ok. sorie peeps. i didn't mean to pai tao or bubble you guyz. bt i wasn't allowed. tey said that i've been going out a lot recently and coming home late. so. aiya. i really wan to follow seh. watch fireworks. bt to think of it we've really been going out a lot and coming home late. so. i shall be good this time and stay at home. so 2008 is coming in an hour or so. i've though about my new year resolution.

1. to go out less often. and go back home early.

2. to spend less money on buying unneccessary things. and save more. (i doubt so)

3. to forget all about the unhappy past and start my life a new like a new born baby.

4. to not be a bitch and irritate lesser ppl.

5. to be a good daughter and listen to my parents.

6. to spend more time with my besties and meet every 28 like usual which we have not done for quite a few months. so shasha darling. still remember. 28th.

7. to keep in touch with my secondary school friends eventhough we are soon to be separated. sob. sob. why not we too choose a date where we will all meet every month so that we will still stay as close.

8. to study more and play less.

9. to start acting sixteen and stop being so childish.

10. and lastly to try remember everyone's birthday and try to get presents for them.

so to everyone. happy new year.


ok. everyone is changing their blog url. i feel like changing too. bt dunno to what. i shall crack my brain ltr. hmpph ok. second day of bbq ws fun. its was crazy. as crazy as yesterday. this time we made a fool of ourselves at 7'11 at about 1 am. and i think the lady ws kinda irritated. bt who cares. we had fun. darn fun larh. haha. we were talking about schools this time round. and we were like comparing whose school is the furthest as some of them are changing school too aftr the n levels results. n guess what. i won first place. haha. furthest school. crap man. i wonder if i can wake up. so second place goes to ian. he ws posted to bishan ite aftr n's. haha. far too. we cn like accompany each other to school for half of our journey. wouldn't that be cool. hehe. okok. school starting in like 2 days. arrgh. so fast. i havent had enuf fun. mummy can i nt go to school. i wish i can. bt half of me wanna go. half doesn't. so how. i am always fickle. as usual. bt i am excited. ok. so its the end of the year. one year passed in a blink of an eye. haha. so cliche. bt its true larhh. so fast. i can still remember the starting of 2007 when we were all still slacking and playing arnd without worrying for o's. haha. so nw. what will be my new years resolution. havent thought of it yet. haha. must think soon. anw who wants to go to countdown party with me 2moro. nt reallie countdown party we are underaged. just go to town and watch fireworks. anyone wanna join?? if yes, beep me ok. haha. ok. toodles.


ok. bbq today ws fun. darn darn fun. eventhough i ws reluctantly to go at first i rather stay in the room because i knew that the one who ruined my burthdae would be there. i still went. could't resist. haha. no regrets though as i had fun eating. playing. running. singing. screaming. camwhoring with my camera which had two falls today and suffered 4 cuts. making a fool of ourselves and lots lots more. haha. everyone went back already at about 6 just now. i was really tired back then and i though i would go to sleep straight after bathing. bt to think that aftr bathing i became so energise. haha. so i decided to upload pics. ok. so as usual every year we have a bbq cum family/friends gathering cum celebrating new year. bt this year we pushed forward the date as almost everyone is busy on new year eve. so here we are. bbq today. as it ws like kinda last minute. we onlie started to go to the supermarket at 7 plus to get the food. then went back hm at about 9 plus. we bought loads of food. wow. it adds up to about $300 plus. tsk tsk. like waste money. bt since its once a year. its ok. so we prepared things. i had fun preparing things and marinating them. me and my uncle were like adding new ingredients that we could find into the original recipe and it actually turns out nice. haha. den we onlie started bbq at about 11 plus when everyone arrived. luckily wan didn't come even though his foster dad did. phew. relieved. so we ate. scream shout. ran arnd. sing. played with the poppers. played with food. played with marshmellows. eating it in a very very weird way. bt is fun. we didn't care about those neighbours who were sleeping. luckily no one complained or the police would have come for making so much noise. and then. as any usual family gathering. the game is a must. its just like a family game. so we started playing. playing. and time really flies. it was already 6. haha. so everyone went home. continue-ing the bbq 2moro though as there is really a lot of food left. so everyone would be coming back 2moro afternoon. oh ya. to those who didn't come. wahh. you guys really missed out on a lot. wasted seh. shud have come larhh you guys. we bought loads of food somemore. so here i am now. its about 7.16 am. prnts asleep. sis asleep. bro and his fren in bros room. doing i dunno what bt cnfirn nt asleep. k larh. here are some random pics. enjoy.



