Happy birthday, joe.

i know no boundaries. no idea whats gonna happen but i just wanna post this up. its for my reference in case i forget.

Happy birthday joel . today is his birthday. just wanted him to stay focus and be happy whatever he do. the conversation we had was simple , as usual.

"thanks u too. heard u sating someone. nice."
"heard? from mr sim? best if u ask from me. i wouldn say dating, getting to know, Thanks. ha."

thats all. bye.

SiongSiongBear loves joe.T, joel and jovien, his friends, family on 30 june 2011.!

Out Of the bluezzz

Hi Guys,
I'm back . probably not for long. i'm talking abt blogging.


Where do i start from. Probably where i left off few months back, but thats too long. Yes, i've came back from the States and i spent the best time of my life there. So as to say, i'm definately going back there again- with my family. =)

My attachment ended as soon as it starts and i'm just a few days away from serving my nation.
besides that, i'm having this persistent head pain for 3 weeks. peeps thnik i'm hallucinating or i came down with depression but facts that ear problem, throbbing head pain, loss of co-ordination, is it psychological if its felt everyday- while some days were very bad. well, i'm not an optmistic person to start with, but i know this have to be treated in due time.

Remember my birthday party i had on my 21st? haha, i was reading through my post when i found that i've lost mr sim in my circle of friends. It wasn too hard for me to get pass him. i just feel bad i carn be the friend that he seeks. simply, he forsaken me. that comes to a point when i start to think of how many guys (Man, boy) friends i really have in my life. Well.... sadly, sparingly FEW.

i can even count them by my fingers (even after chopping off a few). How possibly a person like me who likes musculine man, dun even get a guy friend? not even least, a sissy friend. i can understand when guys are simple minded. absolutely stuck in the nth box for life. very consistent in thinking, for eg, common interest - revloving around matters like soccer, girls, work and how to boost their manly ego's. i get that. Maybe army will change me and i'm willing to do just that. though thats risk taking, i guess its probably good in a way. People changes. for example, like how i found out my besties turns lesbain after so many time of confession that she will never like a girl and how girls making out with another of same sex makes her nausea.

i'm flabber-gasted. =)

i know my weakness actually. Being easily manupilated, i also flirt with guys (almost any guys) over-excessively. i oftenly talks alot, forgets alot and stoned alot. and I DO Agree i'm VERY FUNNY.
But being sucessful in life is not making a fool out of urself by being Funny. so yea. kinda time to wake up.

by the way, one thing. I still love joel.T alot. (my next post, probably)
Thanks for the ranting. and being a nuisance once again.

SiongSiongBEar loves Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friend, family on 17 August 2010!

Tonight's gonna be a good night! (& weeks to come)



I laid my fingers on the keyboard, mind wondering on what to type. just couple of highlights...

- i went for my first snorkling trip. this could by far be the most memorable trip that has ever happened to me.simply pleasant. one u wish you could bring your partner along.

- have alot more clubbing sessions with my peers. and it happens that one of the session have got all of my different cliques tgt. that was the best . consisting of Jazreel and grp, eva, kexin and grp, my sis and her grp , with me , reza and his partner. Totally swept us off our feet. Too many to handle.



- in recent time, get to know one guy and met thereafter as we're heading to the sae club. he's adorable, and he caught every beat of heart from first impression. he very friendly and allows me to mingle round with his friends. i feel this disparity though, perhap its cos he's a indonesian. different background, cultures ... i'm just afraid i might do silly stuff to make me look stupid from his perceptive.

He asked me to crack jokes/ riddles with him, cos he loves guy who tickles his intellect. He was being suggestive. so i consider that as a chance for me. but i'm not a joker. How to be one? maybe i join in the circus. well, i should try.


hope he thinks well of me. Meanwhile, i just need to be myself.

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- LAst of All.! Notice to everyone !

In a few days time i'll be in the States. YES! U.S.A!
for HOLIDAY!!! 2 weeks!

covering the east side. that includes cities like...

- New York City,
- Philadelphia
- Boston
-Niagara Falls
- Washington. DC (meet Georggy!)
- Orlando , Florida.

you might think its just a few , but the iternaries are fully packed each day. I dun think we will have time to catch our breathe when we're there. It once in a lifetime opportunity. and has always been my dream to get to the US. and this is it. 10 April 2010 is nearing, and hello to AMERICA.!



FYI, if u would like me to get anything, do contact me. i will be doing my main shopping in their premiun outlet in Florida (branded items at good price).



