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9/12/2009 12:01:00 AM
hai... think i'm having split personality. one moment i can be so mature handling things and the other throwing tantrum with my mama when i have enough of her ramblings. Jen keeps saying that i act, think and dress like an older person. i'm so impressed with myself that i can be so rational sometimes. just told mentor that if he feels i'm not deserving to be that privileged few, let me know. i know i have to earn my keep. just felt that he feels that i'm unworthy. maybe it will be then that i should move on. somehow the relationship with him has changed to just politeness and formal mentoring. the fact that he has to talk about me jumping in with 2 feet every month. maybe i'm slightly defensive this time. but sometimes am i trying too hard to please everybody? tired trying to act the adult that maybe i am not. think i'm feeling down more often nowadays. why? where's the charged up SK that i used to be? somehow i cannot be the me i want to be, esp in front of him. =(
skee the great
8/31/2009 01:10:00 AM
was just reading through all the past posts. guess i better share with li san and jac. of cos it's not easy and i can tell them that it's not going to get easier for them. beanie is tired today so am i. but today's the day where we spent time together in 5 days. somehow i find myself trying to entertain him and not let it get all boring. is it going to be like tat for the rest of the days? hai... watching queen of no marriage. suddenly getting all so negative. time to get on a real date soon with bday coming. =) going on a 3 days break before bday. wonder how am i going to feel this year? haha... sometimes it's blues and sometimes it's excitement. mark told me to slow down and look at basics. maybe it's time i should cos results are slipping... sometimes i feel like my hands are tied when he keeps saying that the capacity of the people. wonder how jan feels abt that... ren xing huang huang... sk... JIA YOU for your ppl. be the thinking manager and inspiring leader you should be. and need to lose some weight and watch diet...
skee the great
7/08/2009 01:36:00 PM
  a great trip with much shopping, hanging out and simply just pass time with massages, manicures, pendicures, eating and exercising at hotel's pool and gym!!! =) glad to have this bunch of girls with me.
skee the great
3/18/2009 02:28:00 AM
aarrgghh.. sometimes i think when people know you can accept feedback, they'll take it for granted. can i for once be ppl of my age, young and rash? this is the 25 year old speaking. not the mature BC you are listening to for now. i wan to have the ability to not listen to anyone and just do what i feel like doing, without thinking twice abt the consequences. i'm tired of being strong, mature and doing my best everyday every moment. hai... obligations, responsibilities and deadlines. you are upset, so am i. i refuse to apologise cos i'm not in the wrong. but i know i would eventually have to... with great power comes great responsibility... we are strong for the ppl we love. and when we are tired of being strong, ppl we love are strong for us.
skee the great
11/01/2008 01:27:00 AM
hai... guess this period is like when everything becomes so overwhelming. so tired that i had to sleep on the car for 5 mins after reaching the car park just so i have the energy to go up. after opening the door and settling my bags, pronged myself on mama's bed (cos got air con) haha... and closed my eyes. mama bugged me to let to go and bathe and let her take a look at my swollen ankle. not sure i've been so tired recently. brain power drained every day i guess (haha.. so it means i have been productive?) seems like my ecas (i still like to call it ecas although i get corrected a lot as ccas) all my small little projects are like engulfing my full time job. feel so bad that i've not been a good BC to my RMs this period. like everything will have to be stalled and wait til RMC is over. i seriously can't wait. lotsa of catch up to do. it's a habit now tat i sleep early (ie. 10pm plus 11pm) and wake up at 5am plus to do my stuff. i'm so exhausted and on some days somehow i'm wallowing... hai.. sorry a little negative here. leaving for taiwan in 3 days time and so much to do and so much to follow up. think this is the only time in my 3 years since i started working that i'm so overwhelmed, lost at what to do first. i need to cheer up... beanie is asking for his quality time. need to rehearse with Eric the MCees' stuff. profit plan need to run through the numbers... need to exercise... (amore membership is going to waste) need to catch up with girls and boys. need to follow up on customer feedback. aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...................... anyway seems like i'm being very nolstagic these days. it suddenly hit me tat day why i love HSM so much... seems like it reminded me of the JC days. u know just the sweet young days kinda feeling. HSM inspired me to take up dance classes too. getting really fat and got a reminder from shu just now. not tat i needed it. oops.. haha... just met the 09 gang supposedly at butter factory but in the end em cafe. was a nice chill out. well sorry tired to enjoy the mood and the playful tone of the halloween dress up parties. dun wan to overload on the compassion and dun let her move on...... hai... she deserves better. come on skee... u really need to pick urself up soon... u need to cheer up b4 u can write another entry!
skee the great
6/30/2008 08:41:00 AM
    
skee the great
6/30/2008 08:29:00 AM
   can't believe it's been 8 months since i last blogged. Had a great weekend! got fried at ubin yesterday. beautiful day cycling ard ubin. anyway work is still challenging. may be moving out of Yishun soon.. from wat alex said. hai... a bit bu se de ba... anyway it's been a while since i checked out others' blog and blogged my own. maybe it's time to start again to recollect thoughts. maybe i'm having all this time is because my laptop is kinda down. haha... stupid keypad will not give me the letters i want. hopefully can send for servicing today. spending the day with steven and will talk to him abt moving. anyway had the thought of reblogging when i came to meiyu's blog. hai.. seems like we are so busy with our own lives that we may not be part of others'. was just sharing with liv yesterday on msn.. i really appreciate ppl who refuse to let you out of their lives.. okok time to catch up with all those people i meant to meet up. since beanie is at reservice for this week. better grab the chance. haha.. anyway just restarted my exercise regime. getting really fat when i saw the old photos. haha.. signed up at amore. i love the classes and jeslyn can go with me after our meetings. yeah!!! okok time is precious... getting intellectual too.. reading harvard business review. =) ok cheers to a better quality of life!!!
skee the great
10/21/2007 09:55:00 PM
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