Get This Clear.
Nobody Owe You Anything For You To Blow Your Top On Other People.

It realli puzzle mi so much.
how can a senior behave so badly?
Hot-tempered, petty, inorganise, unethical, bla bla bla..
and others hab worms in their mouth tat onli rotten words come out from them.
i call him the dick-man.
recently i hab been setting a distance from this pervertic idiot.
The other day he irritated mi so much, i asked him to stop toking nonsense.
know wad he said?
"ask mi to shut up?! later i slap u ah! K*N. tight slap on ur face!"
everything in hokkien.
i jus walked away.
but inside mi, it was blasting:
"DUN TINK U GOT TATOO ALL OVER UR BODY SO I SHD BE SCARE OF U!"
and i tink keeping quiet is not an act of coward.
it's an act of HIGHER CLASS.

Come what may,
complaints,criticisms,insultations,threats,wadeva.
i will nv succumb to any of it.

i'm gonna master this.
MIND OVER BODY.



luckily at the end of the day,
there's always some things tat can bring some smiles to my face.
am i dreaming?

Fer no reason on monday nite,
i woke up from my sleep at 4 am and sat upright on my bed.
My instinct told mi to check my phone.
so i went to it and there was one msg from valerie.

"xinyi..juz to tell u tat i m in the hospital nw.. fractured my right collar bone.. nth emergency but yup,juz stay for observation for a nite..hmm..went to pulau ubin for project scanning.. took a bike then fell off becoz couldnt stop in time as going down slope..freak accident......"

Gosh.

Couldnt sleep well after tat.

"Dear Lord, please use ur mighty power to heal her."

i started to believe tat there's realli telepathy btw closely related ppl.
be it ur family, best fren or ur special half.
this strange kind of magnetic field tat causes extraodinary things to happen btw the 2 of them onli.
she's the third person i experienced it wif.

i cant stop the clock and the time has realli come fer all these to end.
maybe it's fate.
after all it's a gift from God to gib us the chance to work together fer a year.
Not so many of us are lucky to work wif our best fren rite?
aww.. it feels jus like the POP day 3 yrs ago.
i must learn to be more independent.
Go home after work alone will not be a feat.
jus a little difficult in the beginning.
becos it has become a habit alreadi.

no more late nite supper. no more giggling and grumbling on the train. no more running away from tat stupid uncle together. no more last train ride. no more greeting from tat mcdonald staff. no more unwelcoming stares from MOS burger staffs.

i will miss all of these. i will miss habing u at my side.


i jus cant control them from falling.. take care my fren.

jus to tink of wad he had done makes my blood boil!

some of u may hab read abt him in my previous entries.
maybe jus refresh ur memories.
he's the one at my restaurant, not sentosa.

Outlook:
1. UGLY.
2. man in his late twenties looking like in early forties.
3. tatoos all over his body.
4. pockmarks covering 90% of the face.
5. DIRTY.
6. traces of white hair among his short hair.
7. yellow teeth (he smokes).
8. rough hands.

SICKENING BEHAVIOURS:
1. he will bend down to get sth when i'm standing jus beside him and on his way up, brushes his finger along my calf. GRR. if not tat i will zhao-keng i would hab kick him in his face!
2. sneak from behind and try to poke the side of my body.(supposed to make mi itch, but he knows poking got no use on me and yet he still keep doing it.)
3. he will always try to come close and STARE at my face. i realli hate this. and even more irritated when his hands try to make its way to my face. dunno wad he wanna do also. cos i will siam!
4. jus last nite, i raised my hands to point at sth in front of him. suddenly he grabbed my wrist. WTH?! tat shocked mi alot and i screamed at him.
5. and today at work, the moment he saw mi, he came from behind and splashed some water on my legs(he always do tis. GRR.) and used his disgusting hand to brush my ear! ARGH!! GO AWAY!!
6. he's a despo. always call my name whenever he sees mi. like xxxiiiinnnnyyyyiiii~ den followed by wo xiang ni and stuffs like tat. extremely freakish. extremely annoying.
7. and also jus last nite, he tried to block my way into the kitchen thru the onli door. he practically spreaded his arms and made a kiss-mi face(try to imagine it urself) and i'm like standing in front of him. i nearly SLAP him.

i tot i was the onli one tat find him getting too overboard until my colleague asked mi whether i find him getting more pervertic.
he's realli getting on my nerves.
and from the moment i decided to diao him becos he's overboard,
he will gib mi some kind of bad attitude.
he will start throwing things instead of giving things.
like i stepped on his tail first instead of the opposite.
GRR.

seriously, shd hab heed Jer's advice last yr to quit.
but it's okie,
now i'm confident tat i can make him pack his bag and go back to Sarawak anytime i wan.

