I will always be waiting for you, lil star.

Singapore General Hospital.

Honestly.. I'm nervous really. I dont know, it's too fast or..too slow.
I've been looking forward for surgery and now, the battle is finally going to be over. Friday. 21st May 2010 will be one of the days I will never ever forget.
A surgery that will change my life totally. I guess I am nervous. What if I never wake up. What if things go wrong. I am trying very hard to be optimistic here.

I surrender everything to Allah.

I slip and fall outside my toilet macam nangke busuk daa.
Lucky I didnt pop my shoulder out again, but I sprained my ankle badly.
aiyerr macam macam.

Fuck. I feel so down.

There's an old saying in China - "those who fly a kite can have a long life." It means that kite flying on a regular basis can lead to longevity. Meanwhile, the making of a gorgeous and novel kite is a creating process. When you look at your kite flying in the vast clear sky, your concentrated, gratified and relaxed mind strengthens the regulating function of higher nervous activity, boosting the health of the body and internal organs
-cultural-china.com

I'm addicted to Kite flying now.
Seriously, I've been busy with kite flying everyday. why? It keeps me busy during this school holidays, and at least helps me to cool my mind off from everything :D

Have you ever seen Route Marshalls directing the Runners with style? ^^
LOL!
Urbanathlon was fucking awesome. No no, it's not the event that is awesome. It's the people who made it awesome !
I had fucking fun time with Zullord & Mcdaddy.

Stay with me Mr Shoulder.

3 more days of mc. awooo!
I had appointment yesterday at Tan Tock Seng Hosp.
Surprisingly the doctor asked the course I'm in, and what I want to do later in life. I find it rather "irrelevant questions", tho I appreciate his concern.
The Doc advised me to go MRI and decide from there to go for surgery or alternatives.
Trust me, I've gained weight.
Eat sleep Eat sleep. No carrying weights. No jogging. No swimming. No ironning clothes. No washing clothes. No sleeping sideways. No reaching or raising up my right arm. No turning right at a sharp turn. Totally Noooo movement at all.
It's tough adapting to this new life, but I'm coping well, alhamdulillah :)
"No wonder Kings are usually fat." lol
I'm not sure why I'm not so disappointed when I knew I'm out for another year of pol-ite rugby. I realise rugby, women and hot cash are not everything in life ;)
When you are optimistic, life becomes normal and you will be happy.

Oh! Did I mentioned I have been worrying about this, what if this injury becomes a lifetime? How am I going to get married and satisfy my wife siaaa??? *cheeky wink*
hahaa!

This is random.
Looking back at my past relationships, I can laugh my ass out loud. lol!
I can't believe how ridiculous & naive I could be. I was too "tight-head".
I get jealous easily. I feel insecure everytime my gf looks so pretty and others look at her. I imagined things that I shouldn't be imagined. And I want things to be perfect!
Imagine how boyish I was. lol!
ah those days :)
There's always first time in everything

Even Spectators can get Injured !

I've lost the best moments in life yet I've gained some priceless moments in life.
Yesterday was a good example.
To my friends who did not know, I pop out my shoulder again.
It was scary yet hilarious. My friends were playing badminton outside the class at level 6. There were about 30 plus students there and I was just cheering and raising my hands up and my shoulder suddenly popped out!
At first, they thought I was playing, but when Faheezah heard the Bone-sound and my expression was cramped, she knew that i popped my shoulder out again.
This time was scary, I couldn't breathe. Thank god my DSES friends were there.
They tried placing it back to its original place and guess what, it became worst. hahaha so you can imagine that, "tulang makin lari siot"
They didnt give up, they tried again and finally it went back to its orginal place.
A strong feel of relief.
Here's the joke of the day, my friends were asking me
"ape sia kau nak bilang doctor? I was cheering my friends and it pops out? hahahaha! ah! you just tell the doctor you fell down"
hahahah!
I asked my friends after that, "eh aku maseh handsome tak"
hahahahaha I felt so unglam lorrr
Minutes later, the ambulance came and it was a total chaotic on level 6. They even took video. hahahaah!
It was the first time taking an ambulance and I must say it felt special with 2 chicks sitting beside me. It was pleasurable. haha!
It was even better when I was in the hospital !
Hot nurses everyhere !
I felt so special really! haha
So the doctor came and spoke to me.
Alhamdulillah there isnt need of surgery, but just an urgent appointment with the specialist.
It was one of the best moments in life I'll never forget.

