ARGH.

I HATE THIS XINYI.

she is lifeless.
no excitement,
no energy,
no joy!

GET HER OUT OF MY SIGHT!!
BRING THE ORIGINAL ONE BACK!!

去死！去死！去死！

P.S. xinyi is suffering from serious split personality. dun worrie. she will jus end up in woodbridge. (: ROAR!

i LOVE reading!
=X

Karen Quinn - Wife in the fast lane.

Splendid.
Hilarious.
Pure entertainment!

Quoted from the book:
" Never assume. It makes an 'ass' out of 'u' and 'me' ".
i like tis line. VERI MUCH.

and i'm greedy fer more!
hope i will be able to find The Ivy Chronicles by her too!

P.S. i like buying novels. soon, i can hab my own library of books. LOL!

i miss u so much. do u know?

i keep wetting my eyes by jus reading my book,
or watching some show recently.
is tis normal?
am i veri sickening like tis?
LOL!

anyway,
credits to meh heh.
she sent mi a veri touching email.
i hope it's normal tat i cried.
=S

here it goes..

This story tells us something about LOVE & LIFE.

My husband is S/W Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it.

The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy.

My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.

One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce. "Why? " he asked, shocked. "I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world !" I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right... It's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind.

Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death. Will you do it for me?"

He said: " I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....

"My dear, I would not pick that flower for you, but....please allow me to explain the reasons further..... "

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen. I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city. I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand...and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die ... "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting... And as I continue on reading...

"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk... "

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's LIFE, and LOVE. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms; even in very small and cheeky forms. It has never been a model. It could be the dullest and most boring form ...

Flowers, and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... AND THAT'S LIFE.

so, was it normal tat i cried?
i started to feel super grateful fer everything att i hab now.
life is wonderful.(cries)
LOL!

i hab added a "coming" in my previous entry.
LOL!!
jus in case, anyone of u, like tis ah pek,
misreads it and tot tat my bdae is yest.
LOL!!

but ah pek ar,
u are real good entertainment.
LOL!
i still cant stop laughing at ur silly mistake.
LOL!!
ya la ya la. veri cute. veri cute.
LOL!!!!

P.S. eh ah pek, pls go find out my TRUE bdae and organise celebration huh! LOL! YAY! thanks!
maybe u can ask limin. LOL!

and fer my COMING 19th b'dae this year,
i hab onli 2 wishes.

one of them is to hab a taste of this cute little cake!



can i hab a bite of this cake pls?
LOL!
the link can be found here!
=X

oh. and the second one is veri simple.

jus rmb to wish mi happie bdae.
i will be so damn happie!
(:

STUPID.


i nearly fall into a scam.

they are some stupid chinese wif a strong CHINA accent.
who sounded like they are from beijing or shanghai,
but they keep saying tat they are from hk.
zzz.
they had been calling mi since sunday.

“喂。您中了我们的抽奖!
您赢取了伍十万美金！”

i investigated on the company,
no such company.
the event they claimed to have held is a lie too.
they even got angry when i suggested tat they are a scam.
kept calling me for a few times.
and all i wanna say is:

为什么要骗人？

sometimes,
ppl shd use their heart to tink.
not their brain.

P.S. do we nid to pay fer answering overseas call? i got free-incoming call lehx. LOL!

i miss those days...

but i hab to look ahead.

P.S. quoting sth from my student - life is a joke.

please.
teach mi how to read ur mind.
no matter how hard i try,
i jus couldn't understand u.

wad am i suppose to do wif u?
did i choose not to enter ur world or u close ur doors to me tat i cant enter?

muahaha!
came up wif a to-do list!
tis will force mi to do some work!
i'm jus too lazy.

i realise i like it better when i'm too busy tat i dun hab so much extra time.
i feel more energetic.
jus dun scold mi when i start telling u guys tat i'm stress!
LOL!

okie.
i realise it has been a long time since i meet up wif my jc frens!
sorrie!
=X
LOL!
u guys hab been miss by mi!
limin.hf.uk.freddie.darric.
i miss all of u veri much!
(:

and i misses him even more .
shhhh!!
LOL!

i found him!
LOL!
yay!
(:

thanks angela!
i aren't kidding wif u jus now oh.
tat's realli my goal now.
i heard alot of cases where frens became enemies after partnership.
but i believe,
we will make a difference!
LOL!
i'm so HAPPY!
YAY! YAY!
i found back MY LIFE!
haha!
知音难找！但我找到了你！
LOL!
thanks!
MUACKS!
slowly, a step at a time,
i am going to make MY DREAM come true!
(: (: (:

P.S. i shall keep everything in suspense at the moment. one day, i will do it. i will. (:

I'M SO ANGRY!!

guess i jus proven that i am still normal.

in order to protect my fren's reputation.
i shall not name her.

she got scolded by an unknown person in her own blog.
WTH.
tat idiot better not let mi know who he/she is.
so bo liao.
must be a girl.
幼稚！

nvm.
i felt better after typing one chunk of reply to tat anonymous.

maybe i'm a little rash.
and harsh at words.

am i wrong to jus plainly stand up fer a fren?
i hope not.

to my dear fren!
dun feel bad!
tat person is jus brainless,
so we dun scoop to her level.
LOW CLASS.
if needed, i will help u scold her till she shut up fereva!
ROAR!
wad are frens fer?
fer SUPPORT!
(:

TADA!
i jus forwarded a sms to most of my frens!
in case i was a little stingy and din send it to u,
u could read it from here!
=X
LOL!
i din send it to some of u becos i know u guys cant read chinese character on thse lousy phones okie!
(:

小鸡从小鸡家乡哭喊着跑回来，
老牛吃惊见了问：
“为什么哭喊着？到底发生了什么事？”

小鸡哭诉说被鸡妈妈打和全家乡的鸡追着跑。

老牛又问为什么被打?

小鸡说：“我只是向他们道别，
哪里知道鸡妈妈和全村的鸡很生气追赶着打我。”

老牛问小鸡：“你是怎么道别？”

小鸡说：“我只是开心呼喊着：
小鸡BYE! 老鸡BYE! 全村鸡BYE! 鸡BYE! 全部鸡BYE! ”

eh.
pls laugh to show some appreciation.
LOL!
credits to shiqi who sent it to me. (:

P.S. i'm still hibernating.
i'm reflecting.

i wont do it again. forgive me.

can anyone tell mi wad to do if u found a lump growing out from the stomach of ur hamster?

adopted from a book again...

it's toking abt conceptions and the different perspectives of ppl.

"are the students from tis college friendly?" - new student A
"tell mi first abt the students from where u come from"- clever girl
"they're veri friendly, kind, warm and buzzing ppl." -new student A
"then i'm pleased to infrom u tat the students from this college will be the same."- clever girl

"are the students from this college friendly?"- new student B
"tell mi first abt the students from where u come from"- clever girl
"they're mean, sad, angry ppl, down, flat and cold" - new student B
"then i'm afraid to tell u tat the ppl of this college will be the same."- clever girl

i seriously feel tat i am aging ALOT.
i'm starting to sound real boring.
turn ppl off totally.
and became a quieter person.
i seriously perfer not toking to anyone(except cas).

jus let mi hibernate fer a while okie?
leave mi alone fer a while to recharge.
if it's possible,
i realli wish i can stay at home everyday.

there's always 2 side of a coin.
my problem is not identifying which 2 sides.
my problem now is which side shd i choose to look at.
leaving me fer my own good,
or hab everything change?
u know,
feelings wont fade as time pass,
it jus get hidden up.

i rmb wad i wrote to u in the letter.
no. tis time round it wont happen.
no matter how long u disappear.
life is black and white without u.
u are my onli colours.

OMG.
I am like super sua gu (ignorant to a stupid level) !!

i din realise there's a comments section integrated wif the testimonials in friendster.
they dun require approving!
LOL!
so i was jus reading all the small little msges tat i hab got fer the last few months.
and onli one word to describe how i feel:

WOW.

Kenneth ( my "kor kor" LOL! )
Posted 14/09/2007 10:59
Hey mei mei,hope u r doing fine in ntu..jia you! =)hoho..

Buta (she's melissa c from sentosa!)
Posted 08/09/2007 08:49
Harlow Harlow!!!Long time no chat/crap/gossip liao! XDTake care of your health okie? Muackz! Cheers!

and i cannot believe my eyes!
i hab finally found my long lost fren!!
LOL!

Danny
Posted 02/09/2007 03:33
Heya tan xin yi.. i guess u forgot me liao.. im ur old old old classmate during primary school lol

OMG!!
i din forget u!!

i tot i wouldn't be able to get in contact wif him ever again!
i tried finding him fer so long!
thru so many ppl who came from my primary sch and his sec sch!
LOL!
yay! yay!
i'm so HAPPY!
YAY! LOL!
hope he hurry add mi as his fren and i could chat wif him!
LOL!
yay!!! yay!!!
=X

and then.. fer no reason..

Casilin
Posted 11/09/2007 13:05
XY is a MAN.

