school wasnt fun today..super boring..it was lyk all so unorganized..ppl are everywher arnd the school..some are playing the games..some are just standing arnd acting lyk hooligans..some are just sitting in the gallery doing nth but getting bored to death lyk me..arrggghhhh..shud have listen to ur advice to nt go to school..den cn go doctor together..hehe..tau truant je..bad influence for me..haha..but but..pizza hut was fun..haha..so fun..okok..azyan..jannah..fardiyana..n me..went to pizza hut to have our lunch ther..the food ther ws simply delicious..serious..kk..its nt as if you guys neva go to pizza hut b4..ok..it ws supposed to be a restaurant bt we all lyk so uncivilized ther..i mean we were lyk laughing here and ther..taking pics..bts its ok coz we sat at the far end..n n ther ws this cute guy there..i mean the waiter..really cute..n that fardiyana arh really had to make it so obvious..so paiseh..i tink he noes we are talking abt hym..coz coz lyk everytym he passed by arh..tat fardiyana arh..wud laugh and laugh and laugh..tsk tsk..that gurl arh..everitin is funny to her..haha..bt actually its kinda funny..haha..den den..aftr pizza hut..we took neoprints..haha..kinda typical..bt its been a long tym since we took one..ok..actually..we took twice..we wasted lyk $20 just lyk that..tats lyk $5 per person..we were all lyk so jakun..nt reallie larh..haha..kk..we had loads of fun taking the pics..we played with the chairs..climb the bars..haha..kk..den den..w.e still got tym to take more photos in and outside the lift..we neva feel enud taking pictures..ok..wat to do..thats the nature of gurls..so vain..haha..den den..jan n fard went off..bt i had to teman that azyan wait for her friends..arrggghhh..haha..kk..we went to toys 'r' us..haha..feel all kiddy agn..i want toys..so long neva buy toys n play wit one..haha..i played with the skateboard..haha..nasib tk jatuh..den we just jln2 until her fren smpai..den i went home..wqanted to slp actuall..bt cud not reallie coz my phone ws pissing me off..everytym i close my eyes..it will ring...grrrrrrrrrrrrr..haha..kk..tats all for today..haha..wun be blogging so soon..prelims is lyk in 12 days tym..thnks to fairuz personal message that i am constantly reminded of prelim..haha..kk..i shall start preparing..





ok..first ting first..i was so sad aftr reading the article about hym n i totally and completely forgot to wish mr. wrong happy birthday..n nw i am so completely feeling guilty..oh ya..about hym..i am so happy to know that de sentenced is nt confrm yet..i tink..according to de article..it would be reconsidered..aaarrrggghhh..yeeaaahhhh..i am so happy..i am so goin to pray that everything wud turn out well fer hym..yest was my atuk burthday..so we celebrated hs burthday..went to this arabic restaurant..n the food ther was simply delicious..yummyy..yummmyy..bt sumhw i feel sad fer my atuk..coz this is de first yr he celebrating hs burthday without my nani..so sad..sob sob..in lyk three days tymm..on wed..it would be my nani one year death anniversary..so sad..tym flies..seriously..i still cant accept that fact that shes gone..to me..she has just gone fer a long hols..kk..so we jln jln..den we went to watch firework..wuhhhuuuu..it ws nice..but loads of thing happened yes..i mean bad things..first is that..i broke my bro one year old present which is a big porcelain mickey mouse coin box..( i tink thats wat its called..i totally forgot the word..)second is that my aunts car gt scratch by this stupid motorcycle which is parked at the side of the carpark..de carpark ws packed..so to avoid another car..de motorcycle scratched her car..she was so sad..she just bought the car u se..sob sob..so i didnt really study yest..was planning to go study today with my friends..bt..my kuzzin came..soo cnnot go out..arrggghhh...i am so panicking..i haven study..hw hw hw..kk..better go study nw..but wait..here are some pics..




