emm..haha..guess wat time i slp and woke up today?
i slp at 6+am this morning and woke up at 11.30 am this morning..haha..
my mum say i super..dun need to slp one...
my dad wanted to buy a fax machines..
but the safe superstore at heartland mall does not haf it...
they oni haf 4 in 1 machine..in the end he bought a machine that can print photocopy fax and scan
so now i haf 2 printers at home..haha...
this newly bought 1 is put in my room cos we need to do 'something' wif it twice a week
i got to help my dad..hehe....
tml is the start of my common tests....
kinda of nervous..havent finish issm..then etech still shakey....
i dun dare to think abt the tests i am having in tue...
cos i havent prepare them well....
i will juz haf to make the best out of it...
been losing hair recently..dunno y...too stress bah
haha..but no wori i will not be botak.hhaha..
then tummy ache every nite....
y mum say its mental stress..haha..but i doubt so..
cos impossible i feel so stress..hahaha
i am reali looking forward to wed!!!
hahha...cant wait for that day to come....
tml is common test
3 more days to freedom
8 more days to his attachment
_`i love u`_
Saturday, August 30, 2003
yesterday something cute hapen......i was d/ling some songs..then i open up a channel..guess wat is it?
haha...tell u the channel is #wanhua..ahhaha...
then out of the sudden the channel name glow...i was thinking who will visit such a channel.hahha..to my surprise..its my dear..haha...
i was wondering y he neo i am in that channel..haha....then he told me there is such thing call the address book..haha....
aiyoh i really veri frog leh....if he nv tell me i will nv neo there is such a use to such a thing...
then once again in the middle of the quiet nite...weilin popped into that channel..haha...
i was so shock. then she asked me if i was talking to myself..
but too bad when she came i in i already stop..so she missed the most exciting part.hahha.....
yesterday i was d/ling alot of love songs...alot..haha....non-stop.....i also studied my issm...argh so many things to memorise....
tell u all 1 thing i havent even touch tpff!! no i am goin to study it today...
when i was bathing yesterday nite i heard this song from the show 'qian nu you hun' then i thought of d.ling it when i come out..hahha...
but to my surprise liqi sent me the song that i wanted..hahha..so i dun need to go find liao..thanx qi!
went to make my specs yesterday...emm..didnt really like it..but no choice....
if i dun take that frame i cant get it by monday, the start of the tests......
then my mum say she will make another 1 for me if i want..haha...
i so hapi but thinking abt it....like i am wasting money..
nvm...today the specs is goin to be back....think i will juz stick wif it...hehehe...
there are some reasons behind all the things...juz that u neo it or not..
they might be sub conscious...or there is some reason that oni u neo..
that's y it seems that the things done and felt are so extreme
anyway i found a way to cure my disease:PARANOID..hhaha...so hapi....
everyone our final battle is coming!!! so get ready and do ur best!!! try to all other emotion apart...
i neo its hard to control....i haf been through much more during my 'o' level..i believe if i can do it u all also can do it....
i am also trying hard to cast some emotions things apart...hehe....
1 more day to common test
4 more days to freedom
9 more days to his attachment
_`i love u`_
Thursday, August 28, 2003
yawnz...wat a tired day....
emm i how wish common test can end soon so that i can haf a gd gd gd slp..hehe.....
today whole day also study...
think my etech really sucks....sian..still trying hard to get etech up into my mind...
think today i am goin to start on issm before i got no time to memorise all the things..
yesterday they went to view mars...too bad i didnt go...
i was opening up all the windows in my house...trying to see if i am lucky enough to spot it
but to my disappointment i cant even see the moon..haiz...hahhaha...
then i lost my earser yesterday!!!! argh!!!
haiz..poor earser..dunno where it is..must be suffering outside
i so sad.....develop a feeling for the earser.....
emm..... whenever i lost a thing i always use i will feel lost....
haiz...bless my earser.....
i found out i am suffering from an illness
PARANOID.... i am suffering badly from it.....
i am thinking far too much things.....
my friends wori 1 day i will become crazy from thinking too much......
PARANOID stay far away from me...
prehaps i really need a break.......
my sincere apology to the 'victims' from my disease:PARANOID
3 more days to common tests
6 more days to freedom
11 more days to his attachment...
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
once u caught a fish.....let it loose...but when its goin far...pull it back again
BUT remember, dun pull it too tied...if not it will snap and in the end
YOU WILL BE THE ONE TO GET HURTz....
haiz...nth but study..so sian...i dun wish to study liao....sick and tired of it.....
today i talk to mum abt BGR....hear her view and stuff and i told her the secret thing i have done...
she say shd be quite ok...she say if i didnt do that i will be kept in the dark..so its ok...
and she add on thats wat female does..hahah..
