Boyfriends vs. Male Friends

This is a tough situation. So you're dating this guy that you are really into. You like him, but that doesn't not change your life and how it was BEFORE you met this individual or before the level of interest changed if he was in your life already. Of course any man in their right mind KNOWS this, but they still get to tripping when it comes to your friends. I think the big Picture is TRUST.

A coo dude doesn't mind the female friends and you hanging out with them, clubs here and there bc he trusts and knows you're coming home to him, but why do they get the trippin when you have a male friend? Is there somewhere in the "guy rule book" LoL that says his girl can't have male friends (unless they're gay!!) I mean!!! I have a plenty of male friends some I am more coo with than others, so how do you deal with this. Of course who I'm dating becomes more important than my guy friends, but n e way you look at it they are still my friends.

I try to be sensitive as to how HE would feel, and no matter how I put, they seem to think that a male and female cannot just be friends regardless if he trusts you or not. How do you tell you boyfriend you wanna hang out with your guy friend (who's not gay LoL)? I don't wanna hang tough all the time with my guy friends bc i have HIM for that, but when an opportunity presents itself, how do you deal? I know how I would FEEL if the shoe was on the other foot, but I would also trust HIM in that situation. And it would put me at ease if met her, saw what kind of girl she was, and how she interacted with him. If I see no harm I don't feel threatened. This is a tough one for me... I don't believe in cutting ppl off unless the situation was serious enough to suggest that. I believe ppl are placed in your life for a reason and if it is just to be great friend (male or female) than I accept that. But how do you get your significant other to accept that? UGGHHH!! Can't we all just get along?! LoL! I need help! How should I handle this situation correctly. I need real answers from real ppl! LoL!!

♫ ♪ MUsiC 2 My EaRs ♪ ♫

Your lyrics to me, sooth me

Like sweet soliloquies

For I have never heard a sound so sweet

Melodies that resonate my ear drum

At which time my heart beats to the same beat

A Rhythmic vibration
To which my heart sings melodious harmonization

The overtones your voice speaks

Strike chords that make me knees weak

Overwhelmed with emotion that fill my eyes

Just the right tone to make them cry

Not sadly, but gladly,

Glad to be in the radius of such intoxicating euphony

Simple in its complexity, and nth in its degree

So sincere, what I hear is..

Music to my ears...

Poem by Careen Crossley

You...

You…

You…undeniably beautiful in every way
I mean, if I read the whole Webster’s dictionary, there would still be one word missing that portrays
Every aspect of your being, which is why I have a hard time believing
That you, are the embodiment of heaven, paradise on Earth
I’m so blessed to have found someone who knows my women’s worth

You…the reason I smile
Despite the number of miles
Our connection transcends the distance
Between us there’s no resistance
I’m free, free to just be me, Careen
Even though my eyes have never seen
Your physical, three dimensional
Representation of…
What has been sent from above
(Sigh) That’s my breath from me you take
That’s the impression on me you make
I close my eyes and see your face
Someone I want never to be replaced

You…everything you were, are, and will ever be
I believe you are the other half of me
I could go on and on in expression of the extra heart beat I feel for you
A miracle, a dream, and a fairytale that you have made come true
My night and shining armor, my prince
I’ve had a reason to smile since,
You blessed my live with your grandeur
You..my love, my happiness, and future







Poem Written by



Careen Crossley

ONly In AmeRicA...

Only in America do drugstores make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store to get their prescriptions while healthy people can buy cigarettes at the front.

Only in America do banks leave both doors open and then chain the pens to the counters.

Only in America do we leave cars worth thousands of dollars in the driveway and put our useless junk in the garage.

Only in America do we buy hot dogs in packages of ten and buns in packages of eight.

Only in America do we use the word 'politics' to describe the process so well: 'Poli' in Latin meaning 'many' and 'tics' meaning 'bloodsucking creatures'.

Only in America do they have drive-up ATM machines with Braille lettering.

Time...

Today I typed the word "time" on an online dictionary source and it returned 65+ definitions and instances that pertain to the word! I thought, WOW!!! I mean I know that time is really the way the world operates, but never imagined there were so many different ways to interpret time. Imagine how chaotic the world would be without the concept of time? But yet and still I serve a God who has no perception of time AT ALL!!!

