Find it.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

I guess this chapter of my life should be closed, time to move on.
Memories will be kept, though.

http://ceolmochridhe.livejournal.com

lost myself at 11:59 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

Awesome. I help my dad do his ppt for his assignment and I get paid :D

lost myself at 5:54 PM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

I can't believe I'm graduating in two days. It's almost disgusting how quickly time flies.
and there're too many things left undone, too little time to make things right.

lost myself at 10:22 PM

Saturday, October 25, 2008

You were there
soloist: Tom Cully

You were there in everything I knew
From the moment I began.
Always there in every way I go.

Saved me falling, held my hand.

You are shelter from the storm.
The shadows fade away, all cares pass away.

(HOSANNA), day by day;
Your love lightens up the sky

As it shines across the night.
Ave Regina caelorum decora
Deo gloriosa, Ave!

And when the end of day is come,
Stay with me through the dark and bring me home.

You are there whichever way I go.
Keep me safely night and day.
Always there, whenever I'm alone,

Hear me calling, show the way.

You are shelter from the storm,
The shadows fade away, all cares pass away.

(HOSANNA), day by day;
Your love lightens up the sky

As it shines across the night.
Ave Regina, Caelorum decora
Deo gloriosa, Ave!

And when the end of day is come,
Stay with me through the dark and bring me home.

Stay with me through the dark and bring me home

and i really have no more tears, no more words left.

lost myself at 1:19 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

copied from lj:

so I passed, thank God. it wasn't a good pass, neither did i deserve it. but well God has been gracious so thank God.

today was a terrible day. to those who failed, hold your head high. don't give up, not now. you've come so far, worked so hard. just this last hurdle you have to cross. study hard for the re-exam, you can do it. have faith. i'll be praying for all of you. and we'll all graduate proudly together, okay?

i know it feels terrible, i've been through it before. that's why, i feel so helpless you know. i almost wish i had failed too, then we can go through this together. but i guess, God has put me in this position, and all i have to offer now is my love and support. you all can do it, i know you can.
<3

lost myself at 1:06 AM

Thursday, October 16, 2008

IT'S OVER :D
went shopping today at ps with deborah and charis. back/feetache now D:
and i'm gna have LOTR movie marathon tmr (x with deborah. she's coming over at 7. which is retardedly early for a non-school day HAHA.
I wish I don't, but I miss you.

lost myself at 8:44 PM

Friday, October 10, 2008

i think, i've more or less made up my mind.
so, choir it is. assuming i can get in.
'cos i know i'll regret it if i don't join.
and regret, it's a terrible thing, you know.

lost myself at 7:12 PM

1010.
maybe.

lost myself at 12:25 AM

Thursday, October 09, 2008

I know i've posted these lyrics before.
If I remember correctly, the last words you said before monday were, "goodbye, study hard k, don't fall asleep"

The Last Words You Said
Somewhere in time I know,
Darling you'll come back to me.
Roses will bloom again,
But Spring feels like eternity.
In your kiss it wasn't goodbye.
You are still the reason why.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever"
Were the last words you said to me.

And when the morning comes,
My hands still reach out for you.
Some things remain the same,
There is nothing I can do.
I can barely get through the day
Ever since you went away.

I can hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever"
Were your last words to me...

Heaven help us cross this endless sea
With starlight above to guide you to me.
Waves crushing on distant shores,
They're calling our names forever more.

And I still hear you whispering in the silence of my room,
My heart still surrenders like the sun to the moon.
I can barely stand this aching, burning endlessly.
"Love me now forever"
Were the last words you said to me.

lost myself at 1:46 AM

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

and I miss you quite terribly.

lost myself at 11:22 PM

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Credite amori vera dicenti

lost myself at 12:18 AM

Friday, October 03, 2008

maybe, promises were made to be broken.

lost myself at 6:33 PM

Anton: "Vincent! How are you doing this, Vincent? How have you done any of this? We have to go back!"
Vincent: "It's too late for that, we're closer to the other side."
Anton: "What other side? Do you want to drown us both‽"
Vincent: "You want to know how I did it? This is how I did it, Anton. I never saved anything for the swim back."

lost myself at 6:21 PM

All over again.

lost myself at 12:34 AM

I have been looking for nice quotes instead of studying. Brilliant :D

“You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever, but I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.”

Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn't it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. I hate love. -Neil Gaiman

“I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out.And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you. And how I love you despite my broken heart.And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you.But those words may forver stay in my heart-locked inside.Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.”

why?

lost myself at 12:23 AM

Thursday, October 02, 2008

sometimes I wish I was a little girl again, for bruised knees heal faster than broken hearts.

lost myself at 5:36 PM

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

sorry. my fault.

lost myself at 11:26 PM

I seriously wonder why anyone would even bother stealing my phone. It's like, ancient.

lost myself at 2:12 AM

Monday, September 29, 2008

it hurts, it fcking hurts, you know.
but well, what can i say. it's my own fault anyway.

lost myself at 11:07 PM

Instead of studying, I have found myself a new favourite (old) song.
Terrible.

lost myself at 4:10 PM

Sunday, September 28, 2008

wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings <3

lost myself at 12:07 AM

Saturday, September 27, 2008

amor de mi alma <3

lost myself at 12:19 AM

Friday, September 26, 2008

There're so many langauges I'd like to learn.

Most of all, the language of love.

amor est vitae essentia
Òran gaoithe
Meall mo chridhe

lost myself at 11:44 PM

Thursday, September 25, 2008

I'm sorry.
please don't hurt yourself. please.
non plus ultra

lost myself at 9:49 PM

Died. Raptus regaliter.

& I thank God for you;

Per aspera ad astra

lost myself at 12:25 AM

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

EOYs start tomorrow. All the best, people.

when there's nothing left to burn, you have to set yourself on fire.
It is not how much you do, but how much love you put in the doing.

Love; pulchritudo tam antiqua et tam nova.

lost myself at 10:36 PM

so make it right;

I can't stand myself.

lost myself at 12:39 AM

Saturday, September 20, 2008

I wear my heart on my sleeve.

lost myself at 9:44 PM

sorry.

lost myself at 9:36 PM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I've found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby

<3

lost myself at 11:58 PM

When this passing world is done,
When has sunk yon radiant sun,
When I stand with Christ on high,

Looking o'er life's history,

Then, Lord, shalll I fully know,

Not till then, how much I owe.

When I stand before the throne

Dressed in beauty not my own

When I see Thee as Thou art,

Love Thee with unsinning heart,

Then, Lord, shalll I fully know,
Not till then, how much I owe.

When the praise of heaven I hear,

Loud as thunders to the ear,

Loud as many waters' noise,

Sweet as harp's melodious voice,

Then, Lord, shalll I fully know,
Not till then, how much I owe.

Chosen, not for good in me,
Wakened up from wrath to flee,
Hidden in the Saviours's side,

By the Spirit sanctified,

Teach me, Lord, on earth to show

By my love how much I owe.

-Robert Murray M'Cheyne, 1813-43

One of my favourite poems.

I don't know, how you can think this way of me.

lost myself at 12:08 AM

Monday, September 15, 2008

I wouldn't hurt you, you know.

lost myself at 11:13 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

I've been looking through old photos instead of studying. Oops.

you're the ceol mo chridhe

lost myself at 11:12 PM

Because you came and turned my life around. <3

lost myself at 12:37 AM

Sunday, September 07, 2008

I kinda don't know what to do now. Rather confused and lost.

What a terrible feeling.

Eoys are in 18 days, I'm so screwed.

lost myself at 10:55 PM

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Mrs Phua (sp?)

The principal

Mrs Cheong (sp?)

lost myself at 12:20 AM

Saturday, August 30, 2008

I'm quite glad I decided to go back to kindergarten with Shaun today. The teachers (amazingly) still remember us. Looking at those tiny kids running around, it's hard to imagine that we were once that small, that carefree. 10 years down the road, and here we are jostling in this rat race.
Apparently I was really "small, quiet and cute" back then. Heh. The place hasn't changed much, just minor renovations and an extra staircase. Standing in the compound, we both had this sudden influx of memories. Strange random little scenes sort of "flew" through my mind. Was pleasantly surprised that the teachers still could remember at least our names. One of them could even recognise me almost instantly. It's nice knowing that someone you last saw 10 years ago can still remember you. I wonder how many hundreds of faces and names they've seen through the years. They said it was really nice of us to go back and visit, and that they felt really appreciated. I'm glad I made someone's day today, really.
Took photos with our teachers and the principal, will post them once Shaun sends them to me.
Today was quite a happy day (:

lost myself at 4:05 AM

Friday, August 29, 2008

I have really so much to say about gender equality and low fertility rate and house husbands and children (or the lack of it), but I shan't, at least not now.
Besides, I know I'll get a lot of crap for my pov, and I'm sick of defending it. So (:
Maybe next time.

lost myself at 1:25 AM

Thursday, August 21, 2008

stop saying you understand, because you don't.

lost myself at 9:45 PM

It was a waste of my time. Was kind of expecting it anyway, but I'm still sort of disappointed. Hoped they would understand, but then again maybe I hope too much.

