heh heh... today is my inter-break... hahaha... wednesday... mMm.. but today damn busy.. got to do u-art... the sas problem matrix... and yam cake... haiz... the yam cake... i tot wil success... but... it failed... which made me moody... i even quarrel wif my mama... hmphz... tink she pei chek oso... of the stupid yam cake failing... but she told me... : " second time will be a even better one..." mmmm... from young.. she always use tis to encourage me... haiz... which means... i from young had always expriencing failing.... sad... mmMmm... even though ah fat n mama... super fav in nagging me... i oso dunno y... but they really treat me well... by encouraging me in many ways... ah fat noe i moody... den he bot me a dolphin soft toy... cute... hahahahhaa... n my little bro ar... even is very not nice... he still eat the yam cake... n say is only blend but still nice.. mmm... is good to have pple that care for u... mmm... i oso wan to be like dat.. i wan to care for my frens.. family.. n ah fat.. (only to those dat deserved)... mmmm i wan them to feel the same warmth i recieve from mama n ah fat... n my little bro always say horror stories n jokes to make me laugh... mmmm.... i will spread my care around de.... ><

mmMm.. today... in the morning got stomachache...quite pain... Mmm.. actually at 10am got dm lecture de... but pain till my leg weak.. so skip lecture... hahhahaha... can slack at home for few more hours... mmm... but e quite contented... cos when i went to sch... jx.. weilin...eileen.... send regards to me... even though is a few words.. asking me how m i... but i was touched... mmm... i dunno how to explain.. jus feel warm.. especially.. when glen n stephen oso asked me... was reallly touched... hehehehe... me not alone... n oso... miss ah fat alot today.. hope he was alright too...

curse my stupid sister!!!! the story goes like dat(cut short version)-------------- tis morning... when i was still half-conscious in my bed... my ah ma n mama ask my stupid sister: " y u till now no bf?"... den my stupid sister says: " i got my frens ok le... i dun wan to be like "me" got bf den dun have a single good fren.." after i heard it... i was very very very the sad lo...... den my mama says her back lo: " she where got no frens.. ytd she jus went to exercise wif her frens"... the worse thing is dat the stupid sister says: " dat kinds of frens is known as frens only... mine is 10+ de friendships... tis kind den is called best frens".... i m damn sad.... who says i no best fren... i have... but she is only living in a different countries as me only ma... but we still live in the same planet ok...

see... she is my beeeesssssstttttttttttttt fren... ever...

thx to her... she is really my spirit healer... always dere for me when i wanted someone to listen... 8years le... though 4 years ago.. she emigrated to australia... but we still contact each other... though is through msn... but we still tok personal things...

today... we made each other a promise... (15 november 2007)... during year 2010 is our 10 years anniversary... so we will go overseas together as a form of celebration... TO JAPAN... yeahzz...

ps: tak... i promise i will definitely keep my promise de... i will look forward to it..

yehz... mmmMm.. tis few days oso dunno y.. been quite moody.. cant help it.. i m a typical emotional ger.. hahahaa.. but i will try my best to turn my mood around.. to the smiley side.. of course.. have to start to tink for projects le.. been slacking since last sem.. tis sem better buck up le.. hahahaa... hope i can try my best and have the strength to... hmmm... plus... me finally going jewel box to dine lo... YEAHZZZZ.... ah fat noe i been wanting to go... since thousands and thousands of years ago... finally... on dec 24 2007... chervon is going to have her first step into jewel box lo... yeahzzzz... dunno how to describe how excited m i... but of cos.. is not only going dere to dine made me excited... oso... dec 24 2007 is me n ah fat 3years anni... long route... happiness... sorrow... angry... contented... or sorts of feelings... had happened during tis 3 years... actually.. i felt that our relationship is quite a tough one.. eventually.. he is 6 years older... so... ya.. will not elaborate more... but thx to him.. he heal my wound 3 years ago... when i was hurted by a ***... mmmmm.... watever... cant be mushy anymore le...

but den now i got a idol lo... 张栋梁....... he is damn cool lo... i m now watching "smiling pasta" the second time le... is like very rare dat i will watch something the second time de lo....... plus.. not even 1 show i had watched twice in my lifetime... tis show quite suit my taste lo... cool... highly-recommended: smiling pasta.... n hor.. tml going to exercise wif frens(too many to state)... hope tml.. everyone will put a smile on their face...

mmMm.. hopefully may life n fate treat me better... let me throw away all my worries.. n oso part of my unhappiness... cos i noe the fact that only u experience unhappiness den u will cherish all the happiness u have.. actually.. i dun expect much... jus a few frens dat understand me.. n stand by me whenever i have problems.. n a ah fat dat treat me well.. n hopefully everybody is healthy.. i dun expect myself to do so well in my acad.. or watsoeverr.. jus let me lead the simplest life... i will be glad n contented.. simple life means happiness...

plus... jus to mention... life always have its unhappiness n happiness... that is cant change de.. jus smile.. n nth cannot overcome de..

mmmm... kind of low morale today.. i tink even though i tried to always put a smile on my face... but i really do have my weak side... i m not strong... n i dun wan to be... i really nid a break... or someone i can really rely on... hopefully i really can go overseas alone... to reflect the past things.. n to tink of wat i really wan in the future... mmmm... even though SIP is still a bit far for me to worry abt... i kinda being frightened my fren... she said that during her SIP... she almost cried everyday due to the pple always bully her... mmm... i m quite scare of tis oso... mmmm... haiz... plus.. my health is going from bad to worse... tis haven recovered.. next one already come... loads n loads of worries... jus hope i can die faster... mmm... i wish ah fat can die wif me too.. seems selfish... but.. i dun tink his life is any better oso... hopefully when i die... dere is still pple crying for me.. *depress*