Auditory Pleasures Ciara - Thug Style

I know this blog is meant to be dead but I do need some help in gathering some cool dance tracks. Any suggestions?

17:27;

"Listen. All is silent."


So, the time has come for me to bid adieu. The sleepingpixie has awoken, and proceeded to move on to greener pastures. Thanks one and all for your faithful readership, and to you all I guess I owe an explanation as to why I cease to write. And let me just say it's going to be hard moving on from this blog. This lovely outlet that has been mine for the past 3 years.


Recently, huge dramatic events (Ok, I exaggerate a little) unfolded themselves before my eyes. Sure, I knew what to expect - I just didn't know it would have such a big impact on my life. The past month has been Hell, as I struggled to get myself together and move on. Much thanks to the people who have shown support, and especially to the BFF - for being here whenever I called. So anyways, call me silly to stop writing completely because of one person. I mean, I didn't even shut my blog down when it was tagboard attack central. But would you want someone who has completely shut you out of their life to go on reading, knowing about your life through a blog? (Yeah. I didn't think so.) It has been so unfair to me, for I divulge details of mine when you refuse to let me into yours; Communication is a two-way street. It's a sad thing you're gonna be leaving, but I suppose I'll at that moment rejoice at the expulsion of you from this country. Thank you for all your honesty anyways - I'll let you know no guy has ever been that straightforward with me. Maybe it's because things were like that that I'm at a loss - I don't know how to handle this differential treatment. But most certainly, you have implied that it is alright for me to move on.


Yours,
Ena.

P.S. You will not find me if I don't want to be found.

P.S.S. I guess I'll see the rest of you guys later. :)

14:05;

OOOOH FUCK THAT SHIT. I JUST REMEMBERED SOMETHING I NEEDED TO DO URGENTLY THIS AFTERNOON AND I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT IT. OH FUCK. OOOOH FUCK. hope i still have time to do it laters.

16:39;

Auditory Pleasures Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul


New tee. No face, I look too sick.


Do you know that sense of purposelessness you get when you just handed in your assignment? Well I feel so lost, like my Life has no purpose right now. Even though I COULD be catching up on my QM, or Dev Psych. Start studying for the exam maybe. Start on next assignment, maybe. Let's just say there's a lot of other academic stuff I could do, but I won't. I feel like I should be doing work, but let's just wait til that feeling passes. And then blame everything on the laziness. Sounds like a plan. ;) And whenever I feel like I wanna work on the other blog (templates & stuff), I just sit around surfing aimlessly til that feeling fades too. So looks like I'm gonna stick around here a while more. And people, Myer's storewide 20% TODAY. My my, how exciting. Me and Mel were supposed to go after class today, but I had to go down to IH to get my invite for Sunday. One thing led to another: me and Yingyi chatted for like 2 hrs. And then I had no tram ticket, no change, and no way of getting home but by foot. So half an hour later, here I am: comfortably sitted on my couch, very, very, hungry and lightheaded. Maybe we could go later - they're closing at 12am tonight!! But the good stuff's probably all gone now. How very sad. And for now, I do have that new book I could/ should read. "Death in Venice"...

16:16;

Auditory Pleasures Bryan Adams - Cloud No 9

Considering no one has dropped any 'hi's, I assume I'm just talking to myself here...anyways the point was so I know who to update on the impending blog add change. So YA.


Why, why, why. I feel so homesick right now. But I found a brand new way to beat that homesickness - 'Live' radio streaming! Oh man, just listening to Class 95 and 98.7fm made me feel right at home. Class 95's Love Songs is my fave station at night, when I drive along the highways. I really want to go home. Why the hell did I make Dad send me here? I'm beginning to hate it; this bout of homesickness is bad, especially since I'm sickly and there's no Mom. No Sis to annoy, no girlfriends to call and just talk nonsense, no Hweng to get prissy and shop with, no Mambo nights, no numerous 21st birthday parties to go to, no movies to catch, no Char kway teow to eat, no Toyota to drive, no cable TV = no American Idol...

I could go on forever, list a million reasons why I want to go HOME. Thank God, only 1 and a half more years to go. I'm halfway there. So jealous of everyone at Home right now, I want to murder them. If you think being in another country is fun, don't envy me today.


I got myself into some trouble tonight
Guess I’m just feeling blue
It’s been so long since I’ve seen your face
This distance between me and you

That voice you showed me is not the one I know
I must be strung out on what I do
Don’t hang up again
There’s nothing else I know how to do

20:52;

Auditory Pleasures Shakira - Hips Don't Lie

Work is driving me insane. Medication is making me drowsy. People are driving me mad. When will this madness stop? I don't know, and I don't wanna know. People, as your eyes pass this, please take the time to drop a little note in the tag-board; let me know who's reading this yeah? Not having control over who reads what has just gotten to the point of frustration. Don't pretend to know me just because you read this. You read, big deal. I create, bigger deal. So don't be a stranger and say hi. :)


Savour the moment while it lasts,
because sometimes, it won't.