I'm getting really fat. I eat shitload when I'm stressed so I think I'm stressed because I've been eating A LOT. Like seriously a lot. I always seem to be hungry. How terrible.

<3!
I miss being so happy.

Bolt is disgustingly fast. Lightning Bolt, they call him. How apt.
I sort of wonder how 2012 olympics will match up to this, in terms of sporting ability. Doubt Bolt's or Phelps' records will be broken, unless they break it themselves.
Du Toit took part in the 10k (6.2 miles) marathon swim olympic finals. She finished in 2h 49.9s and was ranked 16th out of 25 swimmers. She swims 50 miles a week. She has one leg.
It's amazing, really.

lost myself at 1:07 AM

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

couldn't resist.

lost myself at 12:43 AM

I spent so much money on food today. I feel like a pig. Oink?
And, I'm so far behind my revision timetable it's depressing. It's so bad I really should reschedule the entire thing but I really can't be bothered to. I prolly won't follow the new one anyway.

I couldn't think of anything else to say.
I'm sorry I hurt you, I really never meant to.

lost myself at 12:27 AM

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Michael Phelps is disgustingly fast. It's really scary. If you didn't watch, search for video clips of his 200m freestyle race. It's really amazing and won't take up more than 2 minutes of your time anyway (x

take care of yourself, please. take it that i'm begging you. no i'm not bitching about it. i'm begging you.
i'm sorry.
i've started again, i won't be able to stop for a long time now. no one's fault but my own anyway.

lost myself at 12:39 AM

Saturday, August 09, 2008

stole this from charis' blog (:

After a While
After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul,
And you learn that love doesn’t mean leaning and company doesn’t mean security,
And you begin to learn that kisses aren’t contracts and presents aren’t promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes open, with the grace of an adult, not the grief of a child,
And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow’s ground is too uncertain for plans.
After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
So you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
And you learn that you really can endure…that you really are strong, and you really do have worth.
And you learn and you learn… with every good-bye you learn…
-Veronica A. Shoffstall,19-

lost myself at 9:35 PM

Friday, August 08, 2008

somehow, i still can't bring myself to look you in the eye.

lost myself at 11:18 PM

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

my msg is screwed. totally.

当自己愿意爱与被爱时，这不就是把能刺伤自己的刀摆在人面前，不就是把一瓶使自己头昏脑胀的毒药送上给被人吗？

lost myself at 12:23 AM

Monday, August 04, 2008

i love this song (: her voice is really nice too :D

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Saturday, August 02, 2008

I really should start doing something more... productive.
Yes I should.

lost myself at 9:24 PM

Friday, August 01, 2008

jem, you're such a failure.

yes my msg is screwed. totally.

lost myself at 8:37 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

whose loss is bigger? the one who lost someone she loves or, the one that lost someone that loves her?

lost myself at 7:21 PM

& they give me strength to carry on;

lost myself at 12:49 AM

Monday, July 28, 2008

Was just looking at some photos from graz on my senior's blog. Now I really really want to go back there. I miss walking along the streets singing; I miss seeing buskers that actually perform, and not just make some noise to earn money; I miss squeezing onto those stuffy trams; I miss performing; I miss being myself; I miss the joy, the tears, the laughter, the music, the love; I miss Graz.

<3!

But well. It's time to move on, I guess.

lost myself at 8:54 PM

Saturday, July 26, 2008

"There comes a point in your life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won't anymore, and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future"

lost myself at 12:31 PM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

you're the city of my heart;

<3

Watched the Dark Knight today with deb.
I thought the depiction of the different characters was brilliant, esp the joker.
The conflicting emotions and dilemmas were very well portrayed too.
All in all, worth my $6 (:
Blocks are over. And suddenly I wish they haven't ended. They sort of add... meaning? to life.
I don't know, actually. How strange.

lost myself at 11:35 PM

Allowing yourself to love someone is scary, cause it means that you're giving your heart away to someone else and letting him do whatever he wants with it. Manipulate it, break it, or treat it with tender loving care. When you let yourself love somebody, it means giving him full control over your whole heart and having no say. But so many a times, we don't allow ourselves to fall in love, we just do.

