Production stress

Yesterday night had this weird dream. I'm not sure to consider it a bad dream anot but if it's with regards to production, I guess it would be bad.

Was dreaming of the tech run that would be conducted this Sunday. Had no idea why when tech run is about to start, alot of people are not present yet. 80% of my casts were MIA. Tried to contact some of them, and they told me they weren't aware of the tech run and were on their way back home. However, I was sure I did told them eons of years ago, and kept reminding them during practices.

Then half of tech crew was gone too. Props team left only the heads, SMs, sound and lights I/Cs left only one each. Everyone was blaming me why I never tell them there would be tech run. But I did! I reminded them and gave them the schedule a long time ago and I did kept reminding them. SMSes, emails, calls. I did! But no one believed me! All of them kept blaming me and kept saying I was at fault. Then all walked out on me and just left the dance room...

Right after that, I just woke up. Seriously, I have no idea why I dreamt of that.... Perhaps I'm just stressed....

1st tech run

First tech-run for production was held yesterday, one of the days I fear even since the start of production. First time for the casts to have the feeling of a stage. First time for the props people to really know the position of the props. First time to try the cues for sounds and lights. First time to let the rest to know the results of the casts that I have been practising with them. A large amount of stress I'm carrying. Although everyone keep saying to me, don't worry coz there'll be people who I'm able to share the burden with.

However, I just can't help but feel stress. Coz that is the time to test how well can the director and other crew are able to work together, and whether, they can trust me. It is really taxing and stress to think of all these but I just can't help but to keep thinking about it.

1st tech-run is over and 2nd tech-run is coming up onthis coming Sunday. Everything should have been improved by then. Cross my fingers and hopefull everthing goes well.

Thanks to all my casts, props heads and subcomm, SMs, lights I/Cs, sound I/Cs, producer and co-pro.

Oh ya, thanks Yi-Sheng for the belated B'day cum X'mas present. Thanks. Juz take a small break whilst going back Taiwan for the workload that you have done for this sem. 休息是为了走更长的路。

anti-social....

This thought... was meant to be entered into yesterday night's entry....

It just suddenly struck me, how eagerly, I was anticipating for school to be re-opened. Not because I'm a good student. It's just that, once school re-opens, I can shut myself out from the world again, or at least, don't need to 'entertain' or 'socialise' with hall people.

Not that I hate them or dislike them, it's just that I just don't want to socialise, that's all. Beginning from this sem, I just want to keep myself shut. There's just too many 'faces' in hall, and it's sometimes tiring to put on a different side, to face different people. I am just too tired to bother with so much stuff...

Perhaps.... I just want to be anti-social... for now....

Busy with....

It's been a few days since I last updated. Exams are over, and so are projects. Here are the holidays but I'm still not free.

So what the heck am I still busy with?

The only answer to that question would be... Hall XI production...

Yea... for coming 2 consecutive weeks... will be 'bound' to hall coz I have to 'diao' (刁 think should be this character ba) my casts and also, to take care of the cues, sounds, lights, props, make-up and whole lot of other stuff.... Zzzz.....

Anyway, went out for a steamboat gathering with my primary school friends yesterday, and sibeh sway, even though I wasn't cooking any food, I kena scalded by the hissing hot oil which my friend was cooking her food. Face kena, but heng not big spot, but small spots. Athough I've immediately used ice water to soothe the face, and later on used ice-cube to place on the spots, still the spots which were kena were painful.

Can only say sway sia.... Sit so far still can kena... Anyway, one of it can be seen healing, coz it turned dark le. Other 2 spots still red... Anyway, not really that visible but thank goodness is that, my eyes didn't kena. Missed by few mms.... This teach me not to wear contact lens for steamboat the next time...

Back in hall and sianz... later still need to brainstorm lights, sounds, props for production... Shall wait till night time then do... Very sleepy now... Woke up bloody early this morning.....

Yawnz........... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I'm not sure how long it has been...2 months? More than that? I've lost count of it...

This is certainly the longest period of time of sickness. On and off, and getting worse during project datelines and exams. Until now, I still have my cough, but (*thinks*) getting better.

I've learnt my lesson. To go and see the doctor immediately if I fall sick and can't be cured with self-medication.

Sighz....

Tml need go back hall to shoot for the trailer.

I dunno why but I got this feeling, it's going to be a tough and strenous, with lotsa of barriers for the upcoming hall production. Never again, will I go and take on a big role. I rather go back in being a SM or props subcomm. I guess I'm not cut out to take on big roles....

My wish now, is to pray that I'll be healthy again....

Recuperating

2nd day after completion of exams but still, not able to fully enjoy the holidays. Health hasn't recovered and coughing every now and then. Only after taking medicine, it then gets better, or at least I'll stop coughing for time being. This teaches me a lesson: next time if I fall sick, I should to see a doctor immediately, otherwise, it'll worsen and eventually, takes a long time to recuperate.

But thank goodness, yesterday went to watch animations from the "Animation Nation 2007" with Huiting and Yi-sheng, at least wasn't that bored. But sadly, the cough doesn't give leeway for going out. It still attacked me mercilessly.

Sighz... I'm been a good girl and listening to the doctor's advice le. No blowing of fan and aircon directly. But I guess it'll take me some time for me to recover fully... All I can do now is to take my medication dutifully, listen to doc's advice and no 'exploitation' of my throat...

Been trying to update my song playlists, with TVXQ and Super Junior songs. Super Junior just released their 2nd album, "Don't Don" and TVXQ released another 2 Jap singles, "Day Moon" and "Forever Love". Below is a Jap song "Last Angel" sang by Koda Kumi, featuring TVXQ.

OVER~

Woo hoo~ It's official! It's final! It's been announced!

This sem is officially over!! AAH exams just ended today! Yipee~ I'm damn happy!

But there's another contradicting fact....

I'm having exams on my birthday, and what's worse, juz went to see a doctor, coz my immune system has been down for a long time and my cough is gettin worse. Little did I know that my condition was that bad.

I thought it was only 喉咙发炎(throat infection) but it turned out to be 气管发炎(respiratory infection).

Wah!!! Damn bad lor... no wonder my throat hurts so much....

Then doc still says, no aircon and no fan for the next 3 days. But worse still, he says no washing of the hair for 3 days!!

ARGHH!! Can die man if I don't wash my hair for a day!! I feel so... eeeee.......

Anyway, hope to recover asap....

Last but not least.... Happy Birthday to me and another of my poly friend, Zhicheng who shares the same birthday as me!!!

Cough

I would like to go and see a doctor... I really would... But I can't... Mon's AAH exam....

I haven't study finish... But I'm coughing like mad... everyday esp when sleeping...

I can't sleep... I feel I maybe coughing out blood any time...

I can only see a doc after exams.....

Pls, my throat, my immune system, hang in there for awhile....

Screening

Tomorrow is the screening day, which all of our short films will be screened on big screen.

Supposingly, should be joyous or proud of it, but I'm not. Perhaps, I'm really sick of looking at my footages over and over again, editing till non-stop.

Suppose to give a short speech before film is screened.

I'm not going to... Excuse?

Shall give as: "Can't talk. Coughing damn badly, sorethroat. No voice."

Haha... Will they buy it?

They have to. I don't want to talk. Neither am I in the right state of health to talk.

Decided!

Shall not talk tml...

What your name means

Bo liao so went around browsing... and found this on Singying's blog...

What Your Name Means

You entered: Li Minghui

There are 9 letters in your name.
Those 9 letters total to 57
There are 4 vowels and 5 consonants in your name.

What your first name means:

Chinese Male
Means either 'strength' or 'plum' or 'black' or 'sharp' in Chinese. Li Ssu-hsun was a 7th-century Chinese landscape painter, Li Po was a 8th-century Chinese poet, and Li Yu was a 10th-century Chinese poet and ruler of the Southern Tang kingdom.

ChineseFemale
Means either 'strength' or 'plum' or 'black' or 'sharp' in Chinese. Li Ssu-hsun was a 7th-century Chinese landscape painter, Li Po was a 8th-century Chinese poet, and Li Yu was a 10th-century Chinese poet and ruler of the Southern Tang kingdom.

Your number is: 3
The characteristics of #3 are: Expression, verbalization, socialization, the arts, the joy of living.

The expression or destiny for #3:
An Expression of 3 produces a quest for destiny with words along a variety of lines that may include writing, speaking, singing, acting or teaching; our entertainers, writers, litigators, teachers, salesmen, and composers. You also have the destiny to sell yourself or sell just about any product that comes along. You are imaginative in your presentation, and you may have creative talents in the arts, although these are more likely to be latent. You are an optimistic person that seems ever enthusiastic about life and living. You are friendly, loving and social, and people like you because you are charming and such a good conversationalist. Your ability to communicate may often inspire others. It is your role in life to inspire and motivate; to raise the spirits of those around you.

The negative side of number 3 Expression is superficiality. You may tend to scatter your forces and simply be too easygoing. It is advisable for the negative 3 to avoid dwelling on trivial matters, especially gossip.

Your Soul Urge number is: 3

A Soul Urge number of 3 means: With the Soul Urge number 3 your desire in life is personal expression, and generally enjoying life to its fullest. You want to participate in an active social life and enjoy a large circle of friends. You want to be in the limelight, expressing your artistic or intellectual talents. Word skills may be your thing; speaking, writing, acting, singing. In a positive sense, the 3 energy is friendly, outgoing and always very social.

You have a decidedly upbeat attitude that is rarely discouraged; a good mental and emotional balance.

