Wednesday, September 29, 2004
UOP sucks...
today's paper is veru hard...everything is not the norms..i dun even haf the chance to check if i finished every ques..hopefuli i dun miss out any...my heart feel uncomfortable..i dunno y..sigh..maybe there are many reasons bah..well today deary seems kinda of upset by the test and so is weilin..well i guess most of the pple is upset...today thought of some sad incidents..but well..its over le...no use saying them....jiayou everyone...
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Tuesday, September 28, 2004
GD NEWS!!!
yeah!!!! i juz got a call from gar hein!!! and guess wat..its not that he call me i am hapi..ahahha..cos of the news he brought to me...i am in EXXON MOBIL!! yes i am in..finali..hopefuli he nv gif me a fake news...not he lie to me but wori he see wrong..hhaha..i am super hapi...=D haha...so hapi...not sure of the full list..tml goin to see vivan lim..will ask her abt it..heez..or she will tell us..heez...=D
Y cant i stay up at night...
recently i have problem staying up to do my work at night...to me this is a serious problem...i muz think of ways to change this...i dun want to slp without doin anything..it wake me up in fear in the morning...sigh..
yesterday i thought i will neo the results for exxon..but nope..hope later when raj go find vivian lim she will neo....pray hard that i get in.....reali...bless me k? heez
today is the mooncake festival!!! anyone like mooncakes?? ahha..not me..i dun reali like them...well i like the pig pig 1..if u all neo wat i am referring to..haha... mum say tonite we goin to eat steam boat!! wah..heez...i love steamboat..heez..all the food so nice..then wif my mum super chilli..oh man..those who came my house for chinese new year will neo that my mum's chilli is superd..hahah...ok lah..i got to rush my work liao..who tell me to slp yesterday..sianz...
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Sunday, September 26, 2004
Back from Housewarming..
heez..juz came back from the housewarming..heez..the food is great...and wats more..there is a cute little boy boy there..so cute.heez...had fun playing wif him..heez..it let me haf some thought on my future kids..oppss...heez..=P
after that i went Jurong Point wif my beloved laogong..heez...sadz..we didnt manage to find his bao bao...was looking so hard for it....hope can find it soon..heez.. yawnz..reali enjoy my times wif him...reali..treasure it so much...hugs...
oh i went to buy 4-D yesterday..but nv strike..haha..expected..haha...=P
tml i goin for make up lab lesson...cos of my interview...praying hard that i can get into exxon...
ped is driving me nuts...
So many things...
if u all notice i change my blog's song..nice nice? i got to neo this song yesterday..the mtv is veri nice...then find the song quite nice..wat u all think??
ped went wrong...then sigh...i dunno wat to do..dunno wat i can do and cant do..sigh.. human..why are u like that...haiz...so sad..disappointed... nearly die from it... wat i wish to do cant be done..well...wats left to be said...
yesterday wanted to do ptech assignment..but i dunno how to link it to ptech..was searching for the notes then i realised i left it wif jiamin..so i think got to wait till monday then can do liao...finished my pcr assignment..hopefuli she will allow me to use that newspaper article...cos i dun haf the add..but i can find online... wanted to study UOP..but then cant reali study..sigh....my ped progress is veri slow...i will need some help if i can get them....ptech test this thur...well again the multiple choice method..so sianz....
later goin to weilin house for housewarming...hopefuli later deary will go out wif me.. cos its like been long since we last walk ard in shopping mall.... 1 mth and 1 day he will be leaving le...
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Friday, September 24, 2004
Interview in Exxon Mobil
today i went for my interview in exxon..first time stepping into exxon..heez..not bad the place..quite nice..pple nice...heez... was so nervous in the interview..well got to wait till next week then we will neo the results...
sigh...yesterday thought of goin out wif dear to buy his stuff..but he say got ped to do...but now he is in kbox..i neo its last min but still kinda of disapppointed..feel the ache in the heart... sigh...actuali if he was to tell me to go kbox..juz 5min earlier...when i still in compass pt...i will tek train down to find him..but well...not fated...he told me oni when i reach home....was looking forward so much to goin out wif him..but..haiz... i juz got to learn how to be independent....sigh.......
worse...li xuan call me to tell me abt the ped stuff...if reali cannot...we got to REDO ALL THE CALCULATIONS.........but out deadline is less than 10days..plus we still got test and stuff...sigh...wat to do....sigh........
all i can say is sad sad sad nth but sad....
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Thursday, September 23, 2004
Love..
let me ask u all this ques...do u remember wats the feeling of falling in love....do u remember when is the last time u love someone...do u still remember the feeling of secretly hiding at one corner admiring the guy u love....haha...remember the times hwen ur heart beat so fast when u saw the person u love..heez.. looking out for him when he is not ard....looking in his direction but when he look in ur direction u avoided the eye contact..hhhaha...when u see him hapi u laugh wif him...heez..when he is sad..u will try to find out wat has happened..hha....thats love...oh man..love..haha.. u wish to get his attention...trying to be in the best form in front of him...haha...goin abit crazy..but well..haha....=P
watever he says it juz seem so nice...he juz melts u..melts ur heart...wish to stand close to him....but always afraid of having any contact..but when it does..the heart thump so hard..haha...i am goin crazy....