"If you want me, you will come to me one", if only things were so simple, no?

lost myself at 8:43 PM

I just counted, I've had 12 hours of sleep since sat. Of course not including all the random times I dozed off and all, so it's probably much more than that.

screw math D:

lost myself at 12:16 AM

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

But things just don't turn out the way we want them to.

Do you know, it takes a lot to love someone,
Cause it means making yourself vulnerable.
Giving the person the power, to mess you all up and just leave.
There's something about you, that's indescribable. That makes me want to love you more and more despite the hurt that comes along with it. It's you, you're just so indescribable.
On another note, I'm kinda screwed for math tmr. I suddenly have no idea how to do everything. Terrible.

lost myself at 11:31 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

blocks so far have been BAH. Ohwell (:

I think. You're bent on driving me to desperation.
I'm stuck here, caught in between.
I've never felt so helpless.

lost myself at 9:49 PM

Everything's gone wrong, I need to make things right again; but I don't know how to.
I need to cry; but I can't.
I hate this feeling, all twisted and gnarled inside.

please. stop it. I'm begging you. Just. Stop it.
Argh.

lost myself at 1:13 AM

i'm sorry.

lost myself at 12:46 AM

I think, I've never hated myself more.

lost myself at 12:35 AM

Monday, July 21, 2008

I don't know why I still bother.
Stop giving me false hope, please.

lost myself at 11:13 PM

Right. Screw blocks. I'm going to sleep. Goodnight.

you wouldn't care less anyway.

lost myself at 4:09 AM

There's no one online o.o
Does that mean everyone's finished studying already.
This is terrible.
I'm not even half done with bio yet. I've decided to abandon IH.
Right. Back to bio.
Toodles (:

lost myself at 2:44 AM

and you were right; love isn't worth it.

lost myself at 1:15 AM

I'm sorry. I never meant for things to turn out this way.

lost myself at 12:57 AM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Right. I don't care anymore. I give up on studying. Blocks shall just go and die.
I'm still not sleepy. I think my body clock is majorly screwed up.
I shall. Lie in bed and try to sleep.
Toodles.

I just realised I haven't slept this late in quite a long time. How interesting.

lost myself at 4:43 AM

You know what?
screw blocks.

I think I'm tired.
is that good or bad.

lost myself at 3:47 AM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

How can you really miss someone you never had; Someone that never was yours?

lost myself at 10:51 PM

go rioHC :D
i'm so happy for you :D
two golds; category champs
<3

lost myself at 10:09 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

can you just effing stop it. please.
can't you tell that i care.
i do, okay.
enough; please.

lost myself at 8:10 PM

It's a very strange, empty feeling, and I don't like it.
Life now feels so empty, it's like there's nothing to look forward to.
Graz has come and gone, and well, I miss that place.
Can you fill up that emptiness?

lost myself at 1:24 AM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

hi world
i'm back
i shall die happily for blocks.
or rather
i shall die happily before blocks come so i won't die for blocks.
yes i make so much sense.
brilliant.
i'm rambling

~~you're breaking me, you know.~~
why?

lost myself at 10:22 PM

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

hi :D
i'm waiting to board the plane now.
grace says hi.
i'm bored.
don't miss me.
tell me if you want stuff. i think. i might get it if i'm nice.
ruimin says hi. i don't allow her to say hi.
whatever.
i'm so bored. i can't type properly.
bye? :D
tell me what happens in school okay (:
see you.
i shall die for blocks.
hoho.
merry christmas.
:D

lost myself at 1:33 AM

Monday, July 07, 2008

i will be leaving in. a few hours.
adieu.

i love you

lost myself at 5:30 PM

It's today.
Okay technically it's tomorrow, but I count days according to when I sleep/wake up.
And I haven't packed. Nope not at all.
It doesn't feel like we're leaving tonight/tomorrow morning. This is quite worrying. Anyway if you'd like to send me off (hint) i'll be partying at the airport from 7pm onwards :D

In case I don't get to say this later, adieu (:

will you miss me?

lost myself at 9:51 AM

Friday, July 04, 2008

so many things make me cry,
but not many things make me cry and feel my heart break at the same time

jiayou choir. three days.

lost myself at 10:06 PM