maybe everyone is busy.
maybe everyone jus cant be bothered.

thanks to those who replied.
thanks to those who still care.

but,
i'm tired too.
and i know everyone is busy wif their own stuffs and getting tired in their own way.

but pls.
it's someone's bdae.
can everyone pls show him some care regardless of how irregular he was?
pls?
did everyone know how sad tat poor boy was on his chalet when the 4 goodie bags he prepared remained lying on the floor?

i hope all of u rmb to wish him happie bdae.

i got so much to tell u guys abt my recent life.
but it's like suddenly we're all strangers.
so cold.

i was realli happy when NTU called mi.
but i hab no one to share my happiness.
no one felt happy fer mi.(i know i'm being sensitive.)
at least i couldn't feel anyone being happy fer mi.
and tis is so sad fer mi.
even worst i broke cas's heart and made her sad.
i'm depressed.

i realli love everyone.
i tink everyone forgotten tat Labour Day is our day.
we hab been meeting up on Labour day these few yrs.
so why not this yr too?

"i wan to stay at home the whole day to rest."
tis realli breaks my heart.
u know, i miss all of u so much.
i nid all of u so much.

P.S.: Dont tag my tagboard please. Comforting is not wad i nid. i nid my frens.

PEOPLE PEOPLE!!
NTU CALLED MI!
NTU CALLED MI!
AHHH~!
LOL!

but i tink i screwed it.
i was caught unprepared.
as it was a PHONE interview.
SHIT.
i tink i screwed the entire thing.
boohoo! T.T

i watched 200 pounds beauty!
and i caught the movie wif meh heh and tat si zhengwei behind mi.
i bumped into them, u see.
jus my luck man!
LOL! jk!
gosh.
peeps! pls go and catch it!
hilarious, touching, romantic and most imptly,
it touched on a super sensitive issue -
the controversy of undergoing plastic surgery.
now, my views on this issue.
it's not wrong to go fer plastic surgery if u are SUPER UGLY.
fer instance, u look like ru hua or worst. =S
but other den tat,
i still tink it's wrong.
and ppl shd stop judging each other by their LOOKS.
tis is wad causes mi to be so vain to a certain extent.
=X

the fact is tat u're indeed irreplaceable.

matter fact,
everyone is.

hey frens.
i'm not doing well.
i feel neglected.
serious.
all of u are busy.
schooling, working, ns-ing, bf-ing.
wad am i suppose to get myself busy wif?

i started accepting the idea of doing things alone.
ALONE.
i even started liking tis word.
onli me and myself.
no accomodations.
no arguments.
no restrictions.
cool?
maybe.

p.s. i like annoying ppl. to make everyone piss wif mi and jus dump me. i know i'm sick. wad type of mental illness do i fall under? sometimes, i wish i will die soon. not thru commiting suicide. jus by accident or terminal illness. i'll be so damn happy!

Beyonce - Irreplaceable.

To the left
To the left

To the left
To the left

Mmmm to the left
Everything you own in the box to the left
In the closet, thats my stuff
Yes, if I bought it, then please don't touch (don't touch)
And keep talking that mess, thats fine
Could you walk and talk, at the same time?
And its my name thats on that jag
So go move your bags, let me call you a cab

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So go ahead and get gone
Call up that chick, and see if shes home
Oops I bet you thought, that I didn't know
What did you thinkI was putting you out for?
Because you was untrue
Rolling her around in the car that I bought you
Baby, drop them keys
Hurry up, before your taxi leaves

Standing in the front yard, telling me
How I'm such a fool, talking 'bout
How I'll never ever find a man like you
You got me twisted

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)
You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I'll have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

So since I'm not your everything
How about I'll be nothing? nothing at all to you (nothing, nothing)
Baby i won't shed a tear for you (I won't shed a tear for you)
I won't lose a wink of sleep (a wink of sleep)
Cause the truth of the matter is (truth is)
Replacing you is so easy

To the left to the left
To the left to the left
MmmmmTo the left to the left
Everything you own in the box to left

To the left to the left
Don't you ever for a second get to thinking
You're irreplaceable

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I can have another you by tomorrow
So don't you ever for a second get to thinkin' (baby! hey yea)