Ped deadling:4/10
everyone that is looking at this entry..pls note that the deadline is not next week..but on the 4th....yawnz..ped is stessing everyone...
today thought will be doin lab worksheet..forgot abt hazop..haha...but in the end also nv do..hhaa...then i went to do ped...and did worksheet wif jp and yf..heez..manage to complete half le..heez...yawnz..so tired...
trust is a thing that needs to be built up through time......trust....
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Tuesday, September 21, 2004
Thanx deary...
though its juz a small toy but it did brighten up my day..thanx alot!!! muackz..
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Tuesday, September 14, 2004
Plenty of things in my mind...
wow..heez..4am and i am still awake..well guess its not surprising to many people that neo me..haha..there is this phrase they always say to me ' you can nv slp more than 4h if not u will turn crazy..' haha..funny rite..haha..=P deary dun scold me k..heez..pls..muackz..
yesterday..opps no..the day b4 was a violent day...sigh..and a day of shouting..1am+ in the morning...emm..nvm its over le..i hope things will turn out well..wait...not btw me and laogong but its abt my family..sobz...
then yesterday woke up having a super headache..exhausted..and i managed to dragged myself to sch...nearly die on the bus i shd say..felt super uncomfortable evn though i closed my eyes..sigh...then my head suffered the whole day...then did some ped..finali i neo some calculations..hapi..whee..heez..i found out that the report is actuali 75% of the whole PED!!! omg.. i thought the calculation part percentage is more..oh man...i feel super stress....=(
went for UOP tutorial managed to finish my assignment there...1 less thing to do..then went for AEM lesson..today lecture veri short and i managed to understand and i believe all the rest do..i think i am the 1 wif the lowest mark for CT still staying there..haha...i neo wo bu zhi liang li ( means dunno my own strenght) correct translation?? haha..well.. feel since i got so far so might as well..haha..even if fail also nvm bah.i already half gif up le..had CCT..at first reali thought i will gif her all the 15%..but well wif some luck and long method of doin and 2 ques using underhand method..i managed to get 10.5% out of the 15%.. i neo u all will say i am despicable..but well sigh..i feel i already done my best also and did most of it myself..ok u all will think i am finding excuses..but i do admit my fault..so i am goin to brush up on my AEM..hopefuli i go the time...1 more hapi thing..KNN actuali haf SET test..muhahha...*evil* haha....i wrong bad things on her..but too bad some i forgot to add in..esp the $$ part...haha..' $30 is not even for 1h of lecture' can u believe any lecturer would actuali say this?!?!
then went to atrium to do AEM project..yes AEM project..been stuck wif it for super long lor..sianz..and if mark nv remind me i already forgot abt it..then stick there till abt 8pm..thanx deary for accompanying me..heez..appreciate that and love it!! heez...
mum sick le..sianz..everyone so weird at home..juz now i reached home stood outside the house and heard the conversation btw my dad and mum..sigh..at the moment suddenly felt like staying outside for even longer time..but well... i didnt..maybe yes..3min?? haha...my fish also no hapi..black black 1..sigh
watched tv..and my head still killing me then..took panadol..and it got better..thats y i cant last until now..abit sleepy liao and my stupid shoulder aching again..sigh..i think i having this shoulder prob forever le..which means i can type for long..omg...sigh....did ped since dunno wat time..sigh..need to pass up soon..75% i super stress..plus grp mates pin their hopes on me..oh no..super stress......
i miss u darling..love u..today i thought of u leaving suddenly juz hope u r in front of me..for me to hug and cry on...sigh...love u so so much..MUACKZ!! =P
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Sunday, September 12, 2004
CCT...
tml will be having my CCT test..but..sigh..but i dun understand the topic..no matter how hard i try..i still cant..my head is bursting..sianz...15%..think this 15% i will also be giving to KNN..haiz..y...y....i oni aim for a pass...sigh...anyone that neo can help me? ='(
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Saturday, September 11, 2004
everyone grow up le...
today while talking to clare got to neo from her that jing jing left for hongkong yesterday to study dance for 3 years..she went there alone...was shocked to hear the news..and i suddenly feel everyone starts to grow up le...everyone heading in a different direction...some left singapore some lost contact...though i was not there yesterday to send her off..but i reali wish her all the best..and may one day she become a famous dancer..
suddenly feels that is it me that is not growing up? everyone feel its ok to leave... am i the oni that is having the problem....sigh... wonder if there is a day that i put down everything here and leave for other country.. juz got a super bad news juz now while looking at NPAL..i went to see the exams dates..
