Wednesday, March 31, 2004
Hmm. Apparently I didn't get into the finals of the Talent Search. I did however, get into the first 3 rounds.
Of course I'm disappointed, maybe a little sad. Phooey. Not a nice feeling I tell you.
Ah well. Perhaps another time, another competition, another song, another judge.
And better vocals.
Hopefully.
Sunday, March 28, 2004
I'm impulsive.
I signed up for the Temasek Talent Search, and my audition's on Monday. Add to the fact that I don't know what to sing, and there you have it. The perfect problem. Of course, just add some water, and stir well. Place it in the oven and bake at 170 Degrees. And you're done.
It's time to start worrying that I won't have nuthin' to sing by the time I wake up tomorrow. I hope I don't screw up either. Besides, it's not all impulsiveness and nothing else you know. There's also that little bit of WANTING TO WIN!!
So yeah. Like Good Luck to me.
Dominant Extrovert Abstract Feeler
Like just 6% of the population you are a PERFORMER (DEAF)--personable, self-assured, and excellent under pressure. You are extroverted and strong-willed, which, in combination means you are good with people and aren't willing to let opportunity pass you by. Congratulations. I'm sure all the peons you've stepped on never saw it coming and didn't feel a thing.
You like being naked.
Anyhow, you have formidable creative talents, and you often following what your heart tells you instead of your logical mind. Your exuberance can earn you many friends and admirers, despite your ambition, or it can intimidate the less confident into keeping their distance. It's also possible you're Madonna.
Gee, what a weird result. I'm Madonna. Wahahahahahhahahha
Friday, March 26, 2004
Just when something is within your grasp, something comes along to take it all away. Then you are left there, with an ache of longing that can be fulfilled only when the object of desire is in your hands.
It's a terrible thing to behold, and sometimes, I just feel like chucking things out the window whenever I get such a feeling.
This is a crappy world.
Thursday, March 25, 2004
Notice how my recent posts have nice titles? I decided to have them on the spur of the moment. Looks wonderful doesn't it? Yeah but anyway, that's not the point lah.
Today, is all about a great place to be. It's in the 4th floor of the Library in Temasek Polytechnic. Once you come out of the lift, you can see the place where you watch movies and such. No. That's not the place. Walk right past it, and you will come to a clearing where a group of about 10 red chairs that look absolutely comfy sit. Nope. They're not it either. Turn a little to the right, and you'll see another group of red chairs in a secluded corner. Yes. That's the place.
Why is it a great place to be? Simply because it's a great place to catch a snooze while waiting for your friends, appointment with the dentist, or something.
I snoozed there today. For a whole hour. Think I snored. Was that why those two girls were giggling away?
The air conditioning is perfect, and the chairs are soft. Nobody makes a noise there. Everyone seems to have come to an unspoken agreement that when you go there, you are to fall asleep, and not make a sound.
Of course, when I woke up, I realised I was so stiff and numb that I nearly fell down the stairs when my right leg refused to listen to me and freaking move! Damn it! WHY ARE YOU SO FREAKING STUBBORN!! JUST MOVE YOUR FREAKING SELF DOWN THE STAIRS WHEN I TELL YOU TO!!!
Er... Whoops. Talking to the leg now aren't I?
Monday, March 22, 2004
Today was one of the more interesting days of this month.
Today was the day that I tricked Nadira.
I told her we were going to watch "Haunted Mansion". She came along with me...right up to the ticketing counter. I told the counter staff, give me 2 tickets to "The Eye 2" at 710. Nadira happily stood beside me, eagerly awaiting to watch Haunted Mansion.
We wasted time at Courts, watching So Close. For those of you who live in a hole or something, So Close is a chinese movie featuring SHU QI!!! VICKY ZHAO WEI and Mo Wen Wei. I tried to recall her english name. Was it patricia? But isn't that the Singaporean woman with that huge mouth? Argh.
Anyway, the time came to watch the show, and Nadira stupidly followed me into the cinema, all the while thinking that she was going to watch a "scary" show. Boy, was she in for a shock.
The opening credits of The Eye 2 came running along, and that was when I let her in on the surprise of the century. LOL!! She made a hell of a noise, and caused people to stare. Hahahahahahahhahaha.
She swore to strangle me. I think it's totally worth it.
I gotcha there Nad!! =P
Friday, March 19, 2004
No, it's not the food you ate, and no, it's the the water you drank.
It's the company you once shared.
The laughter. No. Not the laughter. The reason for laughing. They are different.
The reasons to smile, they are also different.
There ain't anything that I can really explain. It's just a kind of feeling thing. LoL! Great, and that's so explanatory.
Never mind.
LSM OP is over!! Finally. After all those days of agonizing, all those days where we slogged over one single project. They have come to a temporary end.
Suddenly I can feel all my limbs going slack as they finally can get some well-earned rest. Just too damned bad it's not friday. Otherwise I'd sleep ALL the way. Just too damned bad I guess.
