All I hoped for in the long run? Some understanding and kindness to the predicament I'm in.

But I am now led to feel like the bad person when all I did was to do things my way, the best way I could think of to deal with the situation.

I was happy till now, but I begin to doubt my person and character as a whole. Thanks.

I loved the surprised look and that hint of happiness on your face upon seeing me at your door with coffee for you. It definitely made my day knowing I could brighten yours. *hugs*

Today was a really good day.  What was a planned meeting between two girls ended up as an impromptu chatting session amongst friends whose ties have stood the test of time. If it were not for the topics we were busy discussing about, it would have felt like time had came to a standstill, and we were all back in school, close knit as ever.

I know I have said this numerous times - in conversations and on this blog, but never fail to be thankful for the ones that have stood by my side throughout the years. For the loved ones who bother to reach out to me, instead of always waiting/ expecting me to do so.

I wished time would have gone by a tad bit slower today. The company was wonderful and I already miss the company of these friends.

This coming week seems promising with a few more meet ups which will definitely add more cheer to the festive season! I'm getting really excited, how about you?

I'm thankful for the people around me who love me and care for me.

I'm grateful for the people I can turn to for help at last minute's notice.

I love you guys. Thank YOU for making me feel so blessed. *BIG hugs*

Today feels special. Though there is nothing to really celebrate, I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off my shoulders and I can now breathe a little easier. It's out of my hands and I (we) can only wait and see how things turn out.

Been bumping into people whilst being out and about recently, and it's nice to catch up with friends since it has been a while. I'm planning a short trip back to Brisbane this July and I am looking forward to it. It has been more than eight months since I last saw the boy and I miss him terribly.

I feel like I'm getting my life together, bit by bit. I'm starting to go out a little more, willing to meet people. I'm learning to handle my issues without letting affect my own life.

More things to do but at the same time it feels like I'm running out of time. I wonder how things will turn out at the end of it all...?

Every so often I stop and wonder - how my life would be like with a change of scenery. It sounds appealing to be away from the bustling city, to live a life very much my own, with an opportunity to have a "clean slate".

Despite my unhappiness the recent years with regards to matters close to heart, I think it will take me a lot of courage to take this giant leap of faith. 

Since my return, I have come to realise how alot of things in my life are not I once viewed them to be. The people and relations I treasured seemed to be very easily broken, whereas people I hardly knew became the ones I turned to alot. Perhaps it's because I am not in the working force like everyone else, perhaps I cannot understand the changes in everyone, but some close to me have become hard to understand, let alone remain close to. 

I am saddened by the lost of some said friendships; people whom I have thought will walk this path of life with me in the decades to come. I guess change (and loss) at some point in life is inevitable, and it's always better to move on. 

People change as the years go by. Maybe it is harder to maintain close ties with loved ones when we don't constantly meet. So I thank the friends from all my various circles who still take the time to text me, meet me and understand me, especially during my difficult times. At the same time, I too thank these friends for thinking of me every so often to go out to have fun. Those moments of laughter are things I will treasure in the years to come. 

On another note, things are started to look a little better. I'm hoping to complete some of my goals by next week if possible. After that, it will be time to go through the clutter and spring clean! 

I must overcome whatever setbacks, no matter big or small. Even if it means a month's delay. 

Why can't things be more simple in black and white? >.<