Lifestory of a troubled girl

She was pissed and almost broke down.She decided she shan't cry and started penning her thoughts down.Choosing friends first seems rite and it came natural to her.Afterall, she knew them better than she knew him, as it seems.She decided that she shall apologise as she felt that it was partially her fault.But she knew that they really had to talk it out.But talking only doesn't help.She, being the self-proclaimed independent gal, hates to have ppl to decide the things she feels she should be the one deciding.She couldn't set her priorities right, said some.But having so little time, she didn't have much of a choice.And someone's attitude didn't help either.IT had always been an issue, but they couldn't do much about it cos their thoughts and views on it was different.Just like playing pacman, one had the objective of passing through all the stages n ignores about the highscore; another had the highscore in mind and didn't really care about how high the levels were.She values friendship more than anything else on earth(except for her mum), at least that's wat she thinks and some would agree.Her frienz taught her things that made up who she is now.Stuff that cannot be learnt anywhere else: treating friends with the whole sincere heart and going all out just for them, even if it means going against her mum.That is how close they are.But after sec sch, not being able to see each other even once a wk made her miss those days sooo much.These are the people who taught her wat life is about and how true friendships work.She didn't even mind if her friends only go to her when they had problems, she just put them before herself.
Helping him to gain that sense of security and have that faith in him isn't easy and obviously she hasn't succeeded.She didn't really notice it before but after they became more than friends, she wanted to help him badly.But she just didn't know how to deal with it, even one of her frienz who seem to have low self esteem had more confidence in herself than him.He knows his problems.But he refuses to do something about it cos he thinks that he can't do anything about it.He seemed so different from the optimistic her.Trying to change him is an arduous task.But she feels that only he can change his own mentality, no one else can, cos the brain and the heart belongs to him, not anyone else.
She realised that her mood is easily swayed by those around her,especially him.And she also realised that she seems to be more unhappy these days, being more easily irritated by ppl around her.It sucks.It doesn't feel like her, she wants to change this character soo badly.Smiling and laughing is a much nicer job that frowning and being pissed.Really.
Someone once said to her,"Life would be so much less complicated and easier if we all think simply"How true is that?Just focusing on the problem that they face right now seems to be a much easier and feasible thing to do then to think abt the future which may not happen.

What would you do if you were this girl here?

Catching up wif OLD FRIENDS!!!

Firstly, HAPPY BELATED BDAY SINGAPORE!!

Back to wat happened on wed. Went to sch for national day celebration.Kinda missed the parade and the contingents marching by.Still rmb, back in pl the most looked forward to was the band's performance..oh well that was in the past :( Then had guitar and then went to meet up wif two of my dear frienz, zhu and gerdine.....it was damn funny and we spent a loooong time at the food court of tampines mall talking abt each other's lifestories. zhu was (and is and will still be) soooo cute that she even drew up a timeline to illustrate her exciting life...lols..finally, we went to take neo prints, still rmb that zhu was pestering to take neo prints wif the whole bunch from dunno when and alas, the mission was completed yesterday..but i had pimple outbreak...ARGHHHH..but nvm, the pictures were still quite acceptable :P Reached home at like 8plus and my mum was already in bed, cos poor thing, she got a fever...n is stll having a fever plus a very bad sore throat....



Then on thurs, i didn't expect that i'll be going till on wed michelle decided to date me out that day.haiyo, sooo last minute but nvm, like more than half a year nvr see her already lor...n again, we went to eat macs. (again meant that i ate macs on wed n i ate the same set on thurs)lols...n i wasn't intending to go town but my dear friend was there, soo i decided to tag along and omg, u guys really spent a loooong time shopping at metro!!!!someone decided to come down n fetch me , so zhu n chelle were damn happy n excited..lols..hahax..then we rushed all the way back home and lucky someone didn't get scolded if not i'll be damn guilty...



Realised how much i missed my pl friends and how long we haven't met each other only after i met up wif them...missed the times we had in pl and yeah chelle, the big difference of being in a girls' sch and in a mixed sch is that you can't shout some words across the classroom cos nmow that's an addition of guys...haiyo....lols..

Take care peeps n hope to meet up wif u guys soon!jia you for yr exams that's coming up in 2wks time. BEing the smart ppl , u all should be able to get full marks, unlike me who can only dream abt getting full marks. :)

thanx for running there and thanx for the reminder..i tend to be forgetful sometimes and these constant reminders help me alot.Dun feel upset or that u r a loser, cos u'll always be the winner in my heart.. rmb that alrite?

MONDAY BLUES

hmm apparantly yesterday i broke my record of sleeping at 1am in the morning cos of the damn written report and the comp hung on me...haiz...was damn cranky this morning n here's an official document of apology:

I am sorry to those whom i've been cranky with today - mainly mum and defeng.I'll be happier tmr as i'm going to sleep soon!

YEAHHHHH!!!lets tok abt wat happened this past wk.hmmm...had my h1 last fri and it was ok considering it a miracle that i could get at least a C for it..CINDY!!!We 'll all own promos together!!Yeah!
Went back to pl with zhutou and then had dinner..tok quite a lot and thanks for the insightful talk we had :P

time to sleep..byebye and jiayou ppl!!!! :P

I've succumb to the zzz monster....zzzzzzzzz

sorry for disappointing you. Feeling quite bad about it but take it as a chance to know me better through them yeah?Jia you and dun sleep too late arh :)

WTF!!!!

Today was actually supposed to be quite a gd with plans to go cindy's house to do our written report and someone had to spoil it for me!apparantly my mum decided that she wanted to noe how to get into my hotmail and asked for my pw..duh i had to give it to her but i was quite irritated liaoz cos i wanted to do my gp research...i asked her in a not-so-friendly tone wat she needed it for then she got damn pissed...took ou tht ehuge umbrella and WHACKED my keyboard!!!Seriously like WTF..The impact of one hit was soo bad that almost all the keyboard 'keys' fell out and i had to spend like another 10mins to figure where the keys should be....Wat's wrong wif her man!ARGHHHHHHHHH!!!IDOITIC.....i'm pissed!!!!