THANK YOU to DSES students who helped me in any ways ;
Those who helped to place my shoulder back to its original place and to those who cheered me up during the pain.
It was a fun experience.
:) Thank you

One of my friends said something which I literally laughed mins ago.
She told me not to wave at her if I see her outside. hahahahaha! since I cannot raise up my right arm or else it will pop out again.

Sigh. I have been waiting for a year to play rugby again and now, it's gone.
There's no way I can get fit again within 3 months.
Sigh.

On a brighter note, Alhamdulillah it didnt happen during a rugby game. Or else, it will be worst :)

what is your deepest fear ?

I think about you, all the time lil star.

Happy Pills

What makes me happy?

4 pm onwards on friday, whole of Saturday and Sunday before 6 pm.

Why?

School ends at 330pm on Friday and school resumes on Monday.
The thought of going to school on monday feels so sian.
wahahaha

I understand now why I am unable to adapt to RP's problem solving and the systematic learning processes.

I didn't intend to create or copy blindly a model that would be the answer to the problems; but instead, to model creative problem solving

:)

" Trying to grow up is hurting, you know. You make mistakes. You try to learn from them, and when you don't, it hurts even more. And sometimes doing the right thing is not always the right thing "

Sometimes, I'm tired of being a mr-nice-guy.
Assholes always end up with decent girls while nice guys end up with bitches.

1 January 2010

New Year has always been fantastic.
Spending time with my family has always been the top priority.
Wild Wild Wet for the birthday girl ! ("D)

I went to Wild wild wet on New Year and I came across a group of people.
I overheard their conversation which made me laugh on the spot.

"YOU SURE YOU CAN 'SHAVE' HER IF SHE DROWN?"

The person was suppose to say "save" instead of "shave"

ahahahahhahahahahaahahahahahahahahha
(shave what siaaa)

RP boring nak mampos!

My 2010 Resolution?
Looking forward for 2011 !
2011 is going to be fcuking awesome !

Year 2010? 2020? 3010? 3020?

What's time in hakikat?
What's new year?

My Mom's "Sambal Belacan" is the Best !

I went to ITE College East today and I bumped onto some people who made a great impact in my life.
I smiled widely and my heart was pumping so quickly.
I realised I've not been happy and laughed like I used to since I entered the "new school".
I've built too many good memories in ITE.
ITE has made me stronger person and provide eye opener experiences.
Unfortunately, I have to face reality.
3 years in this new school definitely won't be easy.
Like Zullo said, "Ade Hikmah di sebaliknye"
(Now I wish there's a background music while I'm typing this. hahahahah)

Genting next year with Zullo, Insyallah.

In Reality, What's the Meaning of Friendship?

28 December 2009 - Amigos "Reunion"
- Futsal at Bt Permai and movie Avatar
- Dinner with Zullo at Seah Im & window shop at vivo city
- Zullo introduce me to Zara, not a person but the shop- theclothes!
- I've never been in Zara before. lol you may call me old fashion or whatsoever but I seriously prefer simple stuffs. I wish we all live during native, Easy and simple, just wear a couple of leaves to cover our "spongebob & squarepants" perhaps?

This day was awesome. The laughter, the teases and the updates, well, at least it kills off the pain in my head.
I had great conversations with zullo and we are planning to head to Genting next year, just the two of us perhaps? lol
Frankly speaking, I feel that school holidays have just started.
I'm not ready to be back in school, but I have to face reality.
Be positive or else "sway" feeling will appear *wide grin*

Mens'health urban athlon is coming soon. I am looking forward.
Imagine marathon plus ninja warrior, how cool can that be!
Mcdaddy asked me to participate, I'm not ready I guess?
i wouldn't want to risk my injury.I'm giving a huge priority to rugby pol-ite 2010.
So I decided to participate in the event as a volunteer.
It's going to be fucking awesome for sure!

