after surfing and reading up alot on the net.

i concluded that i MAY be suffering from Dysthymia for a few months..

Dysthymia,
sometimes referred to as chronic depression,
is a less severe form of depression but the depression symptoms linger for a long period of time, perhaps years.
Those who suffer from dysthymia are usually able to function normally,
but seem consistently unhappy.
It is common for a person with dysthymia to also experience major depression at the same time - swinging into a major depressive episode and then back to a more mild state of dysthymia.
This is called double depression.

Symptoms of dysthymia include:

1. Difficulty sleeping (X) - oh yes! i can onli fall asleep after lying in bed fer an hour. worst still, i wake up a few times in the middle of the night.
2. Loss of interest or the ability to enjoy oneself (X) - well, true....
3. Excessive feelings of guilt or worthlessness (X)
4.Loss of energy or fatigue (X) - YES!! i feel veri tired these few weeks easily!!
5. Difficulty concentrating, thinking or making decisions (X) - yup. i'm getting super forgetful.
6. Changes in appetite (X) - can u imagine? i cant even finish half of my packed lunch.
7. Observable mental and physical sluggishness (X) - absolutely.
8. Thoughts of death or suicide - not yet.

as quoted from http://www.medicinenet.com/

I GOT 7 OUT OF 8 SYMPTOMS. OH MY GOSH!!

note to self: i must keep telling myself to be HAPPY!!

承认吧。
不是没时间，不是工作累，
更不是最近比较忙。
而是，

我已经不是你生命里那么重要的朋友了。

所以才会不想联络。
所以才会没有话说。
所以才会难过。

人生嘛。
本来就是这样。
没有永恒。
我也很习惯生活常常改变。

有十个吃喝玩乐的朋友，
不如有一个知己。

我看开了。

让我先承认吧。
我已经很累了。
走不下去了。
也已经心灰意冷了。

P.S. if there's sth to make u sad, there's sure to be sth that will make u happy too. God is fair. (:

this is so cute!! LOL!
a fren from my cca, zhi cheng, drew this during our msn chat.
i bet he dunno that i copied and blog it here.
so cute!!! LOL!!
i like the smile, the balloon, and the angel ring! LOL!

my mood was a little heavy after the meal with the girls.
a billion things to tink abt.
when can i get enlighten? LOL!!
but i'm over it already.
becos i simply appeared online and quite a number of ppl talked to mi to keep mi super busy.

anyway, i applied to go to Indonesia from 14th to 18th June to do some volunteering work.
i tink i will get the answer by tml.
i hope... well, i dun realli hope fer anything.

it's scary how xinyi became a stranger.
not only a stranger to her friends, but a stranger to herself.

AND.
i'm not trying to show off or wadeva over here.
we shd get over this childish way of thinking anyway.
i am trying veri hard to reject meeting some ppl.
some ppl = ppl whose motives aren't jus simply wanting to be normal friends with u.
i can jus feel it. i can.
i feel everything towards them, other than being interested.
so well, shall sharpen up my skills of rejecting them. RAR!
oh, one of them has done rather impressive things. but no, i dun feel anything.

P.S. 1. i have no close buddies for the time being. becos i haben been toking to any for weeks.

P.S. 2. u can roll ur eyes when i tok abt the Confucius, but i onli wanna say, knowledge can find u onli after u open up to them. i shall stop toking to anyone abt it. =X

P.S. 3. even if i do sound emo, dun worrie, i had been emo for ages and i'm still kicking alive. (:

P.S. 4. mummie haben make any phonecall back home. this worries mi ALOT. ):

this is jus one of the many photos from chalet.

we were at McDonald's in East Coast Park b4 we set out for nite cycling.
yup! that's Ching in yellow shirt beside mi.
haha!
oh, tat guy on the other side is Sam.
he is veri annoying.
the guy far back, is Kok Ping. he's a veri funny person.

these few days, i feel that my world is turning.
my priorities are changing.
my activities and commitments are changing.
my attitude is changing.
my contacts are changing.
well, alot more to catch up with.
i'm still trying to adapt to all of them.

the truth is, i do feel alittle scare.
Strength and Courage. i nid more of them.

anyway, everything is falling in so nicely that it seems that i shd jus flow with it.

P.S. it will never be the same again.