LOL!
si cas!
explain urself!
haha!
i realli so man mehx?
ZZZ.
u tis indian.
opps! =X LOL!

lastly.
girls.
my fren, Jamie, is selling little miss t-shirts fer onli 15 bucks!!
LOL!
u can find her link on the left side!
do check it out!
maybe i wanna get one fer myself!
(:
LOL!

P.S.
it's amazing!
whenever i feel exceptionally happy fer no reason,
sth good will happen eventually!
uh oh! now tat i say it out,
will it not happen again?
LOL!
pls dun!
(:

wondering wad am i studying in sch?
wonder no more!

bio science is CRAZY!!
tis is one of my computer lab hw.
it's a little small and blur,
so click on it to get a better view!



tis is a PDB(protein data base) file.
it can be open in microsoft word.

or...



yes.
or using PyMOL u can VIEW the file.
all those words translate into tis protein.
[O.O]
i was quite stunned when i saw it.
all those words are actualli "describing" the structure of this protein.
anyway, wad i screenshot-ed is jus one page out of a 79 pages document.
h-a-h-a!
my hw is to explain wad each different line under a different section means.
tis is so "fun"!
and it's onli the basic.
so i guess one day i'm expected to create my own protein by typing it out!

"omg! no! siao!"
LOL!

okie okie! i'm going back to my work.
d:

luckily i hab a motivating book wif mi!! (:

quoted from the book:
"A negative direction is usually chosen, not caused.
It is a direction, not a place.
It is often jus a habit - a bad habit.
And bad habits can be changed into good ones."

whining is a super bad habit!
i shall kick it!
ROAR!
LOL!

i'm my sunshine!
my mighty sunshine!
i make myself happy when skies are grey!

"laughter is the shortest distance btw 2 people." - Victor Borge
can u feel closer to me?
LOL!!

BE POSITIVE!
BE OPTIMISTIC!

i can see myself during gaduation 4 yrs later,
smiling ear to ear!
i can see us holding hands.
i can see mi and my frens chatting over high tea wif tonnes of shopping bags next to us!
i can see all the beautiful things in the world becos i chose to see it this way(and it realli is!).

没有做不到的事！
只有不想做的事！

P.S. thanks fer all the lovely tags! and also smses! I'M BLESS WIF ANGELS BY MY SIDE! (:




SMILE EVERYONE!!
everyday is a beautiful day!
live it to fullest!
dun waste it by frowning!!
BE HAPPY!
=D

ARGH.

I'M GOING TO BREAKDOWN AGAIN SOON.

when can i ever get out of this cycle?!

我的头很痛，很痛。

AHHHHHHHH!!!

i'm getting sentimental again!
must be due to those stress!

life is TOO hectic.
no matter how many deep breathe i take,
it onli makes mi feel better at tat instance.

today, this little fantasy of mine keep flashing in my mind.
i realli hope to live in a world tat i created.

in my world,
the weather is sunny, yet cooling.
occasionally it will rain.
during christmas it will snow.
it will have a simple cottage wif a garden.
i will grow lots of flowers in the garden.
morning glory will climb my fences.
big, fat and juicy watermelons lying next to neat rows of vegetables.
there is a huge patch of grass in front of my house wif 2 adjacent trees.
at night,
i could put up a sleeping net and look into the sky,
stare at the billions of stars tat are blinking at me.
inside the house, there will be my family.
daddy, mummy, kor kor, mei mei and mi.
my friends will live wif their families nearby.
so we could meet up even more often.
in my world,
there is no baddies, no death, no departure, no stress, no bad moods.
full of laughters, full of love, full of hope.

jus simply, the simplest way to live a simple life.

P.S. i jus feel tat i could do better by spending more time on my family and close frens. to jus cook them a meal or jus call to ask: "how are u?" i'm sorrie guys.

i swear i'm not gonna eat crab fer a while.
(*cross fingers*)
not after witnessing the IMMEDIATE death of one by one single CHOP.
OMG.
traumatised.
to the stage tat i was imagining a living chicken when i was eating chicken meat.
i'm turning vegetarian!
(*crossing my fingers again*)
LOL!

P.S. finally it's BEDTIME! weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

STRONGER.

tat's wad i realli nid to be.

我现在才知道，
坚强是为了照顾你身边的人。
不是为了自己。
是一种爱的表现。

以前的我是为了我的家人而坚强。
以后的我将为了他，
为了朋友，
而更勇敢。

okie. halfway thru my work.
i nid to divert my attention to stay awake longer!
=X
LOL!

and i wanna say!!


(from left: yimei, lao niang, casilin!)

nobody will be able to replace u guys!
(cas+meh heh+yimei+simin!)
all of u are special, unique and dear to mi in ur own ways!
and esp. meh heh!
(dun tink becos ur pic not here means u not counted oh!)
LOL!


