big blond and beautiful

I know now how easy it is to gain weight.

Recently, I've lost a measure of control over the quantity of food I'm consuming. Suddenly, I'm eating at least twice as much during lunch, and dinner never seems enough either. The most recent supper was a nightmare.

Think $4 fried kway teow and more than half a packet of carrot cake. As if that wasn't enough, I went to sleep an hour after that. For 10 hours.

It feels like I'm being drowned by gluttony. I see and I want and I crave and I must have it. It's like I've lost any form of discipline over my appetite.

But I know that I must regain this "discipline". I won't allow myself to eat mindlessly, as tempting and as enjoyable as it is.

That's just it isn't it? Gorging is so addictive. It's so comforting for a reason I cannot fathom.

我愿意改变?

There are days that are up. And then there are days that aren't. I don't see a pattern in which I am happy or sad, it just happens as I live through each day.

I think I'm happy today. After all, why shouldn't I be?

I booked out of camp, I have a friend's birthday to celebrate, and my lovelife seems pretty steadygoing. My family seems content where we are, and I have nothing to worry about, save finances, which is a constant worry anyway.

But that's the problem. I think I'm happy.

Do I feel happy?

plug my gaps

It's been blank for a bit. But I have a movie to PROMOTE. Lol.

881 is probably the best movie I've seen this year.

It's local, and I think we can all relate to it in one way or another. There was great amounts of laughter with the crass (and yet funny) Hokkien dialogue, and then great amounts of tears with the amazingly sad songs.

I haven't cried like that at a movie since the Passion of the Christ. I probably unearthed parts of me I'd kept buried under a loose layer of stoicity.

You Are 39% Pure

Pure? Sure, you're about as pure as yellow snow. You're a downright devil. But you're also a pretty delightful one!

The 100 Question Purity Test

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird.A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone.You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are. You get along well with: The Ring Finger Stay away from: The Thumb

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