Poor people whose Oral Presentations are on friday. hahahahahahha.
Have Fun Guys.
Tuesday, March 16, 2004
They seemed very much in like/love. It's the usual signs, the inability to keep their hands off each other, the loving stares, the loving jibes at each other.
That's when I realise that perhaps, I'm just not so in to that kind of stuff for now. I'm talking lovey relationships.
Suddenly, it all seems so tiring. I hear him say, "Hey, from now on, I'm going to protect her with my life." And I start thinking, what makes him so sure that they're going to last forever?
Sure, everyone has the right to dream, the right to hope. And perhaps I'm just being too pessimistic for my own good.
It just seems all too wishful right now, all so...idealistic.
I'm not ready for such commitment. Not right now. I can't deal with it. I'm enjoying my time now, being single. In some ways it's much more fun, not having to specially worry about that special someone.
It's an easier life.
For those of you whose presentations are over already, don't gloat. I'll be as happy as you are as soon as thursday comes floating along.
It's kinda worrying though. I'm the last group, which means I get to grapple with 2 very grumpy teachers who will have to sit through 4 similar presentations, and still have to maintain their professionalism, which may very well slip away.
Ah well, we all have our challenges to overcome don't we?
I'm not trying to be nasty here. But I really hope that the groups before us won't do as well, so we can impress the shit out of the lecturers.
There, I've said it. Everyone may now proceed to stone me for being so evil. But before you pick up that first stone, please ask yourself. Are you truly sure that you did not feel the same way? Are you absolutely certain that you, in some small way, did not wish the exact thing that I wished? It's just that I decided to voice it out that's all.
I'm getting too honest.
The world still makes sense after all.
After an excruciating wait of about one week or so, I finally will have the book in my hands. It's here!
Now, I must remind myself. I must read the book slowly, I must not devour the book as if I am starving for words. Which I am. But yet, CONTROL is most necessary.
'Cos the last book is a long way in coming.
A friend of mine said this to me recently, while we were talking about books. She said that when you read a book, you realise that all your troubles just slip away. All the projects, all the tutorials, all the troubles you have simply cease to exist the moment you get into your comfortable position, and start reading your books. For that blessed time, the only world you know is the world that exists in your book.
And you know what?
I think she's absolutely right.
Friday, March 12, 2004
It would seem that I should have to kill myself.
The books that I am after, they are not with me. One is still in transit, and the other hasn't even finished being borrowed by someone else.
The world is unfair.
I had to finish reading book 2 last night.
I had to find out that book 3 ain't ready.
I had to find out that book 4 is unavailable.
Never mind. I know what I shall do. I shall re-read the books that I have on hand. Perhaps I might discover hidden gems.
Suddenly, I can't wait to get my hands on those books again. Suddenly, I feel as if I've been given a new lease of life.
I wonder how many actually understand what I'm saying. I'm a bookworm! Explains the thick specs I guess. BUt then they aren't that thick. Just fairly thick.
Argh.
Wednesday, March 10, 2004
Sheesh, do I look like I'm some kind of person going after females like a vampire going after blood? I sure hope not...
But then again, who knows what the new year may bring? Hehehehehehehe.
Oh man. I sound like a pervert. Wahahaha. What the hell.
If anyone has noticed, I'm seriously rambling here.
But I don't feel like stopping.
Someone told me that Singapore Idol has already started, that I had to read 8 Days to actually find out. How sad... that Mediacorp would actually resort to publishing the affair only in the magazine. Then what about those people who can really sing but don't read 8 days? Just too bad? Sheesh. Hard evidence of Mediacorp's stupidity. Mediacorp is obviously not thinking of finding a good singer, but is intent only on keeping viewership ratings up.
How stupid of them. Now Singapore will never hear the wonderful voice of my friend. Shucks...
You were not around
When the message was through, though I wanted to
I couldn't make a sound
I wanna tell you the things I've seen
I wanna take you to where I've been
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know
I really miss you
I'm writing to say I had a wonderful day
Hangin' with my friends
But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies
I'm alone again
I wanna tell you the weather is fine
When the night comes around you were on my mind
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know
I really miss you
I wanna tell you the things I've seen
I wanna take you to where I've been
And I wish you were here with me
Oh, don't you know
I really miss you
I called you today just to hear you say
You were not around
When the message was through, though I wanted to
I couldn't make a sound
I'm writing to say I had a wonderful day
Hangin' with my friends
But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies
I'm alone again
Monday, March 08, 2004
Suddenly, the holidays are over. Have I said that already? Doubt I have. One whole week just disappeared. During which, there was one particular highlight of the day.
It happened on a Saturday.
I went to Mr Ferlin's house.
With a bunch of other people.