(me and simin!)

ahh..
sometimes must act cute a little.
=X
LOL!

and i realli hate ns.
it takes away so many best frens of mine.
YJ!
ARE U DEAD?!
=X

today is the most fruitful day of my life ever since i stepped into ntu.
LOL!

cos i was taught some sign language!!
i can do A-Z with my BARE HANDS!
OMG!!
1-10 is not a problem too!
basic words like i, u, we, our, heart, it, that, love, sorrie, is, are, am,
and the list goes on!
LOL!
and the amazing part is tat sign language got GRAMMAR.
ZZZZ!!!
LOL!

i made lots of frens!
and we were taught song signing.
tat is to sign out the lyrics in a song.
we did an old song by BSB(backstreet boys.)
I want it that way.

LOL!
i nearly cried out!
damn stress!
cos the pace is like difficult to keep up wif.
zzz.
but it's realli FUN!
by the end of the session,
my brain power was sucked dry,
so i was like a walking zombie while i made my way to W.O.R.K.
argh.
i survived it anyway.

NOW.
the "best" part is,
i'm not going to bed till i finish all my hw.
cos it's SIMIN'S BDAE CELEBRATION TML.
argh.
die die also must go.

HAPPIE B`DAE SIMIN!
LAO MOO MOO!
MAY U GET FLOODED BY MILK!
(:

P.S. 人就是这么笨。都是等到失去了才会珍惜。记得！好好爱惜身边重要的人！用真心和诚意来对待他们！不要等到太迟了才后悔！大家加油！我也要加油！(:

oh.
not to forget.
meh heh.

we loves u.
(:
pls hab faith in us!

i'm sorrie to hab made u gone thru all those terrible times and feelings.
but i'm sure after tis time round.
it will nv happen again.
(:

we shall all learn and grow together!
no one is flawless.
and who is to decide who is right and who is wrong.

casilin.yimei.meh heh.simin.
u guys are impt frens to mi okie!
let's all try our best to keep our friendship going!

姐妹万岁!万岁!万万岁!

P.S. okie okie. last entry last entry! i'm tired!!! tml nid to wake up at 7 plus to go kallang fer my volunteer thingy's orientation. ROAR! bye!

PUBLIC APOLOGY TO HF AND UK.

I'M SORRIE!!!

i know i'm terrible, horrible and incorrigible.
i realli dun mean to PS!
T-T
dui bu qi!
next time i will make up fer it okie?
pls dun be angry wif mi!
i'm realli tired.

ahhh.
anyway,
i tink i will faint anytime soon.
i hab no time at all!
no time fer rest.
no time fer self-study.
no time fer shopping.
no time fer myself.
no time to even EAT!
argh.
i'm onli eating one meal per day at weird timing of the day.
nnnnoooooo....

XY's theory:
there are 5 main components of life.
1. family.
2. love life
3. friends
4. work
5. studies.
(order not veri impt.)
if u jus be alittle more observant,
there will nv be a time where u hab the best of all these 5.
never.
at least not fer mi.
i hab difficultly reaching an equilibrium fer all.
or maybe i'm jus too greedy.
=X
bleah!

okie. time to go.
i must sacrifice my sleeping hrs to blog okie.
cos i must apologise.
=X
sorrie hf and uk!
sorrie sorrie!
God will bless all of u.
eh...
LOL!!

no stress, dear.
i will wait. (:

special thanks to my mei mei and mummie!!

as all of u know tat i'm like a PIG.
i cant wake up on time.
=X

LOL!
but they will wake mi up whenever i hab lessons in the early morning!

so great of them!
u guys ROCKS!
=D

my dearest yimei.

i'm sorrie.
we're all sorrie.

we are all supposed to be best frens.
yet we did our job so badly.

fer all the times we ever made u feel like a stranger.
fer all the times we made u feel lonely.
fer all the times we made u feel ostracised.
we are sorrie.

actions speak louder than words.
slowly,
we will show u we care fer u!
(:

love u lots okie?
MUACKS!

i am hearing alot of relationship problem recently.

i concluded alot of things!!
wah!

everything shd be onli btw the 2 of u.
no point getting help from ppl ard u.
love is not sth tat will change/alter jus becos someone said sth.
it shdn't be tat way.
no matter how much support u won over,
be it the family, the friends, anybody,
but not the heart of the other party,
it's pointless.

sometimes, we get 2 things mixed up.
loving someone and possession of someone.
lethal.
the person shd be happy habing u by his/her side.
u can love him/her,
but if he/she is not happy,
u are onli possessing the person.
an empty shell.

i finally know how it feels to be not in the same frequency wif someone.
different mindset.
different thinkings.
conversation tat runs dry.
terrible.

