Tuesday, January 27, 2004
New Yr Holiday is over....
2nd day of sch after the chinese new yr holiday..emm...
rushing through work..haha...nv reali got the mood to study..
this yr my new yr is kinda of buzi..hehe...went visiting...
get hongbao..sit at relative house and rot..haha....
but then on the 3rd day many of my friends came over
to my house...
i am reali glad that the respone is so gd...hehe...had an
enjoyable time.ate steamboat..then gamble together..
ahah..guess wat we gamble till 4am...reali had a fun time..so
many funny things happened..haha....we laughed till our stomach
ache..haha...
my mum was thinking to bring them for breakfast the next day..
haha...but too bad they got to go....
the weather for this yr's new yr is bad...rain rain rain..nth but rain..
it rain so heavily...
4th day of new yr...my ex neighbour came to my house..
so kinda of crowded..hehe...then in the evening my parents
went to gamble while i stayed at home and rest..
then yesterday we went to alan's house to gamble..haha...
i was rushing my presentation in his house and gambling..haha
emm....though i nv win much but its a gd sign after all..haha..=D
then slp at 3am+ to finish up all the powerpt...
yawnz waking up feeling super tired....haha..then i kept falling
aslp...something bad happen when i was on the way home
i was so called disturbed by some guy in the bus..sianz..
and it freak me out...was so terrified then i called deary to tell him
oh man...how come got such pple ard..haha...
emm...yesterday a primary sch friend suddenly called my house and
looked for me..but i was not at home..then juz now he called..
we didnt see each other for abt 8-9yrs i guess...was so surprised
that he called.... cos if i nv remember wrongly i was his classmate
for oni 1 yr....anyway glad that i got a friend that still remembers me...
tml is the 7th day of new yr....think its the chinese valentine's day..
hehe....enjoy..and remember to eat yu shen...=D
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Finally a real successful event..
haha...once again 1 event ended..which is 1 load off
the LSCT Society...overall this is a veri successful event..
wait...it doesnt mean the rest is not..=D
that day the helpers went to the clubhs at 10am..
then we carried all the necessary stuff to lt26 but the lt
was not opened so we stayed outside and chit chatted.haha..
once the lt is opened..we went to our respective places...
deary qiurong philip anne went into the control room to prepare
the lightings and sound system..
adrian and eugene were buzying setting up the microphones..
gary and terry running ard to make sure things are ok....
i went to blow the balloons...
then anne taught us how to do the decorations..
jeck sees went ard to put up the decorations...haha...
Boon..haha..he is the one that helped put the plants and
many other things..sori that i didnt mention u..too many to
remember..hahah...
everyone is playing their part and distributing work..
i muz comment that i blow most of the balloons that day..haha
its been a long time since i blow so many balloons..haha..
i reali enjoyed making the decorations and stuff..haha...
soon the mecees start to reharse and the people in the control
room coordinate wif them...
the rest of the GLs came and the respective leaders breifed them on
wat to do...finali all the deocrations are done...and its time to
let the students in....emm..here comes the main problem..
students refused to surrender their student cards...
i can understand how they feel..but no choice i am juz carrying out orders...
but in the end most of them are willing to cooperate...
reali appreciate their help..=D
this is the 1st year that we had such overwhelming respone...
some students even need to sit on the stairs..there
are not enough accomodations..haha...seeing this reali
makes the organises: weiliang and anne, veri hapi...there
is audience which means this event is half way through success...
here comes the 1st event, the band..they are great...haha..
oh the opera singer...oh gosh i reali dun believe that its her voice..haha
then mr joel singing..drama put up by teachers, and many more...
this is the first time that staff and student day had such wonderful
program..aha...here comes the best part...
as most of the lsct students neo..mr alex chang is leaving NP for
further studies...so the LSCT Society decided to do something nice
for him...so we started to interview the lecturers that neo him
then make it into a video..all thanx to our great ancestor MICHAEL!!! haha
he helped us in the fliming directing..and making of it...so nice of him
we also made 1 plate for him....
went the video was on...i was seated wif the audience..i am
so touched when i saw the film..reali...touched and reali cant bear
to haf such gd lecturer leaving us...it will be a great lost to LSCT..
shed some tears of hapiness and saddness...
reali gald that he liked all the program that we had for him..
we took photo wif him...guess that will b the last photo that
we had wif him....wishes him all the best and we will missed his clips
and jokes....
ok the end of the staff and student day..ahah...
clean up time and dinner!!! haha...
deary me anne terry frank mahathir boon qiurong went to eat together
stupid rain..haha..make me wet and cold on the way home..
super tired but glad that it all went smoothly..haha...
