i'm trying my best to

smile..

some quotations fer u guys to ponder over! (:

God is the only one who is capable of doing everything.
We, humans, do what we are capable of.

When you keep saying u are busy,
then you are never free.
When you keep saying u have no time,
then you will never have time.
When you keep saying you will do it tomorrow,
then your tomorrow will never come.

P.S. Qi, u can jus copy and paste anything u like. LOL! (:

i din disappear okie!
jus nth significant to blog abt.
and wad i wanna blog abt might be too much fer u guys to digest.
so forget it.
LOL!

oh yea!
jamie!
din forgot abt it okie!
LOL!
peeps!
i bought a black skinny jeans fer onli $25 bucks on tue from JAMIE!
it's jus like those u can find at bugis street!
there are alot of other choices available.
she is selling them.
jie mei(s) i know u all are online shopping fanatics.
do check tis out and see if anything interests u okie?
click HERE!

okie,
i'm done.
CIAO!

P.S. pardon fer sounding bored. i'm realli BORED.

thanks Lionel fer zipping all these photos!
peeps,
i alreadi sent them to ur inbox.
but u can d/l the full file here!
caution : it's HUGE.


HAPPIE B`DAE CASILIN!!



"uh?" - cas



"STAY CUTE AND PRETTY GIRL!" - Yimei
"like mi!" - meh heh
"the satay taste real good~! =x" xinyi + simin



"i'm so damn happy!" -cas
"u better make sure u help us celebrate our b`dae too huh!" - simin
"my b`dae is next! =x" - meh heh



"we love tis phone! sony ercisson w660i!" - cas + xinyi



(LOL!!! editor laughing too hard to be able to tink of any subtitle. LOL!!)



"ur head move in front, in front! so my head wont look big!" - xinyi
"check out my small and cute head!" - cas
"qu si! LOL!" - xinyi



"MUAHAHA! i look skinnier! becos i'm sitting next to simin!" - xinyi
"ahhh! *bbiissshh*" - simin



"i'm stepping on the Haiavanas slippers which xinyi likes too!!" - cas



"do i look like future Tai Tai?! LOL!" - cas




LOL!!
there are some shots of the bfs looking weird!
LOL!!
retribution fer zheng wei.
ask mi to step some more shit lorx. =X

actualli all of them are veri fortunate!
look at how bless they are!!



Casilin + Lionel



Yimei + Kevin



Meh heh + Zheng Wei
Simin + Han Wei
(LOL!! look @ zhengwei! LOL!!!!)



thank u cas!
thanks fer inviting us to tis small celebration!
thank u cas's parents too!
i'm still laughing like mad over some photos. LOL!!

Never explain yourself to anyone.

Because the person who likes you doesn't need it,
and the person who dislikes u won't believe it.

i'm in pure bad mood since last nite.
so tired.
drained out.
the best part is nobody knew other than TaiGor who met up wif mi.

i am unbelievable.
i messed up the table while trying to find one paper.
i screamed at my mum when she was trying to help mi tidy up the room.
i requested to go home early when i meet up wif TaiGor today after not seeing each other fer weeks.
i chose to hang up on Cas when my phone's batt life could still afford to let mi chat awhile longer.

i'm not trying to gain sympathy here.
i'm repenting.

xinyi,
u are a bad girl.
worst of ur kind and deserve to be hate by everyone else.
utterly detestable.

P.S. i had been looking at my frens ard mi. i couldn't help but envy. each and everyone of u are bless in ur own way. i hab been trying veri hard lately to see in wad way am i bless. i see none.

oh yea. i din forget.

HAPPIE B`DAE CASILIN!
(:
I LOVE U!
MUACKS!

Don't let anybody become a priority in your life,
when you are just an option in their life...

Relationships work best when they are balanced.

"GOD knew that everyone needs
Companionship and cheer,
He knew that people need someone
whose thoughts are always near.

He knew they need someone kind
To lend a helping hand.
Someone to gladly take the time
To care and understand.

GOD knew that we all need someone
To share each happy day,
To be a source of courage
When troubles come our way.