arent the fireworks just nice..

doesnt this looks nice..yuummmmyyy..

isnt the ambience just nice..kk..shiok sendiri..haha..


ouh ok..i finally get hold of the paper regarding him..i was so sad that i burst out crying after reading it..y must this happened..i can vividly imagine wat happened..he had always been happy..never once i see him cry b4..wat more doing that..i feel so sad..very very sad..if can i want to vist hym..but no..i dun tink so..i feel sorry fer hym..fer his mum..we already planned to do a lot of things together..arrgghhh..y..y..y..it wasnt really his fault larhh..its lyk he got punished for a mistake he made..which is choosing the wrong friends..argghhh..but he has changed..he really change..he is different nw..he is a caring n nice guy..he is a wise young men n he would be very successful..y must this incident robbed that away frm hym..arrrggghhhh..i am already missing hym..eventhough i only started to know hym abt a fe mnths back..we were already very close..i regretted for taking hym for granted..i mean..i've never really believed every word he said..i mean..i would take it all as a joke..nw..i wished i had really believed all he said..atleast i wun be regretting..he always wanted to leave a good impression on hymself to me..he always wanted to be looked up as a good brother..bt rest assured aft all that happened..he would always be good..at the very least in my eyes no matter what ppl tink..i would still look up to hym coz i know he deserve this respect..


SOS!!!
its someone (a.k.a MR WRONG) birthday today..shud i wish him..shud i not..shud i wish him..shud i not..shud i wish him..bt it is just weird if i wish him..coz we are not lyk wat we used to be as b4..so shud i not wish him..but it would be so bad considering that i am very close to hym b4..so shud i wish hym..shud i nt..shud i wish hym..shud i not..shud i wish hym..shud i not..NAAAZZZEEEHHHAAAAA..HELP ME OUT HERE..haha..i so dunno whether to wish or nt..somebody help me..quick quick..b4 its too late..


skool wasnt really fun today..it ws ok larhh..first subject..double math..arrgghhh..math math math..even the word scare me nw..ouh ya..got my a.math mock paper one back..ouh n i so got a pathetic 19 which is so a fail..arrggghhh..n i am so really considering on whether to drop my a.math or nt..den it ws mly..tey were talking abt hym agn..arrgggghhhh..i feel so worried bout hym..i wonder hw he is doing ther..wateva it is i hope he is well..den..geog..copy corrections..make my hand so tired..den..went studying..math math math..aaarrrggghhhh..bt b4 that we went to eat at sakura..it ws yummy..haha..kk..actually we talked loads in school abt certain ppl..ppl cn really change..i mean..within a really short tym..i wonder what happened..i so want to help..i mean we so want to help but we arent allow to..i mean..ok..let me name that person X..ok..X has a problem..atleast thats what we think..but the main thing is X so doesnt wan to share X probs with us..we are worried..coz we think that prob of Xs is distracting Xself..but thats not it..sometimes X attitude just sucks..really dun understand..X really change..X is not the X i use to noe..its like X is proving something..to who in de world noes hu..but why..everyone is already considered perfect in wateva state they are in..i mean..why do you have to prove to someone else of things you are not..wth..i really dun understand that kind of ppl..they might not realise it but they are hurting themself..wateva lh..nw i feel its a waste of time talking abt this kind of ppl..bt since i wrote it..i wun delete away..let that X terasa..


i cant stop fretting abt it..i dun even noe if its true..even they dun noe its true..but its been lyk 6 days since i last saw you..to think that would be the last day talking to you..could it be true..wat if its true..18 months is long..in 18 mnths lots of things can happen..hu is goin to send me home nw..hu is goin to fred abt my studies nw..hu is goin to help me in my studies nw..hu is goin to go out with us to town to do nth but just have fun and just be a camwhore..hu is goin to get concert tickets for us nw..hu hu hu..i've lost a wonderful big brother..no one can replace you coz no one is the same as you..it would neva be the same without you..i wonder if in 18 mnths time..wen u come home..would u still remember us..or..would we still remember you..wateva it is..we believe you..n we will be there for you always..i hope you wun forget us..n i hope and i know we wun forget you..ouh ok..it was emo tym just nw..nw its over..i am back to the nrml me..just gotta let it out..