The 3 Soul Urge gives intuitive insight, thus, very high creative and inspirational tendencies. The truly outstanding trait shown by the 3 Soul Urge is that of self-expression, regardless of the field of endeavor.

On the negative side, you may at times become too easygoing and too optimistic, tending to scatter forces and accomplish very little. Often, the excessive 3 energy produces non-stop talkers. Everyone has faults, but the 3 soul urge doesn't appreciate having these pointed out.

Your Inner Dream number is: 9

An Inner Dream number of 9 means: You dream of being creative, intellectual, and universal; the selfless humanitarian. You understand the needy and what to help them. You would love to be a person people count on for support and advice.

When will my cough recover?

When will my cough recover?

Been taking medicine like nobody's business for weeks but yet to recover....

I feel like I'm back when I was young.... When I had asthma... pills machine... taking God knows how many dosages of medicine....

When will my cough recover?

Stars

Got this from Jiefeng's blog....







I'm PATRIOTIC? Good or bad?

Left with AAH

Finally, handed in the long-lasting film project! I've done all I can. The rest is up to fate.

Final assignment for Writing for Film is also done.

Now is left ony with Asian Art History exam paper on the 26 Nov, a week from now. I've got a week to study, but seriously, no matter how hard I study, I totally am clueless on what will come out. Unlike Western Art History, where we can prepare lots of info beforehand, this time we can't.

Not sure if dead or alive... Only time will tell...

Wed is rehearsal for screening of our films. Hope everything runs well and nothing is screwed up. Showcase of Film students' works on 24 Nov. Showcase of other majors' works on 23 Nov. Back to back events, it's going to be hectic.

Down

1 paper down, 2 more to go, and 2 more projects to go.

Immune system also terribly down. Been sick ever since few weeks ago and have not recovered. Having bad sorethroat and yesterday night kena fever. This morning fever came back. Think it's coming back again... Need to take Panadol.....

WHY do I always get sick at end of semester, and always terribly sick?

Random

Addicted to Boh's Vanilla Teacino.

Still studying for AFH.

Floating mind after taking medicine.

Joan's noodles smell nice.

KO-ed

Status of next 3 consecutive weeks: x_x

To be done:
1) Project film dateline which involves Digital Film Production + Writing for Film + Sound Design
2) Poster design
3) Asian Film History re-quiz
4) Asian Film History exam
5) Basic Media Writing exam
6) Asian Art History exam
7) Final assignment for Writing for Film

Getting better

Mind still floating around after taking medicine. Indeed, combination of Actifed-C, Ventolin and Priton works, but will cause my mind to float around and hands to be shaky. I feel like my asthma is back by taking these medicine.

But definitely, being back at home does help my sickness to go away faster. At least the air ain't that polluted and I'm not coped up in my hostel room entirely. I guess my sickness also need a change of environment before I'm cured.

Anyway, shall try to finish editing by tonight. It's more or less done, except for the addiition of music, ambience sound, touching-up of here and there and I guess it's done. But I guess still need to let them see before I can officially claim it's done.

Next week is exams period and first paper is on 15th and I haven't really touch the notes, especially BMW. Hoepfully, I can pass and I'll be glad. Asian Film History, I'm uncertain but I'll try my best, definitely. Next week is also the dateline for project which means, I gotta finish it up ASAP to concentrate on my exams. Pls la, let both of them be easy-going and don't pick on me anymore. I got no time.

Everyone's pretty busy now, esp. ADMers who ave to juggle with assignments and exams. Tough to be an ADMer.... Shall go eat now... Fainting soon... Haven't had lunch....

x_x Mentally, physically

I always fall sick at nearly the end of semester, for consecutive 3 semesters. This time round, cough and flu attacked me mercilessly.

Cough is getting worse each day, leaving me voiceless now. Think need to see a doctor this weekend when I get back home. This can't continue.

Time is fast and soon, next week is the start of examination. Problem is, I haven't touch my notes yet coz I'm still doing my project, which is also due next week.

Ok, I'm so x_x. Mentally and physically....

Supposed to go school today to show WS my edited footages (shown Jaymz yesterday and he gave comments le), but I doubt I can crawl to school now. Feeling damn sick and I got this feeling, at any moment, I may just cough my blood out.

Shall continue with my editing. Perhaps, to touch on Asian Film History later....

Perhaps. Maybe. Uncertain.

Isolation

Back in hall, at such a early time since God knows when.

Lately only till the sun sets, would I return back to hall. Even if before sunset, it would mean to rest in hall for a while, and to go back to school at a later time, and work till midnight or late in the nights.

Seriously, just wanna dump everything aside and isolate myself from the world. Without the need to do anything. Without the need to worry about anything. Without the need for interaction. But just quietly enjoy the tranquility and moment of silence within myself.

I guess because of this mindset, been lately returning back to hall rather early, and keep myself in the room, unless necessary.

If given the option of having a Mac desktop or laptop that is able to support FCP, I wouldn't drag myself to school either. Would just prefer to edit OTOT.

Have no idea why I'm having these thoughts. Perhaps I'm just sick of everything. To aimlessly go school, do nothing. To face the com almost 24/7. Pon-tening isn't what I used to do but lately, been doing that. Just wanna be alone and need not face any interactions.

Body is taking over my heart and body... This can't continue anymore.... is it?

Last design out of the 3 posters for my short film. Still prefer the first one. Other 2 are juz for show.

You Are 32% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

You Are Somewhat Mature

You definitely act like an adult sometimes, but a big part of you is still a kid at heart. While your immature side is definitely fun, you're going to have to grow up sooner or later.

Are You Immature?

Bored and did some quizes. Well, here's my 2nd poster...

Apology

Tee hee~ my first film poster, draft 1

That time of the year

It's that time of the year again, whereby more and more students are staying back overnight in school to do projects. Not because the environment at home or hall is bad, but the softwares are only available in school labs and of course, the computers are stronger.

Just like yesterday night, a few of us stayed back overnight in the film editing lab to rush for our Sound Design project and and also to edit our footages for our films. 2 year 3s came in at around midnight or later than that, saw the few year 2s and their expressions were quite shocked, like "so late still got so many people in here?".

Then again, it can't be blamed coz mostly, it is the animators who are staying overnight everytime, but this time round, it is the filmmakers.

As time goes by, there'll be more and more people staying back and I seriously doubt there are enough workstations for all. Year 3s have their private editing suites but year 2s don't have. The only ones we have is the only film editing lab, and is commonly used by students who have taken Sound Design module and also Intro to Editing module. This means that the filmmakers are seriously lacking of workstations, even though there's only 24 of us.

I can't imagine what it is to be like when we go to year 3s, when there'll be 3 batches of filmmakers. Same goes to the animators....

A WRAP!

Woo Hoo~ It's a wrap!!!

Finally after 3 weeks of weekends, majority, and of course my group, we finally shooting for our film! HURRAY!!

These 3 consecutive weeks are tough for everyone, coz basically, it's like studying 7 days per week, and that we are slogging our way through. Okay, not all, but majority. The familiar faces will know who are the hardworking ones and those familiar faces are always in action. There's no viable option not to help or carry stuff, coz if we don't do, no one will do it. Thou shall not complain anymore....

Anyway, I'm glad the 2nd phase of hellish period is over. 3rd phase is tomorrow, to start editing the footages. But currently, I'm glad 2nd phase is over. I guess after this phase, the familiar faces are more united than ever coz we know each other have slogged till siao.

Not to mention, more muscles have been built up on my arms and I'm more tanned than ever. Like the previous post mentioned, burnt both literally and metaphorically. I have no idea when I'll become fair again. Perhaps when I start working.... indoors....

The fan is blowing till my eyes are feeling droopy now... feel like sleeping but have to wait till my hair is dried... and I miss my roomie~ She's not back yet.... Where are you roomie?

LOL! Okay, shall do other stuff first.... design poster for my film.....

Anneyeong~ Oyasumi~

Once again, after a day of weekend shoot.

Burnt, both literally and metaphorically.

Tomorrow's last day of shooting of everyone's films.

Pray it'll be a success and bless the fine weather.

And bless that no one would come and disturb our shooting.

Complete AAH OP.

Studying AAH quiz.

Left AFH essay, quiz, editing of film, film poster, BMW assignment 3.

Finally Asian Film History presentation's over. One burden off the load, but still got wiki paper and quiz coming up.... This week, with utmost priority, Asian Art History presentation and quiz, and of course, sound design.

Sighz....

If there's extra time, still need to digitize my footage and start editing.... I'm so dead...

With the physical and mentally challenging tasks, it's hard not to be tired easily. Even at this moment, still feeling quite tired.

Thankfully, one good news from today is that I passed my Asian Film History quiz, by 1 mark. Haha... the 4 of us who were sitting together managed to pass. However, there'll be a re-quiz and this time round, B.T. will take the better of 2.

Should stop blogging and get back to my AAH OP and after that, study for AAH quiz. 24/7 ain't enough... wish there are longer hours in a day, and more days in a week. Practically, we are studying 7 days in one week with no break...

真凄凉。。。

Another tiring weekend... with more new injuries, scars, mosquito bites & bruises...

Profs did another stunning thing again....

To claim a not over-expose effect, ask people go climb up the roof to set up some fake trees. By the time, it was set up, the sun has already moved to another direction, creating a less harsher tone, which means no over-exposure.

So why did I climb up the roof to create fake trees, creathing more scars on my hands n legs?

Sighz....

As time goes by, more and more unhappiness are caused. More and more grudges are increasing. More and more gossips.....

sleepy

Lately been feeling pretty tired...