ouh ok. it is like 4.57 am right now. and i still can't sleep. maybe i am half human. half owl. haha. oh my. i really have to start sleeping early b4 mi starts. coz i'll have to wake up damn early larhh. tsk. so bored right now. everyone is asleep. no one to disturb. boring. hmmph. lets see. what happened today. went out with mummy and sis to help mum go and prepare the stall b4 school reopens. thats all basically. nth interesting happened. ouh great i am nt sleeping nw when i am supposed to wake up early 2moro to go to the supermarket with uncle to buy stuffs for the bbq. wth. seriously no more mood to bbq larh. like boring ready. hmmph. i think i better get to sleep now. b4 my dad come to in 2 check on us b4 he goes to work and see that i am still awake. damn. i think i'll onlie get to sleep about an hour or so ltr. coz i'll definitely gonna be tossing and turning. tsk. i think eating sleeping pills would be a great solution for me.

p.s: to you know who you are. if you are reading this. i've been thinking about it. arjuna?? haha. funny larh you. bt never once was. and never will be i think. so you cn wait long long k. haha. and btw where in the world did you heard of that word b4. to think that i didn't even know what it meant that i had to get my bestie to help check it out for me in the kamus ok. i onlie know that there is a lgu by aliff about it. haha. and my malay was supposed to be better than urs. my malay is definitely deteriorating.


ok yan. i must admit that i am damn hungry now. bt i am not as rajin as you to reheat everything back up and then keeping it back. so i just drank a glass of milk bt i am still darn hungry. and being hungry i cant sleep. okok. bowling and pool today ws darn darn fun. except for the guy there that kept interupting us and kacau-ing us which is so darn irritating. if onlie we had more time and also more money. we could play somemore. woohoo. yan. i win you. ok. ok. you won the first two games. haha. bt me being kiasu and semangat. i counted and added up the three games and i won overall. woohoo. you 199. i 208. haha. i won. i won. ok. ok. stop it ellyana "ms. don't wan to lose" haha. ok. and right now i am so effing loving safiqa. safi i love you. hahar. thnks for the belated prezzie. eventhough its one mnth late. i lurve it loads. and i mean a truckload. nahh. many many truckloads. haha. ok. she got me aliff's album. oh my. i've been wanting that for a long long time. and a travel planner which i shall use for my next travel which i dunno when its gonna be. and the carm is effing sweeeettt. i am so loving safiqa. and nw with aliff's album out of my wishlist. i can now save up for sleeq's and taufik's album. woohoo. n ouh ya. he is effing darn cute. cuter than he ever was b4. omg. regrets. ok. my blog is too wordy especially with yest post. here are some pics. taken by diff ppl with my camera.





my prezzies from safi. hehe. omg. aliff is just so cute.

first game. with naz and nad. oh well yan won. me second. tsk.

second game. with safi this time. yan won agn. and i was third. tsk.

omg. i seriously do not know when naz took this. bt it looks kind of nice. hehe.

ok. this looks nice too. especially yan expression. i guess she was thinking really hard that tym. and i must be amazed with her way of thinking. nahh her expression. or was i trying to start a fight. haha. really candid.

omg. that was an extremely long post. you guys don't have to read it. i just need to write that down. i just can't bottle it up animore.