It just crazy to think that everything you can possibly think of has a connection to time no matter how you look at it. Ever think about who invented time? It is said "Time was not "invented" as it does not really exist. It is a purely human mechanism for managing our lives. Outside the human framework all other organisms live "now" there is no yesterday or tomorrow in their consciousness." So now that that question is answered, the only thing to wonder is who came up with the method to measure time? AND WHY!! LMAO!!! =p How awesome it would be to live in the "now" with no "yesterday" or "tomorrow". You wouldn't have to stress "today" over a phone bill that was due "yesterday" and rent that is due "tomorrow", it would just be due when you want it to be due, you would just say "I want my phone bill to be due "now". LoL!

Think about it the world without any perception of time! I wouldn't be 23 years old, there would be no way to determine if I was old or young, because there would be no way to determine what year I was born in, and when I turned one year old from the day I was born...everything would just be! CRAZY HUH!!! time is everything in the world we live in, but there are many people who take it for granted, or waste it! those ppl are are just soaking up air, breathing, but not "living"; dead to the world and its perception of time. A quote I've used before "Time wasted is existing, used is life".

Its inevitable you can't avoid time...I watched a program on TV a couple years back on a family who decided that time to them was not important, and therefor in their minds did not exist. They realized the ultimate truth in "time" being an organization method that man has created and decided the weren't going live by something man created. That's a great Epiphany, don't get me wrong, but not when you are the 1% of the entire human race that lives this way! Whether you agree with it or not, the world as we know it will still continue to exist in its perception of time with or without you. Their live their lives mentally stress free, but reality their lives were completely chaotic!! Bills not paid on time, fired from their jobs because they were never on time, pulled their children out of school because they were against the "time" concept of being on time, house was in array, filthy! I just could not believe what I was seeing!!! The journalist's patience was running thin because these people refused to see what kind of lives they were living!!! CRAZY I KNOW!!!!! LOL!!! It almost as if when "time" was taken out of the equation out goes Priorities as well! This is a very complex topic almost hard to fathom!!!

I could not do it!!! Time is Important to me, and I hate wasting it, on anyone and anything. I know I have spent a good amount of time composing the blog, but hopefully when you take the time to read this you will see just what I mean, and take the time to think about this blog LoL!!! N e way...I think that I have spent enough time. What time is it? Lunch time!!! !!!!

"Quote for the Topic": "Time was not "invented" as it does not really exist. It is a purely human mechanism for managing our lives. Outside the human framework all other organisms live "now" there is no yesterday or tomorrow in their consciousness."

RAINY DAZE...

SOOO....its Raining here in Atlanta Georgia...been raining for the last three days.. :-( Monday was our only sunny day this week. Come to think of it, it was the same thing last week! LoL! I am not a fan of rainy days....I'm from California and I love my sunshine! Gotta have it!!! It stormed so bad last night I thought Jesus had came back!!! LOL!!! :-P It sounded like the sky was splitting open. I mean it woke me up outta my sleep!! I have a window seat at work and I've been sitting here for the past 6 1/2 hours looking out the window in a "rainy daze" on this rainy day LoL.....

The rain really makes you not want to do anything but freakin sleep. Yes I confess...I have fell asleep a few times today LoL!!! When there's rain, it seems that all nature goes into hiding and there is nothing outside to entertain you when you're at a boring job like mine LoL. Yesterday was an exception! I was so sleepy yesterday because I was up until 4 in the morning putting a dresser together I bought from Ikea, and between my nods at work I happen to look out the window and see this baby squirrel sitting on a branch. Only he was not moving! LoL! I looked more closer to see that this squirrel was dozing off to sleep like I was!!! NO JOKE!!! I promise you!!! It was so Hilarious!!! It was like watching a little kid fight sleep; they know they're tired but don't wanna go to sleep!!! so they fight the sand man to the death!!! LMAO!!! I was in tears from laughing so hard!!! But the best part came when the squirrel lost its balance from a good doze and had to catch itself from falling off the branch!!!! Priceless Humor!!!! I'm Not making this up either!!! That is something you don't see everyday! I WISH I had a video camera to catch that!!! Probably could have made some $$$$ if I had of sent it to America's Funniest Home Videos Lol!!

