CHOPstick.

i am starting to hab prejudice against shorties.
my recent encounter wif 2 of them
is indeed, disbelieving to some.

let's start wif the story of how CHOPstick is invented.
Obstensibly, he is trying to become one of us.
ACTUALLI. he is trying to disrupt the peace.
obviously, he failed.
and will continue to do so.
Any stirrings made again.
the story of the invention of CHOPstick shall take another form,
where the stick gets CHOP UP in IJC.

the other shortie.
i got no comments.
too shock to do so.
NEVER judge a book by its cover.
but i guess STUPID women exist because of ppl like her.
ladies. pls control and retain some sense when u are in love.
please face this fact.
NOTHING in the world is fair.
especially LOVE.
if love is to be morally right, it will not be love.
no one in this world can force love.
if u need to force it.
it's time to let go.
it's not love.

SINCERITY.
the key to good PR.
speak from ur heart.
act with care.
see onli the love.
listen to all.
and u will touch them.

the little things u said. =)
"i dunno why i suddenly think of u then tell u sia"
"anw i oso more than happy this thing happen. at least i can talk to u now. =)"
"WAh u got a very important place in my hEARt . happy?"
"i oredi very foul mood le because of u =_="
"because u nvr reply me then i wait whole night T___T"
"nvm at least i get to know u WooT! LOLx."
"because of ur thing really WORe me out T___T"
"OMG TODAY I SAW U WHERE. I AVOID."
"i see u laugh i feel very unhappy LOlx. dunno why."
"u laugh until so happy i tt i nth de."
"EE I WAITING For u to talk to me u know? LOl. xD nvm =X"
u're so cute! LOLx. =X

"*&*%^@*(&#^%"

CRAP.
SUCH A HOLE IN THE ASS.
u ASSHOLE.
to think tat i actualli speak up fer u.
u lump of shit.
now i see why u are an OUTCAST.
LOW EQ.
NO BRAINS.

lesson learnt.
NEVER be TOO kind to IDIOTS.
they will NEVER cherish.

i am trying my best to contain my anger.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

=) ^ infinity.

Life cannot be any better.
he had removed all the dark clouds surrounding me.
the sunshine after rain.
the warmth.
=)

i can feel it this morning.
imagine the lights flick at both our house.
how shock i am to know it.
sorry to scare u. Lolx.
but i tink my daddy is back to watch over mi.
how i miss u, papi.
=)

PHEW.
hf is indeed my close fren.
reads mi like a paper.
maybe he is jus observant.
but maybe he realli clicks wif mi.
now tat he also know.
i am relieved.
one more to help mi hide The Secret.
=)

the boys did not hab any qns at all.
guess they are not interested.
i thought too much indeed.
Lolx. i am happy tat life is gonna be the same as b4.
everything will be alrite.
i'm optimistic.
=)

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =) = )

=)

"yes, u r important to me.
ok. i admit. dot."

"hard la. althou i act like a girl i am still a nan ren.
i nid face."

hilarious. LOLx.
onli he could bring the smile to my face.
=)
everything is worth it.
even being hate.

there is realli "nth btw us". =X

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.

I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.
I AM SUCH AN IDIOT.

i hurt him. sorry.
now i know.
all along it's mutual.
even thou he din say anything.
my actions gave myself away too.
"i dun wan to get u involve."

The Great Confession.

i shall be sent to hell.
i actualli revealed the blog to him last nite.
i betrayed everyone else.
why?
trust.
he ain't any kid.
imagine everyone ard u know sth abt u,
while u are kept in the dark.
feels retarded. realli.
tis is how i feel when i am being "protected".
unfair to him.
probably jus like how hf feels when the rest decided not to tell mi.
i feel tat it's better fer him to know.
things are not as bad as it might seem.
he is suppose to act dumb abt it.
tis means he act ignorant.
he promised not to tell anyone.
he will keep his promise.
"fer ur life's sake, i will." - him.
let's all strive to be the best actors and actresses.
i am expecting them to clear their queries wif mi on monday.
esp. the boys.
let mi consolidate my thoughts.
my feelings.
my guiltiness.

we shall split the guilt. we are both guilty. neither one of us is innocent.
we are rotten. now the girl is devastated. shd i stop toking to u? i cant do it.
can u?

Sins.

Everthing is spilled out.
not to everyone. but onli to u.
yea. limin. it's u.
my onli reader.
but i will still blog like no one is gonna read this still.

sinful. why?
i am realli sorry fer keeping so many secrets wif mi.
now tat they read the blog.
they believe tat i am being framed.
rather, they believe i am innocent.
and she is evil.
i hab admitted to hf and limin.
tat i am not truely innocent.
i shd hab know tat one day.
she will track mi down.
why? becos same as mi, she is a woman.

am i totally at fault?
but i was toking to him alreadi b4 i knew they were together.
do anyone know how shock i am when i knew it?
like i tok so much to him and he din tell mi.
allow mi to redeem myself.
on one occasion, i caught her staring at mi.
knew wad i do?
i ask fer the both of us ( mi and him ) to stop toking.
i dunno. fer tat moment.
i was devastated.
and he was too.
i am, in fact, guilty.

