Tuesday, May 31, 2005
today had band. well, practically there is for this whole wk. umm.. dunno why im using so good english now.. mayb because of the conversation with my pri school frenz like jeremy all these. english pros. lolx. nvm, shall improve my english. ok dots..
overall, i think tt ms sia had a bad impression on percussion. urm no comments la. wad u expect me to do? ya. i dunno why, but i suddenly miss sir again. no. always missed him. but no more him.. unless u go hougang then meet him there or sth. lolx. ok not funnii.. aniwae its not meant to be funnie la. yup.
hmm. tmr will be doing some drills again. and my leg got blue-black because of the side-drum. and the clarinet ppl standing behind us kept telling us to walk straight but we can't! haa. damn difficult. and had such a 'GREAT' time man.. but i think we're going to just throw face there. with so many pro-ers. ok shall think highly of ourselves.
urgh. shall continue doing my hw later after bathing. haa so late i haven bathe yet. yesyes. hw here i come! just make sure tt i dun do until get depression and become an official member of hougang chalet. but how to pass exams? damn. if the underlines in the report slip had colours, different colours for each subject, mine would be so colourful. how nice.. not only can form a rainbow, can form a box of crayons ahh if the lines all had different colours.
WOW..words that hurt so much.
till then; 9:11 PM
Monday, May 30, 2005
not in the right mood to blog. but since i got nothing to do, i shall blog something..
well. im going to do my 10 yr series everyday. not only because my parents want me to. i also shall finish my hw asap. so tt i can revise the work. finishing 1 emaths paper. and add up to about 1 chinese paper. i realise i got quite some hw i dun have. and like i tried doing bio 2 days ago.. and i like everything dunno how to do??? so like did a few qns only. pathetic.
study. study. study. study. study. study. study. study. study. study.
depressed.
till then; 10:14 PM
Saturday, May 28, 2005
i am a failure. yes. but i shall work hard to achieve better results. little slacking these hols. i am going to do my hw later. and shall TRY to finish by next wk or sth. well. actually cried yesterday. when mrs woo was talking to us about the class's overall results all these. and i sudd felt so stupid and guilty. and then just broke down.. dunno why. wth. this yr 4th time cry in front of ppl in liao. getting more emo? mayb. or just getting worse at controlling my tears.
term 2, a bad term. hope that term 3 would be a better one.. all those that happened just can't be helped. life goes on as usual and more challenges ahead. i shall overcome the obstacles. but the fact is mayb i am just stupid, no brains for studying.
BUT i won't give up. try harder..
till then; 9:41 PM
Thursday, May 26, 2005
very sad la. hais. bottom 40. was thinking the whole day whether mrs woo called my parents alr. cuz she said she would start calling after recess or sth. so was bothered. if she call according to index no then i die liao ma. 2nd one. hais.
had the ufm thing. was just slacking there. went back class and mr suresh was there. told us a story on wad shark. felt motivated. yepps. then after recess went to hall for assembly. so no mood to watch la. cuz its after recess alr. anytime she might call. then got ppt presentations for us to watch. huiching they all efficient sia. ufm thing this morn only then assembly can put on ppt liao.
after school got band. then mr ong came. played thru some songs. asked me to be more rockish in the more rockish parts of the songs. dotty. true aniwae. rock more to the music. yeah! then spent had a 15min break. after tt had erm sorta rearrangement. everybody shifted 90 degrees clockwise. nvm. shall adapt. and now the band room is still in quite a mess with percussion instruments all over the place.
aniwaes gtg do zuowen liao. die. cant do english film review! microsoft word going crazy keep hanging. so i give up. better spend time on my zuowen cuz han lao shi made me promise tt i would do a good zuowen for her. hais. tmr whole day out. going vjc concert. yup. thats all! hais..
till then; 11:53 PM
Tuesday, May 24, 2005
this morning woke up a bit later and arrived in school a bit later lor. haa. sweating like hell.. aniwae after tt went to hall for some speakers' corner and tt whatever language cultural week. hmm. bao was so funniee. laughing non-stop can. somemore sit first row la.
