Ending.New journey begins

When the 7th HELP Cup Asia High School Chinese Debate Competition came to the end, this mark the end of my 4 years Uni life too.

Appreciate all the people and friends i meet in the University, and thank you everyone who have give me support and help at the pass 4 years.
All my dear friends, surely i will remember and miss you all, please dun forget me. T.T
Hope we can keep in touch and maintain our friendship. (*Seriously, please do contact me when you free, i dun hope I will loss our friendship)

Finally move to a new stage of my life, the stage that require full self discipline, responsibility, and non stop learning mentality. Starting from today, i am full responsible to my own life, decision, and everything. A reminder to myself:
Jackson Koh, you have no more excuse for your laziness and mistake, be discipline and keep improving. Be courage to face the challenges and aggressively grab the opportunities that offer to you.

The important decisions/ question need to make/answer:
1. What is my personal vision and ambition?
I have totally no idea about this, in fact, I have finding the answer for so long time. I am lost, seriously lost. I know what kind of life i want in the future, but i have no idea how i can reach there.

2. What career path i should choose?
Be a dealer? Consultant? Accountant? Researcher?
Should i join back end or front line? my strengths and personality is actually more suit to back end role, but front line can get more opportunities, challenging, and able to network with more people.

3. I should join the big organization or small but expanding company?
Big organization can offer a higher salary, better training, more system, and have more resource.
Small but expanding company have more opportunities to be promote in the future, but the starting salary will be low.

4. Should I continue stay in Uptown or move back to Klang?
If I move back to Klang, I am sure slowly I will loss contact with all my friends.
If I stay in Uptown, I feel bad to my family.

Hope i can get the answer soon.

足迹

一直以来我都很喜欢五月天的歌曲
很多人都以为我是五月天迷
但事实上
我只是单纯很欣赏阿信歌词里
带出的意境及含义
他们的很多歌曲
如果细细品味每句歌词
总能引发我很深层的省思

题外话，
我真正开始接触五月天
还是在五月天成立十年以后
才真正去了解他们的东西
*许康瑞的黑暗史*

好吧
回归正传
今天就借五月天的新歌《将军令》
为各位客官奉上一杯
名为“历史”的暖茶

下面就和大家分享下
我特别有共鸣的几句歌词

为什么 还在问为什么
停在原地不断问为什么
就无法前行
但如若不知道为什么
我又该何去何从？

此生到尽头
你是谁 曾怎么活

你想被记住 的那个名字
将会是什么
我不贪
只想百年之后
至少在历史上能留下
哪怕那一丁点的足迹
如果
明早天明我再也醒不过来
后天葬礼上亲友会怎样评价我的一生？
墓碑刻上的又会是怎样的句子？

你相信什么 你执着什么
你就是什么
是啊，我究竟相信什么？
我究竟执着什么？
我不知道
所以我究竟是什么？

我真的

很迷茫

题外话中的题外话

发现自己要在房间里

关上灯

独自对着电脑荧幕

才会特别有想写东西的冲动

或许

我灵感的来源

是黑暗

及我的房间吧？

祭.曾经

晨宵湖客,只恋晨宵

好久没回来了
是时候扫尘
再泡上一杯名为"思潮"的茶
来敬各位客官

不止我久没来了
很多人也逐渐离开了这里
左侧追踪栏里
频频出现的"一/两年前更新"的字眼
无声细说着多少的无奈
如果说
时间是一把可怕的杀猪刀
那么
成长就是那冷血的刽子手
已经无法计算
他曾多少次
狠狠地挥刀
将一切值得留恋的当下
斩杀
变成只能在回忆里留恋

曾几何时
每晚品读他人的博客是一种热潮
曾几何时
msn space里每天都能看到几篇更新
大家在那里挥写自己的故事
品味文字的感伤

一切
只剩曾经

何时开始
大家渐渐地遗忘了这里
何时开始
彼此不再书写文章
当面子书状态成了抒发的主流
如今还剩几人
还有那层心思
去书写去品读
一篇文章?

回归的第一章
祭祀我们的曾经

吟心湖畔晨宵客,
晨宵茶寮心弦茶;
水沸茶暖候君入,
独闻茶香忆昔往.

谁人
会先入座品这一杯
久违的茶?