Someone to be true to us,
Whether near or far apart.
Someone whose love we will always
Hold and treasure in our hearts.

That's why God gave us FRIENDS."

Angela sent mi tis email.
isn't it true?

okie.
2nd time false alarm le.
wth.
yea. today din became the last day at sentosa.
becos of some unforeseen circumstances.
shall explain to u guys in person.
(tis is not veri impt.)

went to century square wif cas!



guess where were we?
.
.
.
TOILET!



check out the make-up tables and chairs.
WOO!

there's even sofa in the toilet okie!!



and we nearly took the wrong side at the NEL.
LOL.
becos of mi..
=x
let mi confess okie?
i'm realli veri stupid de.
not to forget blur and slow in reaction too.
i onli know how to laugh.
LOL!
=X

yay~
tml will be a fun, FUN day!
lalala~

pls stop imagining tat i'm sulking every moment.
LOL!
there is still a lot of reasons fer mi to smile!

fer instance,
tml will be the last day i work at sentosa.
MUAHAHA!!
okie,
putting aside the money issue,
i'm realli happy to leave tat job.

i will miss the people there thou.
like Grace, Melissa, Magde, Wei Sing, Jamie, Izzah, Soon Heng, Clarice, etc etc..
ah! no, i wont miss peter. (eeks!)
LOL!

oh yea.
most prob no choc buffet.
i was thinking we go eat some steamboat wif a BIG, ROUND table.
so we could sit together.
i miss all of u..

i miss him too..

Don't make promise when you are in joy.
Don't reply when you are sad.
Don't make decision when you are angry.
Think twice, act wise.

when one starts going lucky,
it simply means there is bad times ahead.



she's terrible.
real terrible.
and i am worst than a beast to criticise her here.

mei mei,
we must stay strong okie?
jie jie loves u.
nvm wad she says,
let's jus close both ears to her.
she's getting too ridiculous.
there's more of her pride and ego than her love fer us in her heart.

i'm jus wondering,
do u know we hab been crying to sleep?
do u know how much i hate the life i'm leading now?
do u know i still misses daddy so much like he jus left us a min ago?
do u know u can actualli put down ur pride, go out and find urself a job to make all our lives easier?
do u know if u see more of us than money in ur eyes, we could be much happier?
do u know i am pushing myself so hard alreadi but it jus dun seems to satisfy u?
do u know i'm crying so hard now, jus becos u dunno any of these?
DO U KNOW?

we are NOT superkids.

and i dun reall feel guilty fer not giving u any allowance,
fer not greeting u when i reached home,
fer spending so much time out of the house,
fer prioritsing practically everyone else above u,
fer hoping tat i could study overseas(to get away from u),
fer loving daddy more than loving u,
fer hating u fer all my bad childhood memories,
fer wishing tat i'm not ur biological daughter...

becos i'm paying fer all the phone bills u created by making so many phone calls,
becos u gave mi a super black face to "welcome" mi home,
becos i dun wan to hear u nag or chant,
becos u dun treat mi as good as any of the ppl i know,
becos tis is more like a house than a home to me,
becos daddy is the onli one who truely dotes on me,
becos u hab been ill-treating mi,
becos i dun believe tis is how much u love ur own daughter...

i finally understood.


u will never, ever,

change.

Let mi give all of u a maths lesson today!

When school starts on 6th August 2007...

Each year i will have to pay $6,110.

as quoted from the Admission Handbook for Freshmen,
i will also be liable to pay fer the following..

Registration Fee - $15.75
Students' Union Entrance Fee - $10.50
Students' Union Subscription Fee - $25.20
Computer Fee - $13.65
Laboratory Fee - $15.75
University Copyright Licence Fee - $7.00
Student Health Service Fees - $53.50
Sports Fee - $25.20
Insurance - $3.60
Amenities Fee - $12.60

and becos i'm a Singapore Permanent Resident(PR),
tis is meant fer mi as well!
Group Hospitalisation and Surgical Insurance - $ 69.00

As i hab alreadi signed the Tuition Fee Loan last fri,
it allows mi to loan up to 90% of my tuition fees,
so thankfully,
i will onli nid to pay $611 in cash NOW.