_`i love u`_
Saturday, January 17, 2004
BuZy..ThoUhghts..
this is goin to be a veri buzi week..hehe...sch work
and NEW YEAR is coming...oh man...so excited...
but this yr round it will be a veri special year..this is
the first yr that i got someone special to celebrate with
me..haha...so will be a memorable 1 for me..heehe..
and some more this time we got 5 days holiday for
new yr!! its veri rare that we haf such a long holiday..
hahah.....
emm....this is goin to be a veri buzy period for me..haha..
new yr plus i got to prepare my open house....update on
my open house..haha..its almost done i can say...juz that i
haf to find consignement goods....now waiting for the
proposal to be approved...
i got say this out to my dearest deary..haha.....so guilty
man..haha...this two weeks he reali got it from me..haha...
he helped me along the way..and always giving me advices
on how i shd do my things...and talking to me, making me
hapi..haha...last but not least..haha..handling my super
lousy temper..haha..MUACK!!! ahaha....
thoughts thoughts...ahaha....i think i am reali feeling much
much beter compared to my previous post...haha....
i think its cos of the work that i haf done and stuff...i feel
more comfort....
oh yar i invited some of my friends to come over to my house
on the 3rd day of new yr to eat steamboat..haha....
at first kinda of sad cos the respone like not veri gd.haha...
but now its all done..hope no 1 will last min say they dun
want to come..haha..cos i will be preparing the food first.....
hopefuli i didnt left anyone out...hehe.....
oh man..haha...why i write so many 'on man' in this post??
ahaha..i am goin crazy liao..haha....i am reali looking forward
to new yr..but i dun want it to end..haha...am i greedy??
haah....who wants gd things to end rite?? haha....hope to
get many many red packets!!!!! hahah..... $_$..haha..=P
oh yar...yesterday had main com meeting...i shd say this is
one of the few times we manage to end so early...haha...
so kinda of hapi that i can reach home earlier to rest....
emm..something unpleasant happen during the meeting
but i will not write further abt it....
we are goin to haf a new main com member..haha...
he is our beloved DONOVAN!!!! haha...so hapi wif his presence..
can play chess wif him..haha....
gd news!!!! i juz receive a call from adrian!!!! our proposal
is approved!!!! hahaa....great!!! now i can reali go buy all
the stuff needed for open house!!! haha....
okok think i will end here...
UPCOMING EVENTS
19/1/04 - Staff & Student Day
21/1/04 - New Year's Eve
5,6,7/2/04 - Open House!!!!! =P
_`i love u`_
Tuesday, January 13, 2004
Sadz
since sch reopen...something went wrong inside me...
i seemed to be changing...the way i think, feel, react....
its became more and more negative than before....
i dun reali neo the reason for being in this way....recently
something added to my feeling.....i woke up every morning
feeling fear gripped my heart....i dun understand where this
fear comes from..it juz popped out from no where....
each time i am not occupied with things to do, this fear will come
back and find me....i feel so vunerable...juz feel that all the
things ard me are turning against me...all waiting for opportunity
to hurt me through words and actions...i always or i shd say most
of the time when someone tells me something, i feels that there is
a hidden meaning behing those words.....i get upset..but i didnt show
it out....i put a false front...
wanted veri much to burst out all my tears...wanted to isolate myself
and not talk to anyone...cos i neo i will affect them...i juz want to
be alone kinda of thing...but sometimes i yearn company...
but wats makes me veri sad and disappointed is the friends that
i had....they left me....i didnt neo if they still treat me as friends...
i put my heart into those friendships...but in the end...i got hurt...
more hurt that i even expect...i am not ready to face it....
i dun even neo when they are talking to me how true are they...
or are they juz making use of me......i am not deaf nor blind....
i can see, hear and feel watever that is goin ard.....
many people say they treasure friendship...but...think abt it...are
u sure wats the real meaning of friendship? r u treating the friends
u used to be good to still as nice as then? or u juz choose to
gif up the friendship by juz assuming wat u thought? i dunno...
i may be wrong in my part somehow or another...but when problem
arise both parties are responsible.....
throughout this 18 yrs of life..i can bravely say i helped all or almost
all the friends that needed my help which is within my ability...
but i dunno they treat me like a fool or r they juz making use of me...
i helped my friends cos i neo friends needed each other support...
i dun intend to ask anything back...but juz treat me gd..nice..
i haf been playing my part by giving in...and initiating...
but i guess some of them juz dun reali care.....
all in all....i feel real down...juz want to bury myself wif work...
worrying abt studies esp.....i think oni by doin well in studies
then i will not be looked down by people....
sound kinda of too realistic but after so many things guess that
applies to some population in the world.... ='(
_`i love u`_
Blogger is back!!!
oh the past few days i cant visit any of the blog...so sian
now i neo how attached i haf grow towards blog..haha...
dunno wat happen to the blog...watever add i type in they
will direct me to blogger home page...finali its ok now and i
shall continue update wif all the happenings ard me.hehe
emm...today is the fourth day of sch...oh man..this sem..
the modules sucks the lecturers are boring....oh god...
and the modules are all so tough....=(
wat am i goin to do...oh no..guess i juz haf to put in more
effort....
haf been so so tired for the past few days...the moment
i reach home i fall aslp..haha...and everytime slp until 10pm then
wake up..hha...lucky its the 1st week so still can effort to
slack abit.....
recently haf been buzi preparing the open house..haiz..
so vexed..so many things to do..juz cant get things done
properly....hope things will be done asap..then i will hand
in the proposal......
