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because i did not change it to ieatdandelionsforbreakfast, so here goes.

Because I Felt Like It..

"OMG RON WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU JERKING OFF TO PROF. MCGONAGALLS PIC?!"

hehehe hi bobbbby!

Shush girl, shut your lips, do the Helen Keller and talk with your hips.

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What the flipping mother pyjamas is that supposed to mean? But in my world, it kinda means I can't (bo liao-ly) blog hop on a boring friday night. The only other thing that comes to mind? Auto bots, roll out!



(wah nostrils like big only.)


To YOU: i bet you know that i miss you so, then again what's it but an empty emotion now?

Imagine...

Having your heart broken over and over, but you still believe.


Doesn't matter anymore does it?


"It isn't the problem along the way that make us or break us. It's how we learn to stand and face them that makes the difference. The greatest joy in life always came from doing what others said that you can't do."


But you're alone. Because no one else believes.

Emolicious 123.

I just heard this really good jazzed up version of No Doubt's- Don't Speak and it just hit me. The lyrics.. they mean everything.

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I'm losing my best friend
I can't believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you're letting go
And if it's real
Well I don't want to know

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

Our memories
Well, they can be inviting
But some are altogether
Mighty frightening
As we die, both you and I
With my head in my hands
I sit and cry

Don't speak
I know just what you're saying
So please stop explaining
Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no)
Don't speak
I know what you're thinking
I don't need your reasons
Don't tell me cause it hurts

It's all ending
I gotta stop pretending who we are...
You and me I can see us dying...are we?


Wah here I go............... crying myself a fucking river. Again.

Tell Me What, Oh, Don't You Understand?

Why Does Love Always Feel Like, A Battlefield?

Picture Vomit!
























Its been a month now and as for my situation with Kross, I am still not over him and i know its something others will never understand. Cause besides the downs everybody has heard of, nobody else knows the happiness or understands the love that was once present and everything we had.
At this point in time, I will never understand/accept the reason we turned out this way and it would've been easier to pick up the pieces if I hated him instead of all this love i still have but things and time have made me realise that i've reached a point whereby I know that he doesn't feel the same way I do anymore and nothing will change his mind. And I know it's really cliched but I mean it when I say that as long as he's happy and i know he'll be okay, i'll be alright. In time. A long long time.
Without a doubt I still feel my heart flutter when I look at him, the need to stand up and defend him when he is put down, the want to talk about him fondly to others
and to love/care/miss him the same way i always did. But during our time apart, I've come to learn that although I yearn for it, he doesn't have to be with me to find happiness again.
And i know it'll probably break my heart to see the one i love, happy with someone else. But it'd probably kill me to know that the one i love is unhappy with me.

So Kumar, I am finally setting you free. Without hope or obligation to return to me. You opened my eyes to a lot of things all this while, and I thank you for something so beautiful.

EDIT: It sucks cause I don't feel anger, instead im filled with nothing but sadness. I just keep on living in denial with the little hope I cling on to.


and although I still love you,
Note To Self: DEAL WITH IT RAJINI KRISHNAMUTI.

Everything We Had..

.. Is No Longer There.

Irony.

1. If you don't go after what you want; you'll never get it.
2. If you don't ask; the answer is always no.
3. If you don't step forward; you'll always be in the same place.

Classic and totally beyond ironic! Don't cha think?

P.S- It would've been a day away. Oh well.

Goodbye My Lover, Goodbye My Friend.

"I look around me,
And I want you to be there
'Cause I miss the things that we shared.
Look around you.
It's empty, and you're sad
'Cause you miss the love that we had."



"It hurts when the one person that you truly believe in lets you down. But I think almost worse than the break up, worse than the end, is that people expect you to get over it. Because to everyone else, you dated an asshole; someone not worth your time. They don’t understand how it’s possible for you to love someone so flawed."



"Our favourite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one else knows
The loving look that's left your eyes."