Yesterday was groggy but that squirrel made my day!!! LoL!!!! It made really appreciate the smalls thing in life! Rainy days suck but they really make you slow down and think about things you would not have been thinking about on a sunny day. So Rainy days aren't so bad SOMETIME....LoL!

Emotional Roller Coaster

I'm just tired.... The emotional roller coaster of dating has gotten me exhausted. Up and down, Up and Down, Up-side-down, Loopty-loop, backwards and forwards!! UUGGHHHH!!! I can't take it any more!!! I'm emotionally sick of it!! tired of wasting my time on rides that are not worth it.... its like when you pay money to go to a whack amusement park!!! You're upset afterwards because you know you could have spent that money somewhere else that was worth it!!! UGHHH!! well I'm tried of investing my time into situations that are pointless! I could have been investing that time somewhere else!!!!

I'm tired of the whole "lets see where this goes"!!! That to me as a cop out for not wanting to commit, but you wanna have your cake and eat it too. Don't pursue me ask for my number, and when we find we're compatible say "lets see where this goes"!!! UGGHHH if you scared then say that!!!! I can't stand cowards!!! I can respect you telling me your afraid more then you trying to just keep me around till YOU'RE ready! Not fair!!! There are two ppl involved here and my feelings are just as important as yours... So what do you do? Do you stay on the ride and hope that the end is better with some awesome loop and twist that will make it all worth the while, or do you get off before you are really disappointed at the end? And what if its a disappointment after? do you even want to get on the next one? what if the next time around is the same boring, unsatisfying ride that you wasted your money on yet again! how many chances do you take before you just throw in the towel and say forget it!

This is where I'm at.... A crossroad I guess. which way do I go now? Time is precious to me, and I can't afford to waste it. It kind of wears you down to think about all this at one time... You see everyone else around you getting return on there investments but what about you... These ppl are the same ppl who you have advised on how to get the best return, but yet and still you have none!!! I MEAN!!! I get sick of ppl asking me why are you single. There are some truths to saying "its by choice" but the truth is I really don't know. Is it because I have a certain standard that I want met, and I refuse to settle for less? Seems like when you are not "picky" you get "picked" over, and when you are "picky" you don't get picked! UGGHH!!! SO I'm stumped! I don't want to lower my standards, but going through the motions is killing me!! The more I think about how messed up this situation is the more angry I get! I don't want to become one of those ole bitter women that say "F*** men!!! they're all dogs" LoL!!!! I'm really trying to pull myself out of that mentality! I know I'm a great person and I deserve some one who appreciates that....but when I will get what I deserve I have no idea. Yeah, I'll admit I'm a little impatient...maybe that's because after so many unsuccessful encounters you're just ready for the real thing.

I am also an optimistic person as well, which works against me sometime. Yes I want to believe that THIS time it will be great, but when its not, its takes a piece of the optimism away with it. So you're even more of a sceptic, and even more careful the next time. This can be bad too! Because you really could have something good, but you're so busy looking for negatives to save your self from heartache, you miss out on all the positives and end up loosing out on something great. I'm not one to MAKE a guy work extra hard to get through to me, but he definitely has to prove by his actions that he's not there for alternative motives or just personal gain. Is it too much to want a guy that's wants me for me? Why does dating have to be metaphorically compared to a roller coaster? You have the most excitement when you are approaching the pinnacle of excitement and when that has came and gone so has the excitement. WHY does that have to happen? why does novelty have to wear off? WHY is it downhill after uphill? I don't know but these motions are killing me and this is where I get off till the a ride comes a long that is worth taking...I just need a break. I'm just really praying that God pull me through this one.. its weighing heavy on me and I need it to be lifted.

"Quotes for the Topic": "Time wasted is existence, used is Life", "Painful as it may be, a significant emotional event may be the catalyst for choosing a direction that serves us more effectively. Look for the learning" -Louisa May Alcott-