P.S.1. Limin went off to HK wif her jie jie le! ahh!! one week!! nnooo! haha! hope she enjoy herself!
P.S.2. i'm gonna take a week break and start planning fer the choco buffet after tat. Yea. i WILL plan. haha!
P.S.3 Good luck to the boys! hopefully things get easier fer them from today onwards. LOL!
P.S.4 i know i shdnt say tis. but i'm missing him terribly. argh.

she's the youngest in the family wif 5 elder siblings.
grew up wif most of the things going her way.
everyone ard her accomodate to her.
she's a tyrant.
she tink she's boss as such and in her opinion she is never wrong.
selfish.
arrogant.
inconsiderate.

and some ppl jus wont change.
these character traits followed her fer life.
maybe everyone hab their own flaws.
hopefully her children doesnt inherit these traits.
and God bless all of them.

P.S. i'm getting super irritated wif the pervert guy at the restaurant. to the extent tat i finally screamed at him: “放手啦!! GRR!” i silently hope he get fired. even if it doesnt happen, i WILL make it happen.

WOOHOO!
I LOVE MY JC CLASSMATES!

East Coast Park.
Area G, Pit 69.
Limin.Uk.Hf.Darric.Jeremy.Cs.Freddie.Rodney.Benjamin.Xinyi!
one capable driver.
one scout.
7 cyclists.
2 fireman.
a lot of slackers.
LOL!
oh ya, and TWO chio bu.

i'm suffering from pain in the butt now due to the intensive cycling done on our journey back to
return the bike.
imagine we SPED all the way from area G to area C!!!
wah lao!
and the si ren bike is so retarded fer its gear!
no matter how i change it, it wont increase its speed!
KNS!
MY 屁股痛！！

Truth or Dare.
Yes boys.
i'll TRY to kick the habit.
hopefully i will succeed and slowly progress from 1/2 to 3/4 girl!
den finally become ONE.
wait a minute.
i'm a ONE to begin wif. zzz. LOL!
ya la. will stop laughing so loudly. ORH.


FINALLY.
most of the open secrets were "opened".
it feels good.
but it was realli awkward fer mi. (or us? i'm not so sure.)

once again,
this kind of big gethering doesnt always happen.
like once in a few months.
when it was time to say goodbye,
when we all waved and turned our back to one another,
i realli hate tat.
luckily tis time round the rest were next to mi, otherwise i'll be crying again.
(becos the last time round at chalet, i left alone.)
it's not like we wont meet up again,
but it's jus tat we dun get to spend time wif each other so often.

thank you everyone fer coming!
let's look forward to the Choco buffet!
but i hope it wont come too soon becos it will mean Ben will be gone fer a year.
i'd sth in mind tat we could get fer Ben alreadi!
and a plan too.. heh heh!
muahaha!
till then peeps!

P.S. Bad nite. i cant sleep well. terrible headache now. it's tiring. as it all came back last nite and it's troubling mi again.

Detect the site where most of ur pimples gather!

and click on the picture to enlarge it!

a note of reminder,

tis is not realli applicable fer boys.

LOL!

becos the last one,

which many NS men will choose,

is due to the helmet and not some hormonal changes.

LOL!!

but maybe applicable fer u la Jer,

become more gu niang must be due to hormonal changes!

haha!

i'm picture number 2!

it's says bad temper and irregular sleeping hours.

hmm..

haha!

牵手或放手。
幸福或祝福。

好痛苦。


既然已经用华语了就将计就计吧！
这样就能让某些读者无法阅读！
哇哈哈！
有个好心的同事提醒我做个谨慎的博客。
不要把工作的不愉快都写下来。

我只能说，
不落格是我的。
我会承担后果。
重点是，只要行的正，站得稳，
你能拿我如何？
=P

而事实是我真的好不喜欢那个工作环境及工作需要。
只有一些同事比较投机。
一个让我只想安安静静的地方，绝对不适合我。
聪明的抉择是离开或是留下？

“其实一切都很简单, 只需做个抉择。”

我好挂念几个人。
第一当然是我的老爸！
（大家！其实在我面前提起我爸爸无所谓！毕竟已经十一年了！(: ）
然后就是思敏，依媚，永俊，明聪，美君！
我好期待七月七号的到来！
至于凯星和玉环，我有与你们联络所以无需思念！
哈哈！

知道吗？
我好爱华文哦！
=X

i hate PMS period.
i cant control myself at all and i'm so irritable.

pls avoid venting ur frustration on me.
u nv know i might hab a bigger temper than u.
it's jus tat i kept it down.
note tat i dun mind messing everything up jus to make my stand clear.

a veri funny statement made from a colleague at work.
"u are so soft-spoken and quiet. so easy to bully!"
and when i was so agitated describing tat pervert,
i used the word KNN.
"wah. u dun look like u will use vulgarities."

so i say,
i hab SPILT PERSONALITY.
shit.

ppl, please take ur meals regularly.
it wont make u thinner,
and maybe u will start to develop anorexia.
u will feel a pain at a location below ur right lung.
and eating onli 1 meal a day doesnt make u hungry at all.
tis is how terrible i reduced my health to.