SiongSiongBEar Loves Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friends, family on 5 april 2010!

BOOZE PEEPS. beep.

Hello peeps,

I know i haven;t been updating my blog. I was thinking of revamping this site. Facing the same background image for almost three years can be dreadful. Anyway, no one really cares wat i rant here. so i'm not bothered.

After my life went through a few traumatic events that weight me down heavily during the past few years, i think its time to freshen up just alittle bit. a new year with a new perspective. Well, i have been telling myself that, i still dun see how much i've changed- for good, for worst, u decide.

DArn lot of things happened. Photos can be found in my facebook.
random updates in words.

1> I'm working in the lounge as a Guest relation Executive now. Quite slack, alittle more ease than a coffeehouse, still there's stress amidst all these since these VIP carn be compromise with just simple facilities and services.

2> attachment ends, means NS soon. I know alot of u guys are eagerly awaiting this moment. I dun know why, but i guess, i gotta do wat a man gotta do. just that i'm clueless whether i'm man enough for it. heheh.

3>Club in Zirca on sundays.interact with alot of guys and became friends.

4> Mr sim is a fool. as always.

5> Planning on vacation trips to bangkok and Los angelas,US. Thus far,only Redang trip is confirmed. who's tagging along?
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that should be it.
carn think.
just alot of random stuff in between but i'm living well - in another word, self sufficient.

SiongSiongBEar Loves Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friends, family on 29th January 2010!

DOG Adoption.

Hi peeps,

Just helping Mr Sim's dogs to find a good home. He have two lovely maltese, e>mtremely tame, pushie-like adorable-ness. Sadly, due to family disagreement, he was forced to desperate measures. I'm sure owner like you & me wouldn want anything bad to befall on these innocent dogs. and i know how hard it would be if it happens to anyone of u.


Just Kindly help to publicise to any of ur friends who might be interested to keep them- for short or long term, preferably long term. no harm helping out and if u might be interest, contact is listed below.










Featuring Minnie above, mickey below. Jaded pair.

NAME : Mickey & Minnie

Breed: Maltese

Age: 12 Years Old

Condition: Healthy.

Attitude: Very shy and timid for minnie. Will stand behing mickey or hide away from strangers. Mickey takes on defensive post for minnie. He has a outward personality and loves to explore strangers as new met friend.

History:Both dogs switch in between two homes quite frequent. Therefore, they do not have problem adapt to differetn environment. However, potty problem might exist .

Do take note that they are twelve years old. Average life span is 15. Though my friend desperately needed someone to take care, for short or long term, i hope it goes out to those who are well informed abt their conditions.

Special Needs:Minnie is on soft diet, love biscuit soak in just a little bit of water. Mushy.. yummy. Mickey have no problem with food.Just regular vaccinations and monthly heartworm tablet.


Contact Person : Png Wei Siong cutehandsome88@hotmail.com>

FYI, i'm assisting a friend who owns them. So do help me to publicise to anyone who might be interested too, Thanks!

To anyone who is willing to help these dogs to get to a good home.

Regards,
Siong!

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-Dun be susprise.-

something hits me today and i felt pretty emotional on one guy whom i've kept pretty silent abt it for a few years. three years and still counting. He's sealed in my heart, well knowing that i still have feelings for him. yes, he is doing exceptionally, awesomely good in his army now. i;m talking abt my first bf when i'm in my poly days, if u still remember him.

still vividly remembered the day we met till the last day when we parted. All the- snuggling in bed, sitting on his sofa beside him watching cartoons while he chews on his biscuits, having a nice dinner with his family, sat by his side while he plays dota with his friends, watching him doing revision in mac, his fav x-men movie,and etc. It's all of these mini stuff we do that makes us a really happy innocent purely in love. but why i quit that... its definately not that i dun love him anymore, nor was it anyone that got into our way, i know its me and maybe him. maybe i'm not ready for anything, and he might have felt uncomfortable with me physically ard him, tat sometimes, we have nothng much to chat abt, i felt obligated to be ard him, and to be at ease, i sensed it somehow that i finally ask for it. tats the boldest and stupidest thing i did.

not being a hypocrite now. i'm just thinking back, and i do regret wat i did till this very day, for letting him go. if i could do this again, i'll make things right. its too late to even say anything. evetually it fall onto deaf ears. i might be gay and i'm proud of it, but i'm never happy, especially our chat in recent conversation.

to think again, maybe i did something good too. he's a much happier person now from all the pictures i saw in his facebook. His church mates, army mates, great friends and maybe soon, a gf. besides, it seems like we're getting distanted too. but i know i can never forget him. cos i loved him.

