Two days of gorging myself silly with yummy food and chocolates. God, managed to stop all that munching after last night's dinner at my aunt's. Had problems getting to sleep last night thanks to my greed, but now I think I'm alright.

Christmas was a quiet affair again in the Tjan household in the estate of Sunrise Villa. Other than watching Love Actually (where they cut out many scenes), I initiated the gift exchange at the stroke of midnight! Though not plentiful, I got really nice gifts! Will take pictures of them if possible and post them here soon! =) Not only that, I think I have officially bust the sms account after so many months by sending out xmas wishes to almost everyone on my phone list (unless I have recently met up with you). Also spent the cool nigh reading books from Sunny. Now that I am done with them, I have nothing left to read. Damn.

It seems that this is the season to get drenched. The rain doesn't seem to stop. I hope it stops soon, don't want flash floods happening too frequently in Singapore and there is also JB with Jasmine and Xiu. Why do I picture eating chicken and going crazy shopping over there? *grin*

But enough of that for now, meeting Poyew soon. Have not seen him in so long, for at least a year I think! What does one wear out on a wet and cold day like today? -ponders-

A hurried post before dinner with the family.

Spent the last week going out with various people, Steph, htm peeps, the JI gang and Kerf. Spent a considerable amount of time at City Link and the three major malls connected (6 days straight!), VivoCity, IMM, and just came back after a scrum through the mass of people at Orchard Road.

Had lots of great conversations, good food and most importantly, we got all our shopping done!

Had dinner at Shin Kushiya @ Vivo last night, will blog about it soon. In fact, I feel the urge to blog but there is suddenly too much to blog, without knowing where to start. Oh well, will backtrack soon.

Caught The Holiday again last night, this time due to some recent events in my life, I felt that I could relate to Iris (Kate Winslet) even more. Again, I choose the British lad (Graham) over the witty American (Miles). I guess I really do have a thing for the Brits. Hmmm.

Anyway dinner and Love Actually awaits, BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

I stood all alone, admist the lush greenery that surrounds the place I call home.

As the strong gusts of wind are felt between my fingers, I hear it calling to me through the rustle of the leaves. A voice that soothes me, calms me, as it seems to take all my worries away.

Overwhelmed by that voice, I was almost certain that I was about to surrender to its strength. But then, dark clouds suddenly appear, and the rain seeps through my skin, and then my clothes, making the burden on my shoulders a little more heavier to bear.

I like to think that I am able to share my thoughts and woes with you.

But then again, I wonder if you will let me.

Why is it that when I feel like I can't breathe in such a big room?

The last few days, it seems that my thoughts and songs have only brought about nothing but tears and rain.

It was a week of meeting up with people from good ol' TP. Especially HTM friends.

Met up with Nel, Leigh and Jasmine on Monday for tea at Foster's. It felt like a luxury to be able to hang out and chill together since what we usually do is hold meetings and do events! After a leisure walk and hunt for nice flowers at Holland Village, Leigh whisked off to get ready for the Bali paradise while the rest headed to Clarke Quay. Met Sha for dinner and headed home after coffee at TCC.

Tuesday was a day spent with Ryna in search for deco and what nots for the boo-day partee! It was great meeting up and catching up on so so much! Sorry I had to cancel on today babe. Meet up again really soon!

Wednseday was spent with Joyce, Jason and Stew. Dinner at Aerin's was pretty good but boy did I miss the company (fine, some of the lame jokes too). Kerbaz brought about more laughter when we headed to Bakerzin afterwards. And thanks Joyce for the very sweet gift! Love it to bits! Thank you!

Thursday was when Jasmine and I took Hanabi by storm! Imagine, two girls eating non stop at a buffet from start to end! We ate so much that... we still ate some more while watching The Holiday!
The movie's great, and I guess what makes many prefer it to Love Actually, well I think it's because one can relate to more scenes in The Holiday, and it may not seem as far fetched as the former. But I think I still prefer Love Actually, for I find the concept fantastic (read a book with a plot very similar to that of The Holiday), and it's great work done to see how all the stories are brought together. =)
Did some shopping at Mango as well. We charged through the store trying to get pass women with huge stacks of clothes to try and what not. While I got a top and wallet that went in with the purpose of looking for, I really cannot imagine going into there to shop leisurely! How does one spend time going thru the racks and stacks of clothes, and then queue up for eternity to try on stuff? Tsk tsk.

Other than that, I took today to get some stuff settled and my head to rest. A little more tempermental of late. Wonder if it's because I have things in my mind to worry about..

There's something about weddings isn't it? The gorgeous bride walking down the aisle, the exchange of vows, the look both bride and groom have on their faces, two people about to share their lives together - it's easy to bring to tears to one's eyes.

It wasn't any different at my neghbour's wedding. Watching her walk down the aisle with her daddy, to the tune of The Gift by jim Brickman, the cute and personal montage the bride and groom prepared for their guests, I couldn't control myself. Never teared at a wedding before, never knew I would get so emotional!

After the church service and luncheon, it was then back home to get changed for a very very early christmas party/gathering! Rushed to get ice cream from venezia and of cos a box of yummy looking chocolates for the gift exchange, and rushed over to Shu's.

While not many turned up, it was still great to see them after a few months. Despite the small crowd, it was a good chatty group where we shifted from one topic to another, and many bouts of laughter followed without that much alcohol.

With yummy food and drinks provided by all, it was nice to chill together and then exchange gifts! And yes, a shot of the group...



Some may know I still am not yet feeling all so festive this year. A big surprise since I usually countdown to christmas months before. But this little party made me feel festive. Maybe it was the pretty christmas tree, or having good food in the cool breeze with the fantastic company. I miss them terribly already!

Meeting up with htm people the next two days or so. Can't wait to catch up or chill out with you!

Three days of shopping in a row! Impressed? Heh. but I am pretty tired now since I have not been my usual busy self.

Day one was with Char Shao Bao, where we roamed the malls of town in search of the perfect christmas gifts for her family! Met her after I ran some errands very early in town. While we didn't get anything on the day itself, we managed to get some pretty nifty ideas which I sincerely hope won't burn a mama-big hole in her pocket! Treated ourselves to some gorgeous dark chocolate blackout cake at Projectshop Cafe for tea (yum) and dinner at Cedele (very yum), where I bumped into Shu.

Day two? Went to vivo with the sisters, who practically went into almost every shop/boutique/place selling thing in the mall. And we made not one, but lmost two and a hlaf trips round the whole place! Talk about a workout! (phew!) While lunch was a simple affair at Carl's Jr., we decided to try Corduroy Cafe (mostly because I saw the really pretty cupcakes in the display and the place looked so nice). So this was some of the nosh we had...

A very rich and creamy Tiramisu shared by all and I had to try the chocolate chip cupcake. The Tiramisu was very good. While it didn't contain the usual sponge fingers one often had, it had some nice crunchy bits with a thin layer of chocolate cake I think.

The cupcake looked really pretty (with other flavours like orange and something else I can't recall), but I was a tad bit disappointed since it wasn't moist. What helped was the really rich buttery taste of the cream on top. But personally felt it could have been so so much better.


While Janice had a slice of very delicious Quiche Lorraine, Elaine and I shared a platter of sauteed mushrooms, german potato salad, smoked salmon and sun dried tomatoes with a serving of greens. The food was delectable!

The interior of the place is fabulous and the cushy seats make it a perfect place for girls to go sit, chat and nibble while people watching. With a nice view of Sentosa, I guess it may be one of my favourite places to go read a book and watch the world go by.

Day three was with Candice. Had lunch at Central at taka, followed by a day of music, books and film! Caught Happy Feet (finally!) and like it very much! Bumped into Jasmine and Nelson within the span of less than 2 minutes and stopped on the street to chat for a while.

Oh, Starbucks was having their open house where people could get free drinks for a certain time. Purpose? To encourage people to donate (hopefully the cost of the beverage) to Salavtion Army. The queues were crazy! While tempted to get myself, the queues were really a turn off! Oh well, coffee another time then.