Gets knocked out easily.....

Good or bad?

B.T. juz sent Asian Film presentation questions and we are to present on Mon....

How is it possible when we are shooting on both Sat and Sun?

No time to find info.... X_X

Dead.... feeling sleepy again....

Souls

5 souls turn up for morning class, and seriously, there wasn't a need to go. But the souls who went, did their own work. 1 soul left after 30mins or longer, and leaving only 4 souls. 3 souls did their own work, and 1 soul did some other stuff.

Nothing to be done.

Gotta complete Asian Art History OP asap otherwise I'll have no time to do Asian Film History OP. Genre is Asian Horror which have to find info tml.

Tml gotta unpack equipments, check stuff n pack again. But Friday I'm shooting, doing the rest of my shots and also doing Li-Cheng's shooting. So gotta take out the camera, tripod and lights.

Hmm... we don't want go back to school on Sat early morning since Xiuming, Li-Cheng and I are going back home respectively. Abit redundant to go back and once we pack our stuff on Friday, the others can help us load onto the truck. Let the rest do the work and let the silent workers rest...

Silent workers

Doing AAH OP... Hope Yin Ker approves of the topic I'm doing.

Didn't go for Asia Film History today. Bloody tired and body aching all over. The aftermath of weekend shooting and carrying equipments.

Come to think of it, there are only a group of familiar faces who are always helping out. The rest, I dunno why but never offered to help, though it consists of their things as well. To protect the identities, I won't mention names. But sometimes, I would wonder why we are always the ones who are doing? No one ever knows we are slogging away, except for those in the group that are always helping. Do the others appreciate? Why are we still being called selfish? Does she know how much contribution we've given compared to the rest?

All questions but no answers. To think of it again, if we don't help too, no one won't help, or initiate help. In this way, nothing would be done and it's bad for everyone. We always do think of not helping for once, but we do that, I think everything will just delay, which is bad.

So in the end, the same group of people are always being nice, helping things out but we are still being called selfish. Forget it, we are the silent workers and silent workers always suffer but always get the things done.

Hail to silent workers!

Anyway, Yi Sheng sent some of the film production photos to me. Some look quite interesting and I didn't know that we did all those things, or perhaps look like that at that time.

First offical shooting of my film today. Yesterday was a trial rehearsal and I was damned pissed and angry yesterday.

Dun wanna talk about it. Hence, decided I should do a 'guerilla' style today, chop chop shoot good shots and zhao, dun let them have chance to comment or anything or do whatever.

Haha... success...

But sadly, it rained today so everyone's schedule was put on hold. Thank goodness, I'm still able to shoot the part I want on time.

Thanks to everyone.

I've got a great actor, Richard, who is able to get into the role, and portrayed what I want. I'm moved by your acting. Thanks.

Li-Cheng, my DP, or cameraman, your 'zai' framing, shooting makes my shots more wonderful and contributing your strength for the big crane. Thanks.

Xiuming, my AD. You've been giving me great ideas, shooting ideas and making sure the set is what I want. Thanks.

Yi Sheng, my grip. You've helped me push the dolly, applying the rightful strength and speed, giving Li-Cheng to shoot what I want. Thanks.

Hui Ting, my sound girl. Although you are rather blur and gullible, believing alot of things we've said, you've done a great job by carrying out your role. Thanks.

BIG THANKS to the whole team, for everything and contributing your strenghth. Thank you so much for the time and effort contributed. Thanks so much.

I may need your help again, perhaps this Friday, when I shoot the rest of my shots. Thanks so much!!

Although I'm bloody tired, but I'm quite happy today, with everyone, who are there in one way or another. Thanks!!

Sound Design Project

4.20am.
Still stuck in Film editing lab, doing Sound Design project.

Knew editing sounds ain't easy, but just not used to using Mac, and of course, Pro Tools.

Had a nap of around 10mins but still sleepy. Well... definitely...

Later, meeting with Huiting for welfare at 2pm and wrapping shooting equipments at 3pm.

Doubt able to finish Sound Design project by today...

Mind not active enough to think... or function...

Brain dead and seeing hallucination....

Heat emitted from CPU rather hot....

Need sleep soon...

Think go back sleep at 6am.....

Anticipation

It's getting closer. The film date. Saturday and Sunday. 6 and 7 Oct. The first shoot. Hope it'll be a success.

Amendments still need to be made to the script. To make it logical and understandable. For audience. I know. Initially included but they think it's too long. My cast told me audience wun understand some parts. I know too, but initial plan, I can't do anything. Now, I can.

Once starts filming, I'm in hold and in charge of everything.

Some of my friends are saying they do have passion in filmmaking, but all the requirements from the profs are making them kind of sick of it.

It's tiring. I do admit. But I still like it. Or should say learn to love again. Been down to the bottom before, but managed to climb back up. A lesson learnt.

Just hope they won't interfere too much.

Anticipating for weekend shoot. Dean says he's coming down one of the days to help. Haha... Wonder who dares to ask Dean to help...

Music: Fox Rain - DBSK

............

Forcing my eyes to keep open now. Not having enough sleep for few consecutive weeks and will be continuing that cycle for the following few weeks. As it gets nearer to end of semester, workload is more and stress level increases.

Confidence level went all the way to bottom once, but managed to pull myself back, but now, it is only 50%. Will strive to continue, despite knowing the fact that will encounter lots of barriers and difficulties.

Muscles aching over, especially arms. Damn 'chui' right now, both physical and mental. Still have to do stupid Basic Media Writing assignment 2, write a brief draft for Asian Film History wiki and study for the quiz on Monday, holding the casts audition for our short films, draw storyboard, write shooting script, do Sound Design mid term project, write Asian Art History essay, do OP, settle hall production stuff.......

Can't tahan.... need go sleep... will be back at around 7am or earlier to continue.... That is if I can wake up....

Better

Feeling better now.

At least mind is much clearer.

After yesterday jogging, came back and rested a while before showering.

Came back to room and talked to roomie.

Roomie then went out to study with her friends.

Alone in the room.

Sat in front of laptop.

Empty mind, complex mind, complex thoughts.

No ideas.

Feeling fatigue, so went to bed at 1.40am.

Woke up at 3.30am, and felt more refreshed.

Clearer mind and thoughts flowed in more smoothly.

Completed at 5.45am.

Well, at least now it is approved by Wenshing, Just need to edit, establish more of the characters' elements.

As for Jaymz's side? Heck care! At least Wenshing approved le.

Now I finally understood the meaning of Alicia's words and actions.

Thank you everyone who pulled me up. Singying, Alicia, Andy, Joseph, Miaoqin, Joan my roomie.

Thank you!

Being naggy.

Emotional.

Alot of thoughts.

Not settled.

Trying hard to regain confidence.

Can't help but kept thinking.

I like film.

I like the course.

But am I doing right in the course?

Setbacks often occur.

Dun remember being so emotional in year 1.

Used to think could be strong to handle.

Used to.... not now...

Have no idea why....

Not sad or emotional that story is rejected once again....

But mockery done to my life experience.

Mockery to my mum.

I hate it.

Know how I feel?

Trying best to pull myself up.

Really am.

But the mockery triggers my emotions.

Deeply.

Am thinking of zooming into story.

Character development.

Setting.

Conflict. BIG & NOT SUBTLE!

Resolution.

Beginning, middle, end.

Can't have open-end.

Can't have nothing happens.

Must have something happen.

Hollywood style.

I hate.

But no choice.

Doing it, not my own satisfaction.

For their satisfaction.

Can't feel anything.

Pulling myself up.

Really am...

Alot of people are concerned.

Thank you.

Can't let them down.

Shall type everything out.

Shall not speak a single word, unless necessary.

Shall pretend lost my voice.

Or at least, speak softly.

Like no voice.

Don't want to speak.

That's it.....

I told myself not to cry.

I withheld.

I tried.

But they just came.

Tears rolled down uncontrollably.

It's based on life experience.

MY life experience.

MY turning point.

MY painful moment.

Lessons I've learnt.

MY philosophy.

They laughed.

They thought it was a ridiculous idea conjured.

They stereotyped -- MOE.

It pierced MY heart.

Wanted to retort back.

I can't.

I teared.

I cried.

It just kept coming and coming.

The story is real.

Wanted to shout.

Can't.

In school.

Wanted to hit punching bag.

No punching bag.

Ran running.

Helped abit.

Closed my eyes.

Remebered what they said.

Typing entry.

Emotions coming back.

Tears are coming out.

Trying to withhold.

Can I?

Able to edit story?

Can I?

I don't know.

Nothing's certain.

Nothing ever happens.....

My confidence level has reached the bottom.

Story is being rejected again.

I've made it bolder, not so conservative.

Life experiences.

How many of the stories are their life experiences?

What is your level of acceptance?

How you define a good story?

How you define a ridiculous one?

I have no idea.....

Totally demoralised..............

I've chosen Film as my major.

I've chosen this path.

I've got to persevere against all odds.

I've done what I can.

I've tried my best.

I've took all comments given by all who have read the story and edited it.

I've sent to the professors.

There's no turning back.

The rest is up to fate.

May God bless me!

Pls comment

Finally, a bit at ease now. At least, I'm not so upset, agitated, enraged, pissed as 2 days ago. Emotions are more settled. I guess there's no point continuing the emotions and have to do something to solve it.

At least during hall production meeting releases my stress abit. At least I won't be thinking too much of the negative side. Not to say absolutely not thinking, but lesser.