And as you move on, remember me. Remember us and all we used to be.
And I will still hold your hand in mine, in mine when I am asleep.

Goodbye.

Its as easy as lovers go.

As quoted by Yang,


love will come when the time is right...

love will hurt like how it feels more than just good....

love is something that makes you want to give...

love is unconditional....

love is irrational...

love is faceless...

love is spontaneous...

love is butterflies in the tummy...

love is a teletubby giggle...

love is baby...

love is more than care...

love is confusing...

love is infuriating...

love is peace...

love is not giving yourself away....

love is not chasing...

love is not changing yourself to be what someone wants you to be...

love is not hate....

love is not physical pain...


love is your's to give like it is your's to keep...



Wise words indeed :)

When You Find You, Come Back To Me.

I was reading the only letter my mother ever wrote me, which I found a couple of days ago. It must've been dated back to somewhere around when I had my first boyfriend? Cause she quoted: "If you love someone, set him free. And if he does return, then he's yours. If he doesn't, you now know he never was." Hmmmm. I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Any thoughts?


Sorry for the lack/emotional updates as of late. Bear with me. I've been sub-blogging on Twitter though!

xxx//

You Said Move On, Where Do I Go?

"After all thats been said and done, i just want you to stay. I miss you so much, dont stray. Come find your way back into my arms once more and i know this time we'll make it through, stronger than ever. More in love than before. Don't throw it all away baby, stay. Stay and see. We'll get lost in time all over again, forever more."

Won't you let me in?

"You know you love somebody when they hurt you so badly, but all you can think about are the times when they made you smile."

HC and I took to the streets of town, trying to mend our broken hearts. Absolute failure. They say time heals all wounds, yet its been almost three weeks now and the wound still smells ever so fresh.

It took me a while to put aside the rage/the pride/the hurt/the assumptions/the rash decisions to actually sit down and think. I've made my share of mistakes said many unintentional things, I'm not proud of them. But I've learnt my lesson. Have you? I'm supposed to be better off without, but only I know why and that I'm so much better with you.

A second chance. Nothing is ever impossible, or too late. Despite it all, are you willing to take that chance too? We've come this far, been through so much, to let it all go to waste over something both you and I know we can fix. I still believe. But it takes two to clap.


xxx//

@LaurenLondon.

"Faith is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase." -Martin L. King


Under the covers, blaming nobody but myself. Point proven, I am the poster girl for fuck ups.


Follow me & my heartache.

Jumping on the Twitter bandwagon.

Follow Me?

. . . . . .

Don't hang up, can't we talk
So confused it's like I'm lost
What went wrong, what made you go
Don't pretend you don't know
This is me I'm unchangable

When did we fall apart
Or did you lie from the start
When you said, it's only you
I was blind, such a fool
Thinking we were unbreakable

It was you and me, against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cause I gotta know what made me unbeautiful


I've been told what's done is done
To let it go and carry on
Deep inside I know that's true
I'm stuck in time, stuck on you
We were still untouchable

Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up
Cause I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now
Because we're much better altogether



P.S- Thank you too Michelle Tong.

Welcome to Heartbreak.

What do you do, to ease the pain as you see the love you thought you once had go out the window just like that?

What do you do, when he tells you there's no way to fix things anymore, and you look back on those times you felt that way but stuck around. Simply because you loved.

What do you do, when you literally begged the person you were hopelessly in love with to stay (after you had hurt him and he had hurt you) and yet all he did was walk away?

What do you do, when you're made realise that at the end of the day, the love you (thought) both had was just not enough to conquer all?

What do you do?

F - M - L.

My weekly/monthly dose of The Mojo Wears Prada and the BFF.


thank you babies for the TLC <3!





Then we saw your lao bei who ai's PCD.



You see those smiles? They were temporary. In case you were wondering.. I am and still, nothing but a mess.

Good bye.

Poster Girl For Fuck Ups.