22:57;

I swear just when I let my flu-ridden body prepare for a warm shower, the water has to be awfully cold. Bordering on warm but because of the weather I'ld say it was freezing in there. How am I supposed to nurse this body back to health then? With such showers, distasteful weather, bad eating habits, and a BFF in need of me. The essay is still due on Thurs, and I'm still on medication. And thanks to it, I had THE best sleep ever in Melbourne last night. It gives me a kick to actually be taking all these medications without your kind heart telling me not to.

Again today I've been pondering over what makes men tick? Seriously, when I wanted to put my faith in them and believe that maybe although not for me, there still exists some nice guys out there. But when you mess with my friends, you mess with me. And I hope you trip and fall and remember that you made someone wait for you, someone who believed your sweet nothings. Huh. That's why they're termed 'nothings' eh? Cos they are nothing.


Anyways, a little anger subsided since I just got an invite to a 21st. Hehehehe. Ena lurveeees parties.

20:24;

Auditory Pleasures Ray LaMontagne - Trouble

...My baby sis???

On the left; all made-up and sh*t. Out clubbing!! Oh for the love of God!


And I found this on Jason's facebook.

good times, good times.

The windows are shut. Flu still persists. And it's freeeezing in this place.

19:47;

Auditory Pleasures Rain Bi - It's Raining

Oh God please take away this flu - what about partying this weekend? It's Sonz's bday weekend I can't afford to fall sick. And then there's that Lit essay due on Thurs which I haven't started..I really don't want to be nursing a cold. I feel horrible already and let that be my punishment for being so lazy this Easter. I'll try to be good, really, I will.

23:11;

Auditory Pleasures Air Supply - Lost in Love

Ahh what an ARGH morning. I'm kinda playing the radio-plays-song-that-reflects-your-mood game right now and all the songs that come on are like "Missing you", "Lost in Love", "When the Stars Go Blue". Okay. ENOUGH. (Mental Note to Self: I'm doing very fine. Stop depressing.) Oh good, "Cinderella" is on. Finally, some I-kicked-his-ass-song.

And photo-log of the week.

Third Floor Wadham Reunited.


Drinking at my place. Martinis and Vodka Mixes.


This is candid; we were attemping to both stand on the milk crate at the same time but I fell off and hence I grabbed Aarthi.


On the way from ffour to Billboard.

Oh I saw THE most beautiful Eurasian guy at Billboard. Tres hot. Oh hot is an understatement. When that Angel left, it broke my heart. That was how dreamy he was. Kinda like this:


Our OTH prgress btw babies, is a far-off-nearly-catching-up-with-you Episode 19!!! HahaHAHAh. And I'm downloading that right now. Oh god, OTH is getting too dramatic my heart fell out after watching 15-18 yesterday.

Yesterday we were having Shisha in peace when this group of 4 OLD possibly non-native Aussie guys sat behind us and possibly started listening to our conversation. Because when I mentioned "Friends With Benefit" (in reference to an OTH episode thanks) one of them shifted his chair backwards, turned around and said something along the lines of "so do I get benefits too?" EEEW. Seriously man. From ffour to Billboard to Shisha, have we got "Hit on me please" written on our faces?! I swear, it's most disgusting. This dude then proceeded to ask us if we wanted to go 'party' with them. When we were like "no, we went out last night. we need to do work tonight" (of course it was a polite way of saying HELL NO. we're not THAT much of losers to do work on a Sat night). Hang on, because it gets worse. He went, "You don't have to go to Uni, I could teach you to study." WHAT A GIANT SLEAZEBAG. I've heard the worse (pick-up) lines this entire weekend and you'll probably just hurl if I repeat them to you. Gosh, all weekend we've been meeting slimeballs; if this keeps up I AM going to lose complete faith in Man-kind. Today I'm gonna stay safe in my house and just edit my essay that's due tomorrow okay.


But Cinderella's got to go
I used to say I want you,
You cast me in your spell.
I did everything you wanted me to,
But now, I shan't.
I won't believe in all your lies,
I won't be blind you see.
My love it can't be sacrificed,
I won't return to thee.

