Time Machine

The road not taken, in our life we made many choices and decision, some changes you, some may not. If there is one day, someone invented a time machine that can make all the impossible to be possible, will you take a ride? Of course your first instinct will tell you to take it, go back to your past, change your life so it can be better, because you will know what happen now, what will happen next and take the other path or something new, interesting and meaningful for your "new" life. Realistic, pathetic yet undeniable. But why?

First I’ll start with my assumption, I assume everybody want a time machine. We want a perfect life, although on some point of view, there are small parts of people were perfect, but for their own, they will never thought so. Humanity is greedily and hungered. Of course there is portion will use it on correct mistakes, both recoverable and unrecoverable, saving someone you love, help the world, so we can be better, better and better. Whenever a chance given to go back to your past, everything can be start all over again and your memory is remain, I believe there is none of us will able to resist such strong seduction, no? That could be my one-sided answer for why, if we shared a common point, please read further.

Now we’ll focus on human’s eagerness to success. Well, I have a question for reader, have you ever wondered what and why do you fight for? To achieve dreams, for living, to protect someone, or just simply to catch the flow? Once birth, we’ll wait the time to start study, then will be secondary study, higher study, further study, advanced study, more advanced study…at last graduated, get a job and work for money, some skipped to start a business, money, chase for our goal, rest a while, chase again, rest a while more and chase until we get, when finally we’re there, did we ready to enjoy everything we did? In every aspect, we consider a success when someone reaches the end and a failure when someone doesn’t. One can choose to run away but can never escape it. Some people might think we are born with choices, but in fact we don’t. Don’t get me wrong, we are only born to choose different approach or character inside the flow, the current world is no longer allowing any changes, and we are just its follower. If time machine can be made to escape the reality, the boundary, or the destiny, what else can stop you from gives it a try?

Nobody will ever accept the current was the best of the best than every possible way. We choose to believe the past rather than choose to look ahead on the future. Well, is it so good to be perfect? How do we actually define “perfect” when the best wasn’t the perfect? Also we believe in every reason for a time machine exist are for happiness, a retry is always better than it’s used to be. Perhaps the fact is the last thing to decide in our life is to give up. Escaped from boundary of time was perfect yet true until the lost of excitation and expectation, once again we'll lost our stances and entrusted to another one and the same retry.

For everything that deserve to changes, humans belief should change the first, followed by destruction and recreation. When the real meaning of life is to die, when one believe the death is ahead once lost, when one still doubt what to do if there’s only 1 hour left to live, when one still believe everything will be fine all by itself…

…believe yourself.





p/s: please at least nag a little about what you think~ for your info it's not easy for me to write stuff that totally fiction ya noe? x)

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A Song For You

The song that I wanted to play with you,
it's a song that I wanted to tell you,
that's how it is when we are listening together,
with the feeling that I developed as a gift;

At the moment we are sharing the same melody,
while it held the joy that only for both of us,
that's how it is when the music played,
with the rhythm that we share as a piece.

Flying musical notes have us surrounded,
unlocking the down deeping guardian angel,
that's how it is when she came alive,
with the verse that actually touch your heart;

"I love you" is the only lyrics that came in my mind,
upon everything that I wanted to tell you,
that's how it is when my dream came true,
with our destiny that we belonged
...is going to last forever.

Movies List

Today's post is actually nothing but a simple sharing. I love movies, either for entertaining, or filling my extra time, or simply just enjoying other ppl's artwork, I enjoy it very much. But the world without sharing is cruel, that's why I didn't delete them after watching, instead I store it, grouping, rename slightly for better look.
Well, allow me to present my little collection...


So if you're interested in any of them can kindly give me a call when I'm home during Chinese New Year, that is 2 months later. Hehe, of course, the list will still grow within this 2 months, so why not grab few of them from me at least for a reason why I keep them =)

Thank you for your time, Au revoir.

An Undelivered Letter

Dear Mom,

Although I know this “letter” will never ever deliver to you anyway, where I also know you might not really be the person who I want to pass these messages, but yea, maybe I just wanted to remind myself about something…everything.