You must not know 'bout me
You must not know 'bout me
I could have another you in a minute
Matter fact, he'll be here in a minute (baby)

You can pack all your bags we're finished
Cause you made your bed now lay in it
I could have another you by tomorrow
Don't you ever for a second get to thinkin'
You're irreplaceable

i had just finished Just Friends by Robyn Sisman.

what made mi bought this book was this line :
Can a man and a woman ever be just friends?

and two thumbs up fer this book!

thrilling, engaging and so close to my heart.
it practically went into all the inner thots men and women hab when they interacted.
sweet.

i smiled like an idiot in the train while reading it.
haha.
the way the leads converse in the book was so familiar to me.
like the way i used to tok to someone.
and i cant help but felt stupid, silly and funny.
haha.

a book which flashes images in my mind as i read along.

and know wad?
a man and a woman cannot know each other too well and be just friends.

"..of men who'd lost the only woman that mattered, he'd dreamed of this chance to tell her that he was sorry, and to prove to her that he had changed."

" The words formed in her mind - words she had never allowed herself to speak aloud - like tight buds swelling, unfurling, bursting open to the light. I love you."

and finally,

"He reached for her hand, holding it as if he would never let go, and flipped down the seat to draw her close. his eyes smiled into her."

i was overwhelmed by bliss.
(:

i feel tat i'm such a bastard now.
i suddenly rmb the core mission of my blog.
i had created tis blog wif my sec sch frens in mind.
they are the ones who persuaded mi into getting one,
so they can know wad's going on wif mi and my life.
jus tis simple reason.

but i'm so obssessed wif my own life recently,
tat i onli blog and din read my frens' blog.
when i finally did today,
i realised i'm so behind time and when my fren was feeling so down,
i'm captured in my own world of fantasy.

sorrie simin.
u blog on 13th april and i onli read it today on 17th april.

actualli i dun wanna to blog abt tis,
becos my mei mei will read tis and feels bad abt it.
but after reading simin's entry,
i feel tat i must take the cue.
peiyi, dun tink too much after reading again.

last sunday,
i finally got to sit down and ate wif my family after like 2 weeks of not being at home.
i was so excited when i was walking home.
"yay! finally can eat tgt as a family!"
den i was visualising everyone was at home,
dinner was cooked and was waiting fer mi to start dinner.
cos it was almost 7 when i was reaching home.
but den,
when i got home.
dinner is not done,
mum was not backed yet.
cold.
and becos i was hungered since morning,
my mood changed drastically.
when everything finally settled down.
nth seems rite.
not an enjoyable meal after all.
becos everyone ate so fast.
as usual,
mum will leave the extra food to kor and mei,
leaving mi out, etc etc.
if i take sth, it shd not be the best one.
it must go to someone else.
it always happened tat when i took tis food and mum will go :"eh eh eh! why u take tat one? u take tis one."
u can imagine wad i got.
u know, tat kind of biasness?
den daddy came to my mind again,
and tears got locked at my eyes while i ate my dinner.
i jus kept quiet and i dun even feel like arguing back.
tis kind of thing happened so frequently tat the feeling became so familiar.
but i'll jus live wif it.
there's nth i can do to change her attitude.
and if she ever changed,
it means either one of my sibilings will take over my role.
so, no nid.

simin, my dear.
things tat u cant change,
u jus live wif it.
other things tat u can help wif,
jus try ur best.
leave ur dad alone.
i tink taking care of ur mum is a much easier task den changing ur dad.
dun even argue wif him.
jus ren.

and tis song is dedicated to u, simin!
smile! =)

p.s. actualli i was habing a super bad feeling last week tat sth is wrong wif u cos we din contact fer so long.
sorrie. i din take the instinct seriously.
i'm so sorrie.

Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong'
Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

my colleague pei fern sent mi tis website.
http://www.livingto100.com
it calculates your life expectancy based upon your habits and medical and family history.
hmm.
so i went to take the test, bla bla bla.
and guess wad?
it predicted tat i'm gonna live till 84 years old!!
i'm going 19 now.
so tat's another 65 more years!
GOSH!
argh!!
let mi die earlier~
i dun mind!
becos i still cant figure out wad is life exactly abt.

see.
there's more sufferings than happiness.
we were born into a world tat's so complicated.
did things tat seems to exterminate our future descendents.
at the end of everything, we die.
and there's no concrete evidence of life after death.
and so wad even if there's life after death?
is there realli a nid fer us to go thru the cycle of life and why shd we go thru them?
argh!
I CANT FIND ANY ANSWER!

tis leads mi on...

is there realli a God who controls every single thing?
if there is, why would He wants to destroy all the things he created,
or in other words, his pride of work?
Christians say becos He's disappointed wif us.
but He's GOD.
he can control EVERYTHING.
therefore, he jus nid to click his fingers to make things go HIS way.
i dun see the purpose of life.
i dun see why we shd make ourselves so miserable over death, separation and disappointments.
Hence, God is simply someone we made up to make ourselves feel better when we are down.
when a miracle happened,
u say it's God's doing.
when the miracle din happen,
u say God hab sth else planned fer u,
He wans u to learn and grow up.
isn't it funny the way we go ard fooling ourselves?
hab u seen Him urself?

it's the sophisticated structure of our mind tat created tis character and somehow made it so real.
we hab mental illness - hallucination,
which is onli an illness becos we defined it so.
so God is an hallucination,
which grew into our life so naturally,
we tot it's part of us.
tink again.
all talks abt God at work hab no concrete evidence.
it's all but onli statements from faithful followers.
"oh! we digged out the remains of Noah's Ark."
"oh! there's a great depression in the Red Sea tat could onli be cause by a turbo wave, like in the story of Bible."
but again,
hab u seen God urself?
u can refute tat God is mighty and superior so he doesnt get himself shown so easily.
Then i tink tis is such a saddening news becos fer all the faithfulness his followers hab showered on him,
he cant even walk alongside wif them.

i hab tis christian coming up to mi and told mi :" In chrsitianity, we believe in God. In buddhism, they believe in someone who used to be a human and den became a God. So buddhists worship a human."

c'mon!
tat's not the way to promote chrsitianity!
dun we hab more successful ppl as role models?!
so wad's wrong wif follwing their ways?
she'd totally messed up on why she became a christian.
it's not to heighten ur status cos u believe in God and not half God half human.
so tat makes u a PURE God's follower.
and after toking to her,
i became more atheistic.
see? dun tell mi God sent u to test my faith in him.
to not hab faith in mi habing faith in Him,
tat means there's no reason fer mi to remain faithful.
fair enuff?
in summary,
if there's God, i dun understand why he created life which bought along disasters.
and the purpose of life is to behave decently enuff to go to heaven eventually.
if there's no God,
wad's exactly the purpose of life?!
(oh, i found another reason fer ppl to make up God.)

disclaimer : wadeva u jus read are solely my personal views. u can disagree wif fierce urge to slap mi becos u so believe in God, and wad i typed is so disrespectful of mi to ur God. but pls, He's ur God in ur eyes, He's not mine in my eyes. and i do respect him by capitalising the G in God. i know individuals hab different encounters to behave in a certain way. so tis is my encounter and tis is wad i jus believe in. tis is a change from an old mi, and u'll never know! i might change again. =)

imagine!
u wan to go and pee (or SHIT).
i mean fer ladies.
den u sit on a toilet bowl tat KEEPS FLUSHING!!
GOSH.
tat movement sensor went berserk all the time!
and it's not onli fer one cubicle,
it's fer a few of them!!
no wonder singapore nids to worry so much of future water crisis.


argh!
how long will it take tis time round?
maybe fereva.
i wont gib in.
u dun seem to care.
and the terrible fact is tat,
i miss u alot.

This song rocks!
jus do wadeva u wan!
dun even bother to care abt wad others are toking!
as long as u know u wont regret!
cheers!

Avril Lavigne - Girlfriend.

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me!
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend!

You're so fine.
I want you mine.
You're so delicious.
I think about ya all the time.
You're so addictive.
Don't you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
(alright alright alright alright)
Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious.
And hell yeah!
I'm the mother fuckin' princess.
I can tell you like me too and you know I'm right.
(I'm right I'm right I'm right)
She's like so whatever.
You could do so much better.
I think we should get together now.
And that's what everyone's talking about!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me!
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend!

