i'm smiling!
(:

althou all the problems are still there.
but i guess,
no point feeling down all the time rite?

i cant help but keep laughing over some reali stupid joke.

there was tutorial the other day.
and the tutor posted this question...
"what shd u say if u wan to say more of sth?"
"more. zz." - lao wang. LOL!
i'm laughing like mad over this joke.
i dunno why.
LOL!!

the guai lan kia tat i'm teaching is actualli quite funny too.
he makes mi wanna call him little boy thou he's onli 2 yrs younger den mi.
*wah. praying that he pass his assignment test!*
actualli, he's not realli tat guai lan la.

the other day i went fer the interview to join the WSC(welfare services club) fer the hearing impaired wif ching ting.
MUAHAHA!
if i get selected(which i will onli know next week),
i will get to go fer free basic sign language course!!
WOOHOO!
YAY!
once a week.
after the course i will do vounteer work on a weekly basis.
jus gibing tuition to them on saturday afternoon.
no sweat man!
commitment till december 2008.
haha.

yea yea.
i'm gonna meet up wif cas, yimei and simin on fri b4 i go to work at nite!
oh girls.
I MISS ALL OF U VERI, VERI MUCH.
pls say u miss mi too!
LOL!
sorrie angela tat i pang seh u.
cos they are more difficult to meet up wif.
i will compensate u okie?
(:

and si YJ if u ever get to read tis when u book out.
i will support u no matter wad u choose!
if u realli wan to join the SAF band,
i will pray fer u to fail ur SOC, IPPT, etc etc.
LOL!

i miss all of u alot.
luckily there's shiqi who helped mi de-stress a little by singing k wif mi today.
muahaha!
thanks girl!(or boy)
LOL!

and boy.
i will try all my best to salvage everything btw us.
my energy level is still full blast!
i wont allow myself to get tired so easily.
everything comes wif a price.
if i must, i'm willing to pay the full price fer it.
i onli love u.
and u know abt tis too.
(:

P.S. special thanks to my mei mei once again!
i will know when is the limit and hab enuff rest okie? (:
no nid to worrie abt me fer the time being okie?
i can realli afford to gib u pocket money.
becos if i dun love u, who will?
if i dun earn more money to provide fer everything, who will? (:

everything tat i do fer my family,
fer my studies,
fer him,
fer all my frens,
it's worth it.
i know it is. (:

limin!

muacks!

thanks fer the e-card.
(:

hab u ever tried tis?

u are heart broken.
u got loads of work waiting fer u to do.
ur schedule is fully packed.

ur family is watching tv behind u.

and u?

u have ur back facing ur family.
u are doing ur work,
and u are crying at the same time.
ur tears fall on ur papers.
u turn on the speaker loudly so no one will hear u cry.
next,
u quickly wipe away those tears b4 someone noticed u crying,
and started asking wad happened.

i cant take it anymore.

i am not a super girl.

i can pretend nth happened in front of my frens and family.
but facing onli myself,
i cant pretend anymore.

OMG!

HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!HOMEWORK!

NOOOOOOOOO~

shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.shit.

i feel so bad and down now.
my frens are not doing well fer such a long time and i din even know.
wth.
"xy, u suck!"

dear frens,
i will pray veri, veri, veri, hard fer all of u.
things will turn out fine okie?
BE STRONG.
freddie and darric.
u two must realli take extra care of urselves!

fortunately,
i made one fren happie today.
LIMIN!!
hope u realli like the gold PSP we get fer u!
dun nid to share wif ur brother anymore!!
(:

P.S. my heart is so pain now. why did u not tell mi all these? i'm so angry wif myself. how could i be such a failure?!

i cant help but feel sorrie fer someone.

but i am happie fer my fren.

my dear cas.
as long as u will be happier.
i will be happy fer u.

as long as u know wad u are doing,
i will support u.

不需要在乎别人说什么.
不需要顾虑那么多.
不需要想到天长地久.
也不需要海誓山盟.
只要觉得值得.
只要不后悔.
只要你打从心里快乐.
我也会替你开心.

你一定要幸福...

love wont force u to give up sth tat u also love.
it makes ur world so sweet, but bitterness comes in hundred times more.
however, it is worth it.
it gives u extrordinary strength but also makes u extremely weak.
it is complicated, yet it can be so simple.
it can makes u feel full of life but it can also suck away all ur life.

i wonder...
why are ppl falling in love?

but i'm so in love too..