therefore, when school starts,
i nid to pay a total of $862.75.

here comes the soul of this lesson.
Wad abt the repayment of loan?
current interest rate stands at 4.75%.
round it off to 5%.
upon graduation,
interest will be charge by monthly basis.
5% x 12 = 60%
i'm studying fer 4 years.
the amt i loan can amount up to approximately 22k.
assuming there is a 60% interest charge on tis amt,
i will nid to pay approximately 36k.
woo.

the solution to my upcoming financial crisis?

my annual tuition fee is $6110.
my monthly tuition fee would be ~$510.
i nid to save tis amount every month to be able to repay back the full loan b4 they charge mi wif interest.
and i'm onli paid $7/hr now.
wah.
in order to lessen my burden,
i must study extra hard too.
hopefully i will be able to qualify fer the scholarship fer undergraduate from my 2nd year onwards !
tis means they will pay $3000 out of $6110 of my tuition fee.
woo!

HAIX.
but it's FOUR years.
HOW CAN I SURVIVE?
( 2 yrs of such life in jc is realli tough enuff alreadi. )
realise tat i haben include my transport fee,
my allowance,
my BILLS(water and electrical bill, house's phone bill, mum's phone bill, my own phone bill, TAX),
my shopping allowance,
household allowance(to buy daily necessities, to ease sudden financial crisis of my sibilings)
and most imptly,
all my frens' B`dae budget.
all these would, at least, amount up to $500/month.

SO..
i nid to earn at least $1000/month AFTER my sch starts and still ACE in my studies to ensure i will not become bankrupt b4 i even start earning proper money.
Assuming i'm paid $7/hr,
and one month hab 4 weeks,
i nid to contribute 20% to cpf,
i will nid to complete 42 labour hours per week!
i onli work a max of 4.5 hrs/night.
tis means i nid to work 9.5 days/week. LOL!
interesting.

i hab so many dreams to pursue,
so many hopes to fulfil.
but where do i find time?
and how could i bear to drag him into tis miserable life of mine?
):

P.S. does being poor means i will nid to short-change myself? ):

he's cute!
isn't it?
LOL!

alrite.
i'm getting emotional today after reading Cas's entry,
all the memories jus flow back.
check it out @ Caspiak!
(oh yea. rmb to laugh at her maid photo pls. LOL!)
and then, coincidently,
i was listening to Vitamin C - Graduation.

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon

And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
We'd get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at our selves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember all the times we had together
And as our lives change
Come whatever
We will still be Friends F*rev*r

how true.
i hab got tis bad habit.
the failure to carry out wad i told myself to do.
everyday, i tell myself to drop my dear frens a sms.
everyday i fail to do so.
esp. so to limin and taigor.
tigger, dun get so depress!
i'll try to meet u up next week! (:

anyway,
i love my family!
korkor.peiyi.mama.
i love all of u my frens!
Angela.Casilin.Limin.Valerie.ShiQi.YongJun.Mabeline.Yimei.
Simin.MingCong.TaiGor.Jeremy.TingShu.HienFhong.
YewKiat.Freddie.Darric.Benjamin.

and i must say,
out of so many of u.
Casilin and Angela.
both of u are realli my best-est pals now.
thank u so much! muacks!

and also someone hidden in the list.
he's special too. (:

chance upon tis old photo taken last yr during val's bdae celebration.
sweet.
all my 姐妹s!





友谊万岁！(:

somebody...
called mi at 1.30am in the morning to LAUGH at me.
LOL.
tat somebody is so dead.
and it could onli be tis idiot below!



KOH YONG JUN!
u owe mi one fer today huh!
better pacify mi or i shall SAY it out.
=X
LOL!

oh yea!
i promised the photos!
thanks meh heh!
U ROX!
thou there are alot of ugly photo shots of mi!
but nvm.
i'd alreadi sieved them out.
muahaha! LOL!



I LIKE TIS PHOTO!!
haha!
we took tis picture at AMK hub!
the doll is CUTEEE!



tis is the so-so chicken riceball!
mc looks damn hungry!
LOL!

and when we gave yj his present..