Dinner was at Ichiban Boshi, where I satisfied my craving for jap food. It feels strange, to have seen Candice for what seemed like everyday for at least 2 years while schooling, and now, we meet like once every 6 months?!?! Glad to see that she is still the same, studying hard. Meet up more often ok babe? *hugs*

Am suppose to head down to zouk later. But most of the superbanders have decided to back out last minute. So tonight, it will be me, the telly, and my book. Can't wait.

Life is good when you have friends like these...

Aaron, who is always mr. optimistic (when it comes to my matters and problems)! Has things (quirky or not) to say about everything, and heck, he shares the same birthdate as me! So how can he not be a great friend!

ps: doubt i will ever be a SQ girl. it will take 2 of their normal kebayas to do one for me@

Jazzy baby, for being so so sweet and loving and absolutely caring! Thanks love!

Snuffy, for despite his ever so busy schedule (think of my old busy self, now at least 1.5 times that!), he replies to my emails, andmakes me smile whenever we chat. *hugs*

Char shao bao, who always has a listening ear! But woman, you seem to have MIA-ed for a while! did you get my sms? Sms me!

Caught the opening ceremony of the Doha games last night. One of the best I have seen so far, with all the intricate costumes and settings. And I think the music piece(s) done by Dick Lee and Iskandar Ismail were great! Noticed that both Koreas were marching in together as one contingent and man, I must say that the sports facilities and the stadium looks spectacular!

Daily happenings wise, got a new televison and washing machine coming by our place this Monday! Yay! Three cheers to audiohouse! *clap clap*

Had two pints of beer @ Brewerkz, where I bumped into.. Vishal, Gaurav, Jon and another debate guy (can't recall his name). Surprised that Gaurav remembers me.. and my my, Vishal has got a new look (ok new to me) that I think suits him pretty well.

Dinner at Banoo, where the service staff are observant and friendly an the boss was really nice and generous! She made the effort to approach tables to ask if we needed help with the menus and even offered us a serving of dessert on the house *gasp*! Thought that was really nice of her, allowing us to try something new!

Better days are ahead of me I hope. While there are times I really wished I had the opportunity to go ahead and pursue my interests in dance, singing and languages, but obstacles prevent me from doing so. Life wise, while most things seem to be at a standstill or on a decline, I may complain and wish things weren't like this. But there are things and lessons to be learnt from everything and everytime I feel like nothing is going right or am envious of what everyone around me has got, I just say a silent prayer, and know that I am right to say this - don't worry about it all, for He has a plan for me.

Typhoon Durian? How are such names derived? *ponders*

Dinner was good. Dined at Lawry's cos my brother had a discount voucher. Had the yummy tasty prime rib with the famous spinning bowl salad, and had the scrumptous yorkshire pudding, with the rich creamed spinach and mashed potatoes. The whipped hosreradish cream went well with the meat, and Lawry's very own seasoned pepper was superb with the salad!

Ended dinner with their english trifle. Not fantastic but satisfying! All in all, a great way to celebrate daddy's birthday!

Missed Triumph In The Skies. Oh well, there is 8 days to go catch up on. Heh.

Chatting with Joyce right now. Just realised its been approximately a year and a half since we last met?!?!?! Absolutely crazy! That cannot do!

And oh, any girls out there lookin for pretty earrings? Do check out Candyshop (go see my links! yes go go!)! Nice stuff at very affordable prices!

Next week I seem pretty packed with outings. That is good, mummy and brother says. Hopefully getting out of the house everyday will get me back to my chirpy self!

Watching Survivor now. Damn, Cook Island looks so much a tempting paradise to go to!

Talking about television shows, I have been very much hooked on Criminal Minds and So You Think You Can Dance. The latter speaks for itself, talent and entertainment makes a good combo! Some of the guys are very charismatic too, like Dmitry. God, the way he moves on stage when he does a latin number. *swoon* And then there is Benji. fantastic personality, both on stage and in the studios. I got my money on the two f them. Pretty sure either one will go home with the title.

Criminal Minds. I wonder how many of my friends watch it. I think its an amazing show. Ok, so I do like Prison Break, CSI and Without A Trace. But somehow Criminal Minds seems to be a combination of the last two mentioned, and I have been hooked on it since the very first episode. This week's episode was great, delivering the show with a twist and the ending a huge suspense. Can't wait to watch it next week!

Suddenly I wished that Criminal Minds was on eveyday. And that Grey's Anatomy was back on too. Oh man, I'm too much of a telly junkie! *grumbles*

God, I miss poyew so much...

Daddy's birthday today! Bought a gorgeous chocolate fudge cake from Jane's Cake Station. Very good! Light, no cream, just light sponge cake with not-so-sweet fudge. Easy on the tastebuds! Birthday dinner tomorrow. Can't wait to go out and have a good family dinner, it sure has been a while sice we did so!

The weather has been better, with the sun shining its beautiful rays down more. While I love cool breezy weather, the sun is good, cos I would like to get a tan really soon. =)

Know this Hong Kong serial on telly now, Triumph In The Skies? Well, I'm pretty much hooked to it. Very fascinated with the scenes on the training (and ok, the scenes from different countries). I was ooh-ing and aah-ing away for a few episodes and my brother goes - "why don't you become a pilot? since you are interested and have perfect vision."

Heh true, I am interested in flying. Wanted to join NCC air back in secondary school but the group dissolved as the ONLY member felt it was too far to travel to paya lebar airbase. Hmph. But I doubt I will be a commercial pilot. Maybe when I am really free with loads of time and money to spend, I will go learn how to fly. Ok, that and my many other things on the to-do-list.

Weekend's coming, think the SMU students will be finishing their papers soon. So I guess it's only left with NUS? All the best to those left mugging for papers!

Well, it's time for sleep soon. Ok, some telly before that. Need to let the cake digest a little before I sleep.

Oh, have you ever wondered, what ever happened to all those pet food commercials on the telly?

Finally changed my blogskin. Something nice, and easy on the eyes. Pretty pretty? =)

Dinner awaits. Good home cooked food, and Dunkin' Donuts to finish the meal. Yum.

Lucky Aaron got to go to Las Vegas, and then to Japan next month! You better pack me into your luggage the next time round ok?

Mybe I will post more later. Let's see if my brain can function anymore later!

Just got up aft 9 hours of sleep. Trying to compensate for the lack of sleep the night before.

The trip to Kukup was pretty ok. The bus ride was not that since there was not much of a jam at the Second Link and so travelling time was quite a breeze. The visit to the floating fish farm was ok, but a tad bit short. The guide seemed to prefer having us at the shopping mall to "contribute to her country's economy" (she said that the moment we got on the bus! she really did!). Shopping at JB was ok, for once I came back fro mMalaysia without buying a single thing (other than Dunkin' Donuts of course.)!

The highlight for me would most probably be the fact that I finally got to meet my mummy's colleague's son! Being the same age, I have always heard about him from both our mums, and it seemed that we both went to the same tuition centre in the past as well. To finally meet him was nice, since it did help to put a face to the name and facts I have heard. Nice chap, hope he will do fine in Dentistry! =)

Woke up to messages from Char Shao Bao (thanks babe, so sweet of you!) and the farmer. Biggest surprise came from the farmer! Think I shall go down and visit him really soon.

Was chatting with Kerf last night. Glad he is feeling better. With a job and everything lined up for him this holidays, he seems busy busy busy!

And Suresh!!! Am I suppose to meet you later today? I still don't have the number to contact you so I'm still not sure what's going on? You goon! I bet you forgot to sms me your number despite me telling you to do so! Sms me ok?

Got back earlier from the 2 parties, had loads of fun meeting up and catching up with people from poly! =) The guys are all trim and with a tone of golden brown on their skins. The girls chatty and giggly from work or school. I miss the life I once lead.

Strange that I mentioned about watching performances in my earlier post and Leigh asked if I was going to watch Christmas with Corrinne May. When I told her why I never got down to getting the tickets (no one to go with), her response was - "You should have told us."