Totally written a brand new story. Got more people to read it, and keep amending it. Peoples' comments are needed. Definitely. Edited 4 times le. Still requires people to comment it so I can amend till I'm able to pitch on Mon, and hopefully, able to make my film. Do give me comments. I would gladly appreciate it.

At least I'll try my best to make it a good one, good story. The rest will be depended upon fate. May God bless me!

面具 (Masks)

“为了隐藏不为人知的一面，‘我’把‘他’藏了起来。‘他’永远不会不会被世人知道。。。”

人物
1． 俊 Jun，18岁，男，学生在学校里，很少跟人接触。内向的他不会主动与别人说话。有点自闭，因此常常在学校被人欺负。尽管被欺负得多惨，他从不会还手。但持续下去，他仍然会保持沉默吗？

2．衡Heng，18岁，男，学生，俊的双胞胎哥哥俊的相反。在学校里很受欢迎，是学生会会长。大家看到他，都会主动找他说话。每当其他人在他面前说俊的坏话，他都会替他弟弟打抱不平。喜欢着玲，他的同班同学。典型的模范生。然而，这样的形象能维持多久？

3．玲Ling，18岁，女，学生，俊和衡的同班同学开朗容易相处的她跟大家都能一拍即合。虽然衡喜欢她，但她却喜欢着俊。

Story
Behind the walls of the school’s gate, a group of students circled around Jun.
他们围绕着俊，不断地推他，取笑他，把他和衡做比较，例如他不如衡，怀疑他们是否是兄弟，是个哑巴等。无论他们怎么打他、骂他，他都不会还手。说着，他们又继续推俊，动作越来越粗鲁。然而，俊，他毫不啃声，任由他们继续欺负。

Then he is pushed down to the floor and being laughed at. Camera cuts in to his expressionless face despite being pushed around.

POV of Ling. Walking towards the group, staring straight at the group. The footsteps are rushed.

MLS of Ling confronting the group.

玲：你们在干吗？可以别老是欺负俊吗？他也是我们的同班同学啊！

那群男生由于不想在玲的面前使坏，便立刻住手，然后掉头跑掉。
玲伸出手想扶起俊，但俊却没握住她的手，自己站了起来。
目无表情的俊，对玲说一声谢谢，便掉头走。
CU of Ling’s face, with a disappointed look.

Next scene shows Heng walking along the school corridor, hands carrying some files and papers.As he walks, he sees a group of guys talking. When they see Heng, they greet him.
Heng greets them back and begins to chat with them. He suddenly probes a question.

衡：喂，听说你们昨天欺负我弟弟啊？

男A:啊？Ermm… 没有啦！ The guy tries to avoid the question, and his eyes shifting here and there uncomfortably, trying his best not to see Heng’s eyes.

The rest also starts to fidget about and eyes rolling uncomfortably.

衡：别想骗我。难道自己的弟弟发生的事，我会不懂？瞧你们那心虚的表情，已经露出破绽了。

男A：衡啊。。。老实说，因为我们敬佩你，而且大家都是朋友，所以我们现在才坦白跟你说。你和俊都是双胞胎，可是俊却像个自闭的小子，无论怎样欺负他，他都不会还手或啃声。他。。。是不是有病啊？

On hearing, Heng’s eyes changes from a calm mode to angry mode. He is unhappy to hear such stuff being said about his brother and defends for him. The group of friends tries to explain but Heng simply won’t listen and just walks away.

As he stomps away angrily, he keeps talking to himself that Jun need not take all this humiliation and why won’t he retaliate back. He is about to go up the stairs, he sees Ling.
MCU of Heng’s face. The angered expression melts to a happiness expression at an instant. His lips breaks into a smile.

MCU Ling sees Heng and smiles back.
LS/MLS of Ling and Heng talking.

玲：嗨，午安。Ermm…衡。。。我有东西想问你。。。不知可以吗？

Heng furiously nods his head. His eyes glimmering with happiness. He stands up straight and attentively.

玲：请问。。。请问为什么俊今天请病假？他。。。他没事吧？

After hearing her asking about Jun, his smile breaks off and not paying to attention on what she is going to say.

He replies monotonously that Jun caught a flu hence not able to come for school. Throughout the while, Ling’s face is nervous and uptight. But after hearing that he is better now, she relaxes and heave a sigh of relief. She thanks Heng and leaves.

When Ling’s back is facing Heng’s back, CU of Heng clenching his fists. His teeth gritting against one another.

Scene then fades out and fades in.

POV of Heng.

From the ‘grilled’ staircases, there is a view of the AVA room, in which the person from the stairs can see people at the AVA room　but people from the AVA room can’t see him.
From one side of the frame, Ling walks in. Upon seeing her, Heng hides himself from her view, in case she sees him.

Ling knocks on the door and a guy classmate comes out, from one of the group. They chat for a while, but only their lips can be seen moving. A while later, the guy goes back to the room and Ling walks away.

(Throughout, only the Heng’s breathe can be heard and scene is shot from Heng’s POV.)

POV of Heng

On the way while taking that guy to the PE storage room, there will be a long shot of the guy being dragged by Heng, along the corridor. The guy is then being shown thrown into the ‘cage’, with the rest of the group being locked inside. This group is the same group of guys who had bullied Jun, and all with fear in their eyes.

(From the moment that Heng takes the guy away, there will be no dialogue but only music and sound effects to bring out the atmosphere.)

POV of Heng.

With fear in their eyes, one of the guys asked.

男A：为。。。为什么你。。。你要这么做。。。有话好好商量。。。

男B：我们。。。我们从来没欺负过你。。。如果是因为你弟弟的事，我们。。。我们。。。我们向你陪不是。对不起。

As he speaks finish, the rest of the group also apologizes simultaneously.
Instead of accepting their apology, Heng laughed out loud.

俊/衡：现在才说对不起，不觉得太晚了吗？又不见得你们欺负我时，说对不起。

男A：你。。。你是俊？你为什么打扮成衡？

俊/衡：哈哈哈。。。为什么你会认为我是衡？因为我的穿着像他？这倒也是。。。俊被你们欺负时，从不啃声，所以你们认为俊不会做出这样的行为，对吗？对啊。俊原本就是个孤僻的小子，老是嵬嵬索索，什么事都不说。

男A：那。。。你其实是衡？

俊/衡：衡？他那个模范生，他要保护他的形相，哪会这么做？

Suddenly, Jun/Heng clutches his head in agony and keeps saying stop it. Stop coming into my mind.
Everyone just stare at Jun/Heng. They are puzzled and shocked to see his behaviour. They have no idea who he is anymore. Jun or Heng?

俊/衡：俊也好，衡也好。那两个小子都是没用的家伙。但看到我，你们必须消失。

Jun/Heng laughs menacingly and splashes kerosene on the ‘cage’. He throws away the empty tin and flicks up a lighter, and lighting it.

Scene fades out and fades in.

Scene of Ling and Jun hanging out together. Ling is beaming cheerfully while Jun is trying his best to be natural.

MCU of Jun trying to act natural as his facial expression indicates he is tensed up. He shifts around uncomfortably. Ling then looks at him, giving him an assuring look, hinting him to relax.
She then suddenly probes a question to Jun.

玲：你和衡很奇怪。每次你在学校时，衡就生病。衡在学校时，你就生病。你们似乎相续约好轮流生病。。。

Scene fades out.

Bleak

"After yesterday's session, Jan, Wenshing and I are so disappointed with your stories that we are arranging a 2nd Chance Pitch session next Monday, 24 Sep, 9am, at the same room (ART 1-2).

Attendance is compulsory.

Each of you will be given 5 minutes to present only ONE story for the Monday session. So, spend the next few days focusing your efforts making your ONE story better.

We have also decided that if any of you fail at this again in the next session, you will not be allowed to turn your story into film during the Digital Film Production shoot. You will instead be a crew member for those with approved stories over the 3 weekends of shooting.

Some things to remember when you work on your idea for Monday:

a. Think about your design and details of your story.

b. Ask yourself who is your main character and how is he/she like.

c. Think of your audience. They are part of your storytelling process.

d. What is your intention for the story? Most of you have vague and ridiculous intentions!! Think MOTIVATION, THEME, REASON, CONFLICT and ultimately WHAT DO YOU WANT TO ACHIEVE? Just spend every moment now thinking about the essence of your storytelling and your message"

This is what was sent to us after yesterday's pitching.....

No mood now......

"Hella bloody, sucky day! Enraged now... enter at your own risk"

"Hella bloody, sucky day! Enraged now... enter at your own risk"

Actually compared to enraged, I'm more to feeling lost and helpless, with particualarly no concentration, no brain juice and just feel like shouting out loud.

I know it is supposed you are doing your work, but it seems like you guys are vying to 'outshine' and 'outstand'. Majority of us ain't from Film background. We simply had no interaction with what's expected and 4D simply have not much link to it. We didn't major since our first year. Now is still considered our 'foundation' year, and we've learnt more of only the technical aspects of camera skills, with different tools and also on the set. We didn't even really learn how to use FCP till we edit our re-production or enactment of 'Contempt', and mainly, we learnt through exploration.

We didn't learn how to really write a story for film, a script and everything else. We were supposed (as accordance to the email sent), to pitch 2 stories outlines, within 15mins. We weren't told to say the characters settings, the visual images, and kept highlighting the word: "STORY".

We did what we were told. Sometimes, we were asked to do something, which sometimes, it's quite redundant. We asked what was the purpose and explanation was given. The explanation was not clear. We didn't know what was expected. We asked again. Still remained same. We still continued to do it.