One of the greatest things that impact my wondeful life.
I am neither proud nor feel the sense of "fortunate" that I have been single and not seeing anyone for almost a year.
Honestly, I have never been in a single status since I was 12. In the past, I will be in a new relationship within months after a fail relationship. haha
It is hilarious reminiscing those "childhood" days.

I have imagined living in a single lifehood, taking care of my partially blind yet inspirational mom, and by the time I am old, I will buy myself a home in Nepal, on the green mountains where I can see nothing except nature.
I can imagine myself having a cup of tea while admiring the sight of nature.
No worries on electrical bills bla bla bla.

Every relationship is unique and there will always be something new to learn.
The most memorable I have learnt from these past relationships is,
understanding a woman.
It takes great courage, great mind and patience to handle it, trust me boys.
You have to fall to learn to pick yourself up on your own.

Nevertheless, 2009 is coming to its end and I am leaving these memories on the table,
and for a positive start of 2010, I call it,
"2010 - Where Boys become Men"

A wake up call to every one of us.

Always in our heart,
Muhammad Afiqhizami Bin Ghazali.
15/10/1989 - 13/12/2009
Al-Fateha.

No Specs No Geek

I listen to Middle east music now. Don't ask why.
i think they are awesome. i feel relax and calm. it cures the headache, at least for awhile. haha
Oh yes did i mentioned, I DON'T NEED A SPECS?! lol. I was so relieved when the optometrist said the degree is very minimal and my eye sight is still in good condition (alamak condition macam quality barang pulak lol)
wooo!
*no geeky Superman*
lol

Superman??

Look! it's a bird! it's a plane! Nooo. It's Sanjay ! lol
I came across this video and I read one of the comments. It was hilarious!
the person commented "S stands for what? Sanjay? hahahaha"

I am officially in a relationship.

"Wish you were here bro! haha"

This was a text message from Fad Hogan at 2346, 12 December 2009.
I imagine now , they must be dancing, cheering here and there, having fun looking at ladies, popping some sodas, plucking some hair (who knows) and many more.

Where are they now exactly?

They are enjoying themselves like some african bushmen at Zouk Out.
Half Naked, showing their Man boobs and perhaps a lil cleavage. Okay yucks, I shouldn't have imagine more. lol

next time my brothers. When I have recovered, and fats are gone, muscles turn into real muscles (unlike polo boys) lol!

Anyway, I am here to announce,
that I am officially in a relationship with my new pair of boots!
2 of them in fact, one for trainings, and the other for tournaments.
I'm still thinking of giving them names. titi and taga maybe? haha

Apparently, I've been in love with yellow recently. ( don't ask why )
So whenever I see something striking and it's yellow, I find it rather, pretty.
yeah yeah yellow yellow dirty fellow, who cares. lol

i'm planning to use this Nike T90 for trainings. Dad said it looks better for tournaments, but performance wise, err nah.
Oh ya! Bought it for only 50 bucks! Can You believe it?! lol



Next, Adidas Predator X-FG. I am deeply in love with her. She's not only comfortable and gorgeous but also, it's what every man dreams of and wants.
When i wear it, i feel turn on, seriously! lol




When I'm 35 years of age, I am going to buy a closet/cabinet/shelves that are specially for all my boots. I'm going to collect them, as part of a new hobby.
(Of course, when I have $$$ la ) lol

Childhood Movies 999x Better Than Twilight

You must be wondering
"what the hell is he up to during his Leave of Absence for 3 days, not taking Understanding Test 2, yet calm and relax?"

The fact is, I've gotten 3 days of mc due to the cluster headache and,
I have been watching childhood movies lately, my generation of course as far as I am concerned. lol
Movies such as Space jam, The Mask, Ghostbusters, The God Must Be Crazy, Back to the Future and Power Rangers the Movie.
I'm still trying to recall more tho.
Bernice mentioned Sister Act and I'm going to watch it this weekends!


*Save $10.50 duit aku.*

Chewing Gum + Helium

Watch this!
Awesome!




Okay now watch this! This is even hilarious!