2 person in a relationship,
when their pace starts to differ,
it's the end.

be honest.
be sincere.

sometimes ppl shd learn to let it go.
life still goes on.
tml will be a better day.
(:

我想说其实你很好。
你自己却不知道。
真心地对我好，
不要求回报。

爱一个人希望他过更好。
打从心里暖暖的，
你比自己更重要。

i had started packing...
slowly, one by one...
nicely and orderly...
i recalled wad they were and when they happened...
fer the veri last time.

habing to tell another person abt all the stupid things we did,
it's so funny.
it's so sweet.

but when the day comes,
i will "throw" all of them into a "luggage".
i will leave it there at the same spot.
untouched.
unchanged.
but i will move on.
leaving it all behind mi.

if tis is wad makes u happy.
if tis is wad u tink will make mi happy.

P.S. tis is a terrible feeling.
sometimes i realli tink tat ppl shdn't be so rational in love.
wad's realli tiring mi is habing to keep tinking so much.
keep it simple everyone. dun tink.
(:


it all abt the willingness involved...

i feel bad today.
i got pranked by my tuition kid.
supposed to hab tuition today,
but he totally forgotten abt it.
imagine u reached there but no one's home.
hp din answer.
ZZZ!

here's how my schedule is like now.
mon-fri day time = sch.
whole week's night time = tuition/restaurant.
so i'm onli left wif weekend daytime.
tis sat i got orientation fer my voluntary cca from 9 to 4pm.
tat's it.
time don't fly, they apparate(as in Harry Potter series).
*pssh* and they're all gone!
(><)

and u know..

no time = no shopping.
tis is hell fer mi.
i found myself wearing the same kind of clothes every week.
NNNNOOOO~
pay came in today.
MUAHAHA!
i looked into the mirror today,
and i found myself exclaiming :
"wah kao, who is tis auntie?!"
LOL!

i shall pray.
i wish, i wish, i wish...

P.S. omg! hw not done! i cant sleep yet! T-T

Opps!
i missed 1st of sept alreadi.
but anyway,

HAPPIE B`DAE ANGELA!

may all the well-wishes tat i sent u in the sms come true!

once again,
i wan to xie xie ni!
fer being my listening ear.
my fren, my buddy, my mirror.
it's onli a simple friendship,
yet it is not an empty one.
nth could be more real than this.
(OMG. at tis point of time, i suddenly rmb i forgot to call u. sorrie! LOL!)

oh yea,
if anything goes wrong in life.

like we always said,
"aiya! pray la! pray la!"
LOL!!

eh,
seriously, it realli helps. LOL!

_________________________________*

fer the FIRST TIME in my life today.
someone said tis to me..

"oh, anyway, happie teachers day."

LOL!!
OMG!
the moment he said it,
i'm like... huh?
stunned fer a while. haha!
it's a veri weird kind of feeling.
but i feel veri happie.
LOL!!

teachers' day = presents.
one added reason to become a teacher.
LOL!
*Greedy*

i feel tat i shd take back my words.
my student is not realli a guai lan kia.
he's veri funny and cute actualli.
he beg mi like hell today to end the tuition earlier.
"pls? pls? u are a veri cute girl."
(LOL! got an shuang. =X)
den like small boy boy keep coming up wif lots of tricks.
haha!
小孩子真好玩! =X LOL!

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YAY!
both mi and ching ting got selected!
FREE BASIC SIGN LANGUAGE COURSE!
WOOHOO!
sth tat is more impt,
we got company from each other.
LOL!
sometimes i realli cannot believe how coincident things were btw both of us.
from how we became frens,
and everything else.
amazing.
(:

nv felt like tis b4.
no energy to smile.
dun even wanna tok.
stare blank fer more than 80% of my time.
absolutely habing no drive.
totally lifeless.

i know i am at my low period now and shdnt blog so much.
i'm not trying to pass my "moody germs" ard.

life has no meaning to mi suddenly.
everyday, it's like tis.

sch -> tuition/restaurant -> sleep.

school is TERRIBLE.
one senior jus enlightened mi tat the econs module tat i'm taking now,
it's actualli wad jc students study in 2 yrs.
SHIT.

"xinyi,
unless u got 2 more brains.
u are not gonna work ur way thru uni."

it feels jus like someone holding a gun at mi.
and then..


*BANG!*


i'm dead.

yay!

P.S. no. tis is not a suicide note. zzz.