Different people have different styles. After all, this is our first attempt, really first attempt, and we had to do it for our final sem project. We pitched. Nearly most were rejected. It was harsh. We understand you guys are doing for our good and we took it as lessons, never to repeat them again. But really, it was olur first attempt. Instructions weren't given clear. We didn't want to be naggy. We cut it short. 15 mins for 2 stories.

Different people have different thinkings. We know we are supposed to meet the criteria, and as filmmakers, we have to watch films more often but what was expected is hard to meet. Yes, our major is film but we have other modules as well. Time is short, we know. Schedule is short, we know. But really, what was being really taught?

NO wish to continue anymore.... Tired.... Feel like screaming......

AAAARGHGHHH!!!! !@#$%^&*()qwertyuioplkjhgfdsazxcvbnm,../;'[]\bfeiurbygvtubferyweirtyorygfggewfeiqufrbgfrebvrgrheigvuhrgthughiurhguewhghewg[egyhiueyfjshgfhhbfbhwvgvcbnvbjkdhfjrefewbgiuwhguihewaiohfuenkbvcjkdnsjfoej]\orew[piqrjuwiuqhbujabsjdbewfhkdvnedgfebgheowik[qwoed\q\

Music: Rising Sun - DBSK

ADM

Am I being paranoid, and also selfish? First heard from my roomie that my hall may go to ADM rooftop to hold MAF, was quite shocked. Why did they want to hold MAF at my school rooftop? Isn't it alright to hold in the canteen just like everytime? Even if you want to choose a new place, must it be my school?

I'm already wondering why some foreign non-ADM students, who walked past our school, would take out their cameras, and start taking photos of my school. Is my school such a wonder? Such a wonder that it is published in Nanyang Chronicles that my school rooftop is a "Must-Go" place before every student graduate? Just that it's because my school structure is unique, doesn't make it a 'place of interest' to people.

Perhaps, I am over-protective of my school property but lately, the mis-usage of ADM is going worse. Some people have used it for a ground to practise their hip-hop dance during the nights.

Hello? ADM is not the basement of Esplanade!!

Then, couples have been going onto the rooftop to 'pak-tor' and some of my friends have seen them make out.

Hello? ADM is not your 幽会地点！！

Then now, it's my hall. Alot of people have already stereotyped us of being slack, but hey we are not! And now, they stereotyped our school that it a 'must-go' place for fun. WTH!

It's not that I'm not willing to share my school with others, but taking it and looking at my school at a wrong angle, it's something I can't stand. ADM is a place where most ADM students love and protect it with all their heart.

Heard they submitted a proposal. Hope it will be rejected coz I got a bad feeling that something bad may happen if the proposal is being approved. Seriously.

Music: 까만안경 - Eru

200th entry~

Juz a random title coz lazy to think about the title~

Casts audition for hall prodcution was finally held finish on Wed night, and had a hard time finalising the actors and actresses. Heads are also settled so the next thing to do, is to hold the first main comm meeting, to introduce everyone and tell them their portfolio. I guess most of the time, Miao Ting and Bing Sheng will be talking coz they are more to admin side, plus as comapred to them, I'm rather quiet. Probably the type who keeps things to myself.

Anyway, finished editing the reproduction scene from the "Contempt" a while ago. It feels good to have the whole editing lab to yourself, with no other sounds of disturbance. Peace and calm.

Wenshing has decided on the on-location shoot. Well, sort of, coz heard she may be changing, but I sincerely hope won't. The location she gave us initially was the old Monk Hill's Secondary School but right now, heard them saying, it could change to a farm near Choa Chu Kang. Pls, let the original location remain for I'll have more inspirations!

Time to go research for Asian Film History, on third cinema and to brainstorm 2 stories for next week....

Jia you~ Da jia jia you~ Just do it!

Music: Let's Go On A Holiday - 2007 Summer SM Town

Time

While watching short films in class today, there was one theme about time. Below is the summarised version.

"Time has 3 phases: the past, the present, the future. Then again, how can we prove the time of the past and time of the future? The past, had occured and it's behind us, which means we can't go back again. The future, has yet to occur, so what do we know about what has not happened? We are left only with the present, which is something that's ongoing now. Then again, you could say, there are 3 parts to it: present of the past, present of the present, present of the future."

It definitely triggers your mind to think about stuff. To lay back after hearing all these stuff, I don't think I can. Inner thoughts are being stirred and that kind of described everything about time.

Inspirations are being lit again~

Music: No Pain, No Gain - DBSK

Another tiring day

You feel that you know him but in actual fact you do not. That's what almost everyone will encounter, at least once in their life, unless they are bloody lucky or perhaps, too naive. Then again, who is to judge another person in the first place? What could be it, could not be? Everythings' uncertain....

Had the first time ever feeling of what it really feels like to be shooting a film, as in with all the crews, casts, be particular about lighting, settings, sounds etc. and taking great pains to achieve them. Separated into 2 groups, we had to do a scene imitation from the movie 'Contempt' by Jean Luc Godard. Our group got the toilet scene, containg 5 shots. Initially, we thought that only one part of the setting needed to be cared about the lightings. Only after trying to frame the other 3 shots, we realize it wasn't that easy.

At the end of the wrap, it was tiring and hungry, missing lessons to finish shooting everything and training muscles, it was all worthwhile. I love what I'm doing. It's tough work but the passion just keeps me going on. Being the sound-woman and part of the gaffer (coz everyone's involved in gaffer, it ain't a one-man's job) made me realize that actually distributing different roles to each of us, will made us concentrate more that particular area of field. It's true that helping one another out (which we are still doing) may be good, but it'll be something like "Jack of all trades, but master of none." I really love doing film!! ^_^

Night time was another one of my passion and love - production. First time being a theatre production director and conducting a cast audition, I can't help but feel uber stress. Only after getting the hang of it, I would then return back to normal i.e. not that stress. Again, different people have different opinions and views, so it still boils down to a final decision, and it seemed to be I'll be the one deciding. I hope I won't make a bad choice.

Now, it's time to rest and concentrate on studies. Back to studying Asian art history and research on Asian film history....

Inspiration

After going for ADM welfare officer interview, it struck me about my heavy committments, and no matter how much I would like to contribute to ADM, there's a production committment that's hanging on me. Then again, I still can join as subcomm, which I seriously don't mind. It was a 50-50 probability, and was giving it a try coz I knew there were many juniors interested in the position. In the end, there were only Huiting and me, and Huiting got it. Definitely, she deserved it and she would do a great job. Of course, I'll do my best to assist her.

Ting, I'll support you. ~Hugs~

Thanks to the interview, an idea for a story for film struck me. Was thinking it on the way home, and the interview really gave me an inspiration. Perhaps nervous could force the mind to think. Lol!

Heard the good news from Jiefeng and Yong Jie. The final year seniors are willing to help out in production, as props subcomm. It's a good thing coz props subcomm is seriously lacking of guys. I got tons of girls, but no guys. Then again, I still have to look for my props heads. There's another good news: Weitao is a bit dong yao about joining back as director, and may pull Shun Yuan along. I'm not putting too much hopes in it and don't think will tell Miao Ting and Bing Sheng yet, till everything is finalised. Won't really press on them too much. If they are willing to come back help, that's good. If not, it's still fine coz ultimately, studies are still more important and furthermore, it's their final year.

We shall see what will happen next....

To do list

Things to do for coming 2 weeks:

1. Scene imitation of 'Contempt' - group work
2. Come out with at least 2 stories, to pitch to Jaymz, Wenshing, Scott at week 7 - individual
3. Come out with script for final sem project - inidividual
4. Asian Film History: Colonialism and Imperialist Continuities presentation - group
5. Asian Art History: Paintings in China - individual
6. Recce and book theatre for Hall production
7. Audition for casts for Hall production
8. Settle main comm and subcomm list for Hall production and hold meeting
9. Asian Film History: Asian Horror - group
10. Study for Asian Art History quiz
11. Master Pro Tools and FCP
12. Still thinking......

New Love!!

Hurray! I've bought my firewire/USB2.0, 500GB Western Digital external HDD!

Went to Comex 2007 yesterday, and got my new love for $260, with 5 years warranty. The external HDD is in the official list of my love collections, together with my MP3 player, lappy, handphone and digi cam. On top of the HDD, there was another unexpected new love, a Samsung external DVD-RW drive, dual lightscribe with 25 free DVD-Rs for $119. I'm definitely v happy now, although it has left a hole in my wallet.

However, there's 2 things that I want to add to my collection which take me years before I can lay my hands on, and which will personally belong to me -- Canon XL2 and a good film camera. That will have to wait till I'm out in the workfield and earn enough money to get them. And so I shall slowly wait for that time to come. =)

Back at home right now, slacking for a while before I start doing Basic Media Writing. It's an interesting module but language is something I've not touched for awhile, and need some time to grasp it back. So if I were to touch Maths or Science now, I think my brain will explode for nuts.

Even though I'm back home now for the weekends, weekends are not day-offs for me. Later in the afternoon, still need to go out and shoot for my assignment. I don't mind doing it, coz I love it, but just feel that time is never enough. You are trying to understand what has been taught this week and there you go, another week has arrived and new knowledge to be learnt. The list of stuff to be understood just keep piling up. I doubt I'll even have rest on recess week coz will be brainstorming script for final sem project, as well as get busy with hall production.