HELLOOOO!!! (: (: (:

chalet was GOOD!
it was supposed to be fun, but it ended up being SUPER FUN!
jus tat most of us were all tired out from the first nite - NIGHT CYCLING.
well, my wish din came true, becos i injured 2 of my toes during the trip.
nah, small issue.
Learnt a few stupid games - Fuzzy Wazzy, how many strings are there, etc! LOL!

The elections on Saturday went veri smoothly,
too smooth to be true.
i rmbed having the super sour feeling in the stomach fer a few good hours.
yup, i did it. all thanks to the support from the ppl who voted for mi.
i dun feel exceptionally excited abt it thou.
i actualli feel like i'm on a mission given to me by God.
it feels like it was all pre-destined.
i have to do the job and i will do it right.
so i will be more involved in my CCA for abt 1 yr starting from 07/06/08.
i'm preparing fer it.
thanks Freddie! i realli got it.
i will honour my word and try to give u most of the help tat u nid wif ur NYAA Gold. (:

Mummy is flying to Indonesia fer a week to do some volunteering job.
maybe i got my volunteering blood from her.
i have a great mummy, i shall pray every night for her safe return.

P.S. i'm not extremely happy abt receiving the new post. but i'm extremely sad that i will nid to hand ryan over to another tutor, even thou i'm sure he will be in good hands. sad. veri, veri sad. 我不舍得.

okie! i will jus roughly update alittle b4 i go missing fer the next few days!

24/5/08 - Elections Day, 12pm @SADeaf.
shit. i HABEN write my speech as a coordinator nominee.
i'm a little scare now.
becos if i fail, i will automatically run for centrehead which means i will have a chance of working wif........
OMG.
well, if tat is how things are gonna be, so be it.

24 - 26/5 - RSPHI clementi centre's chalet @ ECP!!
there will be night cycling. i hope i will stay injuries-free. =X
i hope to get myself tan too.
too many ppl are saying i'm fair.
"snowie". this sounds disgusting.

okie! tat's it.
i got alot of things to study for Jap.
i'm lagging behind! shits!
i haben packed my bag for chalet.
i haben write my speech.
shits! shits! shits!

anyway, someone from California Fitness called mi today.
seems like they are having a promotion till sunday @Novena Square.
they are giving away free 2 weeks membership for ppl to enjoy all the facilities in there.
yoga, gym, dance lessons, spa, bla bla bla.
if u are interested, jus go!! and try to look for Darren, he is the one who called mi up.
he will get to earn some commission, so why not?
i also asked how they got my number, and even my full name,
the guy said it was from a buddy system thing, and someone wrote my name down.
wth. since when did i have a fren who is a member of CF?
funny huh...

this reminds mi of the uncanny number of times i received calls from strangers.
wadeva~

P.S. i got myself totally wet in the heavy rain today. hope i wont fall sick. bye!

Are u a filial child?

If u can provide for ur parents,
makes sure they have 3 good meals everyday,
buy them everythng tat they need,
are u alreadi considered filial?

No, u are not.
If u also keep a dog,
u feed him thrice a day,
buy him some accessories,
isn't there sth wrong wif how filial u are?
ur parents are receiving the same treatment as the dog!

everyday our parents worry for us.
There is onli one thing tat we cant stop our parents from worrying.
that is when we, children, fall sick.
u cant make them not worry abt u when u're sick.
so a filial child should try to make ur parents worry for u onli when u're sick.
all other things, at all other times, try ur best to make them not worry.
dun make them worry abt ur studies,
worry abt who u befriend,
worry abt whether u have taken ur meals, etc.
they got a billion and one thing to worry abt their child everyday.

take good care of urself.
start treating ur parents right.

well, i concluded all these from the first chapter of my book.
cas, u are so gonna get the most preaching from mi after i finished the book.
LOL!

if my kor kor and mei mei are gonna read this.
pls stop letting mummy nag at us.
i'm trying my best to go wif her wishes, i nid u guys to work wif mi to maximise the effect.
wad's so difficult wif jus sleeping earlier,
go immediately to the dining table after she called,
coming home earlier so she doesn't have to make phonecalls,
tok to her nicely when she is toking to us nicely,
doing anything tat she asked(and wasn't overboard) which will make her happy?
start doing ur life plans okie?
so she will stop worrying.
how long more do u tink she can live?

