Blackout
yesterday was online halfway suddenly my enviroment turned into total darkness...i was so shocked..thought its oni my house that got this prob..but when i look out the whole place is dark..even the street lights are all gone...was so worried abt the vehicles outside..and i suddenly got this thought..finally singaporean can use high beam..haha..cos singpore is well lited so u rarely need to use it..heez.
then my dad was bathing halfway..he was like shouting away..cos i think he thought oni our house tripped..then lucky i got my hp in front of me..then used it as a source of light..then cant find battries cant fnd touchlight..sianz..so in the end lighted candles..haha...
well suddenly no mood to blog..haha..later continue bah
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First Day of School
today is the first day of sch or i shd say yesterday was the first day of sch...emm..guess most of the pple enjoyed their first day of sch..which is gd gd..saw some of my new classmates..
emm..well i dun reali look forward to this day..reasons..lots of reasons..reasons like i havent play enough and rest enough..so sianz...so i am somehow feeling down....maybe i havent tuned back bah..so kinda of weird when i step into sch..
1st lesson and i cant reali catch up..so it makes me feel worst..well came home did nth but slack and watch tv...wanted to do maths but no mood..so well suddenly thought of changing the blogskin..nv did i want my blogskin to be in this way..but well maybe cos of my crazy feelings..so maybe i will juz use this skin for a few days..
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Happy!!
wah..hehez..finally foc has finally ended..well i didnt get to neo a lot of freshies cos i am doin the backstage thingy...didnt expect that the sgls need to do so many things..well its bcos of lack of manpower..haha..nvm..anyway i enjoy the process..juz that it made me super tired..think i am getting older..didnt seems to enjoy all the playing that much..haha...so weird rite..haha..oh man i lost my voice once again..haha..as usual..haha..plus cough...then i got BLACK!!! omg..so sad..haiz..haha..
today veri hapi cos i got to spend time wif my darling..well its been long since i spend quality time wif him..heez...so hapi wif him..how i wish time will not pass so fast when he is wif me..heez...simply love to hug him..makes me so comfortable..heez...
hapi hapi hapi hapi..hehe..i am goin crazy..
anyway i didnt got my advance date yet..think i will go get it on monday wif my darling and zhongsheng..heez..i want to get my license b4 i graduate..heez..tml i am goin to cut hair..heez..been long since i step into the salon..haha...oh juz now went through a couple of blogskin..heez..but juz cant find the rite 1...
btw my darling got his laptop back from the 'hospital'..emm..but seems like there is still something wrong wif it and it makes him sad..well i reali hope he can come online soon then i can show him the blogskins..heez..misses him alot...
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Sick and tired..
assume = ass out of u and me..haha..yes this is the phrase..i will not mention who is that person..but that person assumed my thoughts..that person might have heard something from other pple..and assume thats me..i may be writing this down but this doesnt me that person has a lot of place in my heart..with or without this person it wont change my life a bit.. juz hate the feeling of pple assuming me..
disappointed in many things in life..pple ard me are changing..true enough human do change..but its sad to see they are changing for the worse..reality is harsh i guess i will withdraw from them and live in a world of my own..guess it will be better...life will then be less complicated..
in life pple always assume they are always right..i dun deny that at times i am also like that..but i do listen to wat other pple says..haiz...not goin to say anymore..
my bro's gf = future sis in law goin to australia to study for 2 yrs..goin to miss her..intend to knit something for her..but..haha.i guess tml i got to do some homework..haha...
wat i am goin to do tml:
get my advance theory date
go swimming myself
go library borrow book on knitting
go repair my stupid hp
emm but where is a place i can do all...thinking thinking thinking..think i got to finish up my presentation and write my logbook first..tata!
Is Helping wrong?
well something happen a while ago..surprise by the outcome and disappointed by many things..human changes..true veri true..dunno wat to say...respect is lost..pple comparing power..who haf the most power..well i LL..not angry juz disappointed... how i wish my laogong is here...
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Day Shift
yesterday was the start of our shift..heez..fun i can say..and learnt a number of things..heez..but kinda of tiring...
one of our trainers name jamie fainted outside the control room..OMG..then everyone stopped their work and went back to the control room...and we had our lunch break...oh yar forget to write logbook...better write it later..
missed my laogong alot yesterday..heez...then a number of pple made fun of me..haha..saying he is not ard they can bully me..heez..called him twice when i was in cptc..heez...hope he is resting well...tml will be able to see him..heez...
tml after my shift i got to rush back home..then changed and go to orchard for hit and run...heez..will be a super tiring day for me..i wonder wat can i bring for my laogong..juz in case when he doin nite shift then feeling hungry..haha..wori he will go hungry..he cant stand hunger...emm..later goin to cold storage to buy some tibits for him..heez..or maybe biscuits..but he throat like not well leh..emm...got to think abt it..hehez..
ok lah..think i goin to stop here..then write log book..tek a nap..then bath then prepare for work! =D
miss u alot..
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Speacial request from my darling..
haa..yap this entry is special request from my darling..haha....
today or i shd say yesterday was zz zz birthday...as promised..i brought her bday present to bukit gombak..hehe..and i saw her brother's daughter..heez..so cute..then darling was there waiting for me...yes i fianlly went to jurong pt...i haf been wanting to go..but always dun haf the time..thanx deary!i finali can go there..i am reali hapi..
got even happier when i am able to catch the powerpuff show over there..haha...so surprise..haha..extra hapi..thanx for teking me ard and we went to look at cute little puppies..heez..darling hope u can get ur puppy soon k? heez..
then went to deary's house to play silent hill 1..haha.not i play..i watch him play..i was equally excited..i am even more excited than he is..haha..then we played ddr...we got tired..then stopped playing..his parents and sis wanted to go compass pt to tek a look..so they drove me home on the way..heez...thanx alot...
though today i am veri tired..but i reali enjoy my day wif u darling..sometimes my face dun show..but my heart reali feel this way..dunno when u will look at this post cos ur laptop still in 'hospital'...but this is wat i reali want to tell u..muackz..