Next Sunday, have to go recce theatre for production, and perhaps finalise and book it, and also decide dates on casts audition, directors and other heads. Haiz... I wanna go interview for ADM welfare officer. There'll be competitors, and plenty, I think coz I've heard alot of juniors are going for that position. It does not matter if I'm able to get the position, it's just that I feel I'm neglecting school and not giving back to school for it has gave me. Being in the subcomm in welfare for the last student club committee didn't contribute much. So this time, I wanna contribute more. It's in the interest, and not the points.

Zzzing soon.... not enough sleep everyday... or should I say ADMers will never have enough sleep.... I think I better than the Vis Commers and Animators, who are really piaing ever since start of semester. My workload will gradually increase, like a slope as time passes. Jia you le!!

Music: 幸福 - Super Junior

No life

My friend was telling me just now, on the way back from ADM's AGM meeting, that it's rather sad if you are still staying in hall on Friday, it's a rather sad thing and no life. I do agree but I've been staying over on Friday ever since the start of school, and only go back on Saturday. Is my life really sad?

Been staying over on Friday because of shooting for assignment over the past few weeks. So what about today? After AGM, it's still possible to go home. Guess it's a matter of laziness but if I go home, I would slack and no work will be done. It's bad. Then again, sometimes slacking is still good but not too much. Just the right amount. However, if I were to go home, nothing can be done. No productivity at home, so must as well stay back in hall on Friday night to do some work and go back home on Sat morning!

Sighz....

Begins to think seriously about having no life... not been going out for weekends for quite some time le... then again, will I have the time?

Cry

Next time when you are upset over a minor thing, bear in mind that out there, may be some other people who may have better and valid reasons to be upset with. A person may look strong on the outside, but you never know deep inside the heart, for heart is something that is rather fragile to talk about. To some, something minor that happened, may cause an impact in their life. They may think that's the worst thing that could have happened to them. Then again, how can they judge based on their own experience? There are people out there who have encountered major happenings and definitely, had a hard time overcoming it and yet, they are still strong. They would not weep over and over again about it, and instead, they would brace themselves together, and move on with life. That's definitely how life should be.

It's not that it ain't good about crying over minor stuff, I mean, depends on the serious level of the situation. Crying is a good factor of releasing all the tension and stress that may have built up over a certain a period of time. But please, don't be a cry baby and cry for the slightest reason. Tears are not to be used as a weapon to gain sympathy. It definitely can't be applied to all for some will like to attract attention. In that case, their tears are used as weapon.

Life is always bumpy, never a straight road without any hurdles. It is a long windy road and sometimes, you need to u-turn back to get back on the right road again. It is only with experience then you'll know the right direction. Sometimes you may be lost for a while, taking the wrong direction but it is important to know when to steer back on the right path. Otherwise, you'll just have an accident.

Darn the mosquitoes

Lately, the number of mosquitoes is on the rise. I've been bitten almost everyday and the bites don't go away easily. They get big, swollen, red, itchy and sometimes painful. Only after a few days, sometimes a week, the swell will go down. I'm not the only one who's having all these bites, but most of my friends, who are living in hall, especially my roomie, also kena. Stupid mosquitoes!! Darn them!!

Been seeing my ani and vis comm friends slogging throughout countless nights, to rush for their assignments. They are really piaing from the start of the semester all the way till the end, and many are not having enough sleep. I'm thankful that for film, is more of an incline manner. Workload increases as time goes by and I guess at that period, everyone major will be tonning overnight in school.

As days go by, I'm starting to distant from myself, not knowing what's going on in me. Sometimes I feel like talking, at time, I just keep quiet. At times, I just want be alone and not be bothered. Previously, I'll know my own feeling and emotions but right now, I don't why I'm feeling this way.

Mood swings?

Dunno.

I apologized to whom I may have offended unknowingly, due to my mood swings. Sorry....

Starting to not know myself..............

Events

Flu virus is contagious and easily spread around. Roomie got it first, spreaded to me, then I spreaded it back. Now, it's a flu + sore throat + husky voice. Hope it gets better at the end of weekend.

This week has been a pretty relxing week for not much homework was given, and can finally take a break. However, it is only for this week, definitely not next week and onwards.

ADM 3rd management committee is up, and some of the results are rather unexpected. It does not mean is bad, but neither it is good. Neutral. It all comes down to their performance contributed to the school. After 3rd management comm is set up, it boils down to selecting for heads for various ad-hocs projects, welfare head and PnP head. Thinking of running as welfare head coz wanna contribute more to ADM (it's the place I'm going to spend whole lot of time in and I love the school). However, heard there are a lot of people who wanna run as well, especially juniors. I have no idea they want to run becoz of interest and passion, or it is purely for points. I do not want to judge.

Heading prodcution isn't an easy task. There are too many factors to be considered and it really is a big ad-hoc project. Worked closely before with Bing Sheng for last production, but haven't got to really work with Miao Ting yet. Sincerely hope that ideas won't crash, but things often don't go the way we want. Hope that people I'm going to work with are cooperative enough and of course, get along with each other. I sincerely wish to make this year production a success.

Another ad-hoc that I might join would be AD, Appreication Dinner for the graduating seniors. Next year, Jiefeng, Weitao, Yong Jie, Soon Yuan and a whole of seniors are graduating and I wish to do something for them, as a token of appreciation. Sing Ying felt the same way too coz we got to know them from production and they have taught us quite alot of things. But till now, I'm not sure who will be the chairperson and I hope it'll be Jinglin....

Ok, time to go research on "Colonial/Imperial Continuties" for Asian Film History.... Damn hard topic....

Music: Tonight - DBSK

“绝对Superstar, 有你，没有他！”

Polling is just like the entertainment show called, “绝对Superstar”, which is all based on popularity votes. It doesn't matter about the ability or how capable you are. It's the popularity that counts.

In that case, is it a good thing or bad?

Depends.

If the person, who is popular, is able to work and contribute to the committe, it's considered a good thing.

But what if the person is all talk but no action?

That, I'm afraid, it's bad....

But what can be done to salvage the situation?

The others must be able to cover and work, so that the committe doesn't fall apart.

But there'll be clashes, won't there be any?

.....Definitely there will be.... but I guess the committe has to work it out somehow....

Let's just hope for the best....

Music: Whatever They Say - DBSK

Norm

Prof. Wen Shing asked the class a question today, and it really provoked my thoughts about it.

"What is norm? How you define norm?"

It is true.

How can a person really define what is norm when the level of norm differs in everybody?

How would you judge that person is normal-looking? Or the film is normal?

What defies norm?

If it is cultural aspect, do we call our traditional values as norms? So when we go against these values, we are defying the norm? But for certain values, they can't be applied to the modern society. In that case, if we go against them, are we defying the norm?

In film aspect, what is considered norm? Do we follow the guidelines of Hollywood films? Or follow Hong Kong films? China films? Thai films? Singapore films? Which do we follow? If in one way, we followed one and had to go against the other, are we still considered breaking the norm?

Let's say, we judge the level of norm on a majority basis, and decide that's the norm. So what about the minority? Not everyone's mind can agree to certain stuff. So when the minority goes against 'so-called' norm, they should be penalised or discriminated, or whatever it is?

No! That's not how it goes.

So how does it go?

I have no idea. Brain is overwhelmed with stuff. Shall not think about it anymore.

*P.S.* I dunno why but I seem to have typed a similar entry before but I can't remember it. Memory is failing me......

Music: My Page - DBSK

Nonsense

It's been consecutively for few days, on and off. Rain, to some may a good thing, but to film makers, it ain't a good thing. It spoils the plan of shooting outdoors, and to wait for the rain to stop, kills all the intended mood for the film. Rain also sucks up the energy, causing a person to be lifeless.

Anyway, have been slogging for school work for 6 and a half days, left only nearly one day plus to relax. Upon reaching home, really didn't feel like touching any school work. Just feel like slacking and do nothing. Energy have really been sucked up, and no matter how much sleep I tried to catch up, it's pointless. Nothing can be salvaged.

Typing my school work and re-writing FIL 210 notes for a neater and better eligible purpose. Anyway, stress level is increasing as time goes by. Others, from other courses are slowly gaining the pace for their school work, but for ADMers, the pace is always high, and comes certain times (alot of times), the level reaches its peak and even, overshoots.

Thankful I have my music to accompany me and glad that my roomie allows me to play the music through speakers (not earphones), and thankful she don't mind hearing KPop and JPop. Thank you Joan! Luv ya lots!

Oh ya, thank you to friends who also hears my grudges and complains every now and then. May be blabbering nonsense every now and then, so do bear with it, especially Singying. I always complain to you. Haha.. thanks lots!

Ok.... seriously deviate from the main thing I was typing.... Damn... ok...think should stop blogging nonsense for a while till I get my saint mind back....

Music: I Yah - H.O.T

Stress level

"The war has started. Innocent parties, if not careful enough, could accidentally fall into the trap, or perhaps land themselves in the war zone thus, seriously injured. It is a dangerous situation, a dangerous period. Innocent parties, if you do not want to get involved in this highly dangerous situation, avoid going near the war zone or you might get dragged down."

Nearly got dragged down but managed to escape in the nick of time. Got to hear the dangerous situation from all sources but experiencing personally was a totally whole new thing. Totally realised the whole of situation and even when you tried to act peace to both sides, it doesn't help. Eventually, you get pulled in, in one way or another.

May be exaggerating overbroad, but the war zone is definitely a dangerous place.

Things are worse when the stress factor adds onto it. FIL 210 homework assignment seems to be simple for some, but definitely not for the noob. Tremendous stress felt while doing the assignment. Relying on people's help all the time is not the solution every time. Yes it does helps to stir the thoughts and hence, learn at the same time, but it does adds on to the noob factor.