went back class and no teacher. slept throughout the whole lesson although the classroom is totally in an unsleepable state. but me, the pig, still can tolerate and continue with my sleep. lolx. then recess i wake up and go and eat. was late for reading.. the queue so long! not my fault la.
hmm. then bio mrs chiaw didnt come. wooos. then was so free and went to write a 2p list and decided to ask around wad dates they want for bbq. heh. so fun and cool mans. lolx. then finished at the end of lesson. chia came in. no maths test sia. instead got timed assignment. test postponed to next term. yupp. chem after tt. wahh. sian until can die. but i tried to listen as much as possible and as much as i understand. hoho.
went to eat. actually no, just bot drinks. went back to class and took our bags and rushed off to meeting place, leaving the bai ka woman, shir, behind. wahaha. oops so mean. heh. erm the place was alr like full? so sit first row. the door so scary de. keep on opening and closing by itself.. eeyerr. erm u noe wad? i actually paid attention throughout ehh . the chapter ok la. not so bad, at least i understand. lolx. baoyue is john nash! hahaa. the smart person sitting beside me. or izzit banana nash/ mash or whatever? hoho.
went for band. new instructor/s. didnt see the guy. yup. had to cover shuyan's parts. my leg almost broke, supporting the whole body weight when playing. think gonna haf muscle ache tmr. x) i think it sounded quite nice? lesser talkings. and ms sia, the conductor, said i play like a robot. and ask me to
SMILE when playing. and now she noes my name alr. how power.. yeah. wad a nice day today is. smile :) lolx.
hope tt tmr there will be more post exam activities or just no need to have any lessons la. so tt i can sleep. hehs. also no mood to study one la.
till then; 9:53 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005
Our destiny changes with our thought; we shall become what we wish to become, do what we wish to do, when our habitual thought corresponds with our desire. -Orison S. Marden
till then; 5:24 PM
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
ran 4 rounds for pe today. can die. tmr x-country. gonna die a horrible death. nonono. touch wood. i still wanna live in this world, lots more things waiting for me ahead. good and bad.
well. can go and die liao. my l1r5 add up can more than 40. hmm. how bad can it be? failed 5. bleh. mayb i shud work harder le ba. time to do so.. i shud have done so long ago right. hais. well, mayb it's not too late YET. hais. so many f9s.. pathetic can. i noe its very bad, can go ite chop place first liao. highest only c5? shittt. so i think i better
buck up. yes. i shall do so. somebody pls go study with me someday and
teachme.
woohoos! tt shit song so cool. but its bananas = shit. sobb. nvm. as long as its nice. lolx. and i was in this super messy and shitty conv. talking about pervert stuffs. with siying, sp, yilan and wenyu. lolx. cuz ALL were listening to tt shit song. and everybody was sending winks. so took so long to type this post. yupp. summary? i shall work harder. yes.
till then; 10:07 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2005
all these are so depressing. all the things tt happened. i also sense tt we are all drifting apart. and what's the cause of it? im not sure too.. hais. and whoever tt ms sia is, i still will think of sir. wondering is she nice? hais.
went to kovan with yilan and spent our whole afternoon there. better than staying at home and thinking too much. i'd rather walk around and sit down and talk and forget everything. yepps. walked from like 4 to 7+. reached home and slacked.
read sp's blog just now. 'no more me siying and ching hong shouting sir bb when we go plae bball; no more sir scolding us, 4 plaeing bball on the road..' this made me cry. cos i remember them! sat band practices. we would go to play bball at joo seng and would see sir when walking out. hais. no more of these.
amaths class test tmr. haven even started studying anything. haiyah. band photo taking tmr. hais. dunno la. whatever it is, i will try not to think so much about these things and be happy. yup. try to sort out what is wrong..
till then; 4:31 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005
yesterday was quite a sad day and today is another one.