1 more thing i asked her.....
i asked a ques which haf been on my mind a long long long time.....
i arrived at that ans...i didnt neo if i am rite...guess wat..my mum also got the same ans...
i starting to feel shaken....
emm...sometimes i really wonder if you neo who i am to you...
wat really wori me is that 1 day u will tell me actuali in this whole while u thought u love me but actuali u dun....
u juz treated me as a beter friend..and juz that u thought u love me but u dun actuali....
finali ur burden is gone....i neo all these while this burden is there.....
she nv left ur mind and stuff....i neo....
i understand so no wori....
but glad that she found her half which is fast of her.....
am i doin the correct thing?
did i make a correct choice? y r there so many ques?
_`i love u`_
JuSt BEcAusE SomEoNE dOEsN't LoVE YoU ThE Way YOu WAnt TheM TO,
DoESn't MeAN TheY thEY DoN't LoVe YoU WitH aLL ThEY HaVE...
wat u think of this phrase? sometimes i really feel that people around me is teking me for granted....
when they need me they come to me...when they feel that they can leave alone the simply ignore me...
all i ask for is care and concern..haiz
i starting to doubt my personality....
i feel that i dun haf any inner beauty at all.....
the inside me is so... so.... haiz...
my usual phrase... 'We Will See How It Goes'
_`i love u`_
emm...today something 'special' hapen...
i am kinda of shocked by it....
but i will not say wat is it....
i hope i am told the truth...i hate people to lie to me
i hate people that hide things from me deliberately.....
and doing things behind my back....
am i actually doin a gd job as a gf?
am i too demanding? overly concerned? too possessive?
am i lacking confidence? y is there feelings i wish to feel not there?
thinking too much? i dunno...
Love without doubt...
haiz....common test really sucks..hehe...
_`i love u`_
Saturday, August 23, 2003
sian ah!!!!! today is a very sian day for me.....
i wanted to study etech today....
i reali tried veri hard to understand all the things... really...
but in the end...i still dunno...
maybe i will juz get the theory part into that tiny brain of mine...
emm..tml think i goin to start on reaction engineering liao...
i really praying hard that i will not do badly....
how i wish for common test to end asap...
life is boring for me today.....
alot of questions popped into my mind....
and i dunno wat are the ans.......
y does things always repeat itself....
16 more days my dear goin for attachment liao....
_`i love u`_
wat a day.....today is the final day in sch before the common tests....
kinda of misses school....
haiz...common test...sian.....
dunno wat the teachers teaching....how to tek test?
feeling veri werid recently.....
sometimes didnt neo how i feel and stuff......
i dunno....nth much to say....
everyone gd luck for the test...
this is gonna to be the shortest update i ever haf...
_`i love u`_
Thursday, August 21, 2003
once again..i fell aslp wif my com on....
woke up at 5.30am to switch it off.....
then i called dear at 6am...thought he having practical exam at 8am...
but anyway that didnt woke him up....
then i woke up at 9am....
i was packing my stuff into my bag....
then something heng li hai happened.....
my bag containing my laptop and all the stuffs fell from my table to my bed.....
and it CRUSH my specs!!!!
ah!!! it broke into two..haha...
didnt dare to tell my parents...wait they will scold me for putting things on the bad...
heheh...
today had our 1st main com meeting....
kinda of fun...excited abt it....
didnt neo wat post and events i shd tek....
out of the sudden i dunno how to decide wat i want and dun want.....
mood was kinda of down.....for no reason....
trying to make myself hapi in the meeting...but no matter wat i tried to do i still feels the same.....
my dear is the PRESIDENT!!!hahaha
i voted for him...i am so hapi that he got the post.....
he is worth it...he deserve this post.....
during the meeting i was thinking wat post i wanted....
actuali i wanted veri veri much to be the treasurer....
didnt neo y.....i always like to be the treasurer for watever com and such....
i enjoyed the task.....i still remember 1 of the questions the previous main com asked me....
they asked me if i ever got into the main com wat post i wanted....
and the 1st thought that came to my mind is treasurer...heheh
but anyway being an assistant treasurer also not that bad....
i will juz hope for the best...=)
feeling weird today.....dunno y......