HAPPIE B`DAE TAIGOR!

(:

i know u hab stuffs to update mi!

we will meet up real soon okie?

miss ya lots! (:

pardon my multiple entries in a day!
it's rare tat i hab so much time to blog okie!
like working every night.
if it's not tuition, it's waitress-ing.
well...
LOL!

let mi blog abt my new found frens!!
they are Ching Ting and Hui Jie!!

i realli, realli wan to thank them specially.
they made my new uni life filled with fun,
packed wif companionship and gave mi lots of help!
ching ting aka dragonfly(DF) will go to sch wif mi everyday,
and i'm late everyday fer at least 5 mins.
=X
we will meet early in the morning at ard 7 at woodlands mrt.
den travel all the way to boon lay and take 179 to sch together.
den we realise most of the ppl go to sch alone.
we are so lucky to hab each other fer companionship!!
(T-T)

after tat,
we will meet Hui Jie aka Lao Wang in sch.
3 of us changed our timetable such tat we hab the exact same time table.
LOL!
craziie.
but i realli nid them to be ard mi.

and i'm super thankful to HJ!!
he helped mi carried the super bulky printer all the way from sch,
took the bus, into the train and left at Bukit Gombak where he stays on wed!
i onli hab to carry it down at woodlands and wait fer my kor to come.
and when i wasnt feeling well in sch today,
(got terrible cramps. erm, time of the month u see.)
he helped mi carry my super heavy econs textbook.
super thankful to him!
he's veri funny. keeps mi entertained all the time.
all i nid to do is jus laugh at him together wif ching ting.
LOL! =X
xie xie!

since i'm thanking my frens.

i shall thank limin fer the sweet present from hk!

also casilin,
fer listening to mi whined and accompany mi home sometimes.

to tigger,
who is veri steady and on,
acc mi to sing on last sunday morning when i was feeling so down.

to angela,
who immediately smsed mi at 9pm on tue to ask mi how was my tuition lesson.
and also realising tat i took the wrong mrt direction while we were on the phone tat nite.
=X

to my lady boss,
who....(onli some ppl can know tis.)

to uk,
fer tagging an encouraging line.

to ah may(from venture)
fer sending mi loads of sweet short msges to ask mi take care of myself despite being busy.

to mummie,
who hab been cooking mi my dinner fer the past few days and fer showing mi more care than usual.

to kor kor,
who made mi so damn, super upset but immediately apologised to mi the next day sincerely.

to mei mei,
who bought mi loads of snacks at nite and topped up my ezlink fer mi.

to you,
fer making mi learn my mistake and finally to see things from ur point of view.
fer tolerating mi being so arrogant,
so hard to please and so demanding fer such a long time.
fer always behaving like a spoilt child in front of u,
pretended tat i didnt care, and din spare a tot fer u.
fer all these i'm realli sorrie.

TADA!

i'd finally settled down into my new kind of life!

currently,
i'm a full-time NTU student
cum
part-time Jap restaurant waitress
cum
part-time tutor.

next,
if everything goes smoothly,
i might even become a permanent part-time volunteer as well!
yay!
i'd to consider carefully.
it's either volunteerism or violin lesson.
or maybe both?
=S
let's see how it goes.

currently,
i dun understand my physics and econs lecture.
tat is 2 out of 6 modules.
(i realli hate these 2 topics!! noooo!!)
LOL!

and expenditure fer tis week is WAY TOO HIGH.
Canon MP145 printer - $129
tis is a 3-in-1 printer oh!
thou canon ink is expensive. but aiya, nvm la.
bought 2 textbooks.
physical chemistry - $44.90??
principles of economics - $37.90.
money is disappearing faster than if i choose to burn them.
scary!
(pay day come soon pls!!)

oh yea.
i managed to hab a temporary 4 days week!
friday no sch!! yay!!

loads of things happened.
but i'd no time to share.
becos no matter how frank i can be in my blog,
there are still certain things which i onli wanna share wif closer ppl.

i'm trying my best to keep in contact wif all of u!
i realli am!
(:

WOOHOO~
i'm like slacking in sch now.
cos i got FOUR hours of break b4 my next lesson.
zzz.

ANYWAY.
i din get fired.
LOL!

my tutee(student) is an extremely LAZY BOY.
(see the link? lazy = boy. LOL! =X)

"where is ur pencil case?"