At that point of time I did not want to ask her who was 'us' since I more or less could figure out who she meant. But what she said kind of triggered something in me, something that I have been trying so hard not to think about for the longest time. (Leigh, the following is not directed to you in any way ok? =D )

It is not that first time people have said such things to me. Funny is it not, when they say that, thinking that you are somehow psychic to know hat they are meeting up for dinners and what not. Mostly I don't feel that I am a friend people think of or are reminded of, unless, there is a need to - when they need help with stuff such as finding PSI readings to getting directions and discounts and what nots.

If you are somehow also in constant contact with me and you ask these from me, I think it is perfectly fine. But strangely, it comes from people that I hear from every once a year (preparing for their birthdays), or people who have questioned my character before, and the list goes on.

I am getting sick and tired of it all. I really am. I guess that's why I am staying to myself a little more nowadays. If you are the kind that somehow always seem to only wait for me to contact you or only want favours out of me, I can do without you. If you know me well enough, you would know I do not desert friends but I really have had enough. Being taken forgranted for one too many times is more than I can take any more. Really. Sometimes I wonder how you, my friend see me in your eyes.

I need to sleep soon. Have to be up in like 3 hours. Can't sleep because I am bothered so much by this I just need to let it out.

Sometimes I wonder since things have become as such, will it really make a difference if I one day disappeared? Doubt anyone will notice.

Had yummy dinner at Botak Jones (AMK) last night. Despite the hour's wait, the food's pretty good and worth the money! Fish & Chips, Ribeye Steak and Cajun Chicken! Oh, not to forget the delicious coleslaw and fries!

Hmmm, so I missed Rockapella and I doubt that I will be going for Swingle Singers. Such a pity. And I still can't find people to go watch Corrinne May with. Doubt there are any tickets left. Oh well, and to think I was looking forward to finally have the chance to watch her perform. Sigh.

Ok, now off to 2 birthday celebrations. In fact I'm running late! Hopefully the birthday guy and girl will like their gifts!

Anything do leave me a sms ya? I won't be online till Monday!!!

The sun did not shine.
It was too wet to play.
So we sat in the house
All that cold, cold, wet day,

- The Cat In The Hat by Dr. Seuss

It has been like this the past few days. With the sudden downpours, I have been very reluctant to go out. So I am extremely sluggish at the moment. But there are nights when the rain brings about a gorgeous breeze into the house, and with it, a hint of sweet smelling fragrance of what I can only think of as flowers.

Been on an ice cream binge. Can't help it, there is ice cream in the freezer. When there is ice cream....you must eat it! =)

So most of everyone schooling down under are back. Oh yes, my brother is back from his trip as well. Good to have the whole family back again. Though there is a want to go on a holiday, I doubt I will do so. Monetary funds are drying up, and that is a little worrying.

Been doing a little bit of thinking, now that I feel fully rested (and that comes strange to me), I can't go about doing the stuff I want. Why? Money. But please don't ask me to work, I don't want to head into that dreaded society yet (half kidding). I just don't think I am ready to dive into the work environment for now.

Project Superstar has started and there is this one contestant that looks vaguely familiar - Mag. She reminds me of a primary schoolmate. what struck me were her eyes and her voice. I wonder if it's her. If she is, she sure has become more feminine. The guys seems to be doing good this year, but it may be too early to say. After all, it is the first week only.

Will be busy the next few days. Birthdays, a day trip to Kukup and shopping for stuff, that will take up the whole of the next 3 days. So to the babies that just got back, till next week ok? =)

I came online with something to write about. I really did. But strangely, it slipped my mind. Oh well.

And oh, if you do listen to the radio academy commercial on the radio, yes that is me. And no, I am not a DJ with any radio station. =)

Hmmm, not posting for a while, I tend to have problem remembering what I had done. Well, met up with Yi Xiu, and went to Vivo City. oh yes, that was when I realised that Christmas is starting a wee bit too early in the malls! But I love Christmas, so ain't complaining! (Ok, other than the horrible covers of carols they keep blasting)

Oh, then it was off to Tong Shui at Zion in the weekend to meet Amanda and the rest of the MLB peeps to discuss the next gathering. Not too sure whether or not I will be there. But when help is needed, I shall render my service whenever possible! =) After the meeting, joined Amanda to meet Sunshine and his sister for some quick dinner/supper at NYDC before they caught a movie.

Dropped by the Fort for some quick chat with friends and then whisked off to Marriot for high tea with my sisters on Monday. Janice's birthday (Happy birthday sweetheart!) Food was pretty good, especially the prawn mee! Too bad did not have space for the gorgeous looking bread and butter pudding and scones! Plans for a JI gathering in dec is in the pipeline.. need to get it done asap!

Met up with Berry last night, had dinner with her at Seah Im and then we went on board the Doulos! while I did not buy christianity books, I got myself two Dr. Seuss books - Green Eggs & Ham, Cat In A Hat! Childhood memories are made of these precious gems I tell you! Bumped into old AC friends on deck as well. Had coffee afterwards at Gloria Jeans and saw more friends from sec school! =)

Sent my brother off for an official work trip on Tuesday. It sure feels empty without him in the house. Not to mention thegrowing pile of letters addressed to him. Can't wait for him to be back on Sunday, can't wait!

Had dinner at Suntec last night, and finally gave Michelle her birthday gift!

Headed down to PLaza Sing to catch a movie. Step Up is pretty good, except for a portion of the show where the pace seems to slow down a tad bit (where more drama enfolds), making the film a little bit draggy. Other than that, it feels like a combination of erm, Save The Last Dance and Take The Lead together. The show had its fair share of laughter andeverything else; love, drama, friendship, family, betrayal... etc. But I won't say that the dances left me wanting more, You Got Served and Take The Lead had better dance moves for me.

Oh Aaron, I do know more than one Aaron! But you are the only one overseas! Hee. Back in June? Goodness than you better email me and what not ok? When are you heading over to visit Ning Sung? Send my regards to her ya?

Heading to the KDF Charity Concert later, it feels like lazy Saturday today. So tempted to go back to bed (yes I am that lazy). But nothing beats supporting friends I guess! =)

I'm bored of the playlist on my itunes. I need more music!!! Anyone willing to send me songs? Any genre, chinese, english...all fine with me!

Met up with Amanda today, after what seemed like ages! Had dinner at Plaza Singapura, had Carl's Jr. and boy were we stuffed!

Headed down to Vivo City after that, and we walked the entire mall with the babe scouring for something pretty to buy! She managed to grab a steal at this fashion city place, a pair of black pants for what, ten bucks I think.

Meeting my cousin tomorrow, simply cannot wait!

In the meantime, i'm just wishing and hoping...and keeping my fingers crossed.

I'm feeling hungry...

Feeling a little better, thanks for the love and care from some of you out there! *BIG hugs*

Just had dinner at Aunite Kim's, a korean restaurant located in Thomson. Pretty nice food, totally stuffed. Had the chicken ginseng soup, fried rice cake, beef and erm.. oh this yummy seafood pancake! Must head back to try the bbq meat though, it looked pretty good! *drools*

In the last few weeks, I had the chace to visit the bazaar at Geylang Serai for Hari Raya. Went with Eugene and Cel, and I got pretty henna done on both my hands! What to do? Just a big sucker for henna! =D

Had lunch with Brian as well at Hog's Breath Cafe at CHIJMES. Yummy food and it was great to see him after what seems like a year!

Attended Michelle's 21st birthday dinner at One Fullerton, nice food, nice company! Headed to Marina Square later for a movie, and watched Sinking of Japan since it was the only film that allowed us a choice of more than the first row. The storyline, well think a smaller scale of The Day After Tomorrow (since it focuses only on Japan), and a tiny scale love story forced into the storyline as well. The graphics were not great but well, still pretty ok. Many more movies to watch!!!!

Been on a binge of late. Eating nonstop. Hee. Did I mention my sudden everyday craving for ice cream now? =p

Kerfern's coming back on 16th, Suresh about a week later? Steph and Aaron, when are you coming back? Can't wait for all of you to return!

At times like this I realise how little friends I can turn to. Without the habit of turning to them, at times like this I feel really alone and lost. Isn't that funny? Especially since there are people who think that I have so many friends and that I only contact them for the benefit of my other friends. Big joke. With friends like this who needs people to bad mouth you?

