Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Black tml..
oh today is so tired..dunno y..think its bcos of the training and not resting enough...well sunday had a main com meeting..well things turned kinda of bad at the end..but anyway work is work after the meeting i clean everythin off my mind...there are many reasons for my reactions but i dun think there is a need to say it out anymore..anyway wats past is the past...its all over and i am hapi again..didnt blame anyone for anything...they juz state their point of view...
ok today didnt go out to the plant...juz did tutorial and understand more abt pumps..heez..quite fun but i tink cos i am too tired thats y i am i dun seem keen..haha..this fri is test..omg..sian half...oh i started to read comic today..haha..first time that i completed 2 books..haha...i am so keen abt that comic...heez..then suddenly like things that does not interest me seem interesting to me...1 thing is comic..the other is harry potter..haha...i actuali wanted to watch the previous 2 movies..so i decided to borrow vcd from suhui..thanx!! =D oh yar huixin today started to learn knitting..then like it sparks off the interest in me cecilia sandy and suhui..haha...i asked my mum abt the knitting stuff but she is a diff type of knitting..wonder if her method can use to knit sweater anot *hint hint*..hhaha..=P
this sat is trial camp..kinda of looking forward to it..but..haiz..dunno...think becos many things happen it kinda of affect my mood..but i am quite sure this sat my camp mode will be up...tek care everyone...
Monday, May 24, 2004
Tired...mood swing..
today dunno y feel exceptionally tired..yawnz..kept on yawning and yawning...sianz..then the lecturer today also veri sucky...teach us using bullet train speed..sian half..then was like rushing to copy the notes lor..yawnz..emm..then haf practical..so sian...let veri hard to catch up...haiz..then dunno y i feel sad today... i also dunno y..juz feel that saddness is in my heart...sad sad sad...
well..haiz...think today is a sucky day..
oh heez..talk abt something hapi...last sat i went out wif my laogong..heez..didnt plan wat to do..haha..at first i thought of watching a movie but nth much to watch...so..heez..we went shopping ard..haha...i wanted to buy top and he wanted to buy a pencil box..heez..so we went ard bugis and looked at many things...i bought a top at 77th street..heez..nice and love it..laogong also said its nice..heez...then we went to tek neo cards..heez...long time since we last taken it..i think this nice the photo is well taken..heez..if can i will try to post it here..haha...
after teking photo we went to eat fish and co at suntec..heez..then we walked and walked to find pencil box but still cant find..so in the end we decided to head our way to esplande...oh man..its so relaxing there..and we talked to each other abt alot of things..heez..so hapi..and finali its time to go home...we went to citylink and finali he found his pencil box there!!! haha...oni till the end of the day then he found it..but its better than not found..heez..then he sent me home..kinda of guilty that he missed most of the magic show which he veri much wanted to watch..so sori deary..heez..
reali enjoyed myself that day...though we haf been seeing each other practically everyday and been goin out often but we seldom haf our veri own private time..heez..so was kinda of hapi even till now..hehe...
this fri we will be having our mid term exam..sianz...reali...so many things to study..too broad le..oh yar we will be teking our results on the 27th..which is 3 more days...dun wish to get veri gd results...all Bs and i am veri hapi enough..haha...bless me someone..heez...
Friday, May 21, 2004
Friday!!!
heez..finali is friday...been waiting for this day since monday...well today ms min, mdm tan, mr cheong came to cptc to visit us..haha...feels like i am in jail and my relative come and visit me...feel so close and cared..haha..abit crazy but this is how i feel....
emm..today a number of things happen in cptc...before that i will talk abt other things..today kinda of interesting...did tank guaging and learnt how to find sampling point..reali enjoyed them..heez..so hapi..then i found out actuali that instructor that was previously from SP is not that bad after all..juz that he tends to crap too much and waste some time...learnt a number of things from him...emm...a change opinion on him...whereas when i am wif my formal instuctor i feel kinda of stress...i dunno y...weird me...
ok now the bad part...2 students in cptc got injured through playing soccer...emm kinda of serious..cos they seemed to be bleeding alot..and 1 of my friends got some scolding which i feel kinda of injustice abt..haiz..but well..wat to do...wats done cannot be undone...juz got to pray for the best....
then after the training my parents picked me up from outrum...heez...we went to lau pa sat to eat..so hapi...yeah!! reason y my parents bring me to eat is that they promise once every mth after my dad got his pay they will bring me out to eat..so hapi....=D
today zz zz veri sad...didnt neo the reason y...but hope she can cheer up...birthday coming le so u haf to be hapi ok?? =)
saw this in a friend's blog then i nth to do so i decided to tek this quiz..heez..
Beatrix Kiddo (Black Mamba)
You're the Bride! Strong and determined, you can do anything once you set your mind to it. You long for vengeance and for a happy ending, and will do anything to achieve them.
Kill Bill: Which Deadly Viper Assassin Are You? (Vol. II spoilers... results with pics)
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
Super long since i last updated
haha...finali the exams are over...and dunno since when i dun reali like coming online...cus i found out that there is nth much for me to do here..haha..kinda of sianz...
then cptc finali started..this is the second week of the training...been kinda of interesting...but i found out that i haf problem understanding...the bad thing is that no notes are provided..we haf to copy our own notes..so u can imagine how much we need to write every lecture...
as for the practical, it is not as bad as i thought..heez...for the first week, i oni haf 2 practicals..i climed up the flare and the distillation colume and wrote my big name at the top of the colume..heez..so hapi..when u r standing so high up..u can look at the sea and everything on jurong island...looks so nice esp during the evening when the plant starts to light up...wat a beautiful sight...didnt reali want to go down so fast..but i had no choice..=D... oh and because of the climbing of the monkey ladders i am 'awarded' with big blueblacks...pain sia...and its swollen..haha...
