Sunday, June 26, 2005
New enviroment...
oh feeling veri scared rite now... till now i know of no gals goin into applied chem.. which means i am going to explore everything myself..so scared and i know nuts abt it...haiz.. suddenly dun feel like goin to uni...no mood for it... its goin to be tough...and i dun even know if i chose the correct course..sigh.. too bad my results are not good enough to go into chem engg.. applied chem..sigh.. pple say i shd haf chose envi engg cos at least its an engg course... but envi sounds abit erm to me lah... i dunno wat others feel... applied chem seems to be more interesting..
i got to know abt the bidding system in nus..rather complicated and scary to me..plus i nv been to nus..i dunno how to go there....though i pass by it everyday to work.. but... its a new enivroment plus i got no one to turn to...feel so helpless.. and 3yrs for degree for 4yrs for honours... aiyoh so stress..then need to take a stupid english test and i sucks at english... been surviving 3 yrs without english test and now it appear again....
goin got the medical examination next wed...wonder how it would be like...sianz... hope during graduation i can find gals goin into the same course as me...*cross fingers*
Monday, June 20, 2005
My Beloved Fish...
this post is esp dedicated to my Beloved Fish. something sad happen today, my fish passed away. this is a gd and a bad news. my fish had been sick since a few mths ago but none of us were knowledgable enough to treat it. he dun eat and soon lost the ability to swim properly. his body started to rot. no matter wat med we put for him he juz wont recover. he has been suffering ever since then. so maybe dying would be a gd thing for him at least he need not suffer anymore.
he has been wif me for abt 3 yrs. he brough me joy and saddness. still remember the day my dad brough him back. he was about only 2 inches long and after 3 yrs he grew so big and nice. whenever we came home, he would swim to the door to welcome us back. he nv fails to do that. his fav object is the green net. he would get so excited when he sees the net. there was always a health glow of gold on his body so beautiful. each time i changed the water for him i would touch his 'head'. he is juz like another sibling to me. i would play wif him talk to him feed him. when he is sick i will take care of him.
when i heard the news that my fish die, tears rolled down my eyes. cannot stop thinking abt my fish. so sad that my fish die away alone wif no one by his side. cant wait to go home to see him. y didnt he wait for me to be back. at least i can be by his side. poor fish.sigh..when i reached home i saw the state he was in my heart started to ache..imagine he suffer till he die..wif no one by his side..each time i think abt him dying tears will juz flow doen automatically.. both my fishes will always live in my heart. the only regret i have is i didnt neo more abt fish thus i cannot save/cure him...
In loving memories.....
Friday, June 17, 2005
Batman!!
yap watched Batman today at plaza singapura...its been long since i last went there..heez.. took leave today especially to watch this movie..haha... well its not stupid..cos its a super hapi and meaningful day...
yesterday due to unforseen circumstances there was a change in plan today.. but luckily wif all my 'bright' ideas things went out well today..haha.. though i am not working today but woke up rather early to prepare and to deal wif diff situations(luckily there wasnt) heez.. then went out of house at abt 8am and reach Jurong Point at abt 9.30am.. dunno y today's journey seems to be super long..haha..
well ate garlic bread for breakfast..and spend my morning veri happily... enjoy playing wif the dog bone..haha... and talking..heez... after which we headed down for a movie..was suppose to watch it at marina sq.. but well change in plans again..heez... nice movie..interesting..heez...a show worth watching...
after watching had our 'tea-time' as we didnt had lunch..ate pizza.. the new pizza from pizza hut is veri nice..heez..love the conversation...like to share thoughts and things that happen ard us... and i broke the koala's head!!! OMG!! so sad... i not totally at fault..cos i was holding on to the body..haha...
after which had a conversation and i got quite upset..haha... but luckily..things turn out ok...had alot of thought after the whole 'conversation'...*wondering*
so well 'cinderella' got to go home..haha... so got to fix the koala's head...cos its an impt gift..a gift that mark certain event....i am pretty anxious abt fixing the head..till now i am wondering hows the koala..hope its ok...praying hard..if not got to think of other idea..no matter wat i want to fix it....
added new things to my collection..hope like wat u say it the collection will increase....
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
Life is so fragil...
u will nv neo when u will leave this world..nv neo that the next morning something will juz die...isnt life so fragil... there might be a time bomb in ur body but u nv got to neo until its the last stage.. if u neo u r goin to die soon wat will be ur last wishes? wat is the thing that u will want to do most?
its the same as making the wrong step in your life... once u make that particular step there is no turning back..cos u neo u have already sink into this 'trap' u juz got to make the best out of everything.. nothing can be together forever.. once u r married..u grow old wif ur wife/husband but some day both of u will be separated by life and death.. partings are part and parcel of life..but y human juz take it easy wif it? u neo this is goin to happen and yet u r still sad when things happen... life is so complicated..or rather humans simply have too much emotions..
if one day someone told u his/her last wish..how would u feel? does this means he/she is going to die soon? sigh...how i wish i need not face all these life and death..partings which are unavoidable...
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