P.S. not onli to ur own parents. jus simply respect all elders.

today was the second time within a month that a stranger sparked off a conversation wif mi.
with a different purpose luckily - a decent guy.

i was standing in the train.
he asked mi abt my watch.
later, enquired if i am a Uni student, and my major, bla bla bla.

it happened tat he's from SMU, year 1.
he jus started his own tuition centre at Serangoon North Avenue 1. (i was impressed.)
he needs bio teacher. (i'm gonna tok to freddie when i sees him online.)
he also needs chemistry teacher.
it's secondary/jc level for both subjects. the class will have ard 4 to 5 students.
it's either weekday nites, or weekends morning, 9am to 1pm.
he pays his teachers $25/hr.
(cs, are u interested? no cpf involved oh. LOL!)
well, i got his number wif mi. heh! $$!

anyway, i cant believe wad i said to a few frens today.
i'm so amazed wif myself.
but i will work harder.
to become a person whose words have power in them. heh!

P.S. the book is realli GOOD.

I'M BACKED!! (: (: (:

i had a super, duper long weekend filled with both work and play!
omg! i spotted a pretty black dress at Forever 21 when i went shopping wif Ching on Sunday.
i want it~~~~ LOL!
Shopping wasn't the main activity of the day.
It was KARAOKE. muahahaha!!
but i was quite pissed tat the stupid "box" company jus cut off our songs without any warning.
WTH.

Yesterday's plan was realli all LAST MINUTE.
it was planned that i onli have to work at nite.
in the end, i met up wif the boys - hf, uk, cs and darric.
they are like ANGELS on tat day!
but that was onli becos they agreed to come down to CWP. =X
after lunch, they came to my house and we had a short and fast game of my new SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS MONOPOLY!
MUAHAHAHA!
i managed to snatch and be the "Spongebob" in the game. heh!
Then, we rushed off back to CWP to catch Speed Racer.
the truth is, i yawned quite a number of times in the movie.
nono, the movie is good. but i onli slept for 5 hours. =X
i spent a good 6 hours with them before i rushed off to work!

so, the plan was that i go home and sleep right after work.
then, out of the blue,
Boss said that she wants to treat us to supper at the other restaurant of hers.
they serve yakitori! YUMMY!!
(it was realli surprising becos we sort of screwed up a few things the nite b4. =X)
B4 that i was still thinking i might be having eating disorder these few days.
in the end, my colleagues and i ate like we din eat anything fer days. =X
i drank Plum Wine with them, and another glass of Chu-Hi(this is Jap, it is actualli sho-chu wif soda.)
SHIOK. esp. with the meat. =X =X
(my colleagues said that i looked pretty wif those rosy cheeks from the alcohol. LOL! *暗爽*)
yest was Vesak Day, and i ate beef. shits. haha!
the best part is that, Boss took care of the taxi fare too!
YAY! YAY! YAY!
Reached home at around 1 plus. =X

oh, i cant sleep due to the FREAKING WARM WEATHER.
so i woke up at 7 plus this morning.
it was so warm, i decided to go for a swim.
i hope it burnt away last nite's supper. heh! LOL!
this time round, there is no stupid uncle who tries to correct my strokes. =X



lastly, i received this beautiful present on Sunday nite!
i forgot wad is the specific name fer it.
there is a clock behind the Mickey cover.
and it's PINK. woo! LOL!
it's a special gift from a friend. i'm honoured. (:

P.S. shits. i haben revise my Jap. BYE! (:

*colleague gave mi a few slices of lemon on a plate. presentation was veri bad.*

xinyi: "aiyo! put the lemon nicely on the plates! put nicely! put nicely!"
colleague: "it's okie!! it doesn't matter! u just ask the customer to look at it nicely!!"

i dunno whether i still have the same kind of humour as normal beings.
but i felt tat this was realli funny.
LOL!*

anyway, i left the house for Orchard early this morning.
after doing wad i need to do, i went to Kinokuniya - the onli place tat i feel like shopping at.
i was looking for this particular book for ages and i finally found it!!! (: (: (:


Yea! u din get it wrong! (:
the small print reads:
孝敬之道;
智慧之道；
学习之道.... etc.

i simply love it! =D

i will be so looking forward to 12th of June! OH MY GOODNESS! LOL! the thought of it makes mi SO, SO HAPPY! (: (: (: (: (:

and!!! special thanks to the fren who smsed mi "gambatte kudasai" the other nite! i know u will read this! LOL! please stop laughing to urself. and stop laughing at mi! *RAR!!*
oh ya, i also felt tat u will be somebody in future. (: *sincere* LOL!