had our first test last week and i did something veri bad and i feel veri ashamed of it...haiz...i learnt my lesson..and i will try my best for this coming test...i reali hope i will haf the energy to study them....
everyday i reached home at abt 9.30pm..and by the time i reach home i am already dead tired...i dun even haf the energy to do anything elsa...studying become such a tiring job for me...i did not haf enough rest from the examz..and now i am back to studying again..and this feeling sucks...though its kinda of fun to haf training there..but i am tired...so tired that sometimes i dun even haf energy yo drag myself back..haiz...
today my grp start up the flare and its fun and interesting...tml i will be doin the pigging system...heez..looking forward to the practical..haha....
oh yar my laogong's laptop still not ok...thats y u all nv see him here..he also cannot update his blog...poor thing..then today his tummy and neck giving him prob...poor thing...sayang him...recently my friend's bf juz went for his overseas attachment...and she is upset..not that she dun trust her bf..juz that she will simply miss him too much...he has become part of her life for the past 2 yr plus...can reali knows how she feels...
then i was thinking wat if my laogong also go for overseas attachment...haiz..this thought makes me sad...i know i cannot be selfish..but it reali sadden me....haiz....dunno y i got a strong feeling he will be goin overseas...he is so keen abt it...haiz...haiz..haiz...
emm i think i will stop here...i will update more often...tek care everyone!! =D
Friday, May 07, 2004
Sadz..heartache
haiz...my goldfish goin to die le..i am so sad...seems like he got himself
some disease....feel so sad...everytime my fish die i feel so guilty...cos i
am the 1 that is looking after them..if they die means i am not doin my job
haiz..so sad...i dunno wat to do...he still got some breathe left..haiz...
i dun dare to tek him out..maybe wait till tml see how..but i wori other
goldfish also get infected..haiz..so sad...=(
No Mood To Study...
tml is my last paper!!!! no mood to study le..so sian..and i did nth except
to watch tv and slpt yesterday..haha..now also dun haf the mood to study.
so sian...
yesterday had my acep paper...i didnt want to neo the ans that my friends
got..cos i neo i sure haf careless mistakes...and ms min said she already
finish marking the papers..and got our grades le..so wori that i will get a C
or D..haiz...but no use worrying le....acep paper i nearly flunk it..cos i oni
manage to finish it last min...so sian....
so excited..tml and i am free from exam...haha..and i am looking forward
to the cptc training..haha..yeah!!!!ok lah..nth much to update also...
i will end here..=D
Monday, May 03, 2004
Bad Luck~Cursed..cont...
haiz..well how can i not say i am bad luck..haiz...reali dunno wats happening
to my life...recently my parents argue over a small thing..and they are having
cold war wif each other..actuali i dun care..anyway which parents dun argue
and have cold war..so i ignore them and let them be...
by right i shd be in the 'safe zone' but dunno y..i am dragged into this war..
isnt it bad luck...for no reason my mum is angry wif me...she claimed that i
sided my dad when i comment nth on their 'war'... i was like wat the @#$%^
haiz...sian 1/2...reali...then she say i nv say its my dad fault and becos of this
i am so call 'encouraging' my dad...that he is right while my mum is wrong..
hey come on...i dun want to comment cos i dun want either side to feel that
i am siding them..but in the end..haiz...
yesterday my mum vent her anger on me..haiz...so i am left wif no dinner..
well...i also dun mind...nth to eat nth to eat lor...can go on a diet...anyway
its not the first time le...
the whole thing is y everytime they quarrel i am always the 'victim' and
they always complain to me..i haf to hear both side of the stories...
y not my brother?? he is always save from all those nonsense....
sometimes i reali feel so heartbroken my mum..sometimes she reali treat
me so nice..sometimes she reali can be cruel to me..haiz..
reali wonder y she want to gif birth to me..haiz..life is so unfair at times
haiz..so sad....
Tue 4/5 ENV 2pm-4pm
Thur 6/5 ACEP 2pm-5pm
Sat 8/5 EMAT 9am-11am
5 days to Freedom
7 days to JAIL
Saturday, May 01, 2004
Bad Luck~Cursed..
i had a very unlucky day...reali...today is my first paper and i pinned alot
of hope on it...but wat happen? i fall sick the day b4 and got worse yesterday..
feel so discomfort...haiz...my head was so stuck...couldnt think..i neo wat to do
for the ques i chose..but wat happen? i got wrong cos of careless mistakes..
haiz...isnt it very bad luck??? haiz...
i put in a lot of effort..alot...wanting to make this paper a successful..but
haiz...i didnt do badly cos i am nervous...reali..at that pt of time i dun feel
nervous at all..haiz...but y this type of things always haf to happen to me..sianz..
haiz...reali feel so cursed in my life...i am always the one that got the bad side
of things..haiz...sometimes i reali feel so hopeless le..reali...
did nth yesterday...was sick..haiz...slpt the whole day...wasted a day of studying..
haiz..i reali hope to get an A or A+ for my tphm..haiz..but now i think i oni can get
a B..haiz..reali so disappointed..reali...i did well for my CT 1 and 2 but this exam is
goin to pull my grade down..haiz...then y i got gd results for the past 2 papers???
haiz...reali sad....
in my life i always haf no luck...even if i put in effort i always dun get wat i want..
haiz...i reali feel that life sucks..reali...i hate myself for being weak..i reali hate it...
weak in emotions esp...
Tue 4/5 ENV 2pm-4pm
Thur 6/5 ACEP 2pm-5pm
Sat 8/5 EMAT 9am-11am
8 days to Freedom
9 days to JAIL
