39 weeks!

 It is officially 39 weeks today! And I don't have any sign yet to labor....Baby Joyce, when are you going to come out and see us? Daddy and Mommy can't wait to see you already! This is kind of the mixture of excitement and anxious... 

Jan 17, 2014. Mom's period was late for a week again. This time mom doesn't put a high expectation on it as mom was quite despair on last month when period was reported again. Anyway, mom still use a pregnancy test to test the urine. With a fast pumping heart beat, slowly, mommy saw the second red line appearing in a glance. There are two red lines in the last! Is that mean I'm pregnant?! Mommy cried out! Quickly, Mommy took a photo and send to Daddy. Are we going to be Daddy & Mommy soon?

In the afternoon, Mommy went to visit doctor. Doctor confirmed that Mommy is having you!. Congratulation! You're pregnant! and the baby is one month old now. Mommy was just too excited and thankful. Mommy cried out again! Without any delay, Mommy sent the good news to Daddy. Daddy was working and he was excited too and he wanted to scream out too!

Back to home, Mommy shows the ultrasound photos to grandpa and grandma. They smiled looking at the photos and asking mom to take a full rest. Here we go to start the 40 weeks of maternity life!

In the first trimester, mommy was fine and do not face any morning sickness or nausea. You're so good to Mommy, baby Joyce. Mommy was quite worry and anxious because mommy is afraid to lost you. Mommy visited doctor every two weeks. I just want to see you my dear. On 16 Feb 2014, this is the first time mommy heard your heart beat. Thanks God, you're alive and healthy. Baby, you're so smart!

Mommy have a big appetite suddenly and the weight gained tremendously 3 kg in a month. Doctor gave a warning to control the diet, otherwise you will be a giant bb. Gosh! that's mean it is hard to deliver you naturally is you're too big. Mommy can't forget the first experience having the glucose test. It's yucking and disgusting. I never want to try it again. So, in the second trimester, mommy went to SG to reunion with daddy. 

Daddy is a good man an he knows mom's desires and worries. So, he helps to control mommy's diet too. During that time, mommy's weight increased from 49 kg to 61 kg just in 5 months! That's is such a huge number, where 12 kg in 5 months time. That's mean my quota is finished for the whole maternity. Oh no! Therefore, mommy decided to exercise. Every morning, mommy carried you and walking at the garden for half and hour or more. In 3 weeks time, mommy's weight decreased to 3.6 kg to 57.4 kg. When go to check up, doctor was so surprised that how come mommy's weight can decrease so much.

Early morning, one day on the 5th month, mommy felt your first kick! Daddy and Mommy went to check up together and get informed that you're a baby gal! At first, mom was quite down, mommy admit. Anyway, no matter a boy or a gal, as long as you're a healthy baby, that's enough already!

So, we started looking for a name for you. It's a long long journey looking for a name. In the last, we decided Joyce Yong Ke Xuan because we want you be a joyful gal and bringing the happiness to people around too, just like the way you brought the happiness to us too. Joyce, Mommy is so thankful of having you. You're a precious gift from God to Daddy and Mommy. Because of you, we are Daddy and Mommy now. 

It is officially 39 weeks today. The 40 weeks maternity period is going to draw a close. Joyce, you're going to say hello to the world. It's counting down the time. Every one is asking, when are you going to deliver? Well, baby Joyce, when are you going to meet the world? haha..... actually mommy was quite anxious now, as the due date is coming close. Anyway, just commit to God, mommy doesn't want to worry too much and just wanna be a happy mom!

Baby Joyce, we love you! =)

Melancholy

I am really moody lately. I am pregnant for the 7th month and feeling so frustrated lately. Easily to cry, easily to feel down, easily to feel sad... I need my husband beside, but seems like he quite enjoy his life out there. Who don't want their husband to pamper them and accompany them? I also need him, but i just can't speak out easily. I don't want him to feel that I am so independent and always need pamper. I don't want him to feel burden. Sometime I can't even speak out that I'm worry about baby, this and that, just because I don't want him to worry the same way as me too. But I felt angry when he is hanging out there so happily... And I selfish and abnormal? I need hug at night.. I need caring words too when I am down. Yet, now, I can only omit all of these into my mind, buried it deep and deep.... 

Hardly to find a way out to cheer up myself...Afraid that my baby will be like me too as baby is inside my bump and closest with me now... Can baby feel my mind and I am moody now? Will my husband feel that I am down, sad and worry now? No, he won't....