11:46;

Auditory Pleasures My Chemical Romance - The Ghost of You

So the past few days saw me (almost) buried in work. Cultural Studies is such a BS subj. I mean, try opposing all the ideas you grew up with; it's interesting but it's hard. You have to de-naturalise the discourse and re-construct it and interpret it meaningfully. Blah BLAH blah. Anyhoos, I'm soooooooo glad I'm almost done with the essay. And same ol' thing: I never wanna start proper on an essay and when I do, I exceed the word limit like crazy (I have 2, 300-odd words when the essay requires 1, 500). Hello, everything is important to me so how the fuck am I gonna cut out like 700 words??!?! HELP man. And after this I have to do another 1,500 word Lit essay. Oh my fucking life cannot get any better than this (of course, apart from the OTH marathons we've been having in a bid to catch up with every other OTH fan. We are at ep 12 now but soon SOON soon we'll be done with 19. The plan is to do that by Sun!)

Oh yes this is funny - the Telstra guy came to check the phone yest and he said, "Got any more shoes?" LOL.
Jon made a similar remake the other day too heh. And oh I forgot, dinner with Jon was a wonderful catch-up session. He's prolly in the airport now but I'll be seeing him back home again real soon! That said, I should text him or sth. Dinner was effin'-good Teppanyaki followed by gelati at Freddo's on Lygon. :)


And I'm just procastinating more than I already have; got this from Lynnie.

1. My boyfriend is: dead.
2. Maybe I should: get my ass to editing my essay and start on the 2nd one. or i SHOULD go shopping =P
3. I love: mommy and daddy because i love shopping and daddy gives me $$. i love shopping because i love shoes, bags, tshirts and every other beautiful and/ or pleasing thing i can get my hands on. and OTH!!
4. I don't understand: science. you. why i never have enough $$. why people have to leave. why my body is so achy.
5. I lost: a lot of things in my life and it's sometimes hard to move on but i try.
6. People say I am: "vain, loud, obnoxious." oh wait, some jerk said that so erase that. most people say im 1) a compulsive shopaholic; 2) silly and naive when it comes to understanding 'true colours'; 3) very good with deadlines; 4) a crazy partygirl; oh wait the new positive one is that im a 5)good cook! hah!
7. Love is: when the heart aches. for a good cause.
8. Somewhere, someone is: waiting.
9. I will always: want to go Home.
10. Forever is: unattainable.
11. I hate: mornings, supercold weather, stupid transport system in Melb, being so far away from my friends and family, that time is passing so quickly.
12. I am bad at: moving on in Life and self-discipline.
13. When I woke up this morning: I took a double take in the mirror cos I had curly hair.
14. My past was: so much fun. It was a carefree period in my life.
15. I get annoyed when: people get into the habit of compulsively calling you even tho it is clear you don't want to speak to them. i see something i like that doesn't come in my size. the rain spoils your mood.
16. Parties are for: you to shake that booty! surrounding yourself with people...
17. Paradise is: where there are no heartaches, no starvation, no poverty and everyone is dressed like an angel. and you're not there.
18. Nightmare is: losing my family and friends. getting my luggage lost in transit. waking up in a place without my hairdryer. hahaha.
19. Kisses are the best when: anticipated/ they don't break your heart.
20. Tomorrow: I'll find my way out of this mess.
21. I really want: to go Home right now. to finish my dumb assignments. to PARTY.
22. I have low tolerance for people who: are so full of themselves.

09:16;

Auditory Pleasures Pete Murray - Fly With You

Okay, so I'm meant to be doing research for my essay; on OTH, no less! ;) BUT (there's always a but for things like these) my sister left me a testimonial on Friendster (does anyone really use it anymore? it's become a random message board) so I went to check it out. And of course, it was a random message ("I want to go Gold Coast! )))))):"). Point is i got distracted and for the past 15mins I was skimming through my 107 testis that have long been forgotten and some did put a smile on my face. Ahh, this Friendster thing started like in 2003 and the testis then were full of "you party animal you!", "stop clubbing - might as well camp in the club!", "can u start studying for the A's?!". Man, I miss those days. I really, really do. I was only 17 then (underaged partying *winkwink*). And that was also when guys went "I'm going to enlist soon. Meet up more ok!". And it's funny how that all went by so quick; everyone's ORD-ed (or going to) already. Turning 21 this year..where did the past 4 years go?

The classic testi is definitely from my sister who types such Singaporean abbvs and sh*t, replacing 'i's in words with 'y's, and 'o's with 'u's. Haha. I miss that retard.