"oh. i dun hab one. i onli got a pen.
but i lost it alreadi.
so i'm lending a pen from my fren now.
pencil box is heavy and big.
veri troublesome.
i dun nid one.
i got one slot in the bag to slot the pen in."

and he continued..

"why girls buy loads of pens of different colour?
then, alot of different colour highlighters.
so stupid."

ZZZ.
in the end,
i gave him one blue pen of mine as a gift out of my sympathy towards him.
(=.=)

my first lesson with him,
he made mi so stress.

"wad is sp3 hybridisation? can u explain tat to me?"
HO SEH ah! (hokkien)
cos i dun realli understand it myself.
LOLX.
anyway, i understood it alreadi.
thanks to him.

fer every single thing i explained to him.
he will ask mi WHY?
so much to the extent tat i asked him why he asked so many why?
den he asked mi why he cannot ask mi so many why?
etc. etc. etc.
si guai lan kia. roar!!
=X

i'm now under tremendous mental stress due to tis tutee.
he is habing his promos in ONE MONTH's time.
his last grade is U.
tat is 18.3%.

wah kao.
whoever tell mi teaching tuition is veri carefree i will tape ur mouth!
i nid to plan lessons,read notes,come up wif questions and solutions and always be in the tip top alert mode to answer all his stupid questions.
takes up alot of my time.
and i cant realli understand wad my lecturers are toking abt in sch.
shit shit shit.

okie. XY.
God will bless u!
LOL!

i'm veri tired after everyday.
but when i lie on my bed,
it still hurts as much.
"piggy. piggy. wad shd i do?"
i miss u.

HAPPIE B`DAE MINY!!
MUACKS!

may all your eye candies get ELECTRIFY by YOU!
LOL!

it's okie to be greedy.
make loads of wishes!

cos i'm wishing - may ALL ur wishes come true!
(:

i'm crashed.
totally.

so many problems.
so little to turn to.

and i cant turn to u,
becos u are so mad wif mi.

jus wad hab i done?

anyway,

i found my first student.
=X
LOL!
yea.
tuition!
muahaha!

it's JC1 chemistry u know?
OMG.
i'm crazy.
anyway,
i'm paid 35 bucks/hr.
so it's 7 times my pay at the restaurant.
eh.. LOL!

i'm veri stress.
no.
i'm realli not confident of myself.
super.
nvm.
the next entry of mine,
u will see the heading as
"I GOT FIRED TODAY."
LOL!!
stupid me.

P.S. when good things happen,
it could onli means sth bad is gonna happen to mi soon.
tis is how lucky i am. wad a curse life. haix.
xy ah xy,
u will nv ever hab the best of all worlds.
dun be greedy.
gib up sth.
):

i'll be praying fer u.
fer well-being,
no sadness,
no stress,
no quarrels,
no unhappiness,
fer more true frens,
fer more confidantes,
fer a better person who could love u better,
fer strength to fulfil ur dreams,
fer all ur wishes to come true,
most imptly,
fer u to be smiling everyday!
i know u cant take care of urself.
so i shall pray fer God to send u a guardian angel.
it will take good care of u.
becos i cant.
pls forgive mi. i'm truely sorrie.
i'm ready to let u go. i realli am.
i jus nid u to tell it straight into my face.

i'm still alive peeps!
jus tat i'm coughing nowadays.

anyway,
congrats to CASILIN!
finally got a JOB.
OMG.
haha!

and i'm realli happie fer u!
ur b'dae wish came true!
LOL!
=X

P.S. Pls make my wish come true too! =X

FLU.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.................

OMG!! OMG!!
i managed to pass my QET(qualifying english test)!!!
LOL!!

YAY!!
YAY!!
YAY!!

NO ENGLISH MODULES!!
NOT AT ALL!!

LOL!

suddenly i rmb Pui Pui again.
"wah. ur english damn powerful lehx~!"

to SI PUI PUI :
my english is not as "POWERFUL" as yours la.
ha.Ha.HA!
风水轮流转哦。
保重！
Muahaha!

P.S. i hate dogs-man. they enjoy doing this - 狗眼看人低。
but they also do tis - 狗吃屎（大便）。
*暗爽*

STUPID STUPID STUPID.

the master plan was to go clubbing yest to celebrate meh heh's bdae!
meh heh + zhengwei
cas + lionel
Yimei + Kevin
Simin + Hanwei
Me, YJ and MC.
IN THE END....


becos it was Ladies night,
so it was free entry fer girls.
so all the girls were standing at the door waiting fer the boys.