16/10 - ICP
18/10 - PTECH
20/10 - PCON
22/10 - UOP
and guess wat...laogong might be leaving on the 25th...which means got
less than 3 days b4 he leave after our exam..sometimes i reali cant imgaine such things are actuali happening to me...sometimes i feel that those are not real...sometimes i feel that i am dreaming...sometimes i reali hope that its all a dream that he is leaving...but well its a harsh reality which i have to learn to accept even if i hate to see him leave...maybe those reading will feel that i am selfish...but i am hapi for him as he can do something which he feels hapi abt...but...5mths...to me its long...its long enough...sigh....guess i wont comment much abt it le... the missing of him can already kill me...haiz...
heartbreak....
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Thursday, September 09, 2004
Exhuasted..
today i am reali tired...feel faint...tired until i can even slp while standing... hectic life..well everyone is..juz read from jiaman's blog she might be leaving on the 25th or 26th next mth..this means laogong is also goin to leave at that time..haiz..the thought of it broke my heart...well i am hapi for him as he finali got his wish comes true....haiz..recently heard too many broken relationship esp those that went oiap and come back..haiz......sadz....
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Wednesday, September 08, 2004
Nv ending work..
well nv ending work...this is always a thing for yr 3 students...otheryr 3 students may be free..but not for CE yr 3 students...everyone is veri stress...everyone is rushing work to meet the deadlines..but after each project there will always be another one...well guess this is y most of them are feeling down...lose their temper easily...demanding alot from each other...this can be fatal if its not handled properly...sigh....sometimes i feel..wats the point of stressing us when we dun even haf the time to produce gd work...sigh...
there is something in my heart..which makes me terrible...sigh..everyone seems terrible also recently
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Monday, September 06, 2004
Special day tml..
heez..today 11.30am i start leaving my house for BBDC..haha...i finali took my finali theory test date..emm..i will be having my test on the 27th of this month which is abt 20 days from now..guess i will haf to work doubly hard..heez...and i reach sch at 1.50pm..haha..took so long rite..haha...
well had my lessons as usual..then at first laogong say wanted to bring me to a place which is great world to watch 'the cinderella story' but my bro say its a sucky show so we nv go..instead we went to JP to eat soeul garden..
today well...sigh..on the way to JP had a major prob.....but finali it ended..but my appetite was like half gone..sianz...but well..kinda of enjoy the cooking and the food..so full lor..haha...by the time we ate finish its like..emm 9pm? then we walked ard...then its time to go home..well too bad the timing is too short..how i wish it can be longer...
heez...today i finali got my webcam...hapi but sad at the same time..hapi cos i got a webcam and a nice mouse which is a surprise from dear..sad means he is leaving soon..haiz...='( haiz...*sighing*
my special mouse!! thanx darling!!!
this is my webcam..nice?
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Sunday, September 05, 2004
Hungry Ghost Festival
this mth is the Hungry Festival...so there are many ghost show on tv..heez..some are actuali quite horrfiying...but others seems lame and meaningless..i remember i saw this ghost show on Channel U and i tell u..its simply nonsense..got nth out of the show...
yesterday i saw a show on scv on this theater that is huanted...it is huanted by a main actress that acted in that particular plot..but the 2nd leading actress was jealous of her..she wanted the main role and not her current role..therefore she killed her..but no 1 neos..and when this 2nd leading actress finali got the main role..on the day of the performance she was killed by the ghost of the main actress... and well this whole thing repeats itself...and ghost is forever there....
now i am also watching a ghost show but i dunno wat is it...haha..cos it started quite long and i juz saw it...
tml is the start of sch again..sianz..well i think i huz found out that the KNN is not in the SET..on man y is she not in!?!?!? if she is in she will die i tell u... sigh...sometimes i reali feel this phrase "good people die early while villians live for long" is veri right...haha.....
i forgot when i saw this show ending note from irc:
"when Hell is full, the Earth will be filled wif living deads"
haha..i feel is quite right...the meaning i got from this phrase is there are too many bad pple on earth and no 1 goes to the heaven but all went to hell..so there is no space..and well the living dead will then occupy the earth...heez...wat u all think??
sometimes feel love is reali torturous..can be sweet and bitter..but y u feel bitter cos u did reali put in the whole heart for the other party..yesterday liqi sent me this flash i watch le...quite sad...how each other wait for 1 another juz to say "I LOVE YOU" sigh... -> http://cartoon.0451.net/flash/ShowFlash.asp?Id=6772
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Saturday, September 04, 2004
Nice Drink...
juz had a nice drink...emm...to me this dun taste as nice as cranberry...maybe i shd try others..heez..back to the report..
Dou Dou & Me!!
heez..this is dou dou and me...heez..suddenly thought i nv took photo wif her b4..arnt she cute? heez...do i look like her? hhah..=P or am i cuter..omg..i am getting crazy..heez...
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Wednesday, September 01, 2004
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