Lord, I am tired and this time, not like just speak out and can remedy all. I just feel like a sound in my mind that, something is happening....something that's miserable going to appear and happen. Mood is melancholy.... Not yet labor the baby, but I started to desperate...How's it gonna be when baby came to this world? Husband is not beside, who is going to accompany in the mid night? nobody............Lord, I can rely on You only... You're the one i fully count on...as, reality is cruel...

Be bold gal and harden my heart Lord.... Let me be a mommy with brave and love, but not the one with hate and afraid.... 

New Year is coming!

One hour left and we gonna say good bye to year 2013 and welcome the new year 2014! Do not scream how time flies! And yes! The time is flying! Are you still blurring or stunning there? Don't stop! Let say Aloha 2014! I know you're still a blessing year! And you will be good to all of us as Jesus is still heading in front!

Let's look back to 2013 for the last time. What my most great moment in 2013 and indeed, it's an unforgettable as I was married this year to my beloved husband! This is the great great moment to two of us! We are attached on 15 Feb 2013 and no longer single! This was the moment that will remain forever in my mind. My husband indeed the best and the greatest guy to me. High in EQ and IQ, he is my best teacher and best friend. 

For my job, there is nothing I want to memorize, just hope that in new year, I no longer need to stay a long time in school and I want to have more time at home or do the DIY. yea.... time is short, who know.... in another way round, we gonna say good bye to year 2014 again...... 

And... What I most wished for new year is I want to have a baby and be a mommy! This is my wish in coming year. I wish to have a lots of children, yet, seems like  hmm..... time is not allowed? Well, see how does it works next year! I know God is still leading!  No worries..... 

Time is love. Love is time. There is no wrong to love one another, but just to the right person. Wish all the lovers all the world have a sweet moment together and cherish the moment with the beloved one. 

I love you, my dear hubby, MR YONG! Wish two of us stay sweet and intimate forever and ever!

Happy New Year!!

49 days in Singapore

So unbelievable it's the 47th day staying in Singapore! 7 weeks here indeed a relaxing time and the sweet time with dear husband. Most of the time I spent here for shopping and DIY. And, sure... the cooking time for dear. I almost cook every dinner for my dear. 

Well... time flies.... Can't imagine how will it be after this Sunday as I will go back to hometown soon.... Sigh... Not able to change the condition now and need to be apart again.. Sometime I'm asking myself... Why we are apart? Can't we change? Well, I know both of us are working hard to let us be side by side... just the timing.....

Shopping!

Well....Is this the interest of most of the girls? To admit, yes I am and this is the most attraction here! The lionland Singapore with lots of shopping malls! 

From the top brand to no brand you are able to find anything and everything you want in this land. Indeed, it's a great temptation and be careful with your wallet! Hold it tightly! The money will flow out unconsciously! Numerous brands here that couldn't list out in a piece of paper. Oh! I can't control myself to buy sometime when you see all the items are so cheap! My dear always asks me the same question, Necessary? I will say, sure! and it is so cheap! Yet, sometime after bought it, hmm...... place it there only. Yea.... my dear is correct. 

Ha.... wonder..... Am I a shopaholic? lol....

An unfilial son

Early in this relaxing Saturday morning, two of us finished watching a Korea movie. Then we wanna go for a breakfast and quite enjoy thins morning actually as hubby finished his exams and such a relaxing morning. Walking with a flying foots, we arrived at a food court cum pasar pagi at the back. While waiting for hubby to come, I heard a quarrel and saw a chaos nearby. When I look clearly, I saw a son berate angrily at his mother. His voice is so loud until everyone present there also turn around and look at them. what he did next stunned me! He slapped his mother! Just like a thunderstorm, so fast and his mother also stunned there. But just for a few second then she continues walking follow his son. Gosh!!! That lady is your mom! And how dare you slap her so easily in the public area. Seems so easy he can hit his mom, couldn't imagine how does her condition while at home. Is she been slapped or been hit badly at home. 

This is not the end of the story yet. The guy continues scolding his mom. Still loud the voice, just like intended to let the public hearing that he was angry and scolding his mom just because he is worrying about his mom that she might get hurt or lost. Uhha...Talking crap.... You're pretending that you're not doing anything wrong. What an insane that the public just looks normal. Are they immuned with this kind of matter?