The Power of Editting. lol

Facebook Facts

Facebook was originally named TheFaceBook and it was developed by Harvard student Mark Zuckerberg. The first use of the FaceBook was on the Harvard campus and it was limited only to Harvard students. Soon the FaceBook spread like wild fire around the other major U.S. Universities. Mark Zuckerberg dropped the Harvard and pursued his facebook dream to become one of the 4th most-trafficked websites in the world with more than 90 million active users. The FaceBook website is built on PHP-MySQL technology and it is probably the most popular PHP website ever built. Interesting fact is that the facebook.com domain was purchased for $200,000 and FaceBook has more than 24 million photos uploaded daily.

Esperanto (one who hopes)

Some of my friends asked about what I would like to do later in life and it hit me real hard.
I just realised my goal/ dream in life is huge!

What's my dream in reality?

I would love to work with the United Nation one day, as a Scientist basically in nature conservation or research in understanding our earth better (a biologist perhaps), and a lecturer in NUS or NTU at the same time.

I find it impossible and ridiculous to achieve this goal, but I believe impossible is nothing.
(Chey like adidas pulak. lol)

And perhaps when I have achieved my goal, I will be too happy until I will look like this

flannelmouthed

Hi, I'm helping out a friend, Zahid. He faces a minor problem.
Hear his story - Zahid likes this girl for a couple of years, about 4 years until today. He never express how he feels. He assumed the girl does not even know.
In the past, when she was ill and still insisted to go to school, he woke up early in the morning, hoping to bump into her and send her to school.
He did not mention his intentions that he was very worried. I find it silly tho it was sweet.
Here is the next part. He waited for her at a nearby lrt station which she always took as a mode of transport to school. He waited for many hours, yet no sign of her.
Disappointment as always, he went home. I thought he was going to inform her, but NO!
He did this many occasion times, hoping to bump into her unintentionally, some was succes but most of them did not happen.
Once, Zahid was trembling and shivering. She called him and cried suddenly. Zahid did not know what to do, he felt pain when he heard the sound of tears over the phone. He did not even dare to ask what happen, even until today -.-

I admire Zahid (not in a gay style). He never told anyone except me about his life stories - what he did, what he faces etc, let me tell you, it was a huge sacrifice!
It takes great courage for a normal person to face such things and huge load & responsibility lies on his shoulders.
I said to him once, " Goodness me, If I am a woman, I will ask you to propose me straight away" lol

Anyway, I did asked him regarding about this minor situation he faces.
"Why don't you tell her now? You are making your life difficult, you know mate??"
He said, it was not difficult to tell her, it was simply, not the right time.
"4 years of waiting and you are telling me not a single minute is the right time??"
He knodded.
I asked again, " why not now?"
She's attached.
Okay I felt silly for a moment -.-

"Hafiz, have you ever felt that you were destined with someone for the rest of your life, you have no clue but your instinct tells you clearly and thus, you have hopes in believing it"
Instead of helping him, I said, "No, I have never felt that"
Another silly move -.-

"It's hard to explain and choose the right choice of words fiz, but you will never know what will happen tomorrow and, if you believe it, you will believe it to happen and insyallah it wil happen."

Today, he is still waiting. We will never know what tomorrow holds for us.
Instead of moving on, Zahid still choose to believe it.
Do you think he made the right choice?
I am not good at giving advices.

On a separate note, last weekeend was awesome, it felt different. I volunteered myself this year Standard Chartered marathon instead of running for the full marathon. The job was simple- Guide the runners where to put their bags.
However instead of doing a good job,
Carl'z and I spent most of our time sleeping in the Esplanade (since it was a hot & long day, it would be better to cool ourselves in the cooling air conditioner Esplanade), and we had fun at the padang. The games at the padang (kids zone) were awesome. I told the person in charge " You should have this games in the adults zone too dude" lol.

Okay now comes the bad news, about my health obviously.
The pain in my head is a disaster. My appointment to see a specialist- neurologist is on january. I seriously hope everything is well now, or soon.
I hope the beginning of 2010 brings no bad news.

I waste $10.50.