_`i love u`_
finali the IS quizzes are all finished...
haiz...didnt do well in it...sad.....
hopefuli i wont get C for any of my modules
today was kinda of unlucky..haha...
i fell down!!! so enbarrassed.......
i missed my footing at the stairs and fell
i hurt my finger...pain....='(
then it bled...ouch.......
how i wish my dear was there at that time......hehe
yawnz...so tired....he also veri tired....
tml maths quiz...and it will be the first time the new main com members are having meeting..
i am looking forward to it.....
stressed....common test coming soon....
i reali got this feeling that i will not do well....
every1 pls bless me.....
argh!! i got a terrible headache....
so pain!! ah!!! shit...haiz...today reali kinda of unlucky for me..
lst injured finger now my head..haiz...
20 more days dear goin attachment....
12 more days to common test.....
there goes monday.....haha..another day passed...
had my viva...sucks man..i didnt neo the time taken it actuali that important...
haiz.....plus sacrastic(sp) remarks from my friends....
feels really pissed and demoralised....
IS quizzes-UTM and PQS
emm..studying them now..abit lame..studying for IS modules...
haha...didnt reali mange to get a lot of things inside my head..
i am supposed to be studying for PQS now..but no mood so came to blog instead...
wonder wat time then i can slp...yawnz...
after my viva today...i didnt went hm..
instead i. liqi and alan stayed in the lab...then they are helping me wif my blog..haha
thanx....and qi thanx for the 'help' ahhaha.. u neo wat i mean..hahahhaha
so funny and cute....
after that talk to the rest of my classmates..discussing abt the viva and such.....
i decided that its time for me to go hm....
life is so boring.....
*look out for changes in my blog!!=)
_`i love u`_
Saturday, August 16, 2003
i haf been slping after 3am everyday since last sunday....
yesterday finally got chance to haf a nice slp....
but i still tired after waking up...
cos usually i dun slp until so late...my mum thought i faint..haaahha
wat a conclusion she has....
yesterday i went to eat soeul garden wif my classmates at causeway point...
hehe...its nice..haha..esp the ice cream..hahaha
after eating i went to PS to meet dear, michael, gary, eunice, janice, jiawei, atmas,andrew
we watched a movie: the league of the extraordinary people...
i tell u its veri nice!!!
ita a show worth watching!!=)
i am veri hapi when i neo i got into the main committee...reali am
there might be people saying things that i dun wish to hear but i will prove them wrong....
i will prove my abilities to them....yeah! jia you!
thanx to whoever that voted for me...=)
23 more days and my dear will be goin to attachment...
i am goin to miss him...reali....
lucky he and 1 in main com..at least still can see him more often...
yesterday, jiaqin was revealing the names of the people that get into the main com
after saying she say...wah there are 3 pairs of 1+1 ah...ahhaha
heng li hai rite?ahaha=)
but i am kinda of sad that some of my friends didnt get in....
not that they dun haf the abilities...haiz...kinda of sad..
sometimes you dun haf to tell everyone abt wat u r doin and who r u wif....
telling them too much means trouble....
nothing but trouble...
opps maybe i shd not say like this....
i shd say more trouble...and not all.....
dear u are really doin veri well now...
i am glad that u r putting in the effort....
yesterday u told me...juz that in the past u nv out in effort...
now i haf seen the effort i neo i was not wrong abt u........
thanx for everything...=)
reali glad to haf u wif me.....
no matter wat hapen.....not matter who objected...no matter how hard life can be...
i will perserver and not leave u.....=)
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, August 13, 2003
sucks man...com got the stupid worm....
haiz....com kept restarting until i veri sian liao......
now i dun even neo my com is ok anot....seems fine this moment...
i will cross my fingers and pray hard.....
thanx to him and alan..both of them helped me alot to get rid of the stupid worm...
everyone has hopes in life....
they wish for things they want......
there is a phrase that i heard from pple: 'Promise are meant to be broken'
wat do u think? how true isit?
emm....i dun think so.....
after many disappointments in life....normally we will feel hopeless....
haiz.....so y haf hopes when u neo u will get disappointed?
haha....
suddenly feel weird wif him....
i told him abt it...he say maybe we too long nv see each other...
we didnt reali quarralled.... juz that we haf some disputes....
not seeing each other and having all the disputes somehow put a strain to our relationship...
he came to school to fetch me hm....
was kinda of touched to see that he is making the effort..
reali veri hapi....i reali cherish the time we can be together...
we talked out and he say to start anew....
hopefuli we can build up that bond again asap...=)
bless us k?hehe
if i am not wrong....26 more days he will be goin for his attachment...