P.S. there's onli one thing i need to do wonders in life - fer the more impt ppl in my life to jus believe in me completely.

i got nth special to blog abt.
becos life is good the moment monday started. (: (:

anyway, life at home is good now too.
i managed to make Mummy happy on Mother's Day. (yay!!)
i managed to keep cool abt my spoilt property, din even breathe a word abt it. (woohoo!)
i managed to do some housework. tml i shall change the bedsheets.
After a series of unfortunate events, i am, once again, gonna take charge of paying all the household bills. my brother was doing it since he ORD last Oct.
water & electricity bills.my phone bills.mummy's phone bills.house's phone bills.
yup. not alot la. just a few hundred bucks. *roll eyes* LOL!
money will come in!
i'm not worrying~

没错。
他们的确是我的负担。
不过，
是我愿意扛起来的负担。

P.S. 天生我才必有用！千万不要觉得自己没用！(:

things will be fine alrite.

日子虽然难熬，但一定熬得过去！

girls, i am fine.
jus let mi cool down a couple of weeks more and i will be back to full-form.
i got a great deal of things to handle recently.
they shd all be over and done wif when June comes.

i am having a super busy week ahead.
i'm gonna work 6 days next week.
i have gotta give tuition on my onli rest day - saturday.
if nth goes wrong, i will have 4 tuition sessions next week.
hopefully, i will be able to sing karaoke fer onli ten bucks on sunday afternoon! hee!
Japanese lessons are so intensive tat it will make mi real busy!
Gonna start teaching a new student who lives at Bukit Merah.

I WILL BE FINE! (:

P.S. so it wasn't tat the pants expanded. i shrinked.

there's a bad ulcer at the back of my mouth.
ouch.

to the fren who got a bad scratch on the back!
thank u oh.
i will be okie. (:

P.S. the moon was veri pretty tonite. i always wondered, will there be another "you" and "me" in tat big universe out there?

okie. i decided to be back.
=X
LOL!

if u tink tat i was jus being emo.
u are so damn wrong.
it is such a common feeling which i get all the time tat i see it as normal.
anyway,
althou i'm back blogging, it doesn't mean tat things are getting better.
things were actualli getting worst at home.
financially,
it's not realli tat bad, i can still buy mummy a decent mother's day gift.
i jus nid to restrict myself to purchase onli household items.
strictly no personal spending althou i spent quite an amt last nite wif angela.
she is my bestie and i onli got to see her once in the last 3 weeks.
she is worth spending money for.

things are worst becos i nid to keep hold of my recent even-more-fiery-than-usual temper.
i am holding it down, realli hard.
for the longest time,
i would always get VERI UPSET when MY THINGS got messed up by OTHER ppl.
i could mess them up myself, spoil them,
but at least i did it all by myself,
i cant have anyone to blame and hate for.
(do i share this trait wif anyone or i'm alone in this?!)

i'm realli against sharing things(non-living ones) tat are solely MINE.
but i learnt to jus close one eye and share them.
now, the least i can expect is for them to be taken good care of.
BUT THEY WERE NOT.

it's like,
i am walking on a narrow pathway.
u suddenly came into the picture.
i took one step back and let u pass.
yet, u were rude enough to push mi completely off the pathway.
tat's it, dude.
u did it.
u made mi real angry.

fer all those times, i flared up immediately.
now i'm learning to cope wif the anger when i found out my favourite things were all spoilt.
i am still keeping cool and onli blog abt it.

欣怡！你是很能忍的！

忍！

P.S. i feel so intimidated nowadays. even insects(i hate them!!) bullied mi. yest was cockroach(!!!!) on the tray of my food. (puke*) today was a brown beetle landing on my hair while i was walking home, and i shook it off violently with fright. it was onli after i reached home, i felt a stung on my arm. *JUMPED FROM THE SHOCK* and screamed for my mummy to get it off me. it was on my back the whole time after it left my hair. WTH.

i guess the peace tat i enjoyed fer the last few months have ended.
like i foresaw, it was the "peace b4 the storm".

now, the storm is here.
i wont be meeting any of u to do anything extravagant.
i cant learn dancing anymore.
i will try my best to keep my appointments.

it's jus the same old problem again.

i feel super screwed up at this point of time.