Upcoming events:
Staf and student day - 19/1/04
Open House - 5,6,7 of Feb 2004
_`i love u`_
Saturday, January 03, 2004
@Finally!!@
hhahah....actuali i haf been thinking wat alan,my deary
wanted to say..hahah...finali we both are 'open' to
the world..haha....
emm..well both of us have been thorugh quite alot..
reali....after 1yr++ both of us come back to each other
again.....its like goin round the world once and coming back
together...well...think we will cherish each other more...
we neo wat each other wants...
its like the gods want us to experience all the obstacles
and wanting to let us neo that actuali we are meant for
each other since the start..and want both of us to cherish
and love each other more....
we got to neo each other on the 1st day of sch when we r
in yr one...we are classmates and time past we got together
for a while...but dunno y..or i shd say i did not cherish a loving
guy in front of me....i chose to gif up on him..i let him down...
i broke his heart and make him sad......i thought we would nv be
together...i thought that would be the end......but he even made
a wish that he and i could be together again....he is still there
for me...always there supporting me without me neoing...
isnt it bad of me to abandone him?? am i heartless???
but maybe the timing is not rite...both of us juz be friends
and continued on our own life
he found his love few mths after.....and he was hapi...
he enjoyed it and i didnt reali neo much abt his
relationship....soon after i also found my love...there after
both of us started to talk abt our own relationship....
we became real gd friends..haha...start talking abt anything
under the sun....and he is always there whenever i needed someone
thanx deary....=D
the gal which he loved alot left him..leaving him heartbroken again
and he was even more devastated....he cried terribly and
there is nth i can do but to stand by him to see if he needed
someone....i feel so helpless...he got over wif him after some time
deary if u r seeing this hope that i can heal ur wound..and
make sure that there is no scar..i hope i can.....
soon after my love left too....haiz..not goin to elaborate
further......then deary and me are classmates then
we also same practical grp...same cca.....so we spent
alot of times wif each other.....soon after.... we found out
that we had feelings for each other.......there we are...
together now!! haha....
though we are together for not long...our bond is even
stronger than before....we haf gone 1 big round and wasted
percious time...wasted 1yr plus...hope we will not waste
anymore time and be wif each other forever.....
last of all....deary thanx again..haha..i neo u dun like me
to thanx u...love u lotz...cherish me k? hehe..i will cherish u..
a new yr a new beginning...lets haf a hapi yr ahead...=D
_`i love u`_
New Yr 2004!!!
haha...here is the continuation from my previous entry..haha....
i said that i will reveal my new yr resolution here..hahha..ok here
its goes..haha....emm..let me think for a while..
1st resolution:To do well in my studies
2nd resolution:Hope that 'someone' will always be wif me=P
3rd:Everything will be gd and smooth(i crapping rite??=P)
emm...i think thats abt it..hahha...dun ask for much..haha....
ok i juz came back from alan's chalet...so nice of him to invite us
to the chalet..haha....its nice and comfortable..reali..haha..hope
i can go there for chalet again..heez....reali enjoyed myself there..
learnt how to play mahjong..haha.....its fun..and i kinda of got addicted
to it..haha...zz zz came to the chalet for the 1st nite..haha..missed her
alot..nice hair..got rebonded..hehe..reali hapi to see her..
then i was the maid there..was washing and washing..haha..clearing
up the place..making breakfast..haha.but i enjoyed it...=P
hapi wif my friends there...didnt manage to do much on the 1st day..
but we did lotz of talking..haha....till abt 4am....
the next day was bbq nite.....emm..so nice of alan's mum to help buy
the food and stuff..then i helped marinate the food...then we went back
to our own chalet there to bbq..hhaha.....till dunno wat time...was
kinda of sad to leave cos i cant stay..then cannot count down wif them
so sad...reali....
then haha...here i come today..i went back..hehe..so hapi...then
we went to the pool..played water...haha....stuff..so fun...
then went back to bath..then played mahjong..and we went
to alan's mum's chalet..haha..to bbq!!!! got 'ba gua'
yum yum.....thanx!!!
gd times always fly...then its time for us to go home....
so i left the chalet and oni four stayed there for the last nite...in
all this is the most memorable chalet i will ever haf.....hehe....
_`i love u`_