As a noob, more practice is needed as the lack of experience pulls the performance down. More effort and hardwork is put in, which means more time, and definitely more stress.

On the appearance, there may be a stable and calm face but it is a facade. Deep down, stress factor keeps adding and each time, doubling the effect. No normal meal times affect the appetite and with the addition factor of stress, it makes it worse. Furthermore, sleep time is greatly affected too. May get on to the bed early, but thoughts and concepts are still churning in the brain, which means there's no different from not sleeping.

It's only the second week of school and I'm already spending the weekend on homework. No good weekend for me this week, and presumably, the consecutive weekends....

Noobs will understand noobs....

Music: Holding Back the Tears - DBSK

Rubbish...plain rubbish

Tired....v tired....

Sleepy... v sleepy...

It's been a long ever since sleeping late, not because of FOC, but because of school work. With the loss of 3 months of experience of enduring sleepless nights, have made some of our concentration span lose immune to the "Z" virus. It is so vicious that most ADMers have lost the battle of immune system to the "Z" virus, especially after all the camps and everything. The "Z" virus will not stop at any cost, and will continuously attack until all ADMers have fell prey to it.

...................

Uttering random rubbish. Ain't in the right state of mind.

Still gotta plan of buildings/places to shoot for FIL210 homework....

Another sleepless night or burning midnight oil till 3 plus again?

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

System has been turned topsy-turvy. Day into night, and night into night.......

Worried for the upcoming weeks of the semester....

Will be physically and mentally exhausted, in lotsa ways......

Need to stop uttering rubbish.......

STOP MINGHUI! STOP!!!!!!!!!

............................................

Go ADMers! Fight! Ganbatte!

Stonified

Supposingly should be doing homework now, planning shots and perhaps draw storyboard for morning's FIL210 workshop class. Am doing it, but somehow, am stoning at the same time. Brain-blocked and stuck at one of the shot so must as well blog this entry.

Quite a competitive nominees for this year ADM election of main comm, and really, some are just shocking and haven't get to hear the whole story yet...

Initially had planned to run for a position in main comm, then mind wavered a bit because of the strong competition that I knew and are capable of handling the task. Now, I'm glad to be out for I forsee it's going to be a very different management comm and how different it is, that is to be kept secret.

Seriously, if capable people are running for the positions, my hands are all up for it. I'll be supporting him/her (as the subcomm or ad-hoc team).

Same goes for hall new JCRC team. If capable people are leading the posts, I'll be glad to support but then again, you never know...

Okay, should stop crapping and get down to work... still got half way more to go (quite a lot though... die...)

Music: Always There... - DBSK

Emo once again....

Things often go the way you want it to be, or seem to be.

This is often the case coz when you are trying to accomplish something, you can't possibly consider every nook and cranny of the situation, i.e. take into consideration of factors such as things or people. Somehow or rather, there'll be both side to the accomplished situation: good and bad.

You may be able to please someone or perhaps, satisfy someone with the accomplished situation, but on the other hand, someone is not pleased with the situation. Perhaps he/she may be upset about it, and perhaps he/she is rather angry and pissed with you. Worst situation, everything just fall to pieces and you are back to square one.

It isn't just about people, but about other things as well. However, on realization, often, or rather, every time, it would be about people.

Why?

Coz' people have feelings, emotions. Human beings are not super, not robots hence, emotion factor is always hard to gauge, most probably never would the emotion factor be able to gauge correctly. Even with the help of a crystal ball, doubt it can forsee a person's emotion.

It is because of the emotion factor, which proves to be a challenging and difficult task to accomplish stuff. Any stuff, no reference to any in particular. You can never figure what the other mind is thinking. You may be able to ask the other party is he/she sad or angry or whatever, will he/she tell you the truth?

Almost never!

Human beings are good at deceiving each other, by concealing their thoughts with masks.

Who will ever say they dislike that party in front of him/her?

Why?

Pride (spelled P-R-I-D-E) is the factor.

To save their pride, human beings would seldom reveal their true-self in front of others. Pride, is something that cannot be explained.



"Why am I typing all these stuff? Should I say, why am I feeling all emotional? Is it because the new start of a semester that caused me to think about all these? I don't think so. All these should have been in my mind all along...

Yes, it is. It has been in my mind all along. But why the sudden urge to type out?

I don't know.

Is there any thing that suddenly struck me on typing this?

I don't know.

All I know is that, I can feel in my nerves, or my sixth sense tells me that something/s is/are going to happen this semester.

What is it?

I don't know.

A strong tingling feeling tells me it's hall production....."


Music: Tears of the Moon - S

对得起自己

After much thoughts, and heeding advices from various people, finally decided on what post to take up for hall production - co-producer cum director.

Ever since the last production that took place on Feb this year, been thinking about it. Wanted to join back production for it is my interest but uncertain of what role to take on. The seniors have asked me to take on the challenging role of producer but at that time, was really terrified at that thought. Felt that I did not have the ability. As the days grow closer to set up the main comm for production, mind starts to waver again.

Fear no one would want to take on the role of producer and hence, production may just fall into history, which I don't want it to happen. Then again, the thought of the heavy responsibility of being a producer struck me.

Will I be able to handle the role?
Do I have the ability to lead people?
Am I really capable?
Do I have the time?
Would that really be my main interest?
Will people support me?

Questions pop up here and there, and it grew to a humongous amount.

Need advices. Sought advices from several people, seniors, juniors and my own batch of peeps.

Alas! Able to came up with the final solution! Co-pro cum director. Still able to assist the producer in some admin stuff, and also to follow my interest - directing.

Thank you for everyone who has given me advices. Honestly, really appreciated it! Will pay back with gratitude (in one way or another).

Hope people will still join production, even when I'm the co-pro. Don't expect too much from me coz when it comes to production and other stuff, involving my interest, I will tend to think alot and stresses easily.

Now to think back, of all productions I have joined, my role had always been a stage manager and every time, I would break down, in one way or another.

Am I expecting too much from myself?

Then again, if I'm not, would I push myself to strive for better performance, out from myself?

Is that the right way?

Admit that I don't speak up my thoughts often. Quietly keeping it to myself for some things are not meant to be said. I believe a majority in production are silent workers, and don't mind working silently, as long as there is an aim and believe in following the right goal.

Quoted from Singying “只要对得起自己，那就无怨无悔了。”

That, is so true, but when will we know “对得起自己”? One can never know, expect your ownself....

End of yr 4 = a stunt growth?

Miaoqin and I met up today in school to do filming exercises for FIL210 and we came up with this conclusion that by the end of our year 4, we'll become shorter and develop muscles.

Reason?

Carrying Canon XL2 + casing is a strenous, heavy and tiring task, requiring great strength and stamina. Due to the fact that it weighs a ton, our height will be shortened by the weight of the casing, with XL2 inside, pulling us down to the ground. At the same time, muscles will develop in order to carry the heavy casing + XL2.

I love film making, and I love my course. I'm not complaining. I'm not but it just requires alot of strength for the course, unless you have a crew to help carry the stuff (apparently, we still don't have coz we aren't professions).

Came up with this analogy after analysing the majors in ADM.

Course - Main Requirement
Animation - Patience
Filmmaking - Strength
Vis Comm - Creativity
Product Design - Money
Photography - Money
Interactive Media - Unknown

Conclusion:
All majors require time, effort, and of course, endless and endless of sleepless nights.

Strenous muscles training

I can forsee that by the end of 4th year of Uni life, I would have developed muscles on the arm.

I can't believe that I can forget how heavy Canon XL2 weighs with the casing. I carried it once, a few years back while helping Chen Zhen with one of his elective module. Today, once again, I carried it, and together, with the tripod.

OMG! It's seriously heavy and have to carry it all the way from ADM back to hall. I couldn't have succeeded in reaching back hall without the help of Singying. Thank you so much gal! I owe you one!

It's super strenous to carry the casing, containing Canon XL2, and I super duper mean strenous. It weighs a ton on the shoulders and I seriously feel that my shoulders were going to give way any time. It looks like I have to start training.

Anyway, tomorrow's National Day and here I am, still in hall. One reason is to stay in hall and figure out XL2 and the other, don't feel like facing Mum's nagging (which I forsee that she will rant continuously). But it's a rather good thing to stay in hall, like right now. Joan has gone for her dance practice, leaving me alone in the room, which I can think alone and peacefully. And I enjoy the tranquility.

Eyelids are starting to close soon. Deprivation of sleep ever since went to Vancouver. Can't sleep over there. Once upon reaching Singapore, had to rush straight for ADM FOC. Not enough sleep + jet-lagged. Straight after, without any rest, went to hall FOC........

Need sleep...... zzzzzzzzzzz................

Post-camp syndrome

Wow! May 4 was my last entry! It's been ermm.....months ever since I've update my blog.

Anyway, school has just started. A new semester ahead and I'm in my second year. No longer a freshie, but a senior to my juniors. It would be a brand new start, as well as a challenging and stressful semester.

ADM FOC and Hall FOC ended not long ago, and I've still got the post-camp syndrome.

How to define post-camp syndrome?

1. V tanned
2. Deprivation of sleep
3. Fatigue
4. Still in high mood
5. Every now and then will sing camp cheers

This is bad. I gotta stop or I'll go crazy.

Don't feel like typing much in the first entry after a long while coz some things are meant to be kept quiet. Some things are never meant to be answered and I would not dare to have the courage to seek answers. What's most important now is to concentrate on my studies, to quickly underatand and able to master Canon XL2!

Love Canon XL2 to bits but I'm still a noob at it. I shall master you soon!!!