Mom, do you still remember how I played computer games when next week will be my final exam? The excuses I gave you when I came back so often before the school bell ringed? The result I get when I told you I wanted to study EEE in Singapore? The emotion I gave you when you first told me there was an offer to go oversea but not in the country I wanted? And eventually I did nothing to prove I’m right to have it. Yes, I remembered all of it.

You’re right, Mom. I really used to be a person who can’t differentiate what’s important. I didn’t consider the outcome before the action taken, and that’ll be just what I wanted to do, other than what I wanted to achieve.

Every night I was thinking how you gonna feel when you found out all your efforts on this son are wasted, the way you get me tuition teacher even your salary isn’t much to afford, the way you rushed to the market with just a motorbike for something I need at 10pm, the way you trying to scold me even you know I’m not going to listen, the way you sacrifice for us even your life isn’t just worth that…I’m sorry mom. Although sometimes I tried hard but at end failed to keep the torques running. My passion is beyond to keep everything alive. Again is because I will only do what I wanted to do.

Other than getting some satisfaction, my dissatisfaction is growing much more than I ever requested. The mean time I was questioning myself about what’s fair, what’s deserved. It’s quite disappointing to say but being a son, I was failed, being a hope, it’s despaired.

Maybe some things just wouldn’t change, some facts just can’t erase, and some faith will never misplace. Mom, I can’t promise the ending will be what you wished, but I promise, it’ll be very very much better than the worst than you aren’t hope to be. For the reason why I declared today, perhaps I’m started to believe in good, maybe I wish there is still hope out there to can define me in some other way. A change.

When the day came, I wish you still able stood by my side and tell me “See, I told you so.”

Drey Builded

Hi and welcome everyone who are invited, (i guess not more than 5 though)
This small little drey was officially created at 2008/11/9 10:12:54AM, and here goes my first post =) Well, first special thanks to yy and "miss fujioka" for inspiring me in creating this small space. Their blogs are very spiritualize, interesting yet informative and not the least well designed. Check it out some time, feel what I feel :D

Erm...I suppose it will not be necessary to introduce myself. (No?) And I have to apologize that I can't keep my blog updated due to heavy workload given by our well respected teachers, so please come by once in a week =) (That would be my best to promise this)

Today's in Beijing, the weather is around 1~13 degree Celsius, what a day huh...therefore today's topic is weather. The weather here used to be cold or much lower compared to my hometown, especially during winter. Allow me to call it temporary as "pre-winter" (until I found the correct term...).

Every wake up in the morning the only things in your mind is warm your body with a hot drink, instead of brushing your teeth first. Though you will still forced to brush first cause you're told by your father, mother, grandpa, grandma, kindergarener & primary school's teacher, haha. Oh ya, try the tap water in the morning, I bet you won't dare to bath with it. Bath only when your heater is running, otherwise taking cold shower everyday may do more harm than good.

After that you need to pick a jacket, today's theme is white, thus pick a white one =). Do bear in mind always wear more clothes than needed, because the temperature may drop so critically 5~10 degree Celsius a day. Bringing a 500g 30cm thermometer are not necessary, your body can tell if you don't wear enough. Flu in the winter are very suffering, hiding in the blanket for 24hours a day are doomed. Do yourself a favor and prepare more clothes before winter is arriving.

During pre-winter, the air is dry and not likely will rain (good luck if rainy). You need to apply tons of lotion on your skin to prevent dry skin especially for girls, it would be very hard to stop the bleeding if your skin somehow cracked. Protect your lip as well, lips balm do a great job in protecting your lip, simply apply one cm thick on your lip x).

Prepare more food, so that you're allowed to be lazy not to walk your way into the restaurant when the weather is too cold for you. Biscuit is the best choice, unlike bread that shorter storage period, basically biscuit will have 1 year before it is expired, buy and forget it, best invention of all time. Usually I will buy few packs to keep under my desk.

So remember, clothes, lotion and food. If you're ready these three, then you're good to go.
Season is a big challange for our fellow South-East Asians and we should at least experience it once in our lifetime. I already did, when will be your turn?? =)