It was just to celebrate the relative success of Murder Game. We trooped there on a saturday evening, armed with bags and bags of food. Once we got there, we marvelled (or at least I did) at how small the house was. But then I realised that it was built for only one person to live in it with any degree of comfort, so I stopped marvelling.
It was then we found out that Mr Ferlin had a girlfriend. What her name was, I do not remember. What I do remember, is that she is good looking, and that her birthday is on the 24/12 I think. And Mr Ferlin's is on the 22/12. They are 33 this year. So you do the math. They were born in the year...1971. Shucks. A whole 15 years difference between me and them.
Just imagine. In 15 years time, I might be like THEM ??? *Shudders*
Haha. It was also during that same night that Nad, Kay, Azi and me insulted Mr Ferlin till he almost died. It was also then that Mr Ferlin finally saw the evil side of Azi. Ha! You can't hide in your little sheep's clothing forever Azizah! Sooner or later, your wolf fangs will come sticking out. =D
Rest of the week, passed pretty uneventfully though. Oh. I watched the Cat in the Hat. OMG. That is one lame show. Utterly dumb. I barely remember it, save for the bright colours. Oh. That and one significant line in the movie. LoL.
Note to rest of the world: DO NOT WATCH THE SHOW UNLESS YOU'RE IN A LAME MOOD.
Now that school's opened, it's time to start working hard again I guess.
I dread it.
1. You are attracted to those who have split personality, like cold
as ice on the outside, but hot as fire in the heart.
2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you
feel irresistable is patience, never give up on you.
3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal,
faithful, never change.
4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too
moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.
5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your
partner is one that you care not only about the present but
also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship
that you can grow with
6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything
wrong after marriage.
7. You think of marriage as a precious thing. Once you get married,
you'll treasure it and your partner very much.
8. At this moment, you are quite self-centered; you think of love as
something you can get and trash anytime you want.
Thursday, March 04, 2004
I feel like skipping class tomorrow! My story book is ready for collection! I must have it in my hands, or I shall die.
Overdramatisation I know, but I like it.
Half of me is practically quivering in excitement over the prospect of reading the book, and the other half is shocked that I'm actually quivering in excitement. Hehehe.
I think I might start drooling now. Sheesh. Get a grip Melvyn!
See now, this is the sort of attitude I must have towards my studies...only I can't muster the same attitude. It's reserved for reading alone.
Suddenly I get the feeling that if I had to choose between a hot date and reading a great book, I'd choose the book.
Bookworm phase...here I come. =X
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Monday, March 01, 2004
Hmm. Apparently I've not been updating frequently enough. Argh. How do I let all the time pass?
Ah, there's one thing people out there must know. I'VE FOUND A NEW BOOK TO READ!!!! Like hip hip hurray! I've been dreadfully bored since school started, with nothing in my hands to read. *thoughtfully* that might have explained why I'm out of the house so much. But now, with a new book to read, I think it's time for me to become a sort of a hermit, rushing home everyday after school to read. Haha.
I supposed some people might be surprised, even shocked that I have such a reaction when I see a nice book. I can't help it. It calls out to me when I'm away from it, my fingers itch to hold it lovingly...and I'm just kidding. Gee, it's not like I've got some withdrawal symptoms.
It's called "Beyond The Pale" by Mark Anthony. It's the first in a series of four books. And I can hardly wait to read the next three. Already I'm dreading finishing the first book. There are about 20 pages left, and here I am, cringing as I turn each page, hoping that the end is yet to come. But then, I can't force my eyes to slow down, as they practically devour the words.
Amazing, the way I go on about books. Let's see, I've read the Belgariad, a series of 5 books, about 4 times already. I've read Harry Potter about 5 times in total. I must be mad, but then it's good to relive the book each time I read it, picturing scenes in my head as I read them.
Perhaps I should stop.
School has started. I have to get a grip on my work, and not let it slip past me again, like the last term, when I was so involved in school stuff that I neglected my work. Saying that there was too much to handle with is not an excuse, I realised. What happens if something happens like that in my working life and I neglect my duties? I can't possibly say that I've got too many things to handle when my boss demands an explanation right? Of course, it may be to premature to talk about work, but it's the same thing.
How can I answer to my conscience when I fail my exams?

My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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You are Form 0, Phoenix: The Eternal.
"And The Phoenix's cycle had reached
zenith, so he consumed himself in fire. He
emerged from his own ashes, to be forever
immortal."
Some examples of the Phoenix Form are Quetzalcoatl
(Aztec), Shiva (Indian), and Ra-Atum
(Egyptian).
The Phoenix is associated with the concept of life,
the number 0, and the element of fire.
His sign is the eclipsed sun.
As a member of Form 0, you are a determined
individual. You tend to keep your sense of
optomism, even through tough times and have a
positive outlook on most situations. You have
a way of looking at going through life as a
journey that you can constantly learn from.
Phoenixes are the best friends to have because
they cheer people up easily.
Which Mythological Form Are You?
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