i was ironing clothes just now. n me being dumb as always. i actually ironed my had too. ok. my finger. ok larh. nt that painful. bt its really sadening. as my finger is scalded. i had to put toothpaste on it. putting toothpaste really sadden me. its brings memories. i suddenly miss my late nani loads. i remembered there was a time when there ws onlie me. my nani. and my atuk at home. my bibik wasn't arnd. someone came. so i helped her with the cooking. bt i actually scalded my finger with the hot oil. as the guest left. and she noticed my finger. she helped me put toothpaste on it. den i ws tired. so i went to sleep. i always do that last time. aftr school in the afternoon. lazing arnd at my nani hs together with her. as i ws sleeping. i ke pt rubbing my facee. and the toothpasye was all over my face. my late nani being scared that it wud enter my eyes. she constantly wiped the stains away frm my face. every time i rubbed my face. nw there isn't anione to do that anymore. i really miss her. she is the best nani ever. sigh. everyday aftr school wud nw be boring to me. if she was still arnd. i wud everyday go to her house and chit chat with her. we would watch teevee together. make all kinds of kueh together for tea time. sometimes fought with my atuk together. those were the happy moments. and when i'm down or sumtin she never fails to make my day. when i am sick she wud always be there to take care of me. she never fails to wait for me to get back home frm school and cook lunch for me. to think of it. i've never really appreciated her or all those things that she did to me back then. to think of it. i'm kinda rude to her. and that time when she ws really sick. i've never really took care of her as i was selfishly busy and always going out. to think of it. i ws really a bad granddaughter. i really regretted all my doings back then. to think of the last day that i actually saw her alive. i never really thought that would be my last. as in the morn i went to school i saw her that morning. she was really sick that time. bt i didn't even like really looked at her. yes. i remembered asking my bibik to take good care of her. oh my. to think i actually asked an outsider to do that when i myself didn't do it. i remember it was physics paper that day. aftrnoon paper. as paper finished. checked my phone and there was so many mised calls from my family members. i knew something was wrng back then. i really did not want to call back. bt i remembered yan asking me to call back and find out what happened. when my uncle told me about the news. my world really felt lost. my mind totally went blank. it ws as if my world collapsed. i never ever thought that i would not see my nani again. i still remember i was crying in the car back home. as we picked my bro frm his school. that was really hard. my bro was like the closest to my nani. we told his teachers nt to infrm him. all the way back hm. i cried. none of us dared to tell my bro what happened. he saw me crying silently. bt he just kept quiet. as we reached home. my dad finally told him. me and my bro then ran frm the carpark back home. a lot of relatives were outside. each of them looking at us. seeing my nani lying at my bro's room motionless. i really ws speechless back then. i gave her my last peck. and i ran out of the room. i couln't believe she had gone. my aunty ws conforting me. all of them were comforting me. bt i ws really lost back them. me and my sis were crying non-stop. my mum and my aunt was especially sad. they were crying till like they were about to pass out. my aunt ws especially close to my nani as she ws nt yet married she stayed with her and did almost evrything together with my nani. i knew she was terribly sad. i remembered that night when wan finally came and comforted me. he finally plucked up the courage to talk to me ever since we broke up. i really thnk him for consoling me. he really was what i needed that time. nt forgetting shasha too for comforting me and even to come and visit us. as they all were asleep at night. i stayed with my nani reading prayers for her till the next morning when she was buried. as she was brought out of the house. i remembered us being reprimanded by one of the elders. she told us to stop crying. and that to let my nani go in peace. bt i really cudnt help myself. me n my sis were tightly held by my grandaunt. i remembered myseld repeatedly saying that i have no more nenek. she was there like its ok. its ok. i am still here. as she was buried. i din't know why at that time. i found myself totally tearless. as much as i want to cry. i just couldnt. i really miss my nani. i really miss her a lot. without her in my life. it ws like nothing is ever the same. my life consists of my family. him. and my besties. losing her ws like losing a part of my life. sometimes i just can't help it but to think that she is still alive and onlie out of town on a very long vacation. i know its wrng. bt i just can't help it. the day my nani left me forever is still vivid in my mind and i can clearly remember what happened. i doubt i'll ever forget that day. now. i onlie hoped that my nani is accepted by god and is in heaven. there is no doubt about that as she is the nicest kindiest ever human being in the world. i think i never really said this to her but i love her a lot.


oh my oh my. i am all so excited for bowling 2moro. can't wait. pool too. woohoo. time oh time. move you spin faster. ok. ok. stop it dumbo. anw here is a quick reply to shasha darling. getting married at 24. ok. still so young. den we won't get married at the samt time then. 5 yrs older. wow. tats old. so wan cancelled arh.. haha. oopsie. ouh ya. about what you one. ur one and onlie. i shall wait for that. our promise is still on. if it reallie happens. den oh well we shall get married 2gether at the same time bt onlie when i'm 26. haha. bt i doublt it will. not to dampen ur spirits though. bt oh well lets just watch and see. haha. nn. what happened to ur walk back frm school. hougang. haha. me and jan are still waiting. haha. we're WAAAAAIIIIIIITING.