family- slightly negative, thou things are good btw mi and mum.
studies-positive.
friends-negative.
love-negative.
work-positive.
finance-super negative.

overall: moderately negative.

i originally wanna blog abt how upset i was over some ppl.
later i decided that it's rude(like how i used to do it to val, i'm sorrie.)
and i wasn't realli tat great to go ard telling ppl off.

u know,
i haben got the chance to realli wind down after exams.
i wanted to go shopping, sing k, do my hair.
forget it.

i will see where this desperation will drive mi this time round.
i will be strong as always.
tis wont bring mi down. never.
anyway, dun tag/sms/email mi to say sth encouraging pls.
it will make mi feel real bad becos i know i had been blogging my problems more than anything else.
life is jus bad fer mi, i guess.
it will get better, but not now maybe.

P.S.1. kor is smoking in his room again. i guess he dunno tat i can smell it from the balcony even thou he closed his room's door. i could not understand why he still breathe tat poisonous-stick tat took away daddy's life. he got a brain like i do. why?

P.S.2. i will stop blogging fer awhile.
it better to use my time to help mummy do some house chores,
read a book, study my japanese language than sitting in front of this stupid computer and write stupid entries.
could save some electricity too.
good choice!
I AM SERIOUSLY OKIE.
those who met up wif mi will know.

till then guys! bye!

today i found out tat there was this girl from 05S21 who were also in the same Jap class as mi!
LOL!
so funny, she called mi the nickname tat her class's girls gave mi: 剪刀！
u see, it started wif the "scissors, paper, stone" game back in IJC....
(Ching, i also got someone i know le.. heh heh! LOL!)

Jap lessons was a little difficult today.
my teacher was trying to make us read Jap characters.
*faints*

anyway,
today is jus as normal as any other days.
except tat i met another PUA(sth tat hf taught mi).
i was standing, waiting for the bus.
i missed 5 bus, as it was all full!! and i was terribly unlucky becos i got stucked wif this stranger.
pls read on to find out....

this guy approached mi while i was waiting and asked which bus to take to go back to jurong point.
he said that he wasn't a student of NTU.
now tat i tink of it, it's quite a stupid question, cos there's onli 1 sbs bus serving at the bus stop.
after exchanging a few lines abt the buses, he popped the question:"so, wad's ur name?"
i tink he saw mi pondered fer a second b4 i answered his question.
after a few more lines, he said tat he lied, he's actualli a student of NTU.
inside me, i was tinking "WTH."

one, he looked like a dumpling to mi, even thou he's tall.
two, he is a real loser.
three, he is blind.
four, he carries some gut.

tat's all.
i hope i would NEVER EVER bump into him in sch even thou i bid goodbye by saying:"see ya ard in sch."

P.S. he tot i was a year 3 or sth. thanks huh~ i know i dun look of my age. i totally hate him!!!

"Hajimemashite!
watashi wa xinyi desu.
singapore kara desu.
dozo yoroshiku!*bow*"

LOL!
yes! i had my first Japanese language lesson today!
and i give it a "LOL!!!".
the teacher was funny as she speaks alot of Japanese and the class became veri quiet becos we dun understand wad the hell she was speaking!
then u could see ppl giggling.
i cant help but laugh along wif them too. LOL!
althou i had no frens going to classes wif mi, i was lucky to have someone sitting beside me.
so i got a ready partner to practise dialogues wif mi!
heh!
it's a small class and it's fun! haha!
it's like going back to kindergarden where u repeats after the teacher. haha!

the problem is,
i'm learning to write the basics characters called hiragana.
(there are 3 writing systems fer Japanese if u are unaware.)
there's a dictation tml fer 20 characters.
like a is あ, i is い, u is う, e is え and o is お.
it's difficult okie! i spent one hr memorising onli ten of them.
SHIT.
haha!

okok. i shall go and sleep and wake up early tml.
i crave to swim, but maybe i will jus jog tml.
おやすみなさい！
i'm saying goodnite. (:

hopefully one day i can blog in some simple Japanese and less ppl will know wad i blog. =X
quite contradicting fer a blogger.
aiya. who cares~

P.S. HAPPY B'DAE YIMEI!! (:

"有时候不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重。"
maybe i was too dependent on some ppl.
everything in this world have got to be in a balance.
and it isn't balance now.