yesterday mrs woo was talking to us about some impt issues. and it was really quite bad la. then after school, had meeting in band room. and wong wong came in and told us tt sir has handed in his resignation letter and tmr wud be his last day with us. i dunno why but i didnt react much. mayb because it hasnt really went into my mind.
and today, it was raining in the morn. but i brought umbrella cuz it was alr raining when i left home so of course i had to bring. and then went to hall for the music recital part 2. hais they all so pro de. piano. hmm. then got tt skincare talk. had recess. a bit crazi. went upstairs after eating and there was still time. so decided to like go down buy drink again. mad laa..
after tt went to hall for the dental skit thingy. bao was funnie, making funnie sounds and stuffs. then we tried to sabo ROSE HUA aka grace when she isnt beside us and nowhere to be found. just shout her name out. eldora sitting far away could hear man.
went back class and started writing the letter to sir. but didnt noe wad to write! so asked bao and celes for comments. in e end only wrote like 2 sentences. hais. had no ling gan. then had chinese.. listened to the so sad story of what happened to a cedarian like a few yrs ago? erm mayb 4 or 5 or more aiyah dunno la.. some ppl were crying. heard tt rose cried very badly. hmm. i dunno if i shud cry anot. so i didnt la. its touching man. and i tot if it ever happened to me and all these. of cuz sad la!
had bio test after school. gonna flunk it again. hais. but tts not the pt cuz im quite used to it. at least its the last test of the term. went to eat first then go for band. our last practice with sir. and it was quite saddening for him. we were all rushing to write a note letter or whatever behind the timpani. i wrote last. supposed to be 3rd but dunno wad to write. tsuwie became my consultant cuz she was guiding me in writing.
last time sir conducting us. played tt thing u do. remembered his comment for me. then band practice just ended like this. and sir went through with us all the piecees before he left, the last practice. after playing through all the pieces, he asked when would he see us again. and he answered himself, oh i wun be seeing you all again. like so sad. hais. felt like crying alr. but like hold back my tears first. trying to ren not to cry. then they announced understudies. wasnt really listening though cuz i was thinking too much, mayb. then i understudy also. haa. no comments la.
thanked sir, for the last time to mr lim meng keh, and shuyan's voice was so shakyy and so obvious tt she want to cry liao. after being dismissed i cannot take it anymore then i cried. nobody was crying from percussion yet ba besides mayb shuyan?. or others i didnt see. hais. they all didnt expect me to cry first or mayb even cry. but i really cannot ren alr. hid under my jacket's cap and cry. better la nobody can see me being ugly. lolx. glad tt i was wearing my jacket. if not like so paiseh. walked out of the band room wif my cap covering face too.
walked out to pp. and reached home at about mayb 6.50? then didnt bring keys and was stuck outside. AGAIN. yeah.
its so saddening. and this yr had been a sad yr and its only may now? 3 major events.
1) oac
2) syf
3) sir leaving
i rmb tt i only cried in front of my frenz ONCE. mayb pri 1 got la. but its very rare. and in secondary school, sec 1 sec 2 didnt. sec 3? 3;
THREE times. hais. dunno why la. but actually i really emotional de. quite ba. just tt i dun look like. lolx.
till then; 9:16 PM
Sunday, May 08, 2005
ok finally decided to blog. but i dunno wad to blog about. but i changed skin again.. ok its obvious. nice right? lolx.
for what happened on fri, tt stupid taxi driver. dumbest one i ever seen. it was raining after school.. so at the foyer we were looking for someone to longbang us out cuz only bao had an umbrella for 4 person to share which is totally pathetic. got amanda kwek's mother to fetch us to bus stop. hee! then while the 4 of us squeeze into the back seats, el was laughing at us. blehh. and i slammed the door onto my own leg cuz cannot squeeze in. how dumb.
