come home leh.

Sunday, May 25, 2008

i love my church


S held his wedding at CHIJMES last night, and I sat next to J. My church musicians played for him, as he sang his Chinese composition on stage. I mean, the team playing for him is the team that I play with for Sunday services, and I absolutely love them. I love them for their excellent musicianship, I love them for their heart of worship, I love them for inspiring me.

Suddenly J turned to me and said: "Don't you think RiverLife Church is blessed with such a great worship team? It's not just the musicianship, it's the synergy you know..."

And I couldn't agree more. Really, it's synergy that's so special. While we love to play and live music, we love God and we centre everything on him. We love our audience because we know that we are placed on stage to lead them into worshipping God. And then J looked at me again and said: "I really love RiverLife Church, and I've never felt this way about the other churches I've attended!" And I really really couldn't agree more. :)

So anyways, here's a video I took of S singing Mark Schultz's 1,000 Miles to his bride D. S is that wonderful singer-producer who helped me record my Chinese composition Ode to Paper Aeroplane, some time back. He recorded an album of original Chinese compositions for all the guests at his wedding dinner. How cool is that? Yeah, anyways, he sings damn good. So here it is. Click here to watch.

Sunday, May 18, 2008

fresh air

fresh air. Robertson Quay. jappo food. night walk. Singapore's next top fashion designer (you know who you are dearie). ethan mummy, ethan, belle. see saw outside Butter Factory that freaked ethan out. colourful bridge. Highlander Coffee. $50 URA summon (poor belle). fresh air. fresh fresh air.

Friday, May 16, 2008

guilty pleasures


Dear dsd, olduvai and lena, I've finally used the Gramophone vouchers. Thank you. Dear bttm, I've used the Borders card. Thank you. What a wonderful set of music I have!
~ Albertine by Brooke Fraser (love her to bits)
~ Continuum by John Mayer (yum yum)
~ Untold by Marie Digby (still digesting)
~ We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things by Jason Mraz (on repeat mode!!!)
~ Plans by Death Cab For Cutie (thanks to TBK's dedication on facebook, if not I'd never have heard of them)

Whilst browsing the cds, I had plans to go shopping for clothes and shoes, the usual girly stuff. Then I thought of the earthquake victims in Sichuan, and I felt really really really bad for even entertaining such thoughts. Last night, as I watched Premier Wen Jiabao on CCTV consoling a crying young girl, my heart really went out to him. Today, as I read the news reports, I felt a huge pang of sadness and loss... Sad.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

fragile things


My photo is tilting and that's a little disturbing. But it's ok. I'm on leave today and I'm feeling anxious and imbalanced. So the supposed rest is turning out to be a little disturbing, but I'll try to make it work.

I picked up Neil Gaiman's Fragile Things at the Cheng San library yesterday. Because I really need some fiction, or rather, good story-telling to make me feel alive. Sat at the kopitiam a few hours ago, tucked into my prata for lunch, and read the introduction as I sipped on my hot teh through a straw (to prevent staining of me two front teeth and the kopi auntie remembered again! great woman!).

Fragile Things is a collection of short stories, and Neil Gaiman gamely writes about the background and inspiration behind the various stories. So interesting. I always find it very enlightening reading the weird/shocking/wonderful concepts that authors, whether for literature or music, toss and turn in their heads before penning them down as a finished product.

He writes:
If you're one of the people who doesn't like poems, you may console yourself with the knowledge that they are, like this introduction, free. The book would cost you the same with or without them, and nobody pays me anything extra to put them in. Sometimes it's nice to have something short to pick up and read and put down again, just as sometimes it's interesting knowing a little about the background of a story, and you don't have to read either.

Haha.

But, back to fragile things...

He writes (and I use only extracts):
...it occurs to me that the peculiarity of most things we think of as fragile is how tough they truly are...the beat of the wings of a butterfly in the right place, we are told, can create a hurricane across an ocean. Hearts may break, but hearts are the toughest of muscles able to pump for a lifetime...Even dreams, the most delicate and intangible of things, can prove remarkably difficult to kill.

And he goes on to say the same of stories.

Fragile things are indeed peculiar. Just like you and me.

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

rumbling

There's a rumbling in my heart, it's weird...
How can I suddenly have time now? It's really weird...
Suddenly, spending more time with me is really really weird...
But I must!
I've already pushed away two appointments.
Do you believe you can will yourself not to fall sick?
I did, with some prayer, and it worked!
There's a funny sort of rumbling in my heart...
Strange...

Ooo...I'm so random...

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Live

I run.
And the world rushes by in a frenzied blur.
I look for the end, but it seems slow in arriving. Too slow.
Or is it, that I'm running away, and not towards?

I stop.
I pant.
I heave a sigh of relief.
I look up.
And the world stops, almost.
I look around.
And the world releases its sights, its smells.
And the world reaches out to touch me.
Or, do I reach out to touch it?

The occasional stranger walks by.
Smiles awkwardly, chats about the weather and walks on.
I linger at that moment. Smile, and I walk on.
Light chat is nice.

Yes, I'm back at the crossroad.
Or, is it a different crossroad?
This time, I want to take it slow.
For Lord, you will lead me beside the still waters.
And lay me down on green pastures.
Amen.