Want to know why I think I will be good in the service industry or doing public relations in the frontline? Amidst the stormy night, I can still smile and make everything look all right. Perfect candidate no?

I have screamed till my throat feels raw, my eyes feel like they're bulging out, and my head hurts.

Shall stay in my shell for the time being, with my trusty friend, absolut, to numb my senses.

Night world.

Want to know how emo Karin can get? she can start tearing while watching a silly show like 'Say I Do' on Channel U. Tsk tsk..

Apart from that, been to Vivocity already. And what can I say? The place is a MADHOUSE!!! Many many people, not so many shops to walk (I mean, it's mainly nothing but boutiques!) Good thing about the place? Nice view of Sentosa (wait till the haze goes away), and they got stores like Gap and erm... ya, other nice stuff. What sets it apart from the rest of the shopping malls is the large area it takes up; spacious, large unit areas, away from crowded Orchard - delivering an experience different from the malls in Orchard.

Caught two movies as well, Little Miss Sunshine and American Dreamz. The latter was pretty disappointing, weak storyline despite some good casting. Little Miss Sunshine was brilliant, and I loved it!

Munching on custard creams from Marks & Spencer now, yummy yum! Been on a pomelo binge for a while. =) Thanks Cel for the photos and Steph, when will you be back? Nov? Let me know!

Have been sleeping later and later the last few nights, as late as 6am in the morning! Hopefully I will be able to sleep better and earlier tonight. Now back to the delicious yummy custard creams! *munch munch*

It's been a month! How time flies.

For me, it has not really felt like a month. More than that actually. Perhaps this is what it's like when one's life seems to be put on hold.

With not much of a proper agende or goal, life can seem a little more meaningless, and time seems to drag by.

Met up with Celena recently, the babe's going to Japan again year end. How lucky is that? Pack me along with you darling!!! Met up with Eugene too, and the three of us ventured in the middle of the night, walking from Bugis all the way to Geylang, to treat ourselves to some yummy dough fritters and beancurd jelly at Yong He. Pictures Cel!!! I want my pictures!!! And when are we meeting again? =)Oh Met up with Dylan later on in the week for a while. The guy's busy busy busy! Seems that we have somehow traded lives to a certain extent. Heh. Need to meet up with the JI gang more often!

Caught a few movies of late. Watched Scoop, Imagine You And Me, and oh yes, John Tucker Must Die. Scoop was pretty funny, and once again, I was drooling at Hugh Jackman. Gorgeous man he is. *swoon*

Imagine You And Me, a british film that starred Piper Perabo from Coyote Ugly, was brilliant. Loved how it was not over the top and the cast did a really good job of seeing the characters through tht eentire film. I felt alot for the film. The show's a mixture of humour and timeless romance, with you thinking that maybe falling in love with your best friend and spending the rest of your life with him is possible, or is it? My heart ached when I heard a line that goes something like this; "It's not about you leaving me, it's about you loving someone else more." Sigh. After falling in love with Love Actually and now Imagine You And Me, I think I maybe a sucker for british films that touch on the theme of romantic love.

Met up with a bunch of darlings over dinner at the NUSS Guild House (courtesy of Leonard), and then K Box. Again, I sat there not singing into the mic. Something I can't really do. Don't ask me why. *shrugs*

Oh, went for the FIR meet and greet session at Junction 8 as well. Bumped into my poly seniors there, and was really glad to see MiLuBing perform! Though it wasn't that good due to sound (again), I'm pretty sure the fans were estatic to see th guys perform on stage again. FIR themselves were FABULOUS! Managed to grab a poster for my senior who is so so crazy over faye! =p Had a birthday celebration for Nic, Sam and Ariana as well. Good to see all these friendly faces again.

Heading out in a bit, Overdrive at Esplanade! Woohoo! Can't wait to see Amin work that thing on the stage and see Wade Robson! Too bad Toby and gang didn't get into the finals. Oh so close were the results at the semis! But at least there is Fantastic Four to look forward to later. *clap clap*

It feels like a few things are left overdue. My visit back to the island, finding time to sit by the veach and watch the world go by. Go back to dance classes which I cannot do now due to the lack of monetary funds, heh. Get that tan (bt need to get rid of eczema) I have been wanting for ages. The list is endless I reckon, oh well.

Shall go get ready for later! Hmm, wonder if I will be able to spot Shu in the crowd later! Tata!

Have not been spending much time at home of late. A record of staying out for supper with friends for seven nights in a row! Loads of fun!

Went for BeDazzled! upon Afwan's invitation. Nice to see the guys again, and it was good to see Angie and many other talented groups perform!

A day spent at the island with sopme gorgeous babes was fun!!! And oh, Toby and friends made it to semi finals for OverDrive! Yay! One more round to go and they will get to compete in the halls of Esplanade and be judged by Wade Robson himself!

Somehow I have lost my voice. REally funny especially since I did not over exert my voice. Trying my best not to speak much now and just praying I recover really soon.

A little tired, need to regroup my thoughts. Soon darlings!

Not entirely tired but now that I got something to do - night classes for this week, I find it a tad bit taxing. (Yes. you who is schooling or working - or doing both can kill me now.)

Class has been good, pretty nice people, but I somehow wish it could be a tad bit longer to give us more chances to learn more. Ok, fine. I don't it to end as it is something proper I am doing after so long. But all things good or bad, must come to an end. Class ends tonight. Oh well.

Maybe I should go back to salsa. And I need to finish up some stuff. So I better get down to all of that then.

Long time no blog!

Went out quite a bit and met up with family and friends!!!

Had high-tea, went to the President's Star Charity, and much much more! Watched movies like The Devil Wears Prada, Smell of Rain and Monster House. Good shows! Cannot wait to catch more movies in theatres! =)

Accompanied Amanda to the auditions today and decided to get a tag too just for the fun of it. Got a really really nice number that I really really liked - 1551 (yes everyone go buy 4D!), but Amanda liked it so decided to swop with her. Hope 1551 gets her far!!! And if it does, she has me to thank! *grins*

Good to see Juz B after so long. Nice bunch of guys.

Oh, went to Minds Cafe last night! Fun! I need more friends who will drag me out of the house man.

Anyway tomorrow to Esplanade to watch Mr Chiang dance! Hope his team gets through!!!

And yes, I have been very much addicted to Red Rock Deli chips. Love the chilli and sour cream ones. Yummy nosh!

Had a strange dream like two nights ago. Very vivid, very real. Which makes it all the more amusing for the people in the dream are real, but I do not know them. Details very real, but the possibility of it all being true is far-fetched.

Yet I hope it will come true?

Anyway went to the HDB hub for the Superstar thing today. NOT because I will be joining the competition but to see the guys perform. Once again, the sound system failed to deliver and this was by far one of the worse performances. But I guess many were just really happy to see the boys perform. Since it has been a while since many have seen them since the finals.

Got to make new friends today as well. Really nice bunch of people. Felt very comfortable with them. That is something I have not felt in a long long time.

Mr Chiang and friends got an audition tmr. Hope all goes well for them.

Been reading and have gone thru almost three books this week. Finishing the last one soon and back to Sunny I will go.

You don't miss the water till the well runs dry.

Ok ok, many people ask; "So Karin, what have you been up to?" Simple, I am a current poly grad who is unemployed and seeking job opportunities in the media/entertainment industry. Keen to pursue a degree in Comunications (Public Relations), I will most probably be applying for a place in universities Down Under.

Now with that done, I have had many gatherings of late. From the friends back in AISS, to my IG darlings in TP. Missed out on the AC debate gathering. The most recent gathering would have been yesterday, one which Mi Lu Bing organised for all friends and family.

I love gatherings, I find them really heartwarming. People getting together to continue the ties and relations that everyone had already established, and also an opportunity for all to catch up. Outings like this also help create more fun memories; from starting up a class blog, to having our IDs checked at Giraffe (a first for me in very long, I felt very tickled and amused by it), to seeing friends being sabo-ed by now-turned-superstar friends to perform.