oh ya oh ya..did i say that suddenly i have a craze over pink roses..oh my they're so nice..beautiful..and sweet smelling too..


ok..seriously..i dun get ppl nowdays..i mean teenagers like us..wahh..the marriage age are really getting younger and younger..i just found out that my friend ws engaged 8 days ago..omg..and she is like onlie 17 and the guy is much older than her..wth..nt to mention that i have another friend who also got engaged 2 yrs back when she ws like onlie 15 to a guy who is much older than her and who is a doctor..wth..she should be married now..wth..so early..wahh..if i were to get engaged i'll onlie get engaged when i am like 24 yrs..den two years of engagement..i'll get married when i am 26..perfect..and that guy musn't be very old..the most is that he can onlie be 3 yrs older..hehe..wth..why am i thinking of marriage..i am onlie like exactly 16 and one month old..haha..ouh ya..an accident happened near my hs just now..my sis fried..sad..his motorbike skided to avoid being crashed to a car..and the car ran away..wth..stupid car it ws his fault..the accident ws kind of cool..haha..i mean as the bike skided..the bike exploded and he flew off the bike..cool..just like an action movie..haha..bt sad larhh..he ws badly injured the his shoulder bones jutted out..omg..scary..


ok..this ws the first time i was actually forced into going out to shop..wakaka..i ws like darn lazy larhh and i seriously did not want to go out..ws planning to stay at home the whole day..bt i ws actually forced by my mummy to go out..cheh..so i reluctantly went out..as it ws a sunday..and a last sunday b4 christmas at that..the mall ws darn packed..it ws darn crowded..so we walk walk..bought a few stuffs which i thot wasn't neccessary bt my mum just had to buy it for me..tsk..mummy forced me to buy a watch too..she ws like buy a watch for your birthday prezzie..i ws like i don't want..i'll be happy if you just give me the money..and she ws like buy a watch and she won't give me money..i had to buy a watc..and i ws like forget it..haha..she still wants me to buy me that watch..seriously i like that watch too..nice..bt i am in need of money right now..i onlie like have exactly $24.90 in my wallet right now..and to think that i have still many more things to do..mummy i need money..


alamak..blum break menyusah kan orng..dh break pun menyusah kan orng..oi..aku nk tido larh..bodoh..both idiots..arrgghhhh..dh larh tido lmbt..pastu nk kena bangun cepat..seriously getting on my nerves..i am seriously gonna turn to a fucking evil bitch if this carries on..arrgghh..you can go kill yourself for all i care..i have my own probs which is yet to be settled..and seriously there is no more space for me to bear your problems too..stupid idiots..stupid jerk..bloody biatch..arrggghhhh..


mummy..daddy..sister..brother..aunties..uncles..i have a confession to make..its over between me and him..its been long over..can't you guys just get it..we've broken up..so mummy he is nt your goody "son-in-law" animore..he is not family animore..arrggghhhh..stop talking about him..i want to forget him..i long want to forget him..i need to get on in life ok..i need to move on..bt why must you guys bring him up every time..havent i made it clear..each time i try to forget him..you guys will bring him up again..its over between us..its over..its no longer possible..we are just not made for each other..yeah we had our happy times bt they are all memories now..pls..arrgghhhh..if onlie i can make you guys understand that it is no longer possible between us..i love him..yes i still do love him a lot..bt its nt up to us to decide and more its no up for you guys to decide..yes we want to keep this long relationship standing..yes we want to fulfill all our wishes and promises..but we just can't..we are just not happy together animore..besides ther is no more trust in the relationship..so we had to take that decision before we hate each other more..even if its just days b4 valentine's..for atleast we are close friends now..and yeah..we are onlie friends..arrggghhhh..wahhh..that is our current relationship..nothing more..if onlie you guys didn't know about our relationship at first..hw gd wud that be..then..i won't be this miserable nw..
aiya..sorie peeps i need to just blog this..for i can't possibly say this to my family..he is still the goody guy in their eyes..i just don't want to spoil that image of him..if onlie they knew..bt its been months..i need to move on..i seriously need to move on..i can't possibly be living in the shadow of hym..yeah..i admit that i do want us to get back together..bt i think..i'll rather be his friend..sister..and confidant..rather than us being together bt nt being happy..dumb me..