I didn't realise I was alone on the way I felt about us.


Be Right Back. Don't know when.

NO NEED TO THANK ME!

PROBABLY YOUR FIRST LOOK AT LADY GAGA'S, PAPARAZZI. IN HQ AND UNCUT!
Click Click Click!

I'm your biggest fan, I'll follow you until you love me.

Needless to say, Oh My Fucking God. Genius.

Glutton.

Wah, so I was yapping on and on about how I went to the gym and felt so invigorated right? That can all jolly well go down my barely there cleavage. I have been satisfying my craves for Indian food, Subway and what not in just a mere TWO days more than ever! Haizzz, my brain is unfair. It simply cannot control my heart's desires when it comes to food. Glorious fooooood!


(PADMA LAKSHMI FOR CARL'S JR. SO SEXXXAY.)

What felt like the other day, as I looked at our ticker, it read 304days. Today I took another glance and Oh My Gad! 322days together. Another peek and we would've most probably reached a year... It's been a while since I felt like this. So scary yet exciting at the same time!!!!!! HEART THE BF (L) . (L)



xxx//

I.WENT.TO.THE.GYM.TODAY!

And it was invigorating! But the basil leaf chicken (FROM THAKSIN WHICH TASTED LIKE OMFG PUKE) with ice tea afterward simply sent half of my work out back to the comfort of my buttocks. Sigh.


(THIS IS D! MY ULTIMATE INDIAN LAUGHING PARTNER IN CLASS.)

Radom much but I dont know why my mane seems to take FOREVER to grow whereas hair on other strategic places seem to grow at the speed of light. I'd rather have my mane grow fast and keep trimming it at the salon then mow the lawn every single day, you know. So to the higher power out there, if you can hear my plight, thank you very muchxz.

Ok I am deadddd beat and I miss my furry sleeping monster. Guess I shall go call his royal furryness and wake his probably sleeping ass now.

xxx//

Friday, I'm Not In Love.

My room so windy, so shiokkkkk.. to watch How I Met Your Mother and just fall asleep after.



But first, I have to get this stupid RJ outta the way.

xxx//

Good Girls Go Bad.

Wow this space seems pretty neglected. I've logged in to Blogger countless times wanting to write a decent entry, but my lazy ass just never seems to come up with something decent to say. So here goes another one of my random and meaningless posts!

Angels & Demons on Sunday with baby's family. In my opinion, the plot was rather predictable. However, there certainly were elements of suspense here and there. I'm glad I didn't make this a read-the-novel-before-watching movie, heard it would've disappointed otherwise. Nonetheless, worth watching!



School has been worthwhile to attend as of late, despite the fact that I have never been on time (usually un-motivates me.) So yes, good job gene.
OHHH! Here are some overdue pics taken during baby's surprise birthday, something I unskillfully planned! Hehe//


my boyfriend finds this picture of my father on my ghetto phone hilarious. (why?!)

EEEEEEKS SO CUTE. PINCH PINCH CHEEKS.

I'm too lazy to put up more pictures, you can just view em all here:
SURPRISE-SXZ!


ILY MY FURRY SLEEPING MONSTER! I hope you had fun ;)

xxxxxx.

You Know That I Could Use Somebody.

It's 8pm on a Saturday and I'm at home. I blame my boyfriend. He woke up at 4.30! It's like what I told him, "8-9-10 hours of sleep are never enough for you!" He is like this big, sometimes adorable, sleeping monster. He he. And guess what the slob is doing now, attempting a go at tennis. HA HA!




My grades at school aren't that fantastic which is quite a bummer. However, the people above tend to make everything else a joy. He he. Fuck this massive toothache right now isn't helping. I have already brushed my teeth thrice with Sensodyne now and nothing's helping. I think I need a smoke. Prata and Milo dinosaur would do just fine as well.

xxx.

That's What I Get For Falling In Love.

So long and goodnight.