Another week is about to start, and most of my friends who aren't already working would have more or less started their school terms in the universities. All the best in uni darlings! Don't forget all of us ok?

Meanwhile, I better start hitting the prospectus again, armed with my yummy dark chocolate Kit Kats and Reese's peanut butter cups! Delicious nosh!

Been going out lately, and while I would like to blog about the happenings in my life of late. I don't know how to. A mixture of happiness and sadness.

Very random, I came across this.. and I really liked it :

"When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space."
~ Pema Chodron

I recall putting quotes like this at the end of every blog entry I posted in my old blog. It kind of summed up how i felt. This time round, it was just how true I thought this to be.

Trying times of some of my loved ones around, and maybe me. Be strong everyone, we can all get through this, together ok?

I will try to look up into the sky more often, perhaps I will see that big bright star in the sky.

Just got back.

Still has not really sinked in, it almost feels like a dream...

OH MY GOSH! MI LU BING IS SUPERBAND!!!

*screams and runs round house*

It's almost too good to be true. *grins*

Have not updated in a while. Quite a bit of going out, gathering with my sec school mates, movies watched...

But the most important thing now...

SUPERBAND GRAND FINALS

today! 5th August 2006!

VOTE for MI LU BING

1900 112 3003

or sms B3 to 71199!!!

help them clinch the title!!!

*will update when i am back from expo (or the day after)

THANK YOU everyone for all the sweet, warm and loving birthday wishes! From China, Germany, Australia and of course, sunny Singapore! Thank you darling babies for all the wishes and more the last few days!

Have had way too much cake to eat (4 types in all!) and there is still cake in the fridge! Loved te gifts that I got, but most importantly, I love the family and friends I have!!!

DON'T YOU JUST LOVE BIRTHDAYS?!

I KNOW I DO! *grins*

The weekend has been fun! Went around town and J8 to catch th Superband finalists at their meet and greet sessions!

Went out with a few of the girls and went to get some shirts and material for ourselves! Heh. Feel like I am back in art and craft class!!!!

Went to the acapella competition on thursday, and saw Juz B perform! Bumped into Tony as well and later had a really fun time with some of the band people as we went outfor dinner and movie. Caught Pirates 2 and Amanda and I were having a pretty good time chattin through the movie away from the others! Haha! By the time everything ended, it was 0430hrs in the morning!!!!

BBQ with the JI peeps went pretty well. Loved the company that night, and darling Raymond was so sweet, got me a cake! Thanks to everyone especially Dylan (for letting me use his place) for the happy night!!! Got a gift, but must tahan, cannot open yet.

It sure has been a while since I last posted. Felt like there wasn't really anything much to blog about. But let's see...

Superband has beena blast so far. Going down to support Nic has given me the opportunity to support a friend doing what he loves, and has also given me the chance to make more friends. With just the grand finals coming up for the guys, I just hope that they sure know how to pace themselves and get sufficient rest as well.

Met up with my sisters last week, it was good since we have not met up for so long! Planning a bbq for the JI gang this friday. Kind of working alone on it since most of them are in school or working, so I hope things go smoothly...

Unable to meet up with the IG peeps though. A pity. Oh well. Another time perhaps.

Another pity, I 'wasted' money (quite a substansial amount) on a gift for a riend tha will never turn up. The parcel got lost on its way to Singapore, can't blame the seller, his track record is pretty good. But I doubt it is going to matter since the individual will not recall at all that I owe her a gift. Oh well, there goes the whole stash of Spongebob stuff... and my money.

It has been some time since school has ended. People are working, some are furthering their studies. While everyone is busy with their lives and meeting up with one another, I realised that maybe I didn't really belong. The last few days there have been incidences of people either choosing to ignore my existence or have plain forgotten me.

I don't mind such treatment, and I ain't posting this in hope for a change. I kind of like this, back to being just another face in the crowd. =)

More birthday gatherings to plan, so off I go!!! =)

To all who have called/sms in to vote for Milubing for this revival round...

THANK YOU!!!

Please continue to support them through the semifinals and hopefully grand finals as well!!!

Ok now i better go sleep. Meeting Steph in the morning to head down to IDP.... *yawn*

I am back!!! The trip to perth was nice and relaxing. Though not as long as I would have wished to spend there, it was good to meet up with people and was so grateful for aunt lan fan's hospitality!

Went to the vineyards and the chocolate factory. Visited Fremantle of course, but there is still quite a bit there that I would like to see. Walked round the city area and had a tiny tiny tour of UWA. Food there is yummy, lovely and how I love the lifestyle and people there! And of cos, I found out how great the visa mini could be as a conversation starter over there (the idea of a mini card is stil very very new to the folks there!).

Spent quite a bit on food and shopping, and managed to fulfil all the shopping requests I got!

Loved the place, may want to go there for a tour again (that is if i don't school there)!

Got a busy day ahead, picing up supplies then to work, then some last minute shopping and then to a gathering.

Bag is almost packed, need to get everything ready before heading over to Sooling's place. Can't wait to see the IG darlings, how I miss them!

After 9 long years, I finally am doing something not school or work related, and I hope that I will be back more refreshed and ready to give my best in whatever I aim to achieve.

Feel like cinderella, as I need to keep track of time later tonight, so that I won't miss my flight!

Since the recording, I have been on a high. High on what you ask? high on Mi Lu Bing!!! Not shy to declare that man! Wahahaha!

Thanks to all my friends who helped vote when I asked for help. THANK YOU!!! *hugs*

I almost could not bring myself to bring to watch the screen earlier. Thank goodness!!! Samuel had a close call as well! Phew.

Can't believe it, I blogged about Superband? Hahaha.. .

It has been a while since I last posted. Can't say that I have been really busy but didn't really feel like blogging.

Updates updates updates!!!

Mr Punggol is doing fine now.. happy that he discharged pretty fast! Glad to have also had the chance to talk to his parents and all...

Been working on the island for a while. Thank goodness I work with fun loving people who have extremely good welfare. =) Got to know the interns as well.. it has been fun so far!!!

Been to a few events as well.. Balloon Hat Festival.. where I got to finally see my knight Alvain. It has been a while since I last saw him. How I miss him..

I-Weekly birthday party! Had to go for this!!! Managed to win tickets for it and went with my colleagues. It was great seeing the performances.

And the latest.. I just got back from.. a Superband recording!!! A kind soul sms-ed to ask if I would like to join her as she had extra tickets, so of course I jumped on the chance to see my friends perform! It was nice to see it all live and all that, and it kinda reconfirmed my interest in media and all. Maybe I know more or less what it is that I really want to study...And oh oh oh, watch Superband telecast later today!!!! Some groups really worth watching!!!!! Of course, please support Mi Lu Bing guys!!!!!

Ok, some stuff to settle, and then to dreamland I will go. Work tomorrow!!!!!

What was suppose to be a good day today with shopping and meeting up with Xiu started out with a phonecall.

A friend dear to me is in hospital. Met with an accident in the wee hours of the morning. Seems he is now in ICU, I have yet to go down to see him. Another friend and I are thinking of letting him stablise before we go. But my friend sounded worried over the phone upon seeing him. He never sounds worried. It got me sick in the tummy.

I want to believe what I say, and what friends are trying to comfort me with, but I really can't believe that he is going to be really alright, till I see him with my own eyes.

Other than that, the day was fun, thanks Xiu for listening and being entertained by my latest gossip I had to update you with and for all the walking and eating!

Woke up really late today. Been spending the wee hours of the morning reading, and I think that ain't such a bad thing, no?

Time and time again I somehow manage to get myself feeling down, thinking about matters that most people would probably not think twice about. People whom you meet and have allowed them enter into your life, they are people whom you should always treasure and keep close to you, right?

Well, I admit that I am one who may not always be the bestest example of keeping in touch with everyone (right snuffy?), but I know that I at least try to. I have been blog-hopping and have read some blogs of friends where I read about outings/meetings with others I know and all that, but somehow I wonder; he/she always says we should go out, but why was I not asked to tag along? I know how this sounds, like the wholeworld revolves around me. that is one way to look at it I suppose, but to me, it is more about you guys having this constant contact that I do not know of, and so I do not know what is happening with you guys. Maybe what I think is true, maybe you guys have more in common.