It really hard to describe how it feel like when we're tgt three years ago, but the love is genuine. i can never stop emphasising on it.i guess we never meant to be. If i could change one thing, i just wish that i have never made the decision i did, but i did. so i deserve that treatment from him. (=

-People change overtime. Maybe its just a good thing not to look at the times we had in the past and cherish ever moment now.-

no qualms that he's still here in me.i accept ur critic. i'll still be here with u in silence cos i've decided to go under this stuidity love spell since the day i gave myself away.


Siong Siong bear Love Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friends, his family on 8 November o9!

RaNdoMs RaNtiNg.



Helloz peeps.
Been abit of time since my last post.
The reason i decided to post for today was due to my Director of FnB whom i'm working with , in my current job.
i was alarmed cos HE READ MY BLOG.

and wheres my other blog readers? i dun need anoynomous reader, i need taggers!


Lucky me that i didn write bad things abt my hotel, not that i have alot of bad things to say abt it. It just my personal opionion/ rants. i hope ppl like u guys dun get too offended and affected. Cos life short. Live and complain like there's no tomorrow!



Work is alright. We love my managers alot. and thats the reason i work hard. but i really dislike the overtime hours, its not that we do not wan to commit, its un-commitable. i'm just a human, getting paid 500 for attachemnt, to work for 9.5hrs, 5 days a week. we are not obligated to work over our limits even we're paid for (5.50 or 6 dollars, unless convert OT hours to OIL). I dun wanna to fear that i carn end work on time everyday that we need to extend. I dun wanna to fear of managers calling on our off to work. i have other commitments... (but the way i deliever this message will just be received as an excuse). so why explain ?


Holiday Inn is experiencing Major Changes for the past one and half years and Finally, official RE-LAUNCH is HERE!. For those who are interested, keeping u guys in suspense till 4Th NOV 09. Read the news. proud and excited.



HUAT LEE


maybe this is the first time i'm writing a post abt him. I miss him, yes, i do. he just went in for NS. Expecting it, but just feel sad when he left. What worse was, i didn send him in, or throw him a small farewell celebration, or even text him the morning he left. guilty as charged.

i wish him all the best. called his mum today, said he will be out next coming friday. better plan out something for him.

Mr Sim

Frankly, i dunno wats next. but i'm looking forward to all the great times we going to have in the future. From two different background, come together. I dun know hows that possible when at times, i dun feel the connection between us- at all. We chat almost everyday, yet at times, i just dun feel his existence when we chat. feelings suck, but he's still there. it hard but i've to accept it, cos he's reallllllllll Cuuuttttteeeee... He just one guy who is affectin me so much recently la.

Joe.T
I dun know why i think of Joe recently. It must be that silly message from a person who called himself joel and that he chat with me 2 days back wanting to know me more. But who's that Joe...

maybe i'm just terrrified that he is fading away from my memory... of course i do miss him, i still desire him the way i do every now and then. He no longer online, or maybe i;m so tied down that i'm online when he's not. I carn feel his presence anymore.


Kexin
I have been chatting with Xin abt sim and i appreciate the time she spent just to listen. Actually, other than encouragement, i depended alot on her advice. Tend i also look things in a wider picture. To understand and to act on wat i understood was hard but i did it.

On her side, she got alot more emotional problems to settle. I'm sure she'll pull through overtime.

Nicholas
babe Nic has a GF! and she a very nice girl. Wats more- When i first saw her, the familarity.. i know for sure, we met each other before. a great start to know her.
He is enjoying his life now, i guess, and that makes me happy. it would be good if one day we could hang out tgt for a meal or so and be open abt myself to her. good luck, my babe!!

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Recent Event

It was mooncake festival, we had a fabulous time (except the moment i fell asleep). Sparklers, mooncake, lightsticks, companionship, mini game, and heartfelt speech by Jasmine and June Chia. so touched yet cheesy..i almost got goosebumps.

Glaze upon the moon, i think i saw Chang-Er. rubb rubb my eyes and look again. it just a fly flying near my vision. Im real tired by the time we're there, having to work for 16 hours, i'm totally exhausted. squeezing out every bit of energy from me. i feel soul-less, dead zombie. '

SiongSiongBear Loves Joe.T, Joel and Jovien, his friends, his family, and his life on 20 OCt 09!