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ME
ALEXIA.GERMAINE.LEE
sixteen.JUNE
GERMINI
Nan.Chiau.Wind.Orchestra TROMBONIST
Holy.Innocents.Primary
Nan.Chiau.High
NGEE.ANN.POLY
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Saturday, April 30, 2011; 4:00 PM
sometimes, i just wonder if things are still the same as before. i feel the gap. is that just me or reality. it just made me think more if i really did made the right choice. im so sick of hearing so much but yet not knowing the truth. do we still mean the same to each other?
really a uber hectic holiday. but all i can say, it's really a great experience. sports camp GL camp, Mambo SC camp, sports camp 11/12, work, BAOW, IBZ CAMP 2011. as usual, losing my voice without fail after every single camp. but every single camp just got more and more hyped up. & best of all, IBZ Camp just ended my entire holiday with a blast.
first time, being committee for a camp. a camp we got tgt & started all the planning 2+months before the actual camp. arguments after arguments when making every decision for the best interest of the campers. sleepless nights. drained all the brain cells to keep things within budget. spam calling & texting everyone till we all got so sick of our phones. just for a 3D2N camp. but all i can conclude is, everything was just so worthwhile.
even though things got screwed on day 0, things not done, missing etc, but we just used alternatives & got the camp running so smoothly. so thankful to all the groups that lend us their props, helpers from SSC, all the year 3s that went, & ofc, the committee. even though we had no more than 6hrs of slp everynight, but i think everyone sure did enjoyed the camp.
great to hear how grateful the year 3s were for organizing & inviting them to this camp, and how bonded the year 1s are now.
it was just so awesome to see the campers being so hyped up from the day1 all the way till the end of the camp. & the spirit just kept going till now.
end of first week of school, just pure shag. thanks to BAOW, all of us missed 1st week of introduction lecture. srsly were like some lost sheeps in every single tutorial. tutors being so ignorant to not know the reason why we missed lectures. but this sem's tutors really (Y). whole new modules, totally unknown. just hope can do well this sem. but so much memory work. really just cui.
best way to end the week, had ippudo with JTW ytd. but sadly, yihui was sick & couldnt join us. maybe meeting the girls ltr, & IBZ sentosa outing on monday :D so in the holiday mood now. shit.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011; 12:17 AM
just wanna rant. expect a really rantty post & choose to leave anytime if you cant take it.
i know i have a great family. he gave us everything we need. everything we can ask for. everything is just so fairly distributed. but i cant help it but to ask for more. im sorry. but. i just cant help it. made a huge group of GLs from sports camp. really keeping me company whenever we need them & making our day. nvr fail to look forward to the meetings. but dad just dont und. i hate the curfews. srsly.
like. we are 18. yes 18! legal to drink club smoke & drive. ofc i will NEVER smoke. but just saying. i hate it when the fucking curfew is at 11. & i freaking got to leave any place at 10 & with no delay. & because of the long bus intervals, always late & over the curfew. & the worst is, dad's taking over now! punctuality is like so impt to him. & just half hour also matters alot. & he dont even call to hurry you back. just that when you're back. you face the shit. rushed like mad all the way. & he just got home not too long. wts ==
i just hate it how limited this is getting. i just so wanted to relax & drink just that bit more. get high & go crazy. but there's just so much restrictions. shit man. i feel bad for neglecting my family & girls for all the SC gatherings. seems long since the last time i visited my grandma. & meeting the girls. but everything's always coming in so last min that it's so hard to plan but only to reject.
arghhhhh. stuck in that stupid dilemma again. which to sacrifice. thinking so hard. but just couldnt make up my mind. i know my limits. but how am i suppose to let them know this point that im old & sensible enough to do my own stuff. & fund me with sufficient money. & not using lousy ways to control me. it's just so fail & makes me want to carry on with everything.
hectic life. but im enjoying it. just hoping for more time to rest. that's all i need. & it's time to partaye once again. (:
Sunday, February 27, 2011; 12:39 AM
you always question why am i so good at tanking stuff. but at times like this, when it's just left with you & you alone with all the problems & troubles, and just no one to rant to, the only resort is to just swallow everything down, forgive and forget. nothing else can be done & no one is to be blame. probably life's just like this. at times of fun, it just makes you feel really fortunate & blessed to be in that situation, to be in this life. but it just really make me realise, sometimes, which are the ones that i can really fall back to when in times of need. is it really them??
no one to be blame. when everyone just have their own life to lead, almost no one will give a fuck about you. even your family, sometimes, don't even give a damn. what do you expect from friends. just glad that there just this few that's always there to hear me rant and stuff. thinking about it, it just feels that everything is enough. don't have to be so greedy to ask for more, just for those few to always to be there. even if your social circle stops here, but with just those few around, it's just good enough.
& it's starting to feel tired to those insincere ones. when you thought that you had taken things for granted from them, you're just wrong. because when you stop & look back, things were just totally different from what you always thought was right. you may even be taken advantage of without knowing. & that sudden realization just sucks. it just makes you feel as though you were dropped down from the 11th storey. to be taken for granted for, and yet they are never grateful towards you. it just sucks totally. and everything in the past just feels so fake.
there's just that other side of everyone out there, but is just how different they are from the ones you see. & which to believe, is just up to you.
so sometimes, rather to not know so much. just that good side & it's enough. because anything beyond that is just going to add a big twist in that relationship.
Saturday, February 05, 2011; 2:36 AM
the total big change from the academic calendar is really hard to adapt. christmas & new year is really not there anymore. or maybe it's sg. i dont feel it coming at all. just ohh! it's new year. just steamboats & more steamboats. angpao & more angpaos. without just a member from each side, everything changed. gran seems so haggard without her help. both. it just hurts to see them suffering like this. & i really think that no one will und how i feel.
but i got to admit, this year's new year was really a nice catching up session with us girls. just kpoped all the way with cousins. & hiao with them. but sleepover @ my place was quite fail tonight. when we actually planned to watch ss 1 & 2, & even gambled abit.
projects are sort of done. at least half of blaw & dss. just presentations left (: but RWA's being a bitch because there are just SO MANY THINGS TO RMB & i have not studies. damn sian!!! more & more work's piling, & procrastinating as usual. really sucks. just really cant wait for hols. when i can just sleep in all day w/o worrying for proj & tests. & even have fun in the upcoming 3 orientation camps! heheheh.
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