If it has boiled down to this, then well, I don't really think I have anything else to say about this. I spoke to a friend about this whole situation a few weeks back, and well, the advice given was to just forget it and move on. Maybe that is how things should be?

I just don't like the way some people treat me, like I am just there when they need to complain or whine, or because no one else is available online or on the phone at that point of time. Other than that, they kind of just leave me on the sidelines till I am needed again. I do not mind being there for you friends, I really don't. But remember, there is so much only one can take. If your tolerance level for others and their problems they have with you is so low, please try and be in my shoes, when I have to constantly listen to many of you.

To be honest guys, I am getting a little sick and tired of this.

PS: This is the writer at the point of not knowing what to do with her silly self, thus ranting like an idiot. The writer suggests that one should forget what is written here.

In short:

Karen's hen party - fun fun fun!!! laugh till we teared! girly girl fun cos of SOMEONE's presence...

Karen's wedding - busy and fun! admist all the hiccups that came in the forms of humans and weather, I must say it went well and gosh, the couple are already on their honeymoon!!! =)

Spent the rest of the day after the wedding on island with the Beach Patrol darlings and attraction staff (old & new).

I am tired. May have a possibility for me to give a more detailed update. MAYBE. But till then, I seriously need sleep.

Went out today, to get more books to devour. Heh. I feel spoilt for choice as usual. Decided on Man And Boy, and Man And Wife by Tony Parsons. Been wanting to read them for the longest time (as they joined the lists of must read, must listen and must watch), but upon a friend telling me that he found the book good, I decided to take a chance on it. =)

Went to Kinokuniya and stumbled upon this book with this pretty quote. I read it and it made tons of sense to me, especially with the things that I tend to think back on nowadays...

"You will find as you look back upon your life that the moments when you have truly lived are the moments when you have done things in the spirit of love."
- Henry Drummond

In my old blog, there was a period of time where i posted quotes with every entry. Somehow there would have beena quote that suited my mood or happenings for the day. Perhaps it is time I go back to that style? Heh.

A stayover on the island tomorrow night. And oh, watched Superband and well, it seems like tonight was the night for quirks from almost all the bands, with many spotting red and/or white outfits. Such coincidence! But me is happy that Qi Nobe and Mi Lu Bing got in. *smilez*

Will Wednesday babies!

I'M BACK!!!

Well well, after two days of data entry (which was pure torture on the eyes), I headed to Aloha Changi for a family chalet. Spent the last few days eating and walking. lots of eating was done, and I think I really need to just not eat for the next few weeks! Heh. Like Changi Beach at night, reali cooling, quiet and pretty sights of planes taking off and touching down in our tiny but beautiful island!

Oh oh, I also did a first! I WENT FISHING!!! AND I CAUGHT FISH!!! Really tiny fish (the largest being the sixe of my palm), but I CAUGHT FISH! One sole fish and three tiny pretty cute fish. So yes, I had to touch and cut long eeky sea worms for bait!!! And yes, I screamed everytime I got a fish! Haha. But I FISHED! Haha. I feel like I might start to go fishing a little more often with my cousin and uncle now. *beams*

Today is Polling Day! Heh, after a HUGE lunch with my relatives at Jumbo, we headed to our polling station in the early evening. Heh. It all happened really fast, which is good I suppose. Thank goodness for the schools in Sengkang, if not I think it will be a really long queue for our GRC where we will ALL go to Bowen to vote. Will be staying up to watch the election results tonight! My only regret? Not attending any of the rallies that were held. A real pity really. Was very interested in going down and experiencin it all first hand!

Think the flu bug is around, funny how Snuffy, me and someone all came down with a flu around the same time. I hope everyone is feeling better, especially someone. Doubt he can afford to be sick right now.

This weekend is already half gone, the money in my account will soon also be gone! With a hen party this comeing week, and a few birthday gifts I need to get this month (with one that willbe taking a plane here!), I think I am going to be happy and broke! Hee.

Okie dokie darlings, I need to surf the net for more gift ideas and distract myself from my gastric pain and tummy growls! *smoochies for ALL*

Done with FHA! It was a good experience, learning something new, meeting new people and excountering new situations! All in all, a very fruitful week! And gosh, will not forget the dinner some of us had on the last day!

Being done with FHA also meant that my stay at Mich's place was over! *sniffles* Thanks for letting me bunk in for the week babe! And gosh, so fun so fun! Enjoy the ice creams and fruit juices! *evil laughter*

Met up with my IG darlings last night for dinner. Boy did we enjoy ourselves at V8 Cafe and then at Breko! I miss the laughter and what not really. I don't think that I really have such moments of laughter with friends since I left school. WE NEED TO MEET UP AGAIN SOON!!! REALLY SOON!!!

Packing my bag in a while. Will be gone for a chalet for a couple of days. And oh yes, Saturday is Election Day! Woohoo!!!! *pardon my morning crankiness*

So babies, anything sms or call me 'cos I will not be near any computer till erm... Saturday evening! Till then, I lupche you all! *BIG hugs*

PS: To some people who are down with flu and if you happen to read this, SLEEP EARLY & GET MORE REST!!!

In the comfort of Mich's home right now. After a nice warm shower and a yummy meal, I will soon need to get ready for work for tomorrow.

Work today was ok. The set-up was fun to a certain extent. It was great working with people I knew and all that, but at the same time the pace of work was not constant and there were many pockets of time in which I had to try and 'entertain' myself.

Hopefully the next few days will be better. A little more work means a little less time to be bored, which will then mean that I will not be feeling crazy and wonky! Heh.

Got Mich to get a pint of yummy B&J's ice cream when she went out for a while. Strawberry cheesecake. Yum. What a sinful indulgence.

Anyway back to telly and away from the computer!!! But first, to send out some emails of lurve! Hee.

Burn The Floor was great! I loved the dances, the music, the costumes, the set up, the concept, the energy was superb and goodness, how gracefully the dancers moved!

It was nice, though I felt that the seating arrangement could have been better. Saw Eddie and Luther there, but did not say hi. Considering the fact that they were there with TWO WHOLE ROWS of salsa/dance fanatics, I found that rather intimidating!

My one week of work starts tomorrow. Will be staying over at Mich's place as it is nearer ork and also there willbe someone to wake me up proper! (hey, at least i am admitting the truth!)

But it is sad that my stayover is due to work. Heh. I doubt that we will have much time or energy to boogie the night away (kidding)!

Well it is now time for me my pretty little darlings, to go find my stuff, pack up for the week, and try and read up on my materials for work~!

Had lunch with a friend today. A short but meaningful meeting, where I felt my heart at ease afterwhich.

But strangely, I did not want to say goodbye.

And thank you Snuffy, for calling. That made me laugh. Your'e the bestest ever! *hugs*

Was not feeling too happy yesterday, and so I decided to do something today. Me will go buy yummy goodies for a friend and send it to him!

I have not seen him in years (some may know who i am talking about), and I don't know when I will next see him, so I think this will be most apt! I mean guys will never give up snacks right?

So I headed down to Candy Empire and got a range of goodies:

- bag of chips
- bag of jellybeans
- family block of chocolate noir
- kit kat praline
- bag of preztels
- cereal bar
- tray of fruit gummies
- large bar of willy wonka chocolate
- box of kinder hippos
- willy wonka chocolate nerds
- flake noir

I think that was it. Put into a box with lots of pretty tiny green loose foam and got it sent to a corner in Singapore! Sure hope he likes it.

With that done, I feel happier. =)

Watched Superband and yes! Mi Lu Bing got in! Woohoo!!! Qi Nobe got in as well. That's good too. Like Juz B as well. And oh, Grey's Anatomy today was just sad. Really. Heart wrenching.

I found him!!!

Goodness, i miss him so much. But hearing his voice, a wave of calmness and excitement overwhelms me.

I found him, I am so relieved i have found him.

Dear Lord, thank you for bringing him back into my life. Please don't let him out of my life again. Please.