What concluded in my mind - The sadness of a big city. Old folks seems like a burden to them and they don't want to take care of them. What a irony that a big city with so many high educated elite but empty love inside. The most basic theory - love each other is merely practiced in life. This is the sorrow of the big city. 

Do I still want to stay here and let the social to teach my children to be an unfilial person?

** This post was written on 30 Nov 2013 and just posted today.

Awkward?

I think there is no such word 'awkward' or 'weird' in Singapore. Every time when went shopping, definitely you will see million of people and so fashioned they were. You won't feel awkward with their fashion, their wearing suite or their accessories, cos all are just special. Stud especially is the like among all of the teenagers. And, I was quite like it as well. In the end, I bought a lot of pattern of studs, the star, the cone, the the neon color cone and so on. It is easy matching with clothes and a dull clothes will become special and fashion.

Standing on the earth of the big city, you won't think that you're brilliant or hebat we said... here are a big number of elite people and you wont't be the most outstanding one because here have top of the top. So, you will feel that how tiny you're. No reason you should get proud of yourself cos all of the people around they might just the same or more expert then you. But, every one is special. Non of you can be replaced...So, love yourself more.....

DIY

I love DIY very much! Start to have this kind of hobby is since my preparation of my wedding. It is pretty cool when you're able to make all the things you like using your hand and brilliant mind. Other have to buy using much money, but you can produce the same thing using the less money. Isn't it the fun and joy are came in double?! This is the most huge attraction to me. 

Now, I am pretty like to investigate a clutch bag. For the moment, I had produced 3 clutches, but only one clutch I am dare to bring out. The other two one I just put there as antic...lol...well, will reproduce again. Now, I am exploring a messenger bag where it is like a school bag and all need hSand stitching one. Thanks to Youtube, you're my DIY teacher!

So far, I was successful created the stamp using thick foam. Couldn't buy rubber at my hometown, so I exploring Google and found out that people also using foam to create a rubber stamp and the effects are just the same! Pretty cool as foam is very cheap...If we buy ready made stamps, it costs around $ 3-$20, but one A3 sized thick foam only cost RM 3 but you can create unlimited size of foam or pattern follow your favour. It's really cool, isn't it?! However, there is a limit also. I can't create a too small pattern as hard to cut....sigh... but I think I can conquer it....

I also explored how to make hair barrette using beading or bicone bead, creating my own studded hair bow, my own hair bow, my own zipped flower head band...

It is indeed fun of DIY!

Que

Well...one week passed for my year end school holiday... and I am here since last week and here go my 7 weeks here in Singapore...This lionland is special just as my hubby is here...and undeniable, i love this country, for the safety, for the availability of all things, for the quality education and good future for kids...

Well, when you're in SG, you must learn how to que up....ha... I just learn how to que up for the toilet.... So, firstly, que for the toilet. Still remember, first time I qued up at the toilet, I went directly to the front of any of the toilet. I was curious why people standing outside the entrance... stupid I still asking them are you going? then she responded to me, please follow the que...then I just knew that, there is a long que out there! oh, I was so shame... So, just after that, I know that we must que up in a row first in order to wait for your turn. This kind of que up is good as first come first serve. If like what we qued before, we have to wait for the people inside the only toilet we are waiting for. But! I was wonder what are they doing in the toilet. I even heard people cut their nails inside toilet! Oh man, please la.... many people waiting outside.....

Secondly, que for the food. Small island here but crowded with people and grant cafe. There is not much places to go in holiday or weekend unless the shopping mall and the cafes or restaurants. Well, you have to que up for your turn be served in the restaurant. Maybe after half an hour if you're lucky or maybe one hour or two hours. I was frustrated that we need to que up for food. As there are so many restaurant doesn't mean that it is necessary that we need to que up for that only restaurant even though it is long que outside and no guarantee that the food is super delicious. So, we usually choose a seldom-people-going restaurant. lol...

Thirdly, que for SMRT. It is good that every people here they know how to que. This made the flow of the people go in and come out the mrt more efficiently. 

Fortly, que to pay. There is a hub nearby my staying place. Well, I wonder why every second every time there is a long que at the cashier. Even though I went to a non peak hour, there is still a long que.  Sometime people buy in large amount, then make the waiting period more longer, some pay using credit card or checking the receipt, oh gos....make the period longer and longer again. Indeed tiring where you need to carry heavy basket while waiting. 

Now, I am expert in queing....lol...