Eliza wrote:
everibodi's callin u their sista..
but.. well.. here cums ur REAL sis..
whaha.. wif blood relations.. yea.. u
pig!! everitym slp for so damn long u
dun even noe wad da tym ish wen u wake
up.. haha.. nw ur're slpin n i m
writin dis testimonial for u.. :x frm
young lyk to bully mi.. nw still da
same.. but nw i can also bully u back
le.. haha.. y is everibodi sayin u hav
a great fashion sense n dat ur're
pretty?? dun understand it.. haha..
but.. okok.. i admit.. u DO hav a
great fashion sense.. a gd shopper
indeed.. but dun spend all of dad's
money k.. whaha.. but pretty? i m nt
reali sure abt dat.. haha.. :p i noe i
wont get away wif dis.. ur're gonna
cum n bug mi abt it.. haha.. so.. ok..
i'll tell a lie.. ur're pretty.. hapi?
hahaha.. :p ur're already 18 sis..
stop actin cute ok.. leave dat to mi..
haha.. nw ur're REALI gonna cum n bug
mi.. but i dun care.. u beta ACCEPT
dis testimonial n nt reject.. or else
I'LL b da one bugging u.. haha.. :p n
if u reject i am NT gonna write
another one for u.. nt even if u beg
mi to.. hahaha.. hehe.. everitym go
clubbing.. ur're lucki u passed ur
As.. hey.. noe wen to party n wen to
study larx.. ur're da smart one
between da both of us.. so u cant
afford to nt score well.. if nt mum n
dad are gonna bug mi to score well..
hahaha.. my sis such an intelligent
ger.. but she dosent teach mi
ANYTHING.. go ask her to teach mi my
hw.. lemme tink.. i tink she onli
taught mi abt 2 or 3 tyms.. DAT'S
ALL.. wad kind of sis are u? huh? i
duno wad i did to get such a sis..
hahaha.. :p anyway.. tk ur tym to
decide on which country u wanna go
to.. so i can bug u more!! yea..
haha.. but hey.. muz lemme visit u k..
best is go australia.. den i can go
aft my 'o' nex yr n learn surfing!!
yea!! hahaha.. ending here.. i m
TIRED.. it's already 3.07am.. n i m
writing a stupid testimonial for u wen
i could hav n gone n slp juz nw.. u
owe mi one!! haha.. n wen can we c all
da vcds we bought.. i m gonna go back
to sch dis fri.. so u beta b free n
watch it soon wif mi.. hahaha.. i m da
onli one hu can b so cruel to u in ur
testimonial.. hahaha.. :p despite our
quarrels(which seems lyk it happens
often enuf), i still lub ya.. ok..
hapi.. *bleahz* ahha.. okok.. EAT MORE
larx.. if nt u skinnier den mi veri
xia sui de.. :p okok.. REALI ending
here nw.. buaiz.. tk care larx..
-special xtra super squeezy hug for u-

Congrats if you read all that, you must be bored. :D

And 2 Shout-outs before I go:
LeeHuiPeng, my fellow PRISSY girl. Hiss out okay! (I remembered our joke when I read one testi you left. Heh.) I miss chu soooo muchie!

Read Out Louds
Ah Da and NaNesh: Da have your 21st at Mehdonnalds so we can dlink olange juice and have big bleakfast! (Damn, typing lie dat is vely hard. Try defying spelling as you know it!) And then after that, let's go lancing lancing!!!


And these days the sunshine's bright. :)

11:56;

Auditory Pleasures Pete Murray - So Beautiful

I am soooo red right now it is abnormal. Son's sister insisted on me having wine. So one, two, three glasses in all. It just kept flowing. I don't normally drink red but it was good red though. It was a highly emotional scene; I hate it when people have to part. I still remember the morning I left Sem 1 last year. Mark and Hiro actually bothered to wake up (at an ungodly hour of maybe 6?) to say goodbye. I didn't cry then, but reflecting on Sem 1 I wished I made more effort to spend time with both of 'em. I miss them both so much. Things were so much more straightforward and simpler back then. How I wish we could turn back time... Now I can't even write properly; my brain keeps churning out "such as", "suggests" and "indicates". Someone reading my assignment right now would probably think I'm some sort of retard. Waking up at three and doing work almost the whole afternoon certainly did not take 'fun' out of my day. It was actually more eventful than most days. Dinner with Eric and Sharon was Crap-Session Part 45497598. Eric has also successfully made it to become my favourite random person:

Me: "If you were stranded on an island what would you want on it?"
Eric: "A servant."
Me: "A servant!? But it's an island! What do you want a servant for?!"
Eric: "Well. So that he can worship me. Like a living God."
Me: "Don't you want food or anything? Cos I want mangoes..."
Eric: "Well doesn't the island already have food?"
Me: "Noooo. It's a DESERTED island."
Eric: "Oh. I thought it was Hawaii."
Me & Sharon: "......"

Seriously man. You would think when such a question is asked people assume a deserted island ala LOST. But then again maybe not everyone watches LOST as faithfully as I do.


//edit>>
YAY. I typed "nasty girl" in Limewire and I actually found both songs I wanted. yes, both are titled nasty girl. one's kinda trancy and the other's r'n'b man. and for the strangest reason i'm hooked onto "hips don't lie" by shakira. it's a remake of Wyclef Jean's "dirty dancing" from part II of movie of the same name. i guess Spanish is just sexy.

20:37;