Done??

I've been getting rid of my baby things when Kael is done with them. This weekend I gave away my swing & bouncer and Erik is like, "Well I guess we're done?" We kind of joke about the kid situation.

I've always thought I'd have 3 kids. I came from a family of 5 kids and thought that was too many, so 3 seemed good. Erik came from 4 and thinks 4 sounds good, but he is understanding and knows I do 90 percent of the work, so he is ok with 3.

I know it's too early to say for sure, but I really want to be done. I've broken down a few times lately because I feel like I'm spread so thin that I can't give my kids what they need. Kire is so easy and good that I don't hardly pay him attention because he does everything himself. Jack gets to hang out with me all day, but Kael needs so much attention now that I feel like Jack never gets my full attention. And he's such a stinker and is trying my patience constantly that I lose my temper with him. I feel guilty that none of my kids is really getting what they need, how do families with more kids do it?

Then part of it is selfish, I know. I want to have time for myself. My kids are so fun right now, but I want there to be an end insight. Maybe if Erik made more, or was home more, I would maybe think I could handle it. But I know myself and know I cannot. 3 kids is a lot!

Jack's 3!

My sweet buddy Jack turned 3 yesterday. Jack is such a special kid. He's hilarious and cracks us up everyday with his expressions and with what he says. He has this crazy awesome vocabulary and we have conversations like he's 7 years old.
A few funny stories about Jack:
Jack has been carrying around squeekers (the purple bird) since before he was one. He carries it by one arm. About 6 months ago the arm fell off, but instead of holding onto the other arm, he holds this nub of a string on the arm he liked. Soon after that he set squeekers on the stove and he burned off half of the other arm. Recently he lost both eyes. About 2 weeks ago I was putting Jack to bed and he didn't have squeekers, so I asked if he needed me to get him. He told me that squeekers was mean to him and he didn't want him anymore. He still holds him now and then but is not nearly as attached.Another story. I was talking to the boys about strangers and what to do if a stranger approached them. I was telling them to run, go to a house, kick and scream. I asked Jack what he should do if a stranger came up to him. He told me he would grab a stick and stab him in the neck or get a knife and cut off both his legs. Let's just hope he is not ever approached.

Jack is obsessed with Darth Vader. He has 2 pairs of Darth vader pj's and 1 shirt, and that is all he will ever wear. So he wanted a blue Darth Vader cake. I am no pro, but it at least looks like darth vader.
Our family knows him too well. He got a darth vader helmet, flash light, light saber, and toy. I got him one of those swivel cars you wiggle and they propel forward and some puzzles.
I think Jack is a mini-me.

29

Today I'm 29. WT Freak! I'm getting old. And birthdays aren't very fun anymore, not because I'm getting old, but because I don't get to celebrate it, not really. Today I ran some errands, then finished painting my table, all while taking care of 3 kids. And errands are not fun with kids. Tonight I have to go to a fund raiser my boss is doing. I told Erik that all I want for my birthday is to sleep all night tonight. Kael still wakes up a couple times a night, so tonight I'm going to get some earplugs and sleep downstairs on the couch. Is that sad? We are going to dinner tomorrow night, and I did buy myself an ipod shuffle to wear working out.

And I am excited about my new table.

I had a bar heighth table in my kitchen, which looked good in our small space, but wasn't very kid friendly. I'd been looking for a used table and found one on ksl a couple of weeks ago. It's perfect.

Before:

this is not the table, but it was the same color

After:

So I sold our table and bought this one. I already had the green paint, just had to buy some black spray paint. So the project, including the table, cost me about $70.

Now I'm going to share a tip with you women.

This is for sexually active women only.

Seriously, if you are a guy, stop reading.

Ok.

My friends from work, the are both 50 and so fun, decided to share this advice with me. Out of the blue. So you know after S.E.X. you kind of leak afterwards...you know. Well, they told me to put a tampon in afterwards, leave it in for a little while and then you won't leak! Brilliant! You're welcome. Sorry if that was TMI, I warned you.