P.S. i haben went fer the medical check up at NTU. i'm tinking excessively again!

woohoo!
i got tis little test from POH TECK KENG'S blog.
LOL!
i must acknowledge, otherwise he will come and sue mi or sth.
tis is the first time he blogged sth tat is interesting.
=X

HIT ME!

yeah!
hit it and do some simple calculations.
i tink all of u go take ur calculator la,
cos all the brain abit rusty. =X
jus to make things easy fer u a little.
1+9+8+8 = 26!
LOL!

tis is my result!!

LIFE PATH 3!
As a 3 Life Path, you possess great talent in creativity and self-expression.
Many writers, poets, actors and musicians are born under the 3 Life Path.
You are witty, possess a gift for gab and savor the limelight.
Your talent for the expressive arts is so abundant that you may have felt drawn to becoming an artist at a very young age.
However, your artistic abilities can only mature through discipline and commitment to the true development of your talent.
Thanks to your gift of self-expression, you can be the life of a party and the center of attention.
However, you could easily squander your talent by becoming a social butterfly.
Your creativity is a gift that can give you the comfort and luxury you desire, but not without continual focus and discipline.

You are optimistic, and you posses the resilience to overcome many setbacks.
You are socially active, popular and inspire people with your happy-go-lucky attitude.
You can be generous to a fault.
Many people born under the 3 Life path have difficulty handling money, because they can be disorganized, and not particularly serious about their responsibilities.

You are emotional and vulnerable.
When hurt, you withdraw into a clause of silence, eventually emerging from you reticence with jokes and laughter that cover up your true feelings.
You can become moody and cynical when depressed.
You can succumb to sarcastic remarks, which can be painful to those around you.
When used positively, your talent for self-expression can be a great inspirational force in the world, uplifting others, and bringing much success and happiness to you.

i was bored u see.
LOL!

P.S. i din appeal after all.
becos, wad will be, will be. haha!

wee!
yea yea!
to update abit on the church trip!
i went wif Angela. LOL!
P.S. she's not a christian too.
i truely enjoyed myself at the camp!


becos of the bed!
LOL!
the room is super cosy!
BUT!
the tv suck big time. =X
LOL!
and the food...
gosh..
even biscuits and titbits taste abit different.
water too...
haha!
maybe it's some psychological barrier.
but i must say..
i'm happy to live in Singapore!
(:


tis is REAL horse!
haha!
it's abit scary when i went close to it.
becos it's BIG!
i sort of tortured the poor horse.
LOL!
he wanted to eat the grass.
but i forced him to lift his head to take photo wif mi!
muahaha!
his head weights a ton!!!
i cant pull it up when it went down!!

anyway,
YJ,
ur teeth realli look like the horse one.
=X
haha!

P.S. okie. i tink i'm wrong abt not liking to chat on msn and sms. opps! sorrie! dun ignore me!! NNNOOOOO~ LOL!

i'd got tis urge to delete all the entries i posted today b4 tis one.
but forget it.
blog is suppose to reflect my life rite?
LOL!

i shd tok abt real business.
like stuffs going on in my life.

sadly, but fortunately,
i'm still working.
haix!
at sentosa and the restaurant.
and thank u darric!
thanks fer popping by yest!
at least when u go to sentosa u will rmb tat i'm working there.
LOL!
i appreciated tat. realli.

i hab chosen NTU over NUS.
becos it's realli wad i'm going to study than where i'm gonna study tat matters.
mind you,
i hab grown up despising NTU.
LOL!
life is a joke!

last nite, i went swimming wif Cas.
i haben been swimming fer months!
tada!
guess who i bumped into?
LOL!
it's TINGSHU!
woohoo!
LOL!
limin! i asked her why she din reply us,
she say:"huh, tis kind of sms nid to reply one mehx?"
LOL!
wth?!

tis moment,
the long awaited moment
i feet energy gushing back into mi.
GREAT!

aiya, forgive mi everybody.
forgive mi fer ignoring u guys.
okie, maybe i'll considering skipping work to go out wif u guys.
LOL! maybe onli!
u all also know i got principles.
=X LOL!

wah!
suddenly got enlightenment.

why must i make myself feel so terrible?
LOL!
siao!

jus gib mi some time!
i will find back myself!
=D

i jus happened to read valerie's blog.
her latest entry on 12th June.

valerie,
i do miss the good old times too!

esp times when we quarrelled so hard.
LOL!
those were evidence of how close we are.
gosh,
those tears are catching up on mi.
haha!

i miss my clarinet terribly.
miss it even terribly when i know i cant play it anymore.
ha!