SUAY like hell!
the boys was stopped by a guy who started interrogating them.
"who brought all of u here?"
"we came ourselves wif our gfs."
"are anyone of u member of the club?"
"no."
"how abt the girls? anyone of them is a member?"
"no. they are not."
"how come u so sure?"
"becos they are all our GFs."
LOL!!
stupid.
anyway, it turned out tat the guy is a police.
is tis the set of question they usually use?
WOW.

and i am telling all of u!
DUN EVER GO TO D*O.
if u know well abt clubs,
u will know which one i'm referring to.

"i need ur receipt to do the refund fer u."
and when zheng wei cant find his,
tat STUPID, BRAINLESS MORON still insisted tat he must hab the receipt.
c'mon!
he even got the stamp on his arm,
if he haben pay, how could he hab tat?!
and u tis idiot!
is tis ur first day using POS machine?!
there is actualli a function to REPRINT receipt.
hell idiot.
ZERO star fer service.
we were veri unhappy.
we are still unhappy.
luckily we managed to find the receipt after like 10 mins.
got the EIGHTEEN dollars back,
our backs turned,
i'm not going back there again!

haix. my sore throat is getting worst. pain ah~

P.S. i'm not going to go clubbing/reach home after 12.30am/ton till x'mas. seriously.

where are u? where are u? where are u? ):

i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.
i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.
i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.
i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.
i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.
i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.i'm bored.

We make them cry who care for us.
We cry for those who will never care for us.
And we care for those who will never cry for us.

This is the truth of life,
it's strange but true.

Once you realise this,
it's never too late to change.

jia lat.
i'm getting emo again.
zzz.

i jus wan to shout :
"CAN I DUN GROW UP PLS?"

it's so tiring to tink so much,
care so much,
do so much,
and limit myself so much!

AHHH!
GO AND DIE!
GO AND DIE!

I'M GOING BONKERS!!
AHH~~
SIAO!!
*SCREAM!!!*
LOL!

i'm developing sore throat.
SAD.
))))))))):
dun care la.
i'm gonna eating potato chips later.
LOL!

to my DEAREST Cas!
IT'S OKIE. (:
it's normal fer frens to fall out on each other sometimes.
as long as we get back together after tat,
it's okie.
i'm sorrie too.
): and (:
JIE MEIs 万岁!!万岁!!万万岁!!!!!
LOL!

luckily and unluckily,
we are not robots.
we cant control our emotions, actions and thinkings.

but if u can,

PLS GET AWAY FROM MI!
AHH!
FREAK!
LOL!

haix.
i'm still bored.
i'm praying fer time to move faster!
Faster!
FASTER!!

i caught Secret by Jay Zhou and Kwan Lun Mei yest on the big, BIG cinema screen!

be sure to go and watch it too!
it's recommended by mi!

it started wif sweet, sweet love.
then serious heartache at the second half.
the ending is satisfactory too!

however,
make it the last or onli thing u do fer the outing.
becos u wont feel like smiling after u finished the movie.

female lead veri chio!
jay's piano skills is amazing!
and tis is definitely a love fantasy story ( wont happen in real life. )

Go peeps!
catch it wif ur darlings.
(:

P.S. u will see tat small little things realli hurt a lot.

szz,
i'm realli happy!
thank u.
(:

it could onli be u...

so many ppl keep telling mi to stop shopping so i can actualli SAVE.
(this word is quite scary to mi, i realli CANT save. =X)

read the following and u will understand..
(someone was alreadi kena forced by mi to read it. =X)


A woman was walking down the street when she was accosted by a particularly dirty and shabby-looking homeless woman who asked her for a couple of dollars for dinner.

The woman took out her purse, extracted ten dollars and asked,
"If I give you this money, will you buy a pair of shoes instead of dinner?"
"No,"
I had to stop buying new shoes years ago,
the homeless woman replied.

"Will you use it to go shopping instead of buying food?"
the woman asked.
"No I don't waste time shopping,"
the homeless woman said.
"I need to spend all my time trying to stay alive"

"Will you spend this on a beauty salon instead of food?"
the woman asked.
"Are you NUTS?!"
replied the homeless woman.
"I haven't had my hair done in 20 years!"