I can see the way, I see the way you look at me.
And even when you look away I know you think of me.
I know you talk about me all the time again and again.
(and again and again and again)
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear.
Better yet make your girlfriend disappear.
I don't want to hear you say her name ever again.
(And again and again and again!)

She's like so whatever.
You could do so much better.
I think we should get together now.
And that's what everyone's talking about!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend!

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me!
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend!

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger.
Cause I can, cause I can do it better.
There's no other.
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid!
What the hell were you thinking?

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger.
Cause I can, cause I can do it better.
There's no other.
So when's it gonna sink in?
She's so stupid!
What the hell were you thinking?


Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend!
No Way No Way...

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me!
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend!
No Way No Way...

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don't like your girlfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend!
No Way No Way...

Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me!
No way! No way!
No it's not a secret!
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend!
No Way No Way Hey Hey...


it's healthy to be unhealty sometimes.
heh heh!
(:

omg.
i forgot wad i wan to blog abt.
tis kind of situation caught mi veri frequently recently.
i mean, jus being plain forgetful.
argh.
i cant concentrate properly too!
let mi tink...
let mi tink...

(10 mins later...)
ah ha!
i rmb le~!
woo~
i jus received an invitation to a bdae party!
LOL!
a secret one too!
wonder who is invited too..
haha!


tis was wad my new sentosa colleague told mi the other day.

nadiyah: "hey! i dreamt of u bringing blue and yellow honeystars the other day!"
mi: "LOL!"
nadiyah: "den in the dream, u tried to feed mi wif the blue ones!"
LOL!!
omg. i gib ppl a i-am-veri-evil impression.
blue honeystars~ LOL!


argh.
the truth is,
i miss u guys alot.
u guys = cas, yimei, meh, simin and yj.
like tis whole week din realli contact.
forgive ur workaholic fren okie?
i promise we will hab some real fun soon!
=D

i learnt sth recently.
i learnt to 忍气吞声.
no point explaining.
it's a waste of time and effort.
i got so sicked and tired from jus trying to do so.
so the next time i got maligned.
i am going to shut up.
I SWEAR.
zzz.
"c'mon dude. shoot! u can say wadeva u wan. SAY LA~"

randomisation takes charge today!!

My mei mei's band got SILVER fer SYF!!
LOL!
woohoo~!
wad i nid to highlight is tat she was the flute SOLOIST.
*PROUD*
LOL!
no mistakes at all oh!
well done peiyi!
okie la~
treat u to sakae sushi to celebrate okie?
actualli i wan to eat it myself.
=X
haha!


my throat is soring now!
and i'm eating honey stars, milky bar, french fries and every other things tat will onli worsen my condition.
C'mon!
I WAN TO GET M.C.!
i look forward to the arrival of the super "sexy" voice.
pls gib mi flu and fever too!
dengue fever sounds good!
=D


sorrie.i'd chased u away before u hab the chance to chase mi away.i tink u're habing a hard time tinking on how to shake mi off fer a long time.so let mi help u wif it ba.smile man!becos ur problem-me, is gone fer good!hopefully,we're finish.i hab always hate ur casual attitude.

i realise there's a handful of ppl who read my blog.
jus tat they dun tag.

hey frens! ( or enemies! =X )
it's okie to let mi know u'd been here!
i will still blog abt ur bad things.
=X
dun worrie sia.
i wont bad mouth ppl in my blog.
i jus critically comment abt them.
so dun even tink u can sneak in here occasionally to see if i did anything "behind ur back".
please.
grow up.

some cute ppl visted mi too!
ya, i'm toking abt u ppl!
sinyu.
bee hong.
my mei mei.
uk.
LOL!

i'm suspecting some other ppl also.
u know? women's instinct.
LOL!
but i wont name these ppl out.
if i'm wrong,
it will be so malu!

*sweat*
u totally freak mi out.
no, it shd be 90% shock and 10% freaked out.
we broke off fer almost 5 yrs alreadi.
onli held hands.
onli sent mi to woodlands mrt once after sch.
chat on the phone like mad.
din even went out together.
and he sms mi tis.
"after so many years.. i finally know where ur block is... Lol."
later, he told mi he carved my block number on his wall.
(-.-)
i tot he was kiddin.
"u come my house see my wall lorx. Lol."
thank u fer remembering.
but u can start to forget. =S
and sorrie.
i realli dunno where u stay.
=X

argh.
hf and uk's turn to go tekong le~!
so when i online occasionally,
they will not be there anymore.
T-T
no more crap from hf.
and no more rubbish from uk.
i will miss the 2 of u!
take care there!
haha!
aiya.
uk, i will pray fer u tat u can enter SAF and stay on as a pilot la~!
LOL!