ok..this is too late a post..just wan say sumtin bout oral..didnt say anitin in the previous post cz ws still fretting over mt results..oral ws fun..i mean it ws fun talking to the invigilators..haha..we were like old friends having lots of things to tak abt..it ws abt toys..so it made me feel kiddy all over agn..haha..kk..today ws fun..except for the two test that we had to take..first was geog..it ws manageable..it ws ok larhh..den it ws malay test..disaster..arrggghhh..ws looking at my malay file just nw..it ws so heartbreaking..arrggghhhh..looking at all my marks compared to my o's result..arrggghhh..so devasting..ok enuf ellyana..get over it..whats done cannot be undone..kk..me n yanyan ws like practically crazy today..too much a.math i guess..haha..non-stop laughter..bt it ws fun..den went studying..we had mcdonalds fer lunch..we called the macdonald to send delivery to the school..haha..crazy..ok..i studied today..i am so happy..woohoo..kk..mocks is lyk next week..kk..cnnot waste tym..gotta.study..


ok..i finally told my mum abt my results aftr a lot of courage plucked..haha..ok..nt reallie..i told her at abt 7 plus lyk that actually..kk..this is what happened..my conversation with my darling mother..

Me: Ma...I Get B..........
Mum: [Raise up her hand asking me to wait coz she was on the phone]
[a few mins ltr]
Mum: What did you say just now??
Me: err..i got B3 for my malay..
Mum: huh..B3 je..kakak dapat A2 kn.. [as expected..i knew she wud say this }
Mum: Sape dpt A..
Me: err..my class dun have..but e2 and e3 and the other class have..
Mum: huh..ur class e1 aso got no A..tsk..tsk..
Mum: wah den you kena retake arh nie..
Me: err..ya..
[ Few minutes ltr ]
Mum: mcm dissapointed gitu..hiazzzz..
Me: eheh..srng pe dissapointed..abeh dh nk jadi gitu..nk buat ape..mcm lh orng nk dpt results gitu..mcm lh org happy dpt results gitu.. [ den i gave her de cold shoulder ]

oops..i ws just really frustrated..arrggghhh....n furthermore why must she rub it in..lyk adding salt to the wound larhh..wth...
next my uncle..err...my conversation with my lovely uncle..

Me: hello..sape nie..
Uncle: Gangster..
Me: huh..gangster mane..
Uncle gangster punggol larhh..mane lagi.. [ family of gangster u see..haha..]
Me: orrhh..uncle jid isit..
Uncle: results camne..passed tk..
Me:ok ah..passed..B3..
Uncle: huh..B3..haha..uncle jid dulu dpt A2..agknye oral tk..
Me: ya..my oral i get merit..
Uncle: huh..dulu i get distinction..haha..
Me: den my teacher say aso mayb my karangan coz the ques that i did everyone did badly..
Uncle: wat is the ques..
Me: err..psl nasihat yang diabaikan pada saat-saat yang diperlukan..
Uncle: senang ape..abeh ade ques ape lagi..
Me: bnyk nye senang..ckp je senang ah..lagi satu ques is about pengajaran menarik dari cikgu and lagi satu is abt reading book or sumtin lyk that..
Uncle: abeh kn ade yg sambung sambung tu..yg conplete de karangan tu..
Me: [laughing] ape..mane ader..zaman uncle jid dulu ader arh..haha..
Uncle: orrr..k lah..pegi retake ah..kena byr brape..
Me: $24
Uncle: ok pe..pegi retake ah pastu bleh try lagi..
Me: mesti ah..mane leh hidup ngan results gini..
Uncle: haha..kk..dh lh..pegi retake..bye..