1 reason sometimes i feel veri sad is that the amount of time we are goin to spend together is getting less and yet while we are both in sch we seldom see each other..haiz...this thought sometimes sadden me....
_`i love u`_
yawnzz...i oni slpt for 1h+ today....slpt at 5am and woke up at abt 6.30am...
damn was late for presentation..ahaha...
but nvm..the whole lt was waiting for me..hahahah...=P
although tired but i manage to stay awake during lectures...
today presentation veru funni....
our slides veri cute..then we nv reali prepare wat to say and all...
then we anyhow say...every slide we oni say 1 sentences...hahhaha...
i was laughing while they are presenting..hahah...
but anyway i feel that this is a gd 1..imagine last min..then at least still got something done...
i feel ah qi deserve compliment...he did it all by himself till so late at nite...
gd work qi! hehe=)
then qi taught me where to get the blogskins and all...
emm..maybe next time i bring laptop can ask him to teach me everything...
then i can change the image of my blog..ahah...
so in the meantime every1 pls try to bear wif it..hahahha...
toay practical was kinda of long....used up the whole 3h to do..
i was like falling aslp on the chair....
was wearing specs the whole day today..hahah.. wori that i will fell down or knock into something..hahah
but finali we finished out practical then go hm...
then i took another bus hm..haha....
yawnz...time to do work again....
_`i love u`_
Saturday, August 09, 2003
emm....wat a day...finali etech quiz is over!!! hahah..
i admit that i did some copying in the quiz..
kinda of guilty abt that.....wat does this show? it shows that its time for me to reali study for it....
jia you! i can do it! yeah!=)
this morning when he tell me he cant go eat crab wif us i was reali upset..reali am...
nearly cried out during lecture....haiz....
was collecting the election forms today...so many GLs competing for oni 15 seats...
wonder who will get in....
ok finali my dear say he can go dinner wif us...
i called my mum and ask her if she coming..to my horror she say yes..hahaha...
dear was like kinda of cool that time....
but when my parents arrived..he was so nervous..hahha...
so funi..i also veri paiseh....
things turn out fine..my parents are ok wif him..hehe...
my dad even say that asling as he treat me nice can liao...hehe
we sat at different table..
i was walking back and forth..trying ot entertain both side
was kinda of hapi....
in all today can say to be a suay today...
i dunno..I will see as i walk....
walk 1 step see 1 step....
_`i love u`_
Thursday, August 07, 2003
slpt veri late yesterday.....oni got abt 2h+ of slp...hehe
was playing bejeweled wif alan..haha..kinda of fun...
tonite i am goin to play..hhehe=)
had my em3 quiz...was ok..still manage to do...=)
then heard from other class that today is our etech quiz..but i remembered veri clearly that our teacher say is tml.....
then my class came out wif a veri gd idea...we told the teacher if he insist that today want to haf quiz then we want it to be an open book style if not then tml then haf the quiz..hahah...
in the end the teacher say TML then quiz!!! hahah..
had my etech practical today....kinda of fun...
then to my horro i found out that my teacher is actuali staying at the blk beside mine!!
ah!!! so scary..hahaha...
today the ring was on my finger..everytime i look at it..it reminds me of him....
the ring accompanied me..hhaha....
dunno y today miss him so much.....
was thinking of him whenever i am free..thinking abt wat he is doin and sort.. if he is tired, hungry or anything..
after my practical i msg him...
but haiz..at that critical moment his hp NO BATT!!!
ah!!!! when the time he msg me i am on the way hm liao..haiz...
i shd haf waited for him..haiz.....
too bad...i gonna to miss him.....=)
okok..i got to go study my etech quiz liao..
i am looking forward in meeting him tml...haha...=P
emm....now is 11.55pm...
haha...i juz bath my fish at abt 10pm+..so cute....
i sayang the fish...cleaned the tank...he so hapi..hahha
although buzi,i see the tank so dirty..i heart pain my fish...
yawnz...tired....
_`i love u`_
Wednesday, August 06, 2003
wah rau...sian..the em3 teacher today then say got quiz tml...haiz...dampen myu mood...i havent study for it leh....stress...wori....
hopefuli i can finish revision today..then the thought of the etech test reali makes me worse...haiz..hope i can do well...pls some1 gif me the power...
hehe..today i am really hapi...went to celebrate my 1st month anniversay...
kinda of tired today...but the thought of the celebration makes me awake..ahhaa
he didnt neo wat to get for me..haha...actuali he neos but he juz wori he got the wrong size..haha
so in the end he brought me to mushi mushi to buy ring!
hahah.....so sweet of him....then we engraved the date we got together on the inside....
