Stressed Out

Last fri was the concert rehearsal. It was ok till after dinner. Tried to run through the whole comcert plan. Screwed up most of the pieces (or rather i didn't even play the parts which i missed). Mr Wan flared up cos of the j1s, which was reasonable, but bad for us seniors cos it was the DREADED ASTURIAS piece straight after their piece. Before that i think i pissed someone off, but she had a reason to be pissed off. I have no idea wat overcame me these few days, feeling realy uptight about stuff. Think i'm just giving myself too much stress, again this goes back to prove the point that i can't handle stress too well. Breaking down almost everyday since last wed...haix..even trying to do chem skill A w/o referring to notes, i could only do till step 2, end of story. Started stoning all the way, till mr chong and yiqi decided to free me of my stoning moments. After the whole thing, someone decided to continue blabbering out all the chem stuff (like what to add, observations made), i almost couldn't take it anymore. But the strong facade continue to stay on and i was glad for that.

Looking at this coming two weeks, concert rehearsals and tests almost every singleday, think i might just shut myself out of this world if without the company of my friends.

Guess i just have to learn to deal with this stupid part of me (now, exactly how many times have i mentioned it before?)
gonna concentrate on concert stuff first; studies will come later (gonna flunk or perhaps scrape through all the upcoming tests and i dun think i'll give a damn about it)

hey 17, special thanx for being there on fri :)
To all who brought me throught this stressed up period of mine:
thanx for enduring all my mood swings. i might fall even harder without you guys being there :)

Saturday surprises

Went to watch the juniors' competition yesterday. Overall was quite ok lah, except for the dance..Hope they get into the finals :) Zhutou's driving skills is scary lah!5 ppl squeezed into the back of her car n poor leanna..she was squeezed rite against the door..the sight was simply hilarious. Then after hwee got down of the car, sharon decided to do some tricks n she swerved left and right and left again, making everyone in the car scream her name lah n the sad thing is that it wasn't the only time we screamed..but the trip was funny,hohoho! Have decided to learn how to drive a manual car after i'm 18! Went town and rotted at cine before walking to paragon starbucks..Seriously rotted there for like abt 3hrs..sianx lah..found out some really shocking stuff from my juinors while we were there lah..like how one of them who (used to) like me [i think she still likes me now, but oh well]has the exact same watch as me.n some other stuff in which is so shocking that i won't wan to post it here..
CCA politics really tear down a cca.Looking at my juniors, how they dislike one another and saying that this person got her position cos she sucks up to the seniors. It like...(shakes head)Is like wat the heck, their mentality now is:It isn't about how all u can lead, it's about yr ability to suck up to both the seniors and the juniors and yr peers, which gives u your ex-co position.Seriously have nothing to say lah.
Looking at my junior, i realised how impt it is to have and to find one's own identity, especially when u are thinking of going into a relationship.I mean for those who are in between the curved and the straight sides.What the pt of going into a relationship juz for the sake of it, especially if u aren't matured enough in yr thinking..really...The generations are going down lah..too much being said..

GUITAR CAMP IS NEXT WEEK!!!!looking forward to it, especially the part where we get to zheng them!!!hahahaha!time to learn up all the j1s names and bond tgt with them!

JIAYOU PEOPLE!ESPECIALLY THOSE WHO ARE IN JCs, LETS BUCK UP TGT AND FACE THE DREADED A's TGT :D

To conquer fear is the beginning of wisdom - Bertrand Russell