LOOK at his sickening expression!
LOL!
YJ's mind :"wah, wad a cheapo present. sia~"

and when he opened it and realised it's Creative Zen Stone PLUS...



tis person is so realistic huh. LOL! JK!



YJ, i told u ur specs is crooked.
=X
(the purpose of posting tis photo is actualli becos i look nice in it. LOL!)



Cas :"I'm ready to eat it! shoot it into my mouth!"
LOL!
*revenging* haha!



Valerie :"Dun play play ah!"

then, there was lots of group photos which i realli like.
LOL!










LOL.
group of retarded ppl.
YJ, wad are u doing in the last photo huh?
haha!
and mini cong is acting cute. omg.
simin acting tai-tai.
cas, as usual, down syndrome. LOL!
luckily i'm the photographer.
muahaha!

P.S. yimei, it seems weird without u in our photos! get strong and join us! valerie too!! (:

WOOHOO!!
PEOPLE!!
i WON two FREE movie tix to see the preview of VACANCY today!!
YAY!!

POWER 98 FM gave them to mi!!
LOL!
credits to cas!
"Jus sms me the creepiest encounter u hab at any hotel..."
guys, rmb cas's stupid story?
LOL!
the one where she said someone was looking at her thru the gap of the sliding door.
i sms-ed tat.
and 45 mins later,
"Congratulations to Xinyi, u won urself..."
OMG.
i was jumping in the shop.
=X

shall call abt the tix next monday!
hope it will be tix fer sat show.
haha!
so i can watch it wif someone who is onli free on tat day. zzz.
otherwise.. zzz. haha!

but i read up on the critics.
this show is like onli so-so.
eh, nvm. it's FREE.

tis is a feat man!
not many won sth like tis b4 lehx!
haha!
and today, my lady boss is so kind towards mi again.
LOL!
Xinyi, u are SO LUCKY!
(:

人善被人欺，马善被人骑。

i went to watch TRANSFORMERS wif angela last nite!
WOOT!
WOO!
WOW!
WAH!
whoops!
haha!

maybe i'm a lousy judge.
but i tink the show realli rox!
make mi wanna watch it again!

harry potter!harry potter!harry potter!
LOL!

it wont hurt to dream a little sometimes rite?

i wish, i wish, i wish.
i wish fer all these things to DROP on me.
LOL!

LOOK AT HER!

she's a beauty!!!

she's $2,299.00.

NNNNOOOO... LOLx.

PINK! PINK!

Tis is $599.00.

ahh...

Boo.

this is last season's design.

so the sizes hab run out alreadi.

i realli want it.

i tink i'm gonna try buying it online.

and my jie mei(s) had told mi it's actualli cheaper to get it online!

LOL!

heh heh heh!

wait till i hab the time first ba!

I had also wish fer that special someone to be wif mi.

i wish so hard, fer so long.

God, please show us ur blessings!

haha.

i know someone will be smiling to himself when he reads tis.

=X

CELEBRATED YJ'S BDAE TODAY!!
haha!

like nv hab so much fun fer ages!
were laughing from 1030am(sat) to 130am(sun). LOL!

First,
K LUNCH @ KBOX.
OMG.
erm, we "stolen" a mike from another room.
=X (we are realli bad kids. haha!)
who ask them dun wan gib us 3?!
we got SIX persons lehx!
LOL!
den unfortunately, the waitress found out.
The SHE-MAN gave us veri BAD ATTITUDE!
and even attempted to retain one set lunch of ours.
JIAN PO NIANG! QU SI BA!
but we were also veri jian.
whenever we pressed the service bell, we did it like doing a drumroll.
LOL!
the "waiter" actualli suspected the bell was faulty. MUAHAHA!
finally i got to sing more GIRL songs.
and the best part is everyone of us is so steady!
we complete one song together by taking turns!
haha!
Like we sing one line and passed to the next one. LOL!
and SCREAMED together at the chorus.
LOL!!
i realli like the sound we made when all of us sang together,
so loud, so strong, so united, so warm. (:
"I WANNA KNOW~!" haha!