Back from the chalet, back from the short one day (ok half day) stint working with Michelle.

I am tired. The chalets were both fun. Really. Sleeping late, laughing our heads off when there was hardly any liqour involved. Heh.

Have you ever felt like this? I am sure there are numbers in your phone that you may not have contacted in very long, years maybe. But you keep the number there, as it kind of reminds you that your friend is indeed on the other end. Then one day, you decide to call and then you realise that it is your friend no more. With that as your only mean of contacting your friend, and no one else you know that can help. what does one do next?

Well, I kind of had this idea I saw a certain individual on the google box one fine day quite some times back. But I had no means of confirming if it was him. Every now and then, I have always drop him a text message once every few months, but never receiving a reply.

Anyway at the chalet I caught a glimspe of him on the google box again. And this time, I was very confident it was him. How did I feel? Mixed feelings I guess. Plenty of things came back to mind. But yet I was happy. For the last 3-4 years at least, I never heard from him anymore. So for once, instead of smsing, I decided to call... As I punched the numbers nervously, I realised I would not know what to say. The call got through, and I cut the line off the moment it started to ring. God knows why I did that. It was as if I knew he would not be on the other end of the phone call...

I thought so much about this, and him during the chalet. I knew I had to call one day. So right befpre reaching work today, I decided to do it. This felt as excruciating as going for an interview/ or taking an exam/ or going on stage. Then someone answered the call. A girl's voice came throught the receiver, and it took me a while to realise that I had the 'wrong number'.

In that moment, I realised I had 'lost' a friend, a special someone to me. I felt lost, wondering how he is doing after all these years. Perhaps it was my fault for not keeping in touch, but if he had changed his number, why did he not inform me?

I need to find him, no matter how long it takes. I just need to. Why? I do not know how to say this really. But if you know what I mean, I am sure you will understand.

The search continues, and no matter how long it takes, I just hope he will remember me. *fingers crossed*

Went to the island last night with a friend. Had yummy pasta at Trapizza followed by a nice walk down to Southern Most Point.

My friend asked me what it is that I love so much about the island, that I can never seem to get enough of it. Could not really put a finger to it actually. What really is it about the island that keeps me coming back for more?

Will be at a chalet from today all the way till wednesday. Think it will be fun running from one chalet to another, all within the same grounds.

Life seems a little empty now, funny since the pace of life is picking up a little now, with a little more to do. Why?

In life, we all need to make choices. And we must learn to live with the choices we make.

I certainly am not sure what the future holds for me, but my procrasinating and wishful thinking has more or less allowed me to waste a few more months (though I am still hoping for a miracle).

I just wish that I could be a better person.

My knight just called!!!

He managed to get me distracted from my craving or pancakes for a while, and up the smiley-dosage in my life a little bit more. =)

poor darling is busy with exam preparation but I know that he will do well. Cannot wait for his exams to be over so I can see him and go back to island with him!!! We will go crazy together I tell you!!! *grinz*

It never really seems to be a dull moment with him. And boy, I am still smiling from our conversation!

Thank you for making me smile knight, and yes, the promise when you are 35 and I am 31. Heh.

The last few days, I feel so loved, more than ever.

Thank you Lord, for bringing such warmth and love into my life.

Earlier in the afternoon I was chatting with Cranberry and I somehow started to surf the net for prety pictures of berries. (What else?)

Then I came across a picture of a gorgeous stack of pancakes with strawberries and cream, and used it as my display picture. That got us craving for pancakes.

Hours later, I am getting really hungry, with gastric setting in. I did eat my dinner as I have promised. But I am getting really hungry. I do not want anything in the household as I want something warm and soothing to the tummy.

Yes, I am still craving pancakes. Warm, fluffy pancakes, with chuunks of rich, creamy butter, and thickm golden, glistening maple syrup.

I NEED MY PANCAKES.. NOW!!!

It is incredible how we can talk as though we have been friends for like, forever, without the 8 years hiatus.

It feels very childlike with all the excitement and non-stop chattering, but yet comforting like a very well established relationship 2 long-time friends would have.

I like this friendship, it makes me happy. =)

And for this, I love friendster!

Lunch with mummy and godma was good. Though it was Crystal Jade, there was way too much food to be finished. I ended up leaving the establishment stuffed to the brim with food as the mummies had problems finishing food and did not want to waste.

Meeting godm was good, I need to meet up with her more often.

Now I need to find the opportunity to meet my god-nieces and nephews.

Last night, I got a message from a person fron Friendster. The person asked me if I was the Karin he knew, that was from AISS, and was a part of the choir.

I went to see his profile and found him familiar. And upon seeing the school he was from and his pictures, a name popped up in my head. But I had problems trying to send him a message back, and so I left it as such. I remembered this guy as one with fantastic neat handwriting, and if I am not mistaken, we were made fun of during SYF rehearsals. His school's choir was right behind mine, and we all were having a good time making friends.

Today I checked my account without thinking much, and this poor fellow sent me another message saying that he might have gotten the wrong person and he apologised. So after a few more messages set back and forth, I added him on MSN.

Is it not cute/interesting/amazing? That is this 8 years, he has been trying to find me? That every year he takes out the cards he had received before and reads through them, reading one that I wrote to him? And now, the two of us are talking again after 8 long years?

This feels so much like a movie, and I was so excited conversing with him via MSN.

KENNY NG CHEE RUI!!! We will meet up soon ok?

Had lunch with Mich today, and got some stuff from her that I will need to go through.

Went down to the island today, and it rained again. Went about Imbiah and met Eng Kee and Uncle Din (aka Uncle Baha). Waited for Cranberry at Cool Deck and chatted with Max in the midst of the rain.

Had a berrylicious dinner at Trapizza, where I devoured their good and yummy pizzas. Cranberry was filling me in on all the little juicy gossips and happenings at the D&D that took place last night. Goodness, how I wish that I could have been there!

We took the beach tram and went to 7-11 in front of Club Islander. We indulged in gorgeous B&J's cookie dough, and chatted the night away.

It was so much fun! I must go back to the island really soon and look up the rest of my dear friends!

Went to the island today. Took shelter in the blue line bus as I waited for the rain to subside.

It felt great to be back there. Meeting up with some of the many people that I know, and chatting with them was great.

Met cranberry and we were joined by many recruits from the Fort. Exciting little chaps they were, especially one.

Dinner at Macs was nice, we were joined by more people from IOS if I recall correctly. We then headed to Harry's where cranberry's Merlot was shared by many! Heh.

Joined Papa Bunny and Apo at KTM after that, and I finally passed apo his belated birthday gift.

It was great to see so many people. Now I got a mission on hand, to find girlfriends for the guys!~

Sentosa's D&D is tomorrow. I wonder how it wil be like..

I did it.

I chopped my hair off today.

Ok, so it isn't really that short. But it is the shortest it has been since 1997, when I was asked my Mdm. Frois to grow my hair long for The King & I.

It is something different, something new. I like it. Just hope i can maintain it. Think some of you will know how hopeless I am with stuff like this *chuckles*

My stylist is adorable. He tells me not to colour my hair though I was toying with the idea. His reasons?

1. He didn't want my friend to wait that long for me.
2. He think my haircut looks nice the way it is.
3. Save the obscene amount of money for things I really like.

Heh, I thought it was really cute! But sadly, for once, I realised that he looked troubled, and sad. While the assumption (or how chick lit always portray it to be) is the clients are the ones who turn to their stylists as their listening ear and so on. This time, it was a reversal of roles. I was trying to make him smile, laugh, and figure what was troubling him so much. He refused to budge. But I was glad to have made him smile widely when I told him how much I liked the hairstyle.

He suggested I learn driving and roller-blading this period of time. Perhaps I will.

I like this, I feel like a friend to my stylist. Heh.

*Cranberry! Brilliant! The big steak said "Mind F**k!" heh. all because I had this theory of 'what happens in island stays on island'. Haha!

Can't sleep.

Funny, how at one point I hardly blogged. And now, I am flooding the poor blog with entry after entry.