Shall go watch DBSK 2nd live tour DVD!!!! ^_^

Flu

Once again, immune system is down. Totally down.

In the past, when I had still often had asthma attack, at least won't not catch a cold, flu or fever easily. Now, it's a totally different case for asthma attack occurs once in a blue moon. Immune system is worser hence, easily affected by virus.

Dad and brother are having cough and flu respectively, and sadly I kena the virus... And a pretty bad one. Worse than theirs....

Nose dying soon.......

Done and over with

Yay!! Finally done and over with! Exams? Done! Projects? Done!

My year 1 life in NTU ADM has just ended. After enduring for months of stress, deprivation of sleep, depletion of numerous brain cells ( in fact, uncountable), endless days and nights of 'torture', all is done!

3D movement tracer project is finally done. Not a successful one, in the fact that it doens't work 3 out of 3 times, but hey, it's a miracle it works!

4D system project done too. Wasn't presented according to initial plan but hey, re-vamped plan is definitely better, with the huge map of Singapore, made up of 25 A4 sized grids.

Although I'm glad it's done, but I'm beginning to miss my class. We've spent the precious time together, like staying overnight at ADM for the 3D sculpture, blasting out music and having the silliest, fun yet rewarding time. It enforced a stronger bond between us but now, we've got to move on with our ways, following our different interests, dreams and majors.

Whatever majors we are going to, we'll always remember one another, with the best times we had during our first year in ADM. How we endured the hardships together.

To each their best. Godspeed, peeps!

Break

Will be a period of time before start blogging again....

Getting emotionally, physically, intellectually for projects, exams....

Would like to left alone for awhile....

Music: 初雨 - The TRAX

'Pon' 3D class and WAH II lecture. Just didn't feel like going to school, or all the more, don't feel like seeing the sight of Pete (3D prof). Although his intentions are good but I've not complete part of my movement tracer project yet, and I don't need the equipments at the workshop thus, don't see the need of going.

Hurry! I just need this sem to get it over and done with. Reasons? So that I can freed from all the foundation year projects (which are diverse from one another) and that I can move back with Joan the next sem. It's getting to my head. Not that I dislike the current roomie, just that (as what Joan said), don't like her attitude. A bit spoilt brat and taking things for granted, and not able to really give a thinking thought to others.

I should stop being a complaint queen. Actually did abit for these few days coz I'm rather numb to all the stuff. My classmates around me are feeling stressed and emotions have been running wild for everyone. Some that could not take it have broken down. It's a good way of releasing it. I haven't. More to numb to anything else.

Should complete 2D and 4D projects asap so I can concentrate on 3D. There's little time left. Shall stop procrastinating and stop giving excuses. After completing, I'll be freed (for time being).

Shall go brainstorm 2D and 4D now.....

Music: U - Super Junior

I promise myself not to complain but can't help it. My roomie sleeps earlier than me, wakes up later than me, and still take naps in the afternoon.

It's not a matter of the sleeping time she gets. Sha can sleep as long as she wants as long as it doesn't bother me. This is not the case.

When she's sleeping, she can't have lights on, or have any noise, which means I totally can't do my work (which requires more on hands on and big space, hence need the floor)! WT!! Like this morning, woke up early to do some work. She woke up too at the same time but went back to bed after doing abit of work (she only has lessons in the afternoon), which means leaving no lights on, and with half of the blinds drawn. It means I did my work in the dark!!

Expect sooner or later that my eyesight will worsen if this continues... thank goodness staying back with Joan next sem. I totally can't bear it anymore. She and her friend(a.k.a ex-roomie) are still talking to each other, like very good friends, so why the fuss in the first place to exchange roomies, and with me and Joan having to intervene all the time when they had fights. Aren't they getting along well?

Although Joan and I only knew each other when we become roomies, but we feel that we clicked and we each other's mood quite well, so we know when not to disturb each other. Exchanging roomies coz we don't want them to have a fight was a totally wrong idea. Joan's also having problems!

AARGGHHH!!!! Enough! Stop complaining! Just bear with it for a month plus!!

Music: Timeless - Xiah Junsu & Zhang Li Yin

Think I may soon be causing a fire drill in hall, as in the real fire drill. Been testing out ways to soften acrylic so I can bend them but to no avail. There's no heat gun in hall, which is used to heat acrylic, in order to soften them so I have to think of alternatives. Whatever stupid methods there are, I've tried them all, e.g. using steam from boiling water, throwing into hot water, put it lying on the electric flask that's boiling water. Thought of putting in microwave oven but there's safety precautions to be taken care of and as well as environmental concerns. Until just now, I finally been able to succeed! Yay, iron rocks!

Yes, I mean the electric iron which is used to iron clothes! Whaha!!! Finally can bend acrylic! But... it's only a starting for my 3D....

Anyway, the final project for 4D was just given to us:

Create a system in which the system controls the outcome of the work.

We are given 3 weeks to complete it, think it's excluding the next week, where we are supposed to hand in a 'contract', which we have to abide by the rules and regulations, terms and conditions that we have set for ourselves for the project. It sounds super fun coz we can do anything under the sun, as long as we don't get ourselves into trouble like landing in jail.

Someone asked Shannon what if anyone of us got into jail because of our project. She told us she'll do her best to get us out but she said try not to as she don't want to be sent to another country.

HAHA....

Anyway, final projects for most of the modules have been given to us and brainjuices need to be topped up often. It's challenging but tedious at the same time. Hope I'll enjoy working it..

Back to brainstorming......

Music: Happy Material from Mahou Sensei Negima OST - Mahora Gakuen Chuutobu 2-A

曾经说过，随着一个人的成长，思想自然而然也会变化，也就渐渐地成熟。然而，这也导致到人会不禁地往更深奥的深处去冥思，也就因此可能会想太多。

但是不想太多又不能，因为这毕竟是本能。

想太多 ==> 情绪化

情绪化？不明白。为何想得更多会情绪化呢？

因为人会在乎其他人的想法、在乎别人的眼光。这毕竟再也不是个为所欲为的时代了。不顾虑其他人的想法会被社会淘汰、排斥。

若不顾虑其他人的想法而只做自己想要做的事呢？

也许其他人会瞧不起你，甚至觉得你很没用。

啊？我不明白。要做就敢敢做！何必在乎其他人的想法？那这样不是很辛苦吗？

当然辛苦啊！谁说不辛苦？就是因为要顾虑到他人的想法，心情自然一定会有所影响。当然地，情绪波动也因此更大。

在某个时段，你也许要做这件事，但因为某种原因而不能。为了得到别人的谅解，你尝试解释，但是因沟通问题而表达不出你的解释。因此，也被误解、被认为你是虚伪、做作及没有责任感。

不是的！我不是这样！我也有所苦衷啊！我没表达出来而强颜欢笑也并不是我所愿意的。难道整天愁眉苦脸面对人吗？我。。。我。。。

冷静！别激动！我明白你的感受！

我。。。我别无选择。这世界是残酷。许多事情我没说出来并不代表我不在乎、没顾虑过啊！
什么原本的“人不为己，天诛地灭”根本不能用在这社会上。当你要用，你准会被人排斥！

那要怎么做？

我哪懂？不是你应该告诉我答案吗？

我很想回答但我自己都还没弄懂！

那岂不是没有解答？

BINGO!!

打回原型了哦！

唉！算了。。。就这样自行毁灭吧。。。

Mood: Confused, dejected, emotional
Music: Girl Friend - 민우(M)

Major

Just spoke with professor Scott Hessels a while ago with Miaoqin, with regards to taking digital filmmaking as the major for year 2. He asked us whether we had our minds set on taking filmmaking as the major quite a long time ago or just only.

To think of it, I came into SADM with the idea of either taking digital filmmaking or digital animation as the major when I'm in year 2. Guessed the idea and the mindset has not wavered and it's kind of a good thing. Visual communications is definitely not my forte and I certainly can't forsee myself going into vis comm. And neither is product design.

Mindset of taking film as major became stronger as the period of choosing major gets closer. It's not that I hate animation. I like it but just don't really like the modelling and rendering part (for 3D animation). 2D animation is still fine, except you have to look for the scripting and everything.

However, there's quite a strong competition when taking film as the major. There's Miaoqin, who has lots of ideas and can come up with them on the spot, as well as able to express them well in interesting ways. There's Andy and Alicia, who comes from filmmaking courses in polytechnics, thus having no doubts they will do well in film. Sam, who is talented in creating funny short clips.

Competition's strong, and sometimes, I would wonder if I have the talent. I guess it's how I express myself. I may express it in a different way, and definitely for everyone. However, the way that I express myself, would people be able to comprehend? Would I be able to come up with a good script that carries out my thoughts? Would people be able to understand the films I'm going to do in the future?

There's so many 'ifs' that I don't think I can answer. I guess time will tell.

Although there are lots of uncertainties, I'm still looking forward to learning filmmaking in year 2, which is soon. Unlike the previous time which I helped Cheng Zhen in his film elective last time, we gotta handle the dolly, big crane, steadfast cam etc by ourselves (as mentioned by professor Scott Hessels). Previously, they had professionals helping them. This means the task will be more challenging.

Need a wider social circle of friends. Need to contact everyone on the contact list in the modile phone. Need people's help soon.

*P.S.* Friends who are reading this entry, pleass do lend a helping hand in the future should I need any assistance in my filming or whatever, e.g. casts, cameraman/woman, lights etc. Would gladly appreciate it and grateful to you eternally.

Music: Dangerous Mind - DBSK