Okie, after tat,
once again at K Pool,
we managed to piss another staff.
LOL! cos we took 4 cues fer our one small little table!
and i must say,
we are realli NOOBS.
haha!
20 mins to clear one game is like.... LOL!!

Braddell's chicken riceball is a ripped off man!
it tasted jus like any other chicky rice.
and it's $3.60.
jus tat they made extra effort to make it into riceball.
hmm..next time we shall stick to eating zi zha okie?
LOL!

OMG!!
The MIND cafe!!
it's a treat!
we played a total of 5 different games!
i tink MONOPOLY MEGA VERSION ROX.
and wadeva tat game is called where we went like crazie dogs snatching those bones is SUPER FUN too!
the food is onli so-so.
but the best part is we are allow to SCREAM in the cafe.
(everyone does tat. LOL!)
so practically, everyone of us
ROARED INTO LAUGHTERS,
CLAPPED OUR HANDS WHEN WE LAUGHED,
SLAPPED THE TABLE A FEW TIMES,
SHOUTED/SCREAMED AT THE SAME MOMENT,
ETC.
cos we got so excited.
LOL!
i din get to laugh so hard fer a lllloooonnngg~ lllooonnnggg~ time!

In the end, due to some KIASU behaviour,
we missed the last train.
AWW.
but nvm, Xinyi is always so resourceful.
she even hab taxi driver's namecard. LOL!
It's a LIMOUSINE okie!

okie, readers!
if u missed the last train.
and u are wif a group of more den 4 but less den 7 people,
and u guys wanna take taxi home,
TAKE DOWN TIS NUMBER!
Steven Foo @ 94232529.
he onli drives from 11pm to 6 am.
perfect timing fer late cats.
but he works on assignment basis, so try ur luck!

Guys, guess wad's the final taxi fare?
it's onli $32.25!!
less den $4 per person and we were dropped right under our block!
imagine we took the night rider which costs $3!
erm.. LOL!
i gave him $35 bucks anyway, the rest was tips fer him. =X
(i'm generous okie!)

Pictures will be in soon!
shit, nid to wake up at 7am and work till 11pm fer the next 4 days.
NO REST.
wah~
GOD BLESS ME!

P.S. i'll be smiling while i sleep tonite. or maybe roar into laughters. LOL! ahh!! BEDTIME!

Firstly,
Hi Grace! welcomeee~~!!
LOL!
anyway,
i cant decide wad to wear later!
AHHH!!
and i'm gonna be late real soon!
NNOO!
haha!
YAY!
cas.simin.meh.val.yj.minicong.
HERE I COME!
WOOHOO~


P.S.I NEVER EVER WANNA TOK TO U EVER AGAIN. I HATE U.

Happie B`dae to u!
Happie B`dae to u!
Happie B`dae to MY BLOG!
Happie B`dae to U!

yea. she's officially ONE YEAR OLD.
LOL!
My Blog's B`Dae wishes:
1. Hope Xinyi become a even happier girl!
2. Hope a lot of money drop on Xinyi!
3. Hope Xinyi's Mr. Right appear real soon!
4. Hope after all the first 3 wishes come true, XinYi will make mi(blog) prettier. LOL!

DAMN.
bumped into a flasher today while i made my way to yishun to meet up wif cas.
i dunno was he trying to pee or wad.
all i know is tat he's standing at the end of the covered walk-way showing his "little brother".
maybe he wanted his "little brother" to do some sight-seeing.
(can i scold some vulgarities?!)
it was ard 2 plus.
there was onli mi walking past him.
wah kao.
i made a 180 degrees head turn to look away from him.
ahh!!
cleanse my eyes!
wth! argh!!
MEN! GRR!
why do i keep bumping into such ridiculous things?!



it's hurting so much..

Caught Surf's Up wif Valerie today!
Not so bad,
quite entertaining.
ah, i'm easily satisfied u see.
ARNOLD IS SO CUTE!
haha!
okie. transformer is next!
(:

Do take extra care Valerie.
i feel sort of useless.
i'm ur fren,
but i cant do anything much to ease ur pain.
do approach mi if u nid any help okie?

chance upon some old chat logs with him.
we realli used to be a lot happier.
now tat we crossed the boundaries,
it's either getting even closer or reduce to acquintance.

