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Tuesday, March 29, 2011; 12:17 AM
just wanna rant. expect a really rantty post & choose to leave anytime if you cant take it.
i know i have a great family. he gave us everything we need. everything we can ask for. everything is just so fairly distributed. but i cant help it but to ask for more. im sorry. but. i just cant help it. made a huge group of GLs from sports camp. really keeping me company whenever we need them & making our day. nvr fail to look forward to the meetings. but dad just dont und. i hate the curfews. srsly.
like. we are 18. yes 18! legal to drink club smoke & drive. ofc i will NEVER smoke. but just saying. i hate it when the fucking curfew is at 11. & i freaking got to leave any place at 10 & with no delay. & because of the long bus intervals, always late & over the curfew. & the worst is, dad's taking over now! punctuality is like so impt to him. & just half hour also matters alot. & he dont even call to hurry you back. just that when you're back. you face the shit. rushed like mad all the way. & he just got home not too long. wts ==
i just hate it how limited this is getting. i just so wanted to relax & drink just that bit more. get high & go crazy. but there's just so much restrictions. shit man. i feel bad for neglecting my family & girls for all the SC gatherings. seems long since the last time i visited my grandma. & meeting the girls. but everything's always coming in so last min that it's so hard to plan but only to reject.
arghhhhh. stuck in that stupid dilemma again. which to sacrifice. thinking so hard. but just couldnt make up my mind. i know my limits. but how am i suppose to let them know this point that im old & sensible enough to do my own stuff. & fund me with sufficient money. & not using lousy ways to control me. it's just so fail & makes me want to carry on with everything.
hectic life. but im enjoying it. just hoping for more time to rest. that's all i need. & it's time to partaye once again. (:
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ALEXIA.GERMAINE.LEE 