Cold.

tat's wad she'd evolved into alreadi.
she cant help it.

no,
dun take it personally.
becos she's behaving like tis to EVERYONE.

nobody escaped.
ever thot of tis?
tis might be the real her.
the true xinyi.
she is unfeeling.
she is quiet.
she actually dun like to live fer others,
making all her frens happy,
trying to create a good image in front of others.
she has been working so hard to please each and everyone ard her.
she earned all her close frens.
now, she's gibing all of them up.
all.
becos she's tired of living under the mask.
why cant she jus be stubborn and get angry whenever she wants?
she cant breathe becos she's living in her own world of expectations.
she dun say no becos she felt it's rude.
but why the heck be bothered wif how others feel?
let it go!

if u feel tat she's ignoring u.
dun fret.
u're not the onli one.
she's ignoring all her close frens.
not toking to most of them.
she's not even toking much to her own sister.
she's not feeling down.
jus not happy too.
she's a veri troublesome person.
she cant heal by being alone.
yet, inertia is acting so strongly on her.
she knows wad's wrong wif her.
she can still laugh in front of the tv,
so i guess she's fine.
lol.

Things tat i found out recently abt myself...

1. i dun like to chat on MSN, esp so when the other party reply super slow.
2. i dun like to keep sms-ing. wad's there to realli sms abt?
3. there are alot of small little things tat trouble me. too many.
4. i'd got too many ppl to "answer" to. gosh. jus bear wif mi!
5. i dun like to become frens wif my colleagues.
6. i dun like to work but i dun enjoy staying at home too.
7. i'm losing touch wif lots of frens.
8. i started to realli believe in God.
9. i tink our world is realli veri "messy". i dun like it.
10. i hate the choices in my wardrobe.
11. i hab been semi-conscious fer quite awhile. like now... i cant recall wad i did, why i did it and wad am i realli doing now.
12. i hope august come soon!
13. i dun like it when my colleagues buy mi expensive gifts. it's real exp. ):
14. my eyesight got worst.
15. my physical level dropped.
16. i feel breatheless easily.

Life is BORING.
but it's veri messy.
jus leave mi alone to "tidy" things up okie?

lastly,
dun ask mi to plan any outing.
not gonna entertain.
not tat i dun wan to meet up.
but lao niang no mood to make anyone happy now.
i would be more den happy to be INVITED thou.
understandable rite?
power girl nids breaks as well.
(:

I'M BACK!
back from a 4 days church camp at Kuala Rompin in Msia.
back from the down spirit state.
back from the sick condition!
i'm bbbbaaaccckkkk!!
LOL!

dunno why.
i jus feel happy.

pure bliss.
(:

i'm veri, veri sick now.
got fever on sunday morning but i still went to work.
and it became high fever at nite.

doctor diagnosed tat i hab bronchitis.
and if my condition doesnt get better,
i nid to go back on fri to do X-ray.
i got a 3 days mc.
wow.

the weird part is tat..
every morning i'll wake up wif slight fever.
bronchitis doesnt comes wif fever rite?

anyway,
i was given antibiotic tat costs $5/pill.
the normal one costs onli a few cents each.
so my total medical bill was 48 bucks!
can imagine how sick i am now?
i hope i will get well soon too.
"undo my wish pls! i dun wanna be so sick."

i hope i'd made the right choice.




and i tink i hit the spot. bingo!
tat's why u're silent.




is it realli too much tat i'm asking fer?
jus onli a one week break?





i feel like getting myself a motorbike.





i'm gonna disappear fer awhile soon in the near future.
not gonna reply sms(as if i'm replying them now.)
not gonna answer phonecalls.
not gonna be online.
not gonna blog.
not gonna CARE.
to be in incommunicado.

First, identify yourself as right or left brain person:

1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.
Look at your hands. If you see..
Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brain

2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)
Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain

Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:

Right-Left:
considerate, traditional, indirect type can instinctly read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking intiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.

Right-Right:
Loves challenges type. Straightfoward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they dont listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.

Left-Left:
Dedicated, cold, perfectionist. Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over)him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponets, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.

Left-Right:
Likes to take care of others, leader type. Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsbility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among pepole. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others too much. Very concerned about how others view them, and always on alert.

which one do u guys tink i am?
LOL!
c'mon!
tag mi the category u fall under and also ur guess fer which one i am!
correct guesses get presents from mi oh!
MUAHAHA!
XD

P.S. thanks fer all the comforting! got them all! MUACKS! =)