Wednesday, August 29, 2007
Sigh...yar saw it.. feel it.. yar.. feel alot.. seriously dunno how to comment on this... HAIZ....
Night time...i love night time.. its all so quiet and peaceful.. and i think its a gd time to do alot of things.. like study... think abt things... do reflection... yap.. thats y i love night time.. today weather is veri good for sleeping.. sianz then today i went to sch my whole feet were like soaked in rain water.. goodness.. i was like so scared that i see earthworm.. haha.. so sick... then i was like the water is so EEEEE...haha...
y am i not shitting... this prob has been bugging me these few days.. emm...i think i shd buy laxative soon....and i cant slp....
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Report again...once again its lab day.. its time for report again.. yes AGAIN.. haiz.. this is boring... and i got a news today after my lab... my grandpa's sis pass away... she also quite close to us juz like my grandma.. so i am like losing 2 grandma in 1 yr.. i lost my own grandma last nov and now another today.. haiz... she juz passed away sitting down.. no illness no nothing... life is so fragil... u dunno u can live till wat age...maybe tml someone or wat will juz die.. juz like that... sigh...
guess i am having the turning pt in my life... guess everything is starting to change... i lost the ability to judge properly.. no longer confident in the things i do... sigh... and i am starting to be paranoid again... i neo me thinking too much is not a new thing... but dunno y recently its like getting worse...
i hate my scv box...
Fearemm... dunno y this sem i start to fear sch on mon... i dunno isit report or wat.. juz fear bah.. its sort of the feelings i got when i was in sec 3... nitemare..sigh... sometimes i am wondering wats wrong.. juz wats wrong..
feel veri insecure veri uncertain scared... feel like everything not familiar to me anymore...
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Saturday, August 25, 2007
Sigh..sigh.. this is all i want to do.. nth elsa.. yap.. y it seems like the whole world dun understand me.. wats wrong wif me.. y cant i let the world neo how i am feeling... haiz... blowing big big bubble..............
Internet..damn.pissed...yes i am pissed... i seriously hate my internet connection...its driving me nuts... haiz... can u imagine i got a wireless connection at home and yet when someone in the house that uses the phone the internet connection screwed up.. this is crazy.. am i like having a freaking dial up now... and i am pissed off when i am using the internet connection and someone uses the phone.. haiz. this is real irritating..
i juz quarrelled wif mum over this thing... reali hate it..its not that i nv bother to call up the damn bloody singtel to come fix it.. i have been calling them up for so many f***ing times and 1 mth later everything will go back to sq 1... F***!
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Thursday, August 23, 2007
2nd week of sch and its time for report again.. its sucky.. doin report will make my hormones inbalance..haha.. sound abit kua zhang..haha.. but its a bit true.. in the past once u finish ur report then u can forget abt it.. but this time round i will be having exam on this.. so i seriously dunno how to cope wif it.. i hope next week i will be able to get myself goin wif my sch work.. hope so bah... crossing my fingers...
so today i practically sat on my bed and do my report.. still doin.. i neo i am quite slow in my report.. but after 3mth of not doin report.. i lost the hang of doing it.. some more is the most HATEFUL ORGANIC CHEM.. haha.. yes its hateful...in the past i used to be veri hapi when the weekend is here.. but dunno y i dun feel the excitement anymore... haha..
juz hope i can finish this report asap.. haiz.. this is so torturous!
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its been long since i last updated.. thought i wont be blogging anymore.. cos i feel sianz abt blogging le... but well now i think i shall start doin it again.. =)... wanted to change a blogskin b4 blogging but i cant find a nice 1 so i nvm i shall stick to the old 1...
anyway alot of things happened.. and its all unexpected things that happen..things that will change my life things that i totally nv think of... currently i also dunno wat to do..so i decided to run away from all the prob..yes i am coward.. but i haf no choice cos i cant take it anymore.. i dunno how to handle things anymore...
yesterday was the start of my lab...tiring..leg super tired and i am like alone in the lab.. my friends are all in the other lab..haiz.. dun understand y am i always alone.. mayb god wants me to be independent cos he neos maybe in the future no one will take care of me le.. i also dunno... or rather is i dun dare to let anyone in... shall see... anyway i still manage to make new friends.. but i juz find it hard to do report now..so long time nv do le plus i no mood..then after lab rested my legs... so tired for the day..
then today i got lesson but i nearly could not wake up... end up late for class abt 15min.. but its ok..main thing is i am veri tired..haha..and i am HUNGRYand THIRSTY!! goodness... then after lesson quickly go buy food then went for the next lesson. after that went to arts area to take a look at the newly renovated arts canteen and the burger king.. then we saw the casting of Hey!
Gorgeous. Saw miss Nus and mr NUS... err i shant comment on it..
after that i went for my weekly exercise.. the weights are heavy but i haf a fun time sweating out.. and i injured my right thumb..so dumb....now i am trying to find mood for report...
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