ORD? Where got time?

Im counting down to my ORD date everyday. Okay not exactly true. But i just know that its roughly 2-3months left. Its not a very long time and i think before long i would have to bid farewell to my friends in tekong. This isnt a sad/emo thing but when i think back.. I really felt happy to have all of them by my side through all the shit and tough times. This is what friends are for right? But then again, what you hold dearest to your heart may not apply to others. What you prioritize may not be the same as the rest of your friends. 

Take for instance, i remember there is this one time i reprimanded my friend in the group whatsapp openly because he didnt do his job properly and had to have someone who's gonna ORD the next day to cover for him. It may not sound like a big deal, but as an officer/superior/whatever-fuck-you-call-me, i cant just sit back and watch the show right? This just isnt right. And so i told him off right away cos i dont give a shit about his feelings. But to many, i may have gone overboard. So i really dont know. What i can see now is that he is picking himself up recently and im glad. As a HQ, i really want all of us to be bonded. However, im starting to see us falling apart. I dont wish to say anything but when i ORD, i really hope the bonds that we use to have can stay strong and not break just because we are 2 separate branches.. Hais. What to do? Just ORD bah...

Feelings to be understood, thoughts to be heard. But there are some feelings and thoughts that shouldnt be understood or heard at all. Simply because its pointless for me to do so. What can i change if i let myself heard? What can i change if you understood my feelings right from the start? Things wont change cos i know it wouldnt. And just because you think that its easy to just say "fuck it" or "sorry im not ready for this" doesnt mean it will be easy for me to accept it.