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Sunshine after the rain
well things got better..and to everyone that is concerned abt the matter abt me and eugene...dun wori..its purely on work...nth personal..we are not that type of personal that mix both things together..talk it out and some how it got better...
today woke veri early in the morning..when to school as the yr 1 students are coming for the safety talk..got to show our faces and see the freshies..reali hope i was able to stay on longer...haiz..i reali enjoyed my times there..though its short..
when to cptc..had a test today which i nv study..haha..reali nv study..but feel relaxed..cos i neo can copy..but also nv reali copy much..most of the things i do it myself..
today we celebrated weilin's birthday!!! heez..been a long time since she is so hapi..thought that it will be the best way to cheer her up...lucky she was...reali hope that this hapiness of hers will last forever..heez..
so sori that i forget to bring the present today..i too tired liao..so sori..if not it will be a perfect day...but i am goin to make up for it..i will bring the present to u personally..heez..reali hope that u will like it...
bought a cake..thanx to yuen feng that help to buy the cake...weilin love the cake..heez..then we joined our food together and ate noodles,bee hoon, porridge, susuages,cakes and more cakes..haha..yum yum...
thanx jun xiong for driving me home...super tired today..lucky got u to drive me...dunno if u will ever see this post..but thanx anyway..heeZ..
yawnz...i think i will stop here..tired le..brain stop thinking le..haha..
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Saddness...
juz went through a trial camp which i looked veri much forward to..reali wanted to enjoy the camp wif the gl as well wif the sgls..cos its been long since we are much bonded together..but this has become a sad event..maybe not to others but to me..
well...i am veri sad and kinda of angry...reali...
since the previous meeting, i showed my unhapiness...well...maybe to many pple i am juz talking nonsense..or i am juz talking rots anf trying to vent anger...no i am not..i am speaking the truth and the prob i faced..well if no 1 understands wat can i do...thats not impt...but ever since that meeting i reali feel there is communication breakdown between all of us...
i reali thought that for the camp i will haf a chance to prove to the agls that 'hey i am not here juz to tek cca point and to do nth, i also got contirbute..i love the society and i want to help it grow' but seems like i didnt get this recognised..but i am more of a nuisense there..a person that disrupt everything...reali disappointed.. my gd intentions are not recognised..reali disappointed...
i am in charge of the shooting stars..well as everyone that played this game b4 it is known that there will always be complains on the game..but well i does not get the understanding from all the people...too disappointed...ok i admit as wat i told other pple..i admit that i reali forgot abt the 45min per station thingy..but remember this i am not the only 1 making the decision..i am not trying to push the responsibilities..i will gladly tek the balme for this...
for that station:
1st
i prepared all the water bombs...in the first place it is reali kinda of diluted...but an agl started to put it concentrated...i see no harm in making it saturated..so we got 2 pails of saturated boms while the rest is diluted..its all food die..not poisenous..
didnt want to make use of all the bombs..save $$..since we oni got few gls so use lesser..for foc...
in the past wat did the agls put in the bomb?? glitter,soap..but this time wrong wat we put..1 loaf of bread...some newspaper..thats all...
2nd
we at first wanted to use the 3rd level..y we didnt?? cos we neo it will hurt them..therefore we chose level 2...
in the past the agls used the 3rd level...
ok no matter where u throw it from it will still hurts...i must stress on this...and some more..we did not throw it out...we juz lightly it let it go...even if we throw all the bombs went straight to the ground and didnt even touch them....we nv even gid them difficult task...
reason why we spray the water hose..1st is to make them wet..anyway they are goin to get wet..2nd is to help them wash off some of the dyes on them..is this mistreating them??
3rd
we did follow instructions..after we are told to drag them we did...i diluted everything..but wat did the pple at the station got? we got scolding after scolding...we are like wat the...y we like kept getting scolding? we are all shocked...even the agl was like so shocked..y we got scoldings after scoldings...
thought that even if the whole world misunderstands the pple from shooting stars..the whole com,agls and all the other helpers will understand...but unfortunately..no...
well..many pple voice out their unhapiness abt different things amoung themselves..but none of them spoke it out during the meeting...well everyone got diff character...since that day was an open talk...i talk wat i felt and think...like they say we can change out game in watever we want..as long as its safe...food dye..its safe...
i feel that no 1 neos wat i am trying to say....no 1 is given the chance to speak out how they felt for the trial camp...there is debreifing for the gls but to me the debriefing the sgls got is nth....not everyone got the chance to speak out...its not an open meeting...sori if i offend anyone but this is reali how i feel...
from the start of the camp...we got shoutings and shoutings...and like we somehow got endless scolding...maybe our side we reali need to think if we are reali in fault..but we cant be at fault forever...has anyone dare to speak their mind though its said to be an open meeting?? well..the ans its in ur hearts...i spoke my mind and got hated..well...if no 1 understands...wat can i do...if its not an open meeting...i will not even say a single word...fine...of so many stations...shooting stars got it the most..we are like the 'center of sttraction'...haiz..reali disappointed....
y are we always the bad guy? has anyone thought abt it, y things turn out like that today? ahas anyone thought abt it...trying thinking abt watever that has happen since this com is formed..think abt it...
**i neo i might offend anyone that see this...but well its all work...i am a person that dun mixed both work and personal life together...if pple thinks that i am pin pointing anyone in anyway..i dun think i need to explain..cos the fact is i did not...
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