have not being here for rather long. time does flies i guess. n i realised that the current blogger actually have spell check when you are composing your entry. now i feel pressured to write in standard English as far as possible (within my capacity)

before i start to rant, i would like to wish YII EAN and LULU a Happy Belated 20th Birthday! sorry dears, i was swamped by work, thus totally living in my own tiny, cramped and no life world. i will make up for my carelessness and inconsideration the next time i see you all :D because i know xiu li, my gurlz arhz, is back from Oxford! yeahz! now, i have more people to play with... provided i have the time. sighz.

and i have good news for me at least. heeheez. I am going to ITALY in september this year! hahaz. i cant believe it when i received e email informing me of my successful application for the exchange program in NTU since my grades are a disgrace.

This is so exciting! even though i didn't get Austria (my first choice) but i still managed to secure a place in an European university. yeahz! I just finished matching my subjects today (for the common modules since i don't know what my specialisation is). hope everything will be successful and i will have less things to fret over.

i need to complete my applications for the Italian scholarship and the MFA scholarship. really must make sure i get the scholarships or else I can't afford to go. sighz. it is so depressing when you realised that everytime you grab an opportunity, you have to think whether you have the financial means to support you. it was like this when i applied for universities' admissions last year, it's still like that now. why can't i just win the lottery (Toto)? with that few millions, i would be able to solve so much problems. =(

anyway my life has being in a mess since the last entry. i slept at earliest 3 am and latest 5 am since 2 March and i woke up at 7 am to 10 am. It was really horrid and my body couldn't take it and i started to have problems with it. I was like a walking zombie for the entire week. but i still managed to pass everything safely except that i failed my accounting quiz. sighz.

the communication management presentation went fairly well except that i was so nervous that i forgot a lot of my content. sighz. my legs were trembling from beginning till the end. hahaz. luckily i was wearing long pants or else it would be hilarious!

as for my accounting tutorial presentation, i must thank my group members especially ah cui and royston. because that day, firdaus and i had business law tutorial presentation too, therefore i seriously had no time to do the tutorial lahz. and i am really grateful to firdaus for his help with the biz law tutorial.

as for my financial management presentation, i can only say 5 words. I am d--- pissed off. wow liao! in brief, i slogged like mad for the FM presentation and people who are supposed to do things, didn't do a single thing as far as i am know. you should have seen my face and some other people's. hahahaz. it's really black like...thunderstorm.

furthermore, i slept at 5 am that morning n woke up at 7 plus to go for IT at 8.30 am. was practically dead lahz. managed to survive all the way until the quiz which i must admit that i am very lucky. because my questions are very doable and with help from our IT expert, Simon, i managed to score 95/100! hahahaz. i am really very very lucky. since i only studied from 2 am till 5 am after i finished settling my FM stuff.

and i must declare once again that i am really one gigantic IT dummy. seriously. hahahaz. i really have no hope. i need to pass my IT! i am totally useless in my IT project group...except to entertain my group members. heeheez. but i guess learning to use excel for database is quite fun lahz. especially you use it to track stock prices and everyday your heart will follow the prices of the stocks in your portfolio. heez.

Bought my lappie at IT fair on Saturday, 17 March. Had to ask my sis to come and help me pay via her credit card. i am on installment plan lahz. so every month has to remit the money to my sister so she can pay on my behalf. and i luv my lappie a lot! it's my bao bei now. hahahaz. just that it's a bit heavy. but yeahz. i think it's very powerful lahz. because it has the biggest capacity RAM that a normal computer can have now. heez.

i kept on losing my thumb drive. sighz. my god brother just sent the 2nd thumb drive over and i lost it in 1 week. wow liao! i am supreme absentminded lahz. and i seriously don't know what to do. therefore i decided i should not buy any thumb drive anymore. i don't wanna waste another 30 bucks lahz. i will just send everything up to my email or my phone via blue tooth or worse come to worst, i will just carry my lappie to all the meetings. no choice mahz.

and recently, because of the huge increase in workload and responsibilities, i realised that i do have quite a lot of untapped potential. hahahaz. i felt so sorry and pai sehz to all the people who were my group members last year, since i didn't contribute much. but yeahz. Estella is a changed person now. very enthusiastic and pro-active. i can't even believe myself. hahahahaz.

exams are coming...in less than a month. and i just took one more temporary tuition job because mo yin is having her medical exams then i am covering her. so starting next week, i will be teaching tuition 4 days per week and one thing to mention is that my Thursday tuition is from 4.30 to 10pm. excellent manz. i think i am crazy.

in addition, i am going on holiday in the first week of april with my family. which is the week before exams. dotz. but oh well, i will try to study as much as possible lahz, because this semester, my goal is A for all my modules, A+, A and A- since last semester all my modules i got all B...B+, B and B-.

but i guess not s/uing my French is not such a smart idea lahz. i took my 2nd test today and i seriously flunked that test. sighz. some more French exam is on the same day as my biz law exam. supreme power lahz.

furthermore i would be away on exchange next semester, therefore cannot continue to level 3 next semester. and i need my friends to take with mi...because i am forever lost during class. seriously. sighz. no choice now. can only continue to push my way through. arghz!

ok lahz. i very longwinded liao. don't complain that i didn't update arhz i tell you! heeheez. miss all of you alot. i wanna see all of you soon...

i believe in miracles becoz i would be much happier if i do @ 7:52 pm