hmm. i guess i nid to thannk some ppl.
and apologise to some too.

let's start wif the thank list.
fred - thank you so much fer being so thoughtful!
hf - thx fer betraying others and told mi those things!
lm - thx fer being my listening ears!
val - MUACKS! u are my first audience. the onli one who knows EVERYTHING.
but dunno this blog. i dunno whether i wan to make this blog public.
meh heh - i shall thx u in advance first. becos u are gonna assist mi in clearing up all the mess.
hy - thx fer hating mi. makes mi feel better.

now the sorry list.
fred - sorry tat i made hf betrayed u.
hf - sorry i scolded u jian.
lm - sorry i wasnt exactly honest.
val - sorry fer flooding u wif my sorrows!
hy - i am sorry fer causing so much trouble fer u.

i am an idiot. i told him le.

Disturbed.

Hf jus informed mi tat he made a new discovery of a blog.
by this "classmate"call kok keong.
weird. why would someone do this?
but at the same time.
i hab begin to doubt hf's word.
he is another bastard.
he was jus trying to sound mi out the other day.
and i fell rite thru the trap.
he was trying to verify the reliability of the blog's content.
i gave myself away.
and now, The Secret is probably known to him alreadi.
wad shd i do?
admit it? dun admit to anything till i see the blog myself?
DAMN IT.
how i hate them.
i am suspecting tat hy is kok keong.
pk is the onli reader.
nobody can be trusted.
NO ONE AT ALL.
fer 2 times tis week. i am being sounded out.
wad the fuck.
wad's up wif habing secrets?
why must they try their best to dig out ppl's secrets?
why can't i hab my own secrets?
BUNCH OF IDIOTS.

God bless mi. dun let them read anything abt it pls. pls pls pls.

Ups and Downs.

Up.Down.Up.Down.Up.Down.
tis is how i spent my day.
weighing all the pro and cons.
"she is ur best fren." - angel
"she is hurting u." - devil
"forgive her." - angel
"and hurt urself?" - devil
i soon realise i am such a weakling.
i am jus afraid of being hurt.
wad's up?
i shall hab faith in u.
u are my best fren.

u are not gonna be like her rite? .....

Habits.

Old habit dies hard.
like my tendency to look at u.
my tendency to speak up fer u.
my tendency to hear wad u say.
my tendency to hide from u.
my tendency to protect ur identity.
when will i stop all these tendenc-ies?




the distance btw us is growing. u dun nid mi anymore.

Power of intuition.

Ever doubt the reliability of our inborn instinct?
Dun be.
Soon, u will be amazed by it's power, jus like me.
or am i tinking too much?
are u?

i jus hab tis feeling tat u hates me.

but u act like u dun.

i know tat u hab some motives. i am gonna bring u down in the game u start.
ur effort to become me is gonna cause u ur downfall. dun belittle me.
i hope u wake up soon.

News Galore!

BOY'S EYE GOUGED OUT IN
INDIAN ELECTION VIOLENCE
A 10-year-old boy was attacked and his
eye gouged out by men in India's eastern
Bihar state after his parents
refused to vote for a candidate in local
elections, news reports said on Friday.
A group of men gouged out the boy's
left eye with a scythe earlier this week
after his parents refused to vote for
their chosen candidate in a villagebody
election in Bihar's Begusarai district,
NDTV channel reported quoting
police officials. -- DPA

Crazy?! imagine u're the boy. these bloodless creatures! GRR!


MALAYSIAN GIRL FAKES OWN
KIDNAP TO HELP BOYFRIEND
A college student in Ipoh staged her
own kidnapping to extort money from
her family to settle her boyfriend's
debts, The Star newspaper reported
yesterday.
With the help of a friend, the 19-
year-old girl plotted the fake abduction
with her boyfriend and demanded an
RM80,000 ($34,300) ransom, a top police
official said. "She was actually hiding
out at two hotels in Kuala Lumpur," he
told reporters yesterday.

power of love? wad abt the family love? hmm..


US WARNS ABOUT FLAW
IN MICROSOFT WINDOWS
The United States Department of
Homeland Security (DHS) urged personal
computer owners on Thursday to
immediately fix a dangerous vulnerability
in Microsoft's Windows operating
systems.
It was unusual for the US government's
anti-terrorism department to call
on the public to seal a crack in
Windows before attackers broke in.
“This vulnerability could impact government
systems, private industry and
critical infrastructure, as well as individual
and home users," the DHS said.
PC users were called on to apply
Microsoft security patch MS06-040 “as
quickly as possible". — AFP

wad are u waiting fer?! download it!!!










DOCS CONSIDER SURGERY
FOR TWO-HEADED BABY
Doctors in Indonesia said on
Thursday they were unsure
whether they would be able to
operate on a two-headed
newborn (picture).
The baby girl was born
after a caesarian operation on
Aug 8 "in a healthy condition
... and with complete organs"
said a spokeswoman at the
Jakarta hospital where the
baby is being treated.
The infant was formed the
same way as Siamese twins
but only has one body and one
set of organs. — AFP

imagine the fate of this baby. or babies?

credits :: Weekend Today newspaper (PDF version) of August 12, 2006.