Amusing how within a few hours, I got similar response from 2 people online when they asked what have I been up to. I replied 'Rotting, nothing much.' (or something to that extent), and these are the replies:

dreams: karin up to nothing much? that's a first

animaniac: first time i hear you lazy. usually you're up and about

Have I been that busy people? Do drop me a note and let me know.

Was talking to cranberry online just now. After so many months I do miss her greatly. Was looking through her blog just now and well, there is this entry that I love....August 19, 2005

"Tonite was....how shall I say in my dear Strawberry...
It was an intensely crazy night.
Strawberry and Cranberry spent the evening down that the Mermaid Bar with a bunch of steaks.

These steaks came in various size and laughter.
Something happened on the territory and so the steaks were very interested to find out about it.
So they padded off the two berries into an electric basket and drove around to look for the interesting thing.

Imagine two berries and *countin* five steaks squeezed into the basket.
It was really funny.
There was a steak inbetween the two berries to make sure they weren't squashed.
It was funny."

It was not funny. It was hilarious. It was also on this little adventure where a conversation with one of the bigger steaks resulted in him saying that I was using 'intellectual turn on' (or something like that, cranberry, do you recall?).
I was stunned to say the least. Heh.

I miss cranberry. I miss farmer. I miss the supreme commander. I miss them all.

It is nice when I go back and they greet me with such warmth.

And oh cranberry, farmer once 'swept' me off my feet. Literally.

I did not sleep well last night. It was not due to the show I watched before bed (Hotel Rwanda, but I must admit that it was disturbing), but more of the fact that I would be meeting this almost decade long friend in less than 12 hours.

After confirming the time and venue for lunch, I made my way out of the house. On my way there, I could not help thinking how much he would have changed from 4 years back, where we met at a dinner with his family and then-girlfriend.

It is funny isn't it? That some things never change, like how you are able to recognise people in a crowd. It was not hard to spot one another from a distance, and there was no funny moments between us despite the years of absence in one another's lives.

During our lunch and then coffee, I noticed myself stuttering, trying very hard not to look at him in the face. Again, I don't know why. He looked almost like how he was 9 odd years ago, except much taller and bigger in built. That cheeky smile was still there, with that slightly boyish look still present.

We talked about the past, the present and the future. And we agreed that we still have no real clue as to what we would really be doing 10 years down the road. I found myself going on and on about topics.

As we sat for coffee, I looked across the walkway to what used to be a seating area, it was now blocked up for construction for perhaps a little shop or something. There I pictured a teenage couple, sitting there people watching. They see a bunch of young boy scouts walking past and the boy mentions how the sight of them irritated him (despite being a boy scout himself). It was also somewhere during this outing where the boy asks the girl why she puts the ring he gave her as a pendant on her necklace. The girl gave a silly answer, but little did he know that though the ring was way too big for her, she wanted to have something they both had, close to her, all the time.

When we parted ways after coffee, I realised that I came out of it knowing more about him, and alot more about myself.

He still makes my heart skip a beat.

With everything over and done with, what have I been doing? While I am sure many of my friends have been busy at work or something, going on holidays and meeting up with friends; I have become the biggest fan of EzyVideo and am currently on my 7th - 10th dvd I have rented.

Sure, I feel like working, but I do not feel like going for a job that requires me to be there for long hours behind a desk. But at the same time, for once I feel overwhelmed by the lack of obligations to anything or anyone (other than my family of course).

The only good things I have done so far are:

- contribute to the economy (with the dvd rental of course!)
- attending Jazz By the Beach @ Sentosa
- buying dinner for my colleagues

The next thing I did was to contact a friend whom I have not met in very long. Upon realising I had almost nothing to do now, he decided to meet up for coffee this wednesday. I got into a frenzy. Don't ask me why. My mouth become dry, I broke out in cold sweat. It felt like the moments right before an all important examination or interview, and there was nothing you could do to shake the nerves away.

So wednesday is just round the corner no? I really wonder how am I going to sleep proper tomorrow night.

It is incredible to know that 3 year have passed by so quickly and now, we are all graduates of TP.

Funny how I have always complained that I never had time to do many fun things during my holidays due to my commitments to my CCA (but i enjoyed doing my stuff), and planned a long list of things to do upon graduation. But now, I just rot at home, and wished that I had more things to do.

But cheers to all of us for getting through this phase in life.

Hey darlings! Keep in touch ok?

Goodness, has it been that long since i last updated?!?!

Well, last week marked the un-official end to my chapter spent in poly. Suddenly, thw many months spent in that beautiul campus so far from home seemes to have ended much faster that many would have hoped it would. While it is true that i do not have a fixed clique of friends that i turn to all the time, I have made many incredible friends, and my journey through these 6 semesters would be nothing without them.

And while I was looking forward to this break, I have come to realise a few days after my last paper, that I cannot have nothing to do. It is strange that I am not obligated to anything any more, that technically, I have nothing to do. Things that I have been eager to do, rest, meet up with friends, rest, go out, do movie marathons and all.. all seem to have lost their lustre. Guess the excitement really comes in the chase, and not getting what we wish for eh?

That said, I had so far done a few things pre and post exams. Went to Fun-O-rama, and saw many old friends. That was good. And then we A&E interns went back to hlp out at Sentosa Flowers. That was good too. Been spending time with my coursemates and juniors. Met up with a good friend who left for Aussie for good. And been to the Career Fair too. Woah, that suddenly seems like quite a bit.

Tomorrow will be a good day, am going to have a good time back on sunny Sentosa. Meeting up with some old colleagues for Jazz By The Beach, it will be like the old times, drinks, live music, many friendly faces, and of cos, the infamous trigger-happy Ceci. Goodness, I miss all of them darlings.

One concern in my mind for now - just wishing and hoping i pass my papers.

It is Wednesday already. Cousin will be fyling off to Australia for studies, and I have yet to finish all my applications and start on my revision.

Does it feel like back in the days of yore, where we churned out essays after essays as assignments? Most definitely.

8 more days to go. Gosh, this feels really strange.

dinner with the cousins was good. I guess it will be a while till the next gathering so well, cheers to the good times!

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The pictures are everywhere. And everytime I see them, I do not dread it, but rather I keep a lookout for them. Thay put a tiny smile on my face (ok, not so tiny),and make me think back on some of the things that happened.

I am then reminded of the silly things I do every year; when it is time to clear the house, I will always panic. Why? In fear that I lose a certain something special close to my heart. A simple but significant ring.

Ok, I always place it in the same place, somewhere within reach but out of sight. Trying to move on? I guess so. But then every year I will always fear losing it. And everytime I have to rummage through th pile of things that I had accumulated around it, I panic like crazy. Sometimes close to tears, all because I fear losing it.

For the past 9 years, this is what i go through every year.

Funny isn't it? How you still make me go weak in the knees?

I miss you like crazy, that I doubt you will ever know.

It is really him.

It is really funny how he puts a smile on my face. After such a long absence from one another, it all still sounds so normal on the phone.

My heart almost started to beat once again, but now I got to stop it all over again.

I still cannot believe that it is him.

Received a sms from chris his morning. It got my mind all fuzzy, many flashbacks...

Flipped the papers and then I was stunned for the next few minutes or so.

Could it really be him?

I kind of wished it was him.. but I don't know why...

e-business oral assessment

definitions my group thought more apt for the terminology:

cookie: something that we eat to fill our tummies (bonus marks: state the many flavours it comes in)

extranet: the surplus of nets that you possess

intranet: things that are found inside the net

chat group: a group of people chatting

permission marketing: "can i do marketing?"

firewall: a wall on fire

now before anyone freaks out, this all took place BEFORE the oral assessment. =)

Weeks have passed by and it does not really feel like a new year to me. It was great going back to work for NYE Siloso Splash, and seeing all the lovely people that I have dearly missed.

My modem at home is problematic, making it impossible for me to do anything for my projects and assignments.

I am not able to give anything I do now my all. I have really reached breaking point. I don't know who I can turn to. I have angered people in the midst of everything.

Misunderstood? Maybe.

Disappointed in myself? Surely.

I am broken.