P.S. Remember when the world pushes u to ur knees, u are in the perfect position to pray.

i'm quite impressed by this new fren i met at work.
okie fine. matured ppl are impressionable to me.

"wad is love?
it's to Learn, Overcome, Value and u'll finally get to Enjoy it."
i dunno how true tis is.
but i am almost sure tat i wont hear this coming from any of the ppl i know who are of my age.

everybody.
I have a veri kind lady boss.
i'm onli an employee under her.
however, she will take time to chat wif mi and ask mi abt my life.
today,
she asked mi how am i gonna cope wif my sch fees.
i told her i'm gonna bank loan them.
and she actualli offered to give mi a private loan,
INTEREST-FREE.
gosh, wad an angelic gesture.
she passed mi her HP number,
and asked mi to phone her up b4 signing wif any bank.
i'm touched again.

so i must let everyone know tat i am, in fact,
a veri fortunate person.
God took my Dad away,
but in return,
He gave mi extraordinary willpower and sent mi so many of His Angels to my side.
every single one of them disguised either as my family, my fren, my colleague or jus as a stranger.
each and every kindness showered on mi,
they are all etched on my heart.

actualli all the ppl at the restaurant are good ppl.
jus onli tat uncle who is quite overboard.
this is why i cant bear to leave them.
all of them treats mi like their own daughter.
how could i walk out on them rite?

做人要饮水思源。

am i jus lucky? or i actualli earned all these?

i'm sorrie to frens tat i din manage to hab time to chat wif.
sorrie fer slow sms replies.
sorrie fer not showing enuff care.
sorrie fer not calling up to jus simply ask :"how are u?"
i jus feel i hab neglected quite a number of frens recently.
not on purpose! realli!
jus too busy working!
esp. ppl like yimei, cas, meh heh, simin, shiqi, yj and maybe tai gor too.
no time ah! realli sorrie!

oh ya.
special thanks to this colleague at work.
she knows i always skip lunch.
so she specially bought mi a bread during her lunch break the other day.
wah. thanks dude!
(went from palawan beach to siloso beach to buy lehx!)

and also my mei mei!
so proud to hab her.
she sent mi a sms on fri nite.
"be careful of tat pervertic uncle! if he dare to do anything to u, i will beat him!"
LOL!!
yea. sorrie fer flaring up at u over the card incident okie? haha!

dunno wad got over my mum.
she actualli offered to help mi blow my hair dry the other nite.
wah. scary. LOL.
cos i support myself financially, do my own laundry, change my own bedsheets, cook my own food, etc.
quite uncomfortable wif her being so motherly.
hope tis change is permanent.
=X

alrite.
shall make my way fer work to complete the last 4.5 hrs of labour hours out of the 64 hrs.
ARGH.
zzz.

i'm sad.
=(
LOL!
but i can still laugh and stay happy on the outside!
cheers!

woohoo!
guests on sentosa, esp those from Taiwan and China are often veri impressed by mi oh!
cos they cannot believe tat singaporeans can actualli SPEAK chinese properly.
zzz.
WE CAN OKIE?
LOL!


u know? u know?
my total labour hrs this week is 64!!
*faint*
the estimated number of hours i remained standing is abt 83.5hrs fer tis week!
shit man! i'm gonna develop those UGLY calves muscles if this goes on!
NO WAY!
one day, i'll die from fatigue.
otherwise, it will be from too much bleeding from the heart.

i realli feel like a spare tyre.
specifically, it's like tis :
inside = in use.
outside = dump. and it's not once. but ALL the time.
(no, not everyone nids to know wad i'm toking abt here.)
i shd start telling myself not to be so sensitive rite?
or maybe jus be more understanding?
dun be so overbearing?
zzz. i'm realli upset.
maybe will jus balance it out myself later.
a few tears b4 i fall asleep will settle it.
maybe.