So apart from having a bad day (something really bad happened to me which is too personal, all I can say is that my health is getting from bad to worst), I went to watch New Moon at Grand Cathay with the ladies.

God! I swear I will never ever watch this idiotic (waste money waste time) movie.
I watched twilight in the past and I was always curious "Why on earth people are going crazy over this stupid Twilight? Are they being voodoo or something?"
The fact is, the movie is rubbish! The wolves? They are not wolves! They are puppies!
The vampires? They are not cool at all. The three strongest vampires who kept sitting down in the 'castle'? (Bapak Vampire) I call them Dracula! They remind me of those old folks movies with Dracula trying to suck blood. It's nonsense man!
Jacob? lol I am not denying he has a well-groomed body but you call him Hot? LOL
for goodness sake, he has a big nose! Look for details! lol. I'm saying this , yeah I am jealous. lol why? because why people are so blind! Perhaps I should have a big nose and nice body so that people will say that I'm hot. LOL!
Esther or Edward or whatever his name is, he looks like he has aids! Gosh. And he reminds me of the Shrek- the evil prince!

I bet, if you love Twilight, you are going to love Bollywood.
It's better, 3 hours including singing and dancing, plus better love story.

Urgh. Watching Twilight is like tasting Ice Garlic + Rotten banana milkshake + Vinegar!
There goes my $10.50!
Do You Know I can buy 5 Double cheeseburgers with $10.50?!
*Kick and punching my pillow*

$%$$@#@#$%$%$^%^

You're Beautiful

(courtesy of James Blunt - You're beautiful)


There is a malay saying, "Jangan suke sangat sampai lupa dunia, nanti suke suke dapat duka", which means you might get bad luck if you have too much fun and forget the world. Do you believe this claim? =P

My massive headache was getting worst unfortunately after I had so much fun on last Monday. I went to see the doctor again and I was required to see a specialist - neurologist. This pain in my head might caused by rugby for playing for 8 years (side effects)
I'm making an appointment with NUH at the current moment.
I'm hoping for the best :)

Candiru Fish In Your Penis ?

If you ever swim in the Amazon and Oranoco Rivers of South America please think twice before urinating in the water.
Fish called Candiru or Carnero is attracted by urine smell (urea and ammonia) and it can insert it self into the penis or vagina while urinating. Then penis fish lodges itself somewhere in the urinary tract with its spines and it uses its mouth for feeding by sucking the blood.
It is almost impossible for fish to survive inside of the human body. Removal of the fish is extremely hard due to the spines and if problem is not treated it can result in removal of the genitals.

Do you believe this claim?
Go do research! =P

Synchronicity Romance

I was having a few conversations with some friends in msn and they asked me a common question. "Why are you still single?" "So have you found a new gf?"
"How's your love life?" "Any updates on your love life, found a suitor?"
sigh
The fact is, I don't, and these questions are pressuring me. It's a miracle that I am
not seeing anyone for almost 9 months. I said it's a miracle because, I was labelled once "The guy who can't live without girls." So in the past, I'll be with another girl easily after a break up. It is true, because you have to move forward. But, I realise something new in this chapter of life. Don't get me wrong. I never give up in love nor I AM GAY (fyi)although I had numerous failure in relationships.
"You simply keep meeting the wrong girls" quote by Nasrin

Apparently, Men tend to be aggressive and do not appreciate when they achieved something they want. So, in such cases, when a man got a woman of his choice successfully, sooner or later, he will take her for granted. When you glaze at each others eyes for the first time, it felt heaven. Things seem so perfect during the process, and so you get into the relationship. However, conflicts will definitely happen later, and women will start to complain and cry,"Before we got together he was so nice to me, he did this and that, but now, he ignores me and don't show much concern."

I don't want to be in this situation. I am very afraid.
Get what I meant?I don't want to be this type of men.
I feel in this period of time is the best moment for me to be strong, learn, analyse and confident that these problems will not occur in my future relationship, because I know, I can feel it, that I will love the angel more than myself.

Remember, I am sharing thought this based on common observation and tutorial thinking. So it can be irrelevant, and worst case, totally rubbish.
* Every relationship is unique. *
Moreover, I am just a simple & humble servant in this world.