"Well," said the woman,
"I'm not going to give you the money.
Instead, I'm going to take you out for dinner with my hubby and myself tonight."
The homeless woman was astounded.

"Won't your hubby be furious with you for doing that?
I know I'm dirty,
and I probably smell pretty disgusting."

The woman replied,
"That's okay.
It's important for him to see what a woman looks like after she has given up shopping,
hair appointments, and buying new shoes."

now, do u ppl understand?
LOL!

MUAHAHA!
went to Zouk last nite.
first experience leaves mi saying:"i dun tink i will frequent such places often."
LOL!
but i realli like the loud music.
maybe shd get more of us going next time to realli enjoy ourselves.
rite, yimei?
LOL!
we hab a zombie wif us tat nite.
quite scary.
LOL!
cassie! photos! LOL!

things tat realli made mi feel uneasy were a few guys who walked past mi and stared closely at my face.
closely = distance of like 10 cm?
rude.
and there was tis particular guy who came from behind and laid his hands on my waist while trying to walk past mi.
he seemed to be in a hurry,
and din realli seem to do it on purpose,
so nvm.
guess it's quite normal fer such things to happen over there rite?
LOL!
i'm sounding stupid and ignorant over here.
bleah!

wad realli entertained mi was the ride home by taxi.
the taxi driver was...

AMAZING.

when all of us were together on the taxi,
he was telling us abt his encounters.
like this gay, a professional,
who sat next to him and daringly molested him by touching his "little brother".
wow.
LOL!
then, there was a series of sexual education lesson.
duh!
haha!

girls,
knew wad?
after all of u alighted and left mi alone wif him.
he showcased another talent of him.
not onli is he friendly, chatty, professional and confident to a certain extent.
he also knows some fortune-telling.
omg.
i tell u girls.
he is not a phoney.
onli tat he tot i was 21 yrs old instead of onli 18 going to 19.
zzz.
fer instance,
he could tell tat i'm a veri "kan chiong" person.
(all i did was smile when he said he nid to look at mi b4 he can tell mi things.)
oh well.

he could also tell tat i hab problem wif my gastric recently.
[O.O]

AND THEN,
he started telling mi abt my LOVE LIFE aka MARRIAGE.
WAH!!!
i couldn't believe my ears.
he can tell wad's happening NOW.
he caught mi in awe.
impressive!

tis is the first time someone helped mi "kan xiang".
interesting.
but like wad everyone will say:
听听就好。
haha!

P.S. i tripped on my way home at the stairs jus now. i got myself a bleeding toe. kns. suay man! *cursing* LOL!

Finally, there are things fer mi to blog abt!
LOL!

fer ppl who forgotten tat i hab my Qualifying English Test(QET) today,
it's okie tat u forgotten to wish mi good luck.

Becos the topic given was:
Raising children is a very important responsiblily. What qualities do you think make up a good parent?

haha.
wad a joke.

if i fail this test, i will DESERVE to take english proficiency test.
and i will take it WILLINGLY.

i seriously hope i dun fail tis test,
becos it would mean i am so wrong wif wad i'm believing.

AND.

i managed to get my timetable today.
(i'm starting sch next week!! LOL!)
my lesson ends at 7.30pm on wed.
WOO.
no reason fer mi not to join the band!
yay!
(cos they are habing practices on wed nite!)
so i might as well get a permanent off day from restaurant on wed!
lalala~
btw, i realise i nid to take principles of economics. wth.
WHY???!
=S

AND.

i made my first fren at NTU today!
her name is Chin Ting.
does the name rings a bell, freddie?
LOL! she's ur ex-classmate!
anyway, we know each other on the bus while we sat next to each other.
what coincidence.
she's also from my sch! muahaha!
and we know a number of frens in common.
haha! i'm happy!
(:

hope my new sch life will be exciting and fun!

anyway,
i might be going clubbing tonite.
YAY!
fer the first time. =x
LOL!

P.S. i started to learn to love my life again. i hab wonderful siblings, friends, sch, work and also a special him. wad more can i ask fer? (:

I'm Sorry.

This is a public apology to Tai Gor.
Sorrie fer being unable to watch Harry Potter wif u.
I shall treat u to Simpsons okie? =x
Realli veri sorrie towards my poor attitude and recklessness the other day.
I could hab been more tactful.
Pls forgive mi!
T-T