and things ended. it wasnt a beautiful ending though. n yes that is when the hurt comes in. yes im sad. very sad at that. at the same time there is the regret. regret that things has to end this way. regret for believing in it. regret that i dont have a piece of memory with me. ohh yes. some says its my fault. yes it was my fault for not listening. it was my fault for getting involve. and it was my fault for falling..............goodbye people. this phase of my life stops here. all i can say is that it really hurts. i'll come back when i find a new beginning.
and to you. im sure you would be reading this. all i can say is that you could have end things better. and so much for all the things you said. thanks for making me believed in it. i just want you to know that its unfair for you to be doing this. i've not done anything to hurt you. you can now see the hurt that you've caused. laugh away. and if this was a plan from start. then i should tell you. you've succeeded.


time passed and i thought things would be settled tonight. but i was wrong. im off to sleep. please let me wake up to a beautiful ending. gdnite ppl.


and im not sure how i got myself into this. but my emotions are just being controlled by you.




ohhh crap. so much for a happy tonight. oh wells. you know what. i wont wait anymore. the day hasnt been great to start with. so it does not really matter if it doesnt end well. on a last note. fuck you an!


Resorts World Sentosa is an INTEGRATED RESORT. bodoh per ellyana. so much for all this integrated resort thingi going around and you cannot remember. aper sey ALL YEAR ROUND RESORT. tk make sense. errggghhhhh. yes. first paper. ResortsOpsMngt. screw up. seriously. its like fuck mann. stupidness and bodohness just took over me. eishhhh. lets just hope my coursework grade cn help me. bt its not an A or something. C+ cn help? please please please. i dont want to take supp. i know. been there. feeling not great eh. eishhh.


and its like when the sun sets. and the night falls. it starts all over again. back to the previous night. back to the waitings. you know. i dont need to hear those words. i dont need all those actions. what i just want is to know that youre there. just a simple call a day to know that we are still going strong. its just unfair for you to make me wait everynight and when it just goes into dissapointment. its unfair that you are leaving things hanging as it is. you claim to say this and that. but youve never showed it. its like i dunno what else to expect. as the nights past. my hopes are just slowly dissapearing. so sayang im putting this into his hands. and giving this another week. and lets just see what he has planned for us. and you know this but naevoli.


okay i know. im supposed to be studying. bt a short post wont hurt right. teehee. and so i went back to tp today after a frigging long time in sentosa. actually time spent in sentosa was rather short. haha. and so main motive was for culinary and ssm uniform. freak mann. it cost me a bomb. a friggin $250 for just uniform and knives. good thing mum is helping out a little. and so all plans today was cancelled. due to one having to meet the girlfriend. and the other going out with the mummy. okay i know. your mummy is more important. errrghh. freak. i shud have just gone out with my dear sis wawa just nw rather than rotting at home. and not mentioning the very bad dream i had due to sleeping during mahgrib.




fuck. like seriously. i am supposed to be doing my reflection paper right now. bt i seriously cant focus. its like that girl is filling up my mind and thoughts. like god seriously. she is pissing me off. i didnt think it could bother me this much. bt oh well it really is bothering me. like fuck. who does she thinks she is. and godd he is not helping. he could just have asked her to buzz off. it would get me less irritated at least. errrgghhh. that girl is driving me crazy. and thanks to her now i am becoming one ******* bitch. fuck.


it just struck me. on how people tend to be complacent at times. its like before you get that something. you'll just go and try everyway just to get it. but when you actually do obtain it. its like you dont seem to care about that thing as much as you used to. sad huh.

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