then at ibs waited for tt stupid 13 for so long then decided to take taxi la. ok. then on the taxi.. go expressway, then i was thinking. how come go j8 need go expressway de? then nvm. ok then at little india.. i was like? har??? then kk hospital.. we all were thinking something wasnt right. then bao was so sarcastic. like.. why are we here huh? then ask the uncle. "uncle, where you going? we going j8 right?" he like dowan answer. then we all so scared cuz scared he later kidnap us. then grace like say in bishan leh. then he like. orrhh. go wrong place.. wtf. took a 35min taxi journey to j8. somemore got traffic jam. then me and grace were sms-ing each other cuz i was at the front seat. then she sms me ask me to see the driver's name car plate blah blah. then i see then sms her. hahaa. then she at night ask her mum go complain. but in e end didnt la.
finally reach then we all feel sick besides yilan ba. dunno why feel like vomitting lydat. bleh. cuz traffic jam then e car go and stop ba. went mac to eat. took neoprint. like fighting inside the machine lydat. got war arh. cuz when choosing pic, they dowan then me and bao like want tt pic. then press then they unpress a few times. times up. haha. then me and bao won. the pic was ugly man. haha.
ok gtg pia f&n liao. bye bye!
till then; 3:12 PM
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
like first time can so long dun blog. lolx. was studying wor! so guai right? so unlike me.
aniwae today first lesson want us to jog 5 rounds. even after 2.4 la! cuz its for x-country. which is in 2 wks. wtf. jog until want to die man. really k. felt quite sick la. bleh weak? mayb. after tt teach us how to play tt dunno-wad-name game. didnt bother to listen aniwae.
english went com lab straight. was stinky and totally sucky. serene ng loves to pick on me and bao. so after HER asking bao and me respectively to turn and face her and stop talking, i was totally pissed and didnt bother to talk anymore. like so idiotic. sudd call me and ask me to stop talking blah blah. stupid fucking serene ng. but after tt did other stuffs and forgot about her. 'remember' her for wad?! waste my memory space..
was recess after tt. so ate. there were only sec 3s in the canteen. so very little ppl la. ok crap. had chinese. shiok! novabelle and diana did their show and tell and it took up the whole lesson. ahaa. no need read newspaper. not bad. cuz i never bring again. lolx.
a.maths was boring. wanna sleep alr laa. so boring. zzz.. then f&n. though i damn sleepy and tired after having pe, i wasnt really sleepy during f&n leh. cuz at least listen le then can apply to daily life. lolx. like jian-fei. hoho.
didnt really had ce. continue a bit f&n. and we are
definitely going
AUSTRALIA ehh! so totally rocks. i tot i was so sleepy tt i fell asleep and was dreaming. lolx. was excited. haha. 2nd time going overseas with school. but i think shud be can go la right? my pa say can. hoho. and then used 15min to do mothers' day card. i took 10min to think [[slacking]] and about 5 min to write the word 'happy' and then decided to do for grace as bdae card la. haha. then i wrote birthday without rthday.
woots. then after school ah-ying [[siying, nickname given by bao]] and wenyu came to our class and find us. then go pp mac and study. see so guai again. lolx. really eh. nowadays i so guai lor got study de. yesterday's chem test i started studying on sat. waaaaahh. guai right? lolx.
then studied at pp mac. ate my mcspicy double again. lolx. and after finishing everything i went to buy a medium sprite again. so mad. and then started studying. hmm really got study k! but i study very slow de. haa. the sa ppl were noisy. and the guy ask them to go out or sth. then like wah very confused la. dunno wad they doing de. make me so gong. so i dowan care then continue studying. but we got talk one la. once in awhile cuz will die if u ask me study throughout. lolx.
went home. and slept again. haha. yesterday i did some meaningful stuffs man. reach home and slept from 4.30 to 7.30. watch tv and eat. until 8.30. bathed until 9. went to sleep at 9 cuz parents dun let me play com. wth. budden obviously i couldnt sleep after sleeping for 3 hours in e noon. so i 11.30 then really sleep. so like cannot sleep for 2 1/2 hours. lolx.
till then; 9:21 PM