wah..everyone is lyk asking..hws ur results..hws ur result..so irritating..cn i choose nt to ans..arrgghhhh..my uncle sumore so irritatin..tau lh melayu bagus bt still..n just as i guessed..my sis laugh at me n she tk pecaye..wth..n my mum say this.." memang arh..melayu adek memang lagi teruk lagi kakak..hacur.."arrggghhh..wth..every child has their own specialitist ok..nt every child is the same..arrggghhh..n till nw my phone is ringing with either msg or calls..arrrggghhh..can i choose nt to ans or reply..errr...wait..letme think....
------
-----
----
---
--
-
NO..with the capital N and O....coz ltr tey will think i stuck up plak..arrrgggghhhh...



can you stop asking if my results are okay..it sucky and that's just it..i know you did well..but no need to boast ok..so wat if i am always getting As for malay..it happened..wat can i do..people have their ups and downs..oh well..ure contented with urs..u "feel" sad for me..uhuh..what do you think i feel..u're dissapointed..what more am i..ok lh..you're clever but i am not dumb ok..m just a little bit less clever..but..just so you wait..its just malay..i am so promising to myself that me ellyana would strive harder and do better than you in all my other subjects..besides i still can retake my malay..and dun be surprise..dun be so stuck up just yet coz u would not noe wats going to happen next..n ya..btw..please mind your own business and pls stop acting lyk one smart aleck..aaarrrggghhhh..

err..juz cant understand some ppl..so kepo..dh kepo tkpe arh..abeh irritating..arrggghhhh..btw i did badly for my malay..super bad..i got lyk B3 and i so cant believe it..even ppl are shocked by my results..wth..its ok..i shall strive harder n do well for nt onlie malay but other subjects too..just den..all those kepos would be surprised..


was bloghopping..n i came to this song..it made me so emo..sob sob..it sad..




ok..alas..free time for me..cn relax at the same time post sumtin..ok..where shall i start..ok..lets start from here..
Wednesday, 8 August 2007
skool ws fun that day..it ws a crazy day..de national day celebration ws fun..actually de concert wasnt that nice lh..bt the 5Ns and de other graduating classes in the gallery made it fun..we were practically enjoying ourselves halfway de concert..we were singing..clapping..doing waves..we were crazy to be exact..de guys we like singing on stage like as if it ws their home..haha..bt some ppl were just so nt enthu..wat sey..its our last year..we shud have fun wat..ltr ppl think 4E1 onlie know hw to study..dunno hw to hav fun..kk..den aftr den went home..actually gt my primary school 10th aniversary..its a carnival..bt i backed out last minute cos i know confirm he wud be there..just dun wan to see his face agn and let the memories come flooding back..its just unbearable..my friends n bro said it ws fun..wat a waste..haizz..nvm..ok..so i went hm n took a nap..a long nap at that..ws just super tired i guess..so den at nite we went bowling..but bowling wasnt that nice..ws just too distracted..ouh haizz..bt anw..u know the girl that i posted abt few days ago..the one that wanna fight wit me that tym..dh jadi baik dh pompan tu..dh alim katekn..dh pkai tudung..tapi perangai masah mcl s**l..haha..me..my sis..my uncle n aunty were just laughing lyk hell n i think she noticed..haha..pdn muka..n the cute guy ws there agn..haha..kk..den we went hm..n ws dead beat by then..
Thursday, 9 August 2007
so..National Day..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE..coz we slept late the day b4..we woke up late..haha..ok..i ws supposed to go watch th fireworks with sum ppl..bt i backed out agn..haha..ws like tired n lazy..its lyk so crowded ther..haha..i back out everytym wan..but they aso lazy to go so i need not feel bad..ok..so den we went to my aunty hs..had a family gathering there..my uncle cook tom yam..yummy yummy..so we spent our national day ther..n my two toddler cousins were super noisy..they scream here n ther..walk here run there..climb up and down the stairs..fight at times..den few minutes ltr the get back 2gether agn..they so carefree..i wanna be a kid back..i wanna lead a carefree life with nth to worry about..haizz..i noe i cant hav that back..its long over..ok..den at nite went hm..watched troy..it ws so nice..brad pitt n orlando bloom just so hot..haha..kk..
Today, Friday, 10 August 2007
haha..kk..soon aft i had my breakfast..my mom ws lyk nagging at me coz my room n my study table ws in a mess..aarrgghhh..i hate cleaning..bt wat to do..forced to..so i did spring cleaning to my room..alone..hw frustrating is that..but the end effect ws nice..my room is nice n clean..so nw den gt time to blog..haha..n i tink i've been blogging too much..so frm nw on..i promise to onlie blog fortnightly.i hope i keep my promise..kk..n nw i am so worrying abt my mt o'level result..i wonder hw i fair..arrgghhh..iam so scared..i hope i do well..i really hope so..if nt i'll be letting lots of ppl down..they so hav high hopes on me..arrgghh..pressure..pressure..i so hate this..