todae was just superb..super fun..ws supposed to go out with yan..naz..jan today..bt everyone seems bz..so it ws cancelled..nahh postponed..okok..bt goin out with sis wawa and sis ws damn damn fun..haha..we went to shop for watch..toys..it made me very kiddy all over again..fun fun fun..i just feel like opening the barbie which we just bought for nini and trisha and just keep it for myself..so cute..haha..went to play pool..superb..bowling..damn fun..haha..we wanted to play to games onlie..but we were too addicted to it..that we continued playing..omg..haha..damn fun..bt nw my pocket is empty..gt hole..haha..omg we actually spent like almost $300 today..omg..it would take days to earn that bt just a day to spend it all..haha..bt its once in awhile..its ok..bt i am so broke right now that i really need a job damn badly..oh my..still have dates with the others..bt i am broke..mummy i need money..


hari raya haji..fun fun fun..haha..it doesn't feel hari raya-ish anw..bt it ws still damn fun..had to wake up early in the mornin to go to madrasah aljunied to go korban the kambing..haha..kinda scary bt i cnnot say anth..the kambing ws korban for my dear late nani..took the pictures with the kambings..haha..funny..we were supposed to be praying there..bt we were taking pictures and laughing..haha..den went to the kubur..on the way in the car..we were still laughing..my dada's car has a clown syndrome..whenever we are in it..someone wud become the clown..this tym its my dearie uncle..funny..at kubur..ws still joking arnd..bt gt serious abit larhh..n it ws raining ther..so i slipped many many times..haha..den went home..took a bath..and went out again to ntuc..went to but things for the gathering that night..we were raking taking thing like nobody business..it wasn't our money what..my uncle paying..haha..and the total cost ws like omg..haha..its ok..he just got his bonus..haha..den den..headed to atuk house to have the steamboat..damn damn fun..played games aftr that..seriously was nt like hari raya bt just a fun family gathering..fun fun fun..


woohoo..guess what..guess what..i cooked a fried rice for the first time today..woohoo..i can say that it tasted quite nice except that its a bit too salty..haha..ok..see the picture of the rice..doesn't it looks nice and appealing..hehe..nt reallie larh..but i happy can..its my first time..




oh well..despite of what i said..you guyz still broke up..maybe it is unavoidable..but hey..i hope you guys can still be good friends..i mean..we will still be good friends..the four of us..you guys may be lovers no more bt i'm sure you guys can still be good friends like old times..the four of us..inseperatable..ok..dun forget the four of us still have the cycling date..i'm looking forward to it..to the four of us meeting agn as good friends..we will have much fun that da..i'll make sure of that..no worries and troubles on that day..i promise..*^.____________.^*


i lurvve my uncle..i lurvve him so..haha..ok..i just came back from the airport..my uncle brought us there for late late supper at macs and also to have a walk and talk..actually he had to meet his patients there..but then its like killing two birds in one stones..as you know my uncle is quite young or atleast he has our mindset..it was fun talking to hym about stuffs..orh yea..did i say that my mom wanted to try out to sell in a stall in my bro's school..i think i did..so we went to the school just noe and it was damn hilarious..i mean the stall next to my mum put up this noticed and we cudn't stop laughing..and we kept making fun of it all the way..haha..funny..this is the poster..




whoa..i had it..you guys shud be matured by now..come on larh..your relationship has been standing for the past two years..there is no need to fight over trivial matters right..and you..the gurl..quit flirting larhh..one is enuf ok..you are lucky to have someone like him ok..he is good enuf..and ya..you the guy..come on larhh..yes you had it..i understand..bt you still do need to give in sometimes..ever asked yourself why she behaved that way..there shud be some problem with you that she is not sastified with..come on larh..wateva it is..i hope you guys can really quit fighting..or if you can't stand each other animore..i suggest just break off..ok..listen..i am not trying to destroy you relationship bt please settle it once and for all..wateva it is..just quit fighting larhh..do yourselves a favour or atleast do me a favour..you guys can continue fighting for all i care..just please don't make me the person who has to wake up in the middle of the night just to listen to both of your different accounts of the story..aarrrggghhh..i need to sleep ok..and i can't possibly settle all of the problems for you guys..i also have my own problems which is yet to be settled yet thnks to you guys..be independent larh..its your relationship..nt mine..yes..both of you are my good friends..there's no doubt about that..bt seriously i am telling you guys now..i had it..so stop it before i fall out with both of you..

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