Hold Me Now, I'm Six Feet From The Edge.

This week has been turbulent. Calling it a roller coaster ride of emotions would be an understatement. I have so many things on my mind, I don't know what I want anymore in a lot of things. I want to be constantly happy without any pain/disappointment/uncertainty/worry. But that like saying you'll never die. Right?


On a side note, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY.

Its 10.30pm and here I am. I spent the entire afternoon sleeping but I'm not exactly wide awake either. I have to come up with at least 3 possible PP scopes before I meet my advisor tomorrow. Question is, what the hell should I profile about? I also wanted to upload pictures of my weekend but I just realised I don't have a card reader. Is it me or is my brain just not functioning right?!

Back to work. XO!

Take A Bow.

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY KROSS.

Here I am seated at the library (awfully silent and empty = unusual) with Lala beside me. Apparently we both woke up at 10-ish this morning and decided to come to school at around 3pm. For fuck. Hehe okay lah, the only reason I turned up is because No.1, I cannot tell my dad im lazy to go to school and No.2, I am going to watch Wolverine (!!!) after the mofos are released. So yay me!



Baby and I watched Taken on Saturday and it was awesome. If my dad knew half the skills Liam Neeson knew, i'd be a goner by now. Everyday know how to spy on me, can actually run, posses a gun, able to fight of bad guys with actual skills instead of body weight. Thank god, he doesn't have any of those mentioned above. Hehe.



Random: (Just wanted to show the world where Medusa is at. Feliciouso! HAHA.)


OKKKK! I bloody take back my statement bout the library being awfully silent. Indian music is being blasted from some ghetto, lousy Nokia phone. Oh my, now they're actually singing along. To top it all off, I actually know the song. Kill...Me..Now.

Ideology= Common Sense.

I am still in class and today's lesson for communication theories was awesome! My class is generally okay and everyone is starting to get along pretty well now.



However, Riniee Astika and Michelle Tong, I miss you both very very much! Please stop delaying our lunch dates. Especially ASTIKA! Otherwise, knowing you both, until next year also cannot meet ah! Hee hee.


Alrighty, I am distracted and on a mission. Have an awesome long weekend!

The Drugs Don't Work.

So my first week of school passed by within a blink of the eye (since I have Wednesdays off.) Or maybe its cause i'm simply too busy to notice time actually passing. I don't have the leisure of one and a half hour lunch breaks/plagiarism anymore. My lunch break IS one and a half hours long and three-quarts of it is spent on my presentation so.. this totally blows. Ha ha.

I spent my weekend pretty much doing nothing. I caught KNOWING on friday after school with baby and Joel. The ending was totally messed up. Aliens and rabbits?! Ok maybe just the aliens bothered me, like what the fuck? They looked like the dudes outta Eiffel 65. Bad bad bad choice I say. Today was spent with my boyfriend, who never ceases to amaze me. Either by being a total dickweed or the most lovable bear ever. Hee hee.
(I say this all out of love baby, you know that! XO.)

Here are some pictures from my meet-up with your beloved Aunties aka Tresha, Zoe & Kong!


@ settlers. Loved this game since I was a kid. Still do! Tresha and Kong play this kind of loser game also want to CHEAT SIOL. TSK TSK TSK!

HAIZX.





Your bestfriend above is the bomb I tell you! While playing taboo.
As quoted from Treshie's blog :
WORD- TAP

kong: " okay i know! whats in your kitchen!!"
gene: " WHAT THE HELL?! there's so many things in my kitchen!".

WORD-STEAM.

kong: "ahh! you know when guys see pretty girls!? what their kukubird do!?"
gene: "OOGLE! STARE!"
kong: " KUKUBIRD LA!"
gene: AH STEAM STEAM!




These three play taboo until happy. (Me included, photo excluded) HAHA.

It was good catching up huns. See you all real soon.


KTHNXBAI, I NEED SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.