haha..it all sounds funny..tats called retribution..u'got all it is bcoz u've done that to me lots..n nw its retribution tym..n tada..its ur turn nw..hw does it feel..de sufferings..it aint that nice rite..nw u noe how i felt..i all sounds really funny..if i could..i wish to laugh straight at ur face..hahaha..serve u right asshole..padan muke..i am so feeling happy..i am so sounding very revengeful..but de retribution did not come frm me..it came frm god..haha..u really deserve it..i feel sorry for u..bt at the same tym i am happy..okok..enuf..all tat makes me look bad..but u made me this way..wateva..yest bowling ws fun..there ws tis cute guy there..he ws super cute..kk..enuf ellyana..den den..there ws this super bitchy minah..super irritating..wat sey..want stare stare..me no scared lh..nk fight sini ah dtg..tkya jadi pengecut ah..cume brani stakat stare je..aper je..


ok..bowling ws fun..super funny..first ting is that my sis fell..haha..super funny..me her boyfriend ws laughing so badly..coz it ws super hilarious..n tat we couldnt brng ourself to help her..haha..she fall wen standing hw funny..n i aso got my deserts..haha..for laughing so much at her..my ball drop wen i wanna bowl..haha..hilarious..but i ws so happy today coz my score reach 106..haha..tat ws de first tym in my lyf i gt over 100 coolness..my sis payed the whole gam coz we had a bet to which who lose would pay..haha..i won so she has to pay..haha..free game for me..


When You're Gone by Avril Lavigne.
I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you liei s made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

wow..m so in love with tis song..it so describe what i am feeling right now..when you're arnd..i've never treasured you..i took you for granted..but nw..ur nt by my side anymore..n i so miss you..you are in my thoughts in everything i do..i an so needing u to be by my side now..


a.maths was a disaster..total disaster..aarrgghhh..i almost went insane today..i mean i am insane today..i feel so depressed..arrghhh..stupid a.math..

Uninvited Personnels, Keep Your Comments To Yourself.
Cause I Am Like Oh So NOT Interested To Know What You Are Thinking.

nurELLYANA
sweetSEVENTEEN
twentyfifthNOVEMBER1991
temasekPOLYTECHNIC
leisureANDresortMANAGEMENT
caramelFRAPPaddict

FOLLOW ME!

The Wishes

$$$ For SYDNEY Trip
Watch
DSLR
SuperSampler Lomogram
CoolCam Polaroid
iPod Touch
Nitendo DS
Driving License
mini COOPER

Last uPDated: 21 January 2009

The Gossips

The Links

Eileen
Erica
Nazeeha
Pawan
Robert
Safiqa
Salamah
Shasha