Life is all about love, but that does not mean love must only comes from the opposite sex. (Okay Now I sound like a gay. HAHAH!)
Always remember this. There's more important things that needs to be loved.

Farting Contest

In Japan, public contests were held to see who in a town could fart the loudest and longest. Winners were awarded many prizes and received great recognition.
This is hilarious!

A Reminder to us

First I was dying to finish my high school and start college
And then I was dying to finish college and start working.
Then I was dying to marry and have children. And then I was dying for my children to grow old enough so I could go back to work. But then I was dying to retire.
And now I'm dying. And suddenly I realized I forgot to live.

Please don't let this happen to every each of us.
Appreciate your current situation and enjoy each day.
Live Your life.

(I love the photo! Makes my day! lol)

I listen to these everyday

Damn. I'm addicted to these two songs!
Annnd boyzzz, what are you staring at haa. . .
What if this hot woman was once a man?
bahahahaha!

Twin Brother in his Stomach

India resident Sanju Bhagat always had bit larger stomach, but he got extremely worried when it suddenly started growing bigger and bigger. Thirty year old Sanju Bhagat was rushed to hospital and his stomach condition was diagnosed as an stomach tumor. To a doctor's surprise it was something extremely different and very unusual. From the birth Sanju had his twin brother living inside of him like a parasite. This phenomenon is extremely rare since parasite twin brother has to survive by leaching on its brother’s blood supply. This bizarre medical conditions is called fetus in fetu and it occurs when a fetus gets trapped inside of its twin. Doctor Mehta who was operating Sanju Bhagat said: "First, one limb came out, then another limb came out. Then some part of genitalia, then some part of hair, some limbs, jaws, limbs, hair."
Watch the video. Warning : Maybe quite disturbing
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jzwDyEmpC5Q&feature=player_embedded

The Value of a Smile

The value of a smile is priceless, yet it is the cheapest, easiest, most rewarding and most sincere gift to anyone that crosses your path. A smile makes a person's day, anybody's day even a stranger's day. A smile is infectious. Start infecting people with your smile today.

A smile is nature's best antidote for discouragement. It brings rest to the weary, sunshine to those who are sad, and hope to those who are hopeless and defeated.

A smile is so valuable that it can't be bought, begged, borrowed, or taken away against your will. You have to be willing to give a smile away before it can do anyone else any good.

So if someone is too tired or grumpy to flash you a smile, let him have one of yours anyway. Nobody needs a smile as much as the person who has none to give.

Francie Baltazar-Schwartz

Lacuna

I came across this photo (above)
and the idea of "minahs" came across my mind.
They look kinda freaky uhh. haas

Anyway I had an amazing time in a photoshoot today!
Filled with laughter and joyous experience!
It reminds me of those ITE days :D

I'm looking forward for tomorrow.
There's going to be high elements adventure after school and for sure, it's going to be splendid!

Cheers



Oh by the way! I watched 2012 recently and it's utterly rubbish!
I almost dozzed off. It was boring! I don't understand why people gave *thumbs up* for the movie.
haas no offense folks

You guys gotta read this. It happened minutes ago.
I had to charge my notebook and so I had to bend down to switch on the plug,
guess what happen?
I accidentally knocked my head onto the wall.
Surprisingly, I felt better than ever!
The massive headache is gone at the moment (hopefully gone forever) :D
I found the solution finally.
So people, if you feel massive headache, knock your head onto the wall iye.

Cheers
Hafiz Hussin

"Online Shop"

Hi, any high-tech girls here??
I am selling these handbags.

Just kidding.
I think these handbags looks awesome, for lady gaga perhaps?
=P

Love is Bitter

Archaeologists found near Mantua, 25 miles south of Verona, Italy, two ancient human skeletons locked in a tender embrace. The two prehistoric bodies, which seem to cuddle closely while facing each other for eternity, are supposed to have been buried at the same time, probably following a sudden and tragic death. Maybe they hide the most beautiful and sad story of doomed love… who knows!
Awesome iye!

You miserable tomatoes!

Please go away massive headache
You are ruining my awesome life