This song turns on the groove in me!
and the soul of a song - lyrics.
so listen to the song and follow them.
they helped mi speak the words in my mouth.


GWEN STEFANI (f/ Akon) LYRICS The Sweet Escape

[Gwen]
If I could escape I would but,
First of all, let me say
I must apologize for acting stank & treating you this way
Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

[CHORUS]
If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
Tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet, I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better, Tell me boy wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

[Akon]
I want to get away, to our sweet escape
I want to get away, yeah

[Gwen]
You held me down, I'm at my lowest boiling point
Come help me out, I need to get me out of this joint
Come on let's bounce, counting on you to turn me around
Instead of clowning around, let's look for some common ground
So baby, times get a little crazy
I've been gettin' a little lazy, waitin' on you to come save me
I can see that you're angry by the way that you treat me
Hopefully you don't leave me, wanted you with me

[CHORUS]
If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet (sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

Woohoo, Yeehoo
Woohoo, Yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, yeehoo (If I could escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo

Cause I've been acting like sour milk all on the floor
It's your fault you didn't shut the refrigerator
Maybe that's the reason I've been acting so cold?

[CHORUS]
If I could escape & recreate a place that's my own world
& I could be your favourite girl (forever), Perfectly together
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)
If I could be sweet (sorry boy)
I know I've been a real bad girl (I'll try to change)
I didn't mean for you to get hurt (whatsoever)
We can make it better
& tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet? (sweet escape)

Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away, get away)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (To our sweet escape)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (I wanna get away)
Woohoo, Yeehoo (Yeah)
Woohoo, Yeehoo
Woohoo, Yeehoo


i wish i could escape and build a place where everything is ideal in my point of view too.
no stress.
no sadness.
no arguments.
no lo*esick.


PS : if u find tat my choice of music is noise in ur ears,
u can conveniently move ur mouse cursor
and click on the X (stop button) on ur internet browser.
tat stops my music, ur noise.
=)

i woke up today and shocked myself when i looked into the mirror.
ahh~!
I'M TANNED LE~!
but not veri jia lat.
i still like fair complexion.
=X
where's my whitening body lotion?
LOL!

aww.
cas~~~
so shiok!
u can go to genting fer holidays!
i wan PRESENT.
and u're welcome.
but pls stop trying to find mi a bf.
HE IS WAY TOO DISGUSTING~!
OMG.
*FAINT*
and my pic in ur blog is SO UGLY!
WO DE XING XIANG~!
NOOO~~


wad shd i do to make everything better?
i asked myself today:"wad if i bump into u on the streets?"
and i found myself answering:"even if our eyes met, i would walk away without saying hi."
i dun like tis answer.

WOOHOO~!
and i went to sentosa today.
oh, no no no.
not fer work.
but to PLAY!
WEE~~!
finally i get to meet up my classmates!
i miss all of them so much!
haha!
we went cycling,
played the captain's ball.
ate lunch and dinner together.
and basically,
crapped the whole time.
but jus doing all these were enuff to make mi feel happie.
i do miss those good old times.

yea hf.
i know i became so vulgar.
i will kick this habit.
sorrie.
i swear no more knn and tmd from mi anymore.
*wah. xiong =X*


oh yea.
i received a personalised keychain from my mei mei last nite!
it's from Power9 with some engravements on it.
on one side,
it's my name.
on the other,
it reads : Rest Well. Smiles.
wif some heart shapes as deco.
so sweet!
i love it!

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i tink it's so pointless to drag any longer.
why shd i always sms u first?
everything now make it seems like i'm bugging u.
the feeling tat u gave mi,
u know it's so hard fer mi to be understanding?
i dunno wad u're thinking at all.
at least say sth will u?
wad do u mean when u always dun reply?
i'm so tired of all the explanations - "huh? u got sms me meh?"
wad u told mi,
be it true or false,
it's too much alreadi.
i dun like to pester ppl at all.
esp u.
jus wad do u tink i am to u?
must be some pest.
i jus nid u to ask mi to get lost.

and i know u read my blog.
i realli hate it when u always act blur.