[dear pple may thing u no cheng yi...but like wat i told u...its not that u dun want to buy juz that u r not sure of the size...and as long as u cherish me..other things doesnt matter at all...=)]
at first we wanted to make reservation for fish and cold...but they say after 6.30pm cant make..so we went to walk around and buy rings...then we went back to ps..hhehhe...had a veri nice dinner wif him....so hapi....
it has been quite a long time that i spend time alone wif him...
recently he buzi i buzi..not much time to see each other...kinda of sad.....
then yesterday i think too much until i panic like hell....haiz.....sad sad.....
haiz...i dunno..maybe becos its the start of the relationship bah...then yearn for each other presence more.....
in all today is veri memorable for me....thanx dear for watever u haf done for me...
i reali appreaciate it....thanx! i reali enjoyed today..hehe....
okok got to start wori abt em3 and etech liao...
_`i love u`_
its a rainy day...raining...so cold....nearly froze to death on bus..hahha...
nth much hapen today...IS class as usual..haha
UTM class is fun..we watched movie today..hehe..
like abt entertainment media....
PQS lesson was relaxing...practically did nth..hahha....
i do my assignment...then i too tired...fell aslp on the table..
the teacher also dun care..hahaha...
after i woke up...stare into the air..haha..talk to my friend...
then go hm! yeah!
veri hungry leh...cos whole nv eat anything....
stomach making a lot of noise..heheh....
got to do somethings today..hehe...
haiz....so sad...now i wori for my dad.......
he dunno if he shd continue wif the company anot....
his company changing the terms in the contract...
to me the contract sucks....like treating them like free labour.....
shd he continue? i stress.....
if he nv work i think its time i go out to the society to work....
bless my dad..haiz...
TML is a SPECIAL DAY...hahha=)
_`i love u`_
haiz..wat a day....veri stressful day..=[
haiz....did nth other then study and online....tired....sian...
study for the damn issm quiz...
wat makes thing more shitty is parents quarral...
over a dinner..stupid....
dad say i am the cause of the quarral ='(
i oni nv accompany then go eat dinner. then dad dun want to go mum angry... my fault...
then i suggest i go buy dinner----trying in vain to stop them from quarraling
buy things back liao....dad eat..mum ignore....haiz
worse..she went downstair to eat...haiz....=(
y like that.......dun need 1 lor...7 days a week..today is the oni day i stay at hm fully..
this is wat i get..sometimes i am reali thinking is god hinting me not to go hm so early...
stay in school where u gt more peace...and do ur work there...
haiz..i dunno...wat a day...yawnzzz so tired....
in all i am sad...and no 1 neo..haiz..
_`i love u`_
today woke up kinda of late...then i met my mum to go salon...
i trimmed my hair...then went for treatment...hehe...
feels gd after that....
after that i met up wif eugene mic joyce candy peijun dennis and the hulk members to celebrate joyce's bday and also to see how atmas is after 5 days in NS..=)
he look cute in his new hair style..haha..botak..hahahha
then talked to him abt his NS stuff and all...
after that we went to a resturant..i forget the name..hehe..paiseh..haha
then i ate hot fudge chocolate ice cream..yum yum..=)
we are all kinda of pissed by the service over there...it sucks...
its even worse than normal fast food restuarant....
andrew(freshie) complained to the manager...
eugene also pissed..he wrote a note on the tissue paper and left it on the table before leaving..
can see how angrt he was....
then i went hm while some of them went to la teh...
thanx eugene for sending me hm..thanx...
note to everyone reading this:pls tek care of ur health..recently weather not gd....drink more water and eat more fruits..=)
_`i love u`_
Saturday, August 02, 2003
juz celebrated eugene's 19th birthday....
today he kana saboh until veri jialat...haha....so disgusting....
i still remember that disgusting smell....
they reali veri gd at mixing the solution...yucks!!!
hopfuli he enjoyed today.....
then i candy michael jiaqin and jia wei went to his house for dinner...
wah his mum cook quite alot...and it taste nice.....
after the dinner they all played mahjong....
i neo nuts abt it so i sat there and watch....
kinda of funi...esp the speed michael took to arrange the tiles...hahahhaha
who eat the most? michael....haha...
who is the slowest? michael...hahha....
nv reali got time to spend wif eugene...kinda of sad.....
haiz........
anyway i hope this will be the most memorable birthday he ever had....
_`i love u`_