my cca coordinator called me up tis afternoon to informed mi tat i was selected as a coordinator nominee fer the cca.
after a few painful hours of weighing the consequences of accepting the offer,
i said yes.
so i will be running fer the position against 2 other girls.
i got to prepare a 5-10 mins speech fer the elections on 24th may.
if i am lucky and got wad it takes, i will be super busy the next academic year.

i have got a confession to make.
i never wanted to get into another commitment, till yest.
thanks to the soap opera last nite,
it made mi determined to go back to my old self.
i realised that i shd stop relying so much on a few people becos i couldn't help but to hold expectations from them.
to prevent further disappointment, i shd get myself busier with some other things that doesn't relate to them.
if i could make my way into uni, doubling myself as a student and a waitress,
it's time i stretch my limit and challenge myself.
studies, work, and cca.
and u know i know i will always try my best to fulfil my responsibilities.

anway, ryan made mi real happy today.
becos of the big smile and wave he gave mi when he saw mi.
made mi feel, at least, someone appreciates my effort and my patience.
played "flying" wif him cos he's real small size.

lastly,
i wanna thanks Ching for being my first listening ear tis afternoon.
I am realli lucky to have met her last summer. (:

P.S. i am sure i will be happier.

5 mins b4 i got on the taxi, i tink the taxi uncle alreadi sensed how desperate i wanna leave tat place.
he looked at mi from his driver seat in the car.
i looked at him from the platform i was sitting down at.
he was a veri kind man.

at ~3.45am...

"Girl, ur area is veri quiet. later after u alighted, uncle will wait fer u to go upstairs."
"huh, no nid la. veri troublesome fer u."
"nono, it's okie. go. go. i'll wait"

and so, i ran upstairs after i alighted.(i dun wan to keep him waiting too long.)
dashed to my windows tat face the road,
and waved to him, who waved back.
thank u, uncle.
this little act of kindness totally warmt my heart.
esp becos i jus walked out on my friends.

my pocket burnt a big hole last nite.
my heart too.

it hurts because the people whom i tot will know mi, actualli dont.
maybe i shd jus spell it out,
i wont ever go ard provoking people.
and even if they provoke me, i will jus hold it down.
tat is the case , till i reach my limit.
so why blame it down on me?
tis is the one thing i cant keep it down,
i feel so 委屈.

it may be due to the heels.
but did anyone of u ask mi abt work?
or maybe it's my fault that i din tell.
(i was deciding to blog abt my sore legs or to send a piece of regards to my fren. obviously, i chose the latter.)
i had been running ard the restaurant fer the last 4 days.
i know u guys work too.
but we do different things when we work.

i know it when i did sth wrong and i will feel bad abt it.
but this time round, it may not be the best thing tat i did, but it's definitely not wrong.
i'm sorrie to jus turned my back, din even bade goodbye and stepped into the taxi.
but i know tat i couldn't smile anymore becos the tears are alreadi at the corner of my eyes.
so it's better that i leave.
those kind of disappointment i held last nite, i never had it for all these years of our friendship.

pls dun try to lecture me.
i tink i got enough last nite to last mi fer life.
yes, i'm egoistic or wadeva u say.
but i say i'm jus a friend, who needs a listening ear.
now, it's too late. i dun wanna tok to any of u abt tis anymore.

i'm still veri sorrie.
i walked out on u guys.
i did not reply any of ur sms-es. (except fer Val who smsed mi a second time.)
and fer being petty becos i still dun feel like toking to any of u.

i must say, i was looking forward to the gathering.
blame it on my innate repulsion to clubbing.

P.S. i looked like i stucked two ping pong balls onto my face.

My dearest friend aka one-beautiful,

i pray for ur guardian angels to hold you tight at night, let you sleep with peace and wake up stronger each day.
For the time being, they will walk with you through all those lonely streets.
Cry if u wan. Jus rmb to wipe away the tears.
i know u are a strong girl.
yes, u are!!
i know how u feel nowadays.
even i felt tat i could die from mine, u would be feeling even more worst.
This time round, it's jus a fall that leave behind a deep scar.
the next time round, the right man will hold u before u fall.
rmb, it takes two hands to clap.
he didn't leave u. You chose to leave him. you walked out on ur own two feets.
so continue walking, and u will see beautiful things coming ur way. (:

it's his loss, anyway.

P.S. don't we all hate idiots who lied and still lead good lives? no, dun worrie. it's jus tat the time hasnt come for them to pay fer all their sins.