PR( Please Read ):
You've been tired/stress up since you graduated from NBSS.
As a sister, I hope you can have at least one good day rest at home and have good meals at home too.
Don't overwork yourself please!
Anyway, just to tell you my plans, I will start to concentrate on studies and work after SYF, as I have to contribute some for the family bills too, and you can save more money. me too.

Conclusion: Because you're my onli sister, so I don't want anything to happen to you.

REST WELL.

From: Your Precious Sister( HeHe, thick skin, :P )

PS: Always Smile =D


My mei mei left mi tis msg on the whiteboard we hab in our bedroom.
my eyes totally went red after i read it.
and i realli wan to jus rub her head and tell her she's so silly.
peiyi ah.
dun worrie. jie jie still can handle all these.
i know out of ten times i reached home,
six times i will be in bad mood.
i know the amount of food i ate in a yr,
less den 10% came from home.
i know the total amount of time i spent at home in the past one yr
is less den 20% of all the time i hab.
but u must also know tat jie jie did so badly fer A level is becos i jungled work and studies.
dun ever tink of working more days than wad u're working now.
i will never allow u to gamble ur future away.
even if there's not enough money,
i make sure u can go poly.
even if suay suay ur results cant get u into poly,
i will sponsor u to open ur own pet shop.
even when we grow up,
and u hab no where to go,
i make sure u stay wif mi.
even one day when mummie leave us to join daddy,
and leave behind onli korkor, u and mi,
the 3 of us will still be there fer each other.
after all, we onli hab one another fer the last ten yrs.
and tis fact will never change.

jie jie hab nv stopped loving u fer a moment.
it's jus like when we were young,
i would carry ur bag fer u on our way home after sch everyday.
i brought u wif mi everywhere i go
becos i am so scared tat u might disappear suddenly like daddy.
and i know how hurt u felt the other day when tat stupid auntie commented tat we dun look alike.
becos i was so hurt too.
i will try to stay at home more often okie?
u know how happy i was the last sat when korkor, u and mi sat down, watched tv and laughed together?
the last time tis happened was a yr ago.
i realli miss laughing together.
realli.
jie jie loves u.

PEEK-A-BOO!

LOL!

i was wiping the display panel in the shop on wed.
when i say display panel,
it means i was behind the glass,
stucked in the small "box",
and was definitely conspicuous.

then, this group of boys passed me.
like some crazie donkeys,
they knocked on the glass to grab my attention,
and started waving to mi so happily!
OMG.
like i was some clown and they were some kids,
and i was supposed to spare them some sweets.
zzz!
siao qin na(s)!
so ma lu fer mi la~!

tuesday was a fun day!
i went fer Mr Cas aka Lionel's POP(passing-out-parade).
it was held at the Home Academy ard cck area.
somehow,
at the end of the day,
i got myself a new english name.
it is Stepshi. (stepshit)
LOL!!
I HATE TIS NAME~!!
and the whole time,
Mr Meh aka Zhengwei jus wont gib mi a break.
"噢，你姓踩。名叫大便。所以全名叫踩大便。"
thanks huh.
LOLx.
meh, the two of u are a perfect match.
definitely. i'm so sure.
and cas!
i wont forget tat u actualli went up to tat guy and crapped tat i was interested in this disgusting fellow who actualli stepped on his own shit!
OMG.
i nearly fainted at the sight of his face!
do u seriously wan ur best fren to marry such a freak?!
NO~~~
LOL!


i'm so blind now.
i can onli see him and no one else.
my heart absolutely hab no space fer others.
i'm so dumb.

YIPEE~!

PEOPLE!
I GOT BOYFRIEND LE~!

who?

hmm..

veri tall.

veri clever.

veri tan.

veri humourous.

veri rich.

veri sweet.

veri handsome.

veri kind.

haha.
and also he asked mi to wish all of u,
HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY~!

yea.
